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+62 ● Pursuit of happiness 🌻 ● I am Blessed 🌸

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12 months after break up i realised that MOVING ON is not easy! U may can do everything to forget someone but memories dont leave u so easily..u have to go through so many mood swings..sometimes u feel u have moved on but at the same time u can feel the pain in heart that its all abt yesterday! Even after trying soooo hard, u dont stop missing him..u still miss him in each and every moment..u hide the truth from ur friends that u can still feel the same..u might hate him for everything bad he did to u but u still fail to hate him bcs heart knows how much it loved..u can feel him in songs, movies, and everywhere..u want to talk to him and want to smile like bfr! U tell the whole world that u are silent and feel numb! U tell urself the lies that u are not into him and u are in love with urself..then why u see him in ur dreams??? Why every face reminds u of him??? Why u suddenly start crying????? Bcs the truth is U ARE ONLY LEARNING TO LIVE WITHOUT HIM AND THATS WHAT WE CALL MOVING ON..when u know that being with them IS NOT THE RIGHT THING and also UNLOVING HIM IS SOMETHING IMPOSSIBLE THEN IT HURTS U DEEP!!!!! Truth is that its the only solution and HEALING..FIGHTING WITH UR OWN THOUGHTS AND REMINDING UR MIND THE REASON FOR UNLOVING HIM!!! LIFE GOES ON LIKE THIS..time passes by and u learn to live with ur loneliness..SOON, u start finding peace by realising that these all thoughts are USELESS!!! U soon realises that peace is not in any person or relationship, BUT IT WAS ALWAYS INSIDE U, and u wasted ur time finding somewhere else where u lost it..TRUST THE PROCESS OF HEALING..it is a time taken process and depends on ur acceptance power! But plsss, DONT LIE TO URSELF..!! Accept it if u cant unlove or cant hate the person..REMEMBER, TRUST THE PROCESS, it is the sign that U NEED TO LOVE URSELF MORE AND BE THANKFUL FOR WHO U ARE..💕 . . #selflove #selfhealing (at In the Middle of the Ocean) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQu-IoWjGd_/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Dear past, today I decided to forgive you, not bcs one of ur friend ask me or I'm afraid of something, BUT BECAUSE I DO REALISE MY SOUL DESERVES PEACE..and I know my God want me to do it! 🙂 . Dear friends, if you forgive someone for something they did to you, it doesn't mean you agree with what they did or believe it was right! Forgiving that person means U HAVE CHOSEN NOT TO DWELL ON THE MATTER ANYMORE AND U HAVE TO MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE.. 🙂 . Thank you for the life lesson and you just made me stronger than before! 🙂🌻 God bless you my friend💐 . . #selflove #whatdoesntkillyoumakesyoustronger https://www.instagram.com/p/CPXzd5Ljgvx/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Today is MY BIRTHDAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYY 💃🧚‍♀️🧜🏻‍♀️🦹‍♀️👸🏻👰🏻‍♀️ and I’m officially a year older today and much cooler than ever! 😎🤪🤩🥳 . “Thank you, Mar, udah mau bertahan dan bisa kuat sejauh ini! Terima kasih karna kamu ga pernah nyerah dengan masalah masalah kamu! Terima kasih juga karna kamu mau berusaha untuk ngebahagiain diri kamu dan mencintai diri kamu sendiri, apa adanya... Terima kasih, Mar, untuk semua kerja keras kamu selama ini... INGET YA, MARRR... JANGAN PERNAH MENYERAH YAA...” ❤️🌻💫 . “If you can learn to love yourself and all the flaws, you can love other people so much better. And that makes you so happy.” - Kristin Chenoweth (at Jakarta, Indonesia) https://www.instagram.com/p/COcyMqGDzvd/?igshid=c7tl1lhmn32y

