How EXQUISITE.

INACTIVE

[fiendblooded]

⫍ new pinned as a placeholder until i get my carrd situated ⫎

⪧ rain/briar, 22, he/they

⪧ i reblog mainly political stuff and shitposts, fanart sometimes too

⪧ interests include:

- games: white knuckle, identity v, league of legends, mouthwashing, signalis, magic: the gathering, dead by daylight, elden ring, balatro, darkest dungeon

- music: nu metal and alt metal are my favorite genres. fav bands are deftones, three days grace, linkin park, born of osiris (honorable mention to alter bridge even though i don't care much for their stuff anymore)

- misc: modifying clothing, flow arts, trickery

⪧ DNI including but not limited to: terfs, zionists, people that hate busses, people that hate trains, people that hate me, people that are indifferent to me

[ihnmaims]

i really, really, really need help.

i'm a twenty-year-old jewish 🏳️‍⚧️ man. i am disabled and i suffer from chronic pain so severe that i struggle to walk without assistance. i cannot work thanks to the health conditions that i have, and i have tried to apply for ssi + ssdi but i have encountered issues every time.

for almost a year, my mother, who means the world to me, has been battling small cell lung cancer. it's been a difficult and painful journey. doctors drag her remaining life expectancy up and down, telling her one second that she has a mere handful of months to live and telling her the next second that she might have as much as a year. it's been traumatic for me, and i imagine it's been much more traumatic for her. even though the exact amount of time varies depending on what doctor we ask, the consistent consensus seems to be that she's not going to survive for more than a year at most. it's breaking my heart that it's so hard to keep her comfortable and safe for whatever amount of time i still have to spend with her.

i'm from a poor family, and as i stated when i started writing, it's impossible to afford the treatment that she needs to live, that being a combination of chemo, radiation, immunotherapy, and many prescription medications, and also afford things like fuel to drive her to her appointments at the hospital or food for the family.

i have asked for help affording her expenses before. i am asking again. i have been inactive on here for a while now, massively because i am ashamed of myself and embarrassed for making so many of these posts, but i don't have a choice. things are getting bad again, and outside of tumblr, the only source of income i have happens to be from my incredibly abusive "partner." he has been basically the only thing keeping me and my mother afloat for the last few months, but he hurts me so horribly that i am — after being on the receiving end of some of the most inhumane abuse and mistreatment imaginable — desperate enough to turn to begging.

i need $200 for groceries. my family needs food.

i can provide proof of my claims if it's needed; just send me a message. please help me. please fucking help me. i feel like i'm falling apart. i need to feed her and it's fucking urgent. i can't take any more of my partner's abuse at the moment, though. he holds my mother's life over my head like as though it's something that he can take from me when i make him mad, and he's right. he can.

i am so sorry. i don't want to be a burden, but i am officially out of other options. there's no such thing as an unhelpful donation, no matter how small it is — even $1 makes a massive difference for me, so whatever you can afford to spare me, i am pleading with you: please help me keep my mother comfortable and fed. she's dying. reblogs are appreciated, too.

st4rc4ndy on v.enmo

$st4rc4ndy on c.ashapp

ask about p.aypal / other platforms

thank you.

[fagalnewbie]

learning how to drive in america is like a fucking saw trap.

[fagalnewbie]

hello teenager. in front of you is a 2 ton chevy trailerblazer. you can either start driving, putting yourself and those around you in immediate danger, along with causing you great anxiety, or you can spend your life aaking your friends and family to chauffeur you around town because you cant go butt fuck no where without a car. if you choose to drive, you will have to spend your life paying mandatory microtransactions for a mode of transport you hate. if you dont, you will have to ride the almost nonexistent public transport system and/or put yourself in grave danger by riding a bicycle down a 45 mph stroad. if you complain to anyone in your life about learning to drive a car, you get acid poured onto you. good luck.

