Jul 13, 2023
I hate you more than words could ever describe
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I hate you more than words could ever describe
Actually really fucking sick of people trying to tell us that fictive memories/exomemories(+the trauma) aren't real. Do you know how fucking difficult it is for Midas? How scared he gets seeing a military uniform? He's never been to war but because of me and a few others, those shared memories, he's terrified. I remember when a gun was first put in my hands, because Midas was there too, granted it was a lot scarier for him because he was a child and I was an adult. I remember the lies and the bullshit my commanding officers fed me constantly, the conspiracy theories, and those same things happened to Midas with someone they trusted. We share these memories because they HAPPENED TO US. TOGETHER.
Us during a deep convo with partner system
"Idk I think going a full year thinking you're going to die one day before your birthday is pretty traumatizing for a 12 year old"
Talking about 2012 and why 2012/2014 are the most memorable(ish) years for us
Thinking about how our exo traumas tie into the bodily trauma...
But where's the militarism from my exo-trauma? Where'd that come from? Aside from SF-
I sat on it for a minute before realizing it was from generational trauma and living in a stiffling and authoritarian environment growing up. Me just sitting back and watching the gears click into place.