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Papa gue selalu ngajarin gue dan kakak gue, walopun kita bukan dari keluarga yg kaya, tapi kita harus tau gimana caranya menghargai orang lain, tau dan ngerti sama yg namanya tatakrama! Orang yg beduit, orang kaya, belum tentu punya sopan santun dan bisa menghargai orang lain! Jadi, begimanapun caranya selama kita masih hidup, kita harus belajar untuk jadi orang baik!!! . Papa gue juga selalu ngajarin, dalam keadaan apapun, sesulit apapun hidup gue, gue harus tetap bersyukur karna rejeki dan semuanya udah diatur sama Tuhan! Sesulit apapun itu, Tuhan Yesus gakan pernah ninggalin kita! Sesusah apapun hidup, Tuhan pasti akan selalu menolong! ITU YG SELALU DIAJARIN SAMA PAPA GUE!!! 🙂 Everybody makes mistakes! Gada manusia yg sempurna! Gue pernah berantem sama doi, tapi gue sadar, sebrengsek brengseknya gue, sebejar bejatnya gue, disaat gue susah, CUMA ORANG TUA GUE SENDIRI YG AKAN SELALU NERIMA GUE DAN MAAFIN GUE DAN BANTUIN GUE DAN BENER BENER SAYANG SAMA GUE!!! 🥲🥲 (anjir gue nangis!!) . Dari doi juga gue belajar banyak tentang gimana caranya maafin dan mengampuni seseorang yg kita cinta, yg kita sayang sepenuh hati, gue juga belajar gimana caranya elu harus siap, lu harus bisa, dan gimana caranya elu harus ikhlas untuk ngelepasin sesuatu... 🥲🥲 Gue bisa sekuat ini karna pengalaman hidup gue sendiri dan didikan dari orang tua gue! (Ffffff ini gue nangis terus weyyy😭😭) Gue sering gagal dalam banyak hal, tapi gue bersyukur Tuhan ga pernah nyerah sama gue! 🥲 . Dear Mr. John F. Kalangi, i wanted to thank you for everything you have done for me so far. You are my rock and my inspiration. I know i can always count on you in every ugly situation i get! The way you have always encouraged and motivated me, and guided me through the ups and downs of my journey is truly remarkable. 🥲 i am truly and incredibly blessed to have you as my dad! Thanks, pops! I love you always.. 💕 . . #fatherdaughter #family #spreadlove #blessed #grateful #Godisgood #lifeisgood #familykeeper #familycomesfirst (at Jakarta, Indonesia) https://www.instagram.com/p/CM_cP2fD-Ab/?igshid=p932sff6uxeh

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"Be gentle with yourself, learn to love yourself, to forgive yourself, for only as we have the right attitude toward ourselves can we have the right attitude toward others." -Wilfred Peterson . Aku lagi seneng banget loh ngepost quotes tentang SELFLOVE💓 karna setahun belakangan ini, aku bener bener belajar tentang 'HOW TO LOVE AND FORGIVE MYSELF'. I ran away dan tinggalin tanggung jawab ke orang tua! Nangis hampir tiap hari, nyalahin orang lain, hingga akhirnya aku bener bener cape dengan semuanya, dan pilihan terakhir adalah aku harus belajar untuk ikhlas, memaafkan orang orang itu, memaafkan diri aku sendiri, dan berkomitmen sama hati kalo aku bakal mencintai diri aku terlebih dahulu dan JANJI HARUS MENJADI PRIBADI YG LEBIH KUAT DARI SEBELUMNYA DAN GA GAMPANG NYERAH!!! 🌻🌸 . Dan akhirnyaaaa, aku tau, sekarang aku jadi pribadi yg lebih mencintai diriku sendiri, aku lebih menghargai apa yg aku punya yg udah Tuhan kasih ke aku, aku jauh lebih bahagia dari sebelumnya, aku lebih menikmati hidupku, dapet dan ketemu temen temen baru (yeayy), and one thing for sure aku bersyukur karna Tuhan ga pernah nyerah sama aku! ❤❤ . . #loveyourself #spreadlovenothate #goodvibes #positivevibes #instagood #instamood #instalove #selfcare #selflove #healingtime #blessed #beyourself #respectyourself #begrateful #lifeisgood #igers (at Kota Hutan Srengseng) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMwq1oHj5p4/?igshid=mi28y80loi14

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"Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world." - Lucille Ball . Last year i lived my life in a constant struggle. I still do (hehe), except now I see the beauty and gift that comes from the art of the struggle! We're all struggling in some way, we're all still human beings my friend..😄 . How do i overcome my struggle? FORGIVE THE PAST, FORGIVE AND LOVE MYRSELF, SPREAD LOVE AND ALWAYS BE KIND TO OTHERS, AND TRUST GOD IN ALL THINGS!!! 😄❤ . . #loveyourself #spreadlovenothate #goodvibes #positivevibes #instagood #instamood #instalove #selfcare #selflove #healingtime #blessed #beyourself #respectyourself #begrateful #lifeisgood #igers (at Hutan Kota Srengseng) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMmORZVjtjB/?igshid=sbh776rb4typ