[ihnmaims]

i am tired of making these posts but i need help again. i'm sorry.

i'm a twenty-year-old jewish trans man. i am too physically disabled to work, and both of my parents are retired and surviving primarily off of SSI.

unfortunately, my mother has stage 2 small-cell lung cancer and stage 3 non-small-cell lung cancer. (message me or send me an ask off of anonymous for proof of my claims.) according to her oncologist, she has approximately one year left to live. her condition cannot be cured — her passing can only be postponed.

we are trying to make that final year a comfortable one for her, but it's hard when we're so financially strained. chemotherapy and radiation severely affect a cancer patient's appetite and sense of taste, and tend to cause terrible nausea, so she's very, very picky about her food. eating the wrong thing at the wrong time makes her sick. she has specific cravings that appear and disappear on a whim and it is crucial that i am able to afford the select few foods she's able and willing to eat. she's losing a lot of weight, and watching her wither away hurts my heart.

please help me so that i can help my mother; i love her more than i have ever loved any other earthly being or thing. i am again asking for around $100 for groceries to ensure that she eats, and an additional $50 for transportation if it's possible, but that's nowhere near as important as feeding her.

any and all donations are appreciated and helpful even if it is literally only one dollar. please don't hesitate to contribute because "it isn't enough to matter." every cent matters. reblogs are also appreciated. thank you so much, and i'm so sorry i've been such a burdensome presence on here lately. you've all been very kind to me and patient with me and i love you.

$st4rc4ndy on c.ashapp

st4rc4ndy on v.enmo

i don't have p.aypal

$0 / $100 or ideally $150

[ihnmaims]

$50 / $100 ! oh my god thank you

[ihnmaims]

$70 / $100 💓

[ihnmaims]

$10 from 3 more or $5 from 6 more people would bring me to my baseline goal. the extra $50 isn't as urgent and doesn't need to be collected as quickly. please? ;;

[jestergal]

not only does fluttershy smoke weed, the first time she did was at a party one of the other ponies brought her to. she was passed the bong and weakly said “oh… sorry. i don’t smoke, i’ll cough and it’ll be really embarrassing.”

other ponies are like “nah you can do it! we won’t laugh!” and then she was like “ohh… okay…” and then just took the fattest bong rip, held it for 3 seconds, exhaled. everyone is in shock. she then does a weak little not-even cough and goes “ohh… i knew it… and now you’re all staring at me :(” and runs away

[jestergal]

i was so right with this one tbh

[cam-pteryx]

[ihnmaims]

i am tired of making these posts but i need help again. i'm sorry.

i'm a twenty-year-old jewish trans man. i am too physically disabled to work, and both of my parents are retired and surviving primarily off of SSI.

unfortunately, my mother has stage 2 small-cell lung cancer and stage 3 non-small-cell lung cancer. (message me or send me an ask off of anonymous for proof of my claims.) according to her oncologist, she has approximately one year left to live. her condition cannot be cured — her passing can only be postponed.

we are trying to make that final year a comfortable one for her, but it's hard when we're so financially strained. chemotherapy and radiation severely affect a cancer patient's appetite and sense of taste, and tend to cause terrible nausea, so she's very, very picky about her food. eating the wrong thing at the wrong time makes her sick. she has specific cravings that appear and disappear on a whim and it is crucial that i am able to afford the select few foods she's able and willing to eat. she's losing a lot of weight, and watching her wither away hurts my heart.

please help me so that i can help my mother; i love her more than i have ever loved any other earthly being or thing. i am again asking for around $100 for groceries to ensure that she eats, and an additional $50 for transportation if it's possible, but that's nowhere near as important as feeding her.

any and all donations are appreciated and helpful even if it is literally only one dollar. please don't hesitate to contribute because "it isn't enough to matter." every cent matters. reblogs are also appreciated. thank you so much, and i'm so sorry i've been such a burdensome presence on here lately. you've all been very kind to me and patient with me and i love you.

$st4rc4ndy on c.ashapp

st4rc4ndy on v.enmo

i don't have p.aypal

$0 / $100 or ideally $150

[ihnmaims]

$50 / $100 ! oh my god thank you

[ihnmaims]

$70 / $100 💓

[ihnmaims]

$10 from 3 more or $5 from 6 more people would bring me to my baseline goal. the extra $50 isn't as urgent and doesn't need to be collected as quickly. please? ;;

[ihnmaims]

i am tired of making these posts but i need help again. i'm sorry.

i'm a twenty-year-old jewish trans man. i am too physically disabled to work, and both of my parents are retired and surviving primarily off of SSI.

unfortunately, my mother has stage 2 small-cell lung cancer and stage 3 non-small-cell lung cancer. (message me or send me an ask off of anonymous for proof of my claims.) according to her oncologist, she has approximately one year left to live. her condition cannot be cured — her passing can only be postponed.

