FEELING'S ROUGH DRAFT

gay and depressed

[feelingsroughdraft]

I swear I love you, but I’m so, so tired of being left behind.

[feelingsroughdraft]

I must repeat it to myself again and again — until i learn.

[creatinghelen]

I am ready for close friendships and holding hands and growth

[feelingsroughdraft]

Let me kiss your mouth softly for a whole afternoon.

[tansdiary]

how do i turn invisible

[feelingsroughdraft]

Now, when I talk about love I’m mostly talking about myself.

[feelingsroughdraft]

III

She said she wanted us to go to the party together, so I dressed up with my best clothes and we danced all night while soft music was flooding the room. I kissed her hands again and again, and she grabbed me by the waist, staring at my eyes with a subtle, lovely gaze.

[feelingsroughdraft]

Do we find each other away? Or is it that I don't find you anymore?

[feelingsroughdraft]

It’s magic —I said— the way you look at things like you’re deeply falling in love with them.

Please, don’t let me go until I can see the world through your eyes’ purity.

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II

Far away from the blinding lights of the city, they only shined the stars and her eyes. We left the car behind our backs and ran through a large wheat harvest until we lost ourselves. 

She lay there and so did I. The cold breath bumping into my neck, our mouths finding eachother softly, her hands beneath my clothes. The night sky sheltering us.

[feelingsroughdraft]

I

We were going in her car. She was driving and it was midnight. It was cold in the outside and every shop, except for some other night bar, was already closed a while ago. Her cold hands played with the hair behind my neck, and I remember kissing them from time to time like if they were miracles.

[feelingsroughdraft]

Again, that constant feeling of missing something I’ve never had.