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All you need is love, skylines, good mood, and face mask! 😷🔥🍻⚡ . . #staysafe #putyourmaskon #bluesky #jakarta #jakartans #bundaranhi #instagood #instamood #nofilter #lifeisgood #beautydoesnthavetobepain (at Jakarta, Indonesia) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMdrAd0Dd90/?igshid=vzhtlpm6fxy4

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I'm not a coffee addict. Just a little over attached to it. ☕ 📍@major.idn . . #coffeedate #instacoffee #coffeeoftheday #coffeeshop #coffeetime #goodvibes #moodbooster #goodvibesonly (at Rawamangun, Pulo Gadung, Jakarta Timur) https://www.instagram.com/p/CManozfDZVw/?igshid=1ui0bibynyedq

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"I won't quit skateboarding until I am physically unable." - @tonyhawk. . 👖From @clubforpresident . . #newbie #practicemakesperfect #instagood #tbt #igers #lifeisgood #instamood #currentlywearing #instastyle #lookgoodfeelgood (at Jakarta, Indonesia) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMRbKSGgLqi/?igshid=xmn6qgrnjug7

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Walopun udah gabisa sekapal lagi, janjinya harus tetep saling support yaa~ 😓 Jaga kesehatan, gabole sedih sedih, listen to ur heart and keep moving forward! I'll see u both next year! Lafyaaaa♥♥ . "There is magic in long-distance friendships. They let you relate to other human beings in a way that goes beyond being physically together and is often more profound." – Diana Cortes . . #friendship #positivevibes #goodvibes #instagood #seamanship #seamanlife (at Soekarno - Hatta International Airport Terminal 3) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMJkV9eAq-W/?igshid=1f6s6qpbxrtxv

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A bad day with coffee is better than a good day without it! Coffee helps my mood ☕ . . Loc. @major.idn Rawamangun, Pulo Gadung, Jakarta Timur #coffeedate #coffeeoftheday #selflove #selfcare #goodvibes #goodvibesonly #goodmood (at Rawamangun, Pulo Gadung, Jakarta Timur) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMCHrIWH0kS/?igshid=1vw6sdmwrs5n8

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"Dan jangan takut, jangan layu, Pada semua, cobaan yang menerpamu.. Jangan layu, kami selalu bersamamu, Dalam derap, dalam lelap mimpi indah.. Bersamamu.. Mungkin semua ini 'kan cepat berakhir, Semoga semua ini adalah persinggahan sementara mimpimu.." (song lyric by Sheila on 7) 📸 : @oliviaapatricia_ . . . #loveyourself #selflove #blessed #beyourself #thankful #grateful #respectyourself #spreadlove #goodvibes #instadaily #mood #instagood (at Stasiun Lrt Kelapa Gading-Boulevard) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLjbtVCAwRP/?igshid=77ieb04lj1qg

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Those pics took when I was in Eurodam 2018. My first contract as a Housekeeping Attendant and she came as a regular guest. Yes, ladies and gentlemen. My sister came onboard as a f-beautiful guest. LMAO 🙄😐😕😶 Anyway, today is her 36th birthday. Nunca te canses de las sorpresas de la vida. Siempre ten tu puerta abierta a nuevas oportudades y bendiciones. Disfruta de tu día especial y espero que todo lo que deseas se haga realidad. EL MÁS FELIZ DE LOS CUMPLEAÑOS PARA TI~ 🥰🌻💐🍃 (at MS Eurodam) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJ5Q9CgA2Kb/?igshid=1kkwyjlsuvc9g

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Put the past behind you, forgive yourself, enjoy your life, be Thankful, and move on~ ❤ . . #movingon #happylife #blessed #grateful #thankful #goodmood #goodvibes #goodvibesonly #positivevibes #instagood #instalike #instadaily #loveyourself #spreadlove #lifelessons #likeforlikes #l4l #selflove #selfcare #respectyourself #GodisGood (at Jakarta, Indonesia) https://www.instagram.com/p/CIFyQPqgnw2/?igshid=8gymzr628int