we are trying to make that final year a comfortable one for her, but it's hard when we're so financially strained. chemotherapy and radiation severely affect a cancer patient's appetite and sense of taste, and tend to cause terrible nausea, so she's very, very picky about her food. eating the wrong thing at the wrong time makes her sick. she has specific cravings that appear and disappear on a whim and it is crucial that i am able to afford the select few foods she's able and willing to eat. she's losing a lot of weight, and watching her wither away hurts my heart.

please help me so that i can help my mother; i love her more than i have ever loved any other earthly being or thing. i am again asking for around $100 for groceries to ensure that she eats, and an additional $50 for transportation if it's possible, but that's nowhere near as important as feeding her.

any and all donations are appreciated and helpful even if it is literally only one dollar. please don't hesitate to contribute because "it isn't enough to matter." every cent matters. reblogs are also appreciated. thank you so much, and i'm so sorry i've been such a burdensome presence on here lately. you've all been very kind to me and patient with me and i love you.

$st4rc4ndy on c.ashapp

st4rc4ndy on v.enmo

i don't have p.aypal

$0 / $100 or ideally $150

[ihnmaims]

$50 / $100 ! oh my god thank you

[ihnmaims]

$70 / $100 💓

[ihnmaims]

$10 from 3 more or $5 from 6 more people would bring me to my baseline goal. the extra $50 isn't as urgent and doesn't need to be collected as quickly. please? ;;

[fiendblooded]

rating most depictions of tibalt in mtg

Tibalt, the Fiend-Blooded (Avacyn Restored)

7/10. it's a good piece, it includes his tail and his smoke magic (forgotten in some later depictions), my only gripe really is that it feels a bit too serious? there's a bit of drama missing from this piece that later depictions capture better. also, his goatee is almost the same color as his skin which weirds me out a little considering the hair on his head is clearly brown.

[fiendblooded]

Tibalt, the Fiend-Blooded (Duel Deck)

9.5/10. this is one of, if not my FAVORITE depiction of tibalt. look at the POSE, the EXPRESSION. this is the first time he would be seen with his devils and i am FOR IT. i really can't express just how much his body language in this piece does for him. his original printing had his visage, but THIS depiction really captures his dramatic, showboating personality. the only, ONLY reason it doesn't get a 10/10 for me is because they forgot his tail :(

[fiendblooded]

Blightning (Duel Deck)

6/10. it's okay. i'm not a huge fan of the magic visuals, it departs from his smoke and embers to smoke and lightning, but it's a card named "blightning" so of course there has to be some kind of lightning element. not much to be done i fear. i also think he looks a tiny bit goofy creeping in the background, but it looks like him at least so whatever. it's not bad, i just personally have gripes with it

[fiendblooded]

Browbeat (Duel Deck)

8/10. another one of my favorites. you might be thinking "ok but did tibalt really like, conjure a whole cloud's worth of smoke to yell really loud at this one guy?" like i was originally, but i realized that this is probably actually just a hallucination, as tormenting visions are like, the Main application of tibalt's smoke magic. i posit that this is a literal event being depicted, from the perspective of the guy kneeling on the rocks, and that the giant tibalt cloud is merely an illusion generated by smoke magic.

it's also worth noting that this card garners a bit of favor with me (perhaps unfairly in a competition of art) because the mechanics of it are also spot on for tibalt

[fiendblooded]

Tibalt, Rakish Instigator (War of the Spark)

10/10. this is a perfect illustration of tibalt. his pose is dramatic, his expression is devilish and jubilant, and he has devils galore. they even remembered his tail this time! you can tell because it's forked unlike the unforked tails of the other devils! this depiction is so excellent. i love it

[fiendblooded]

Valki, God of Lies // Tibalt, Cosmic Impostor (Kaldheim, #114)

8.5/10. i really like this art. i love that in the front side, Valki, God of Lies, it uses the kind of body language and expressions we've come to know as tibalt's. because of that, even when it's not him, it still feels like him. and then the other side, Tibalt, Cosmic Impostor, shows a side of tibalt we haven't seen much of before which is the side of him that loves to revel. sure, we've seen him grinning at his own mischief to come, but not in private like this when all is said and done. it's very likely that all of that treasure is stolen, as he takes on a very tricksterous role in this set, and he is clearly Reveling in it. i think this is one of the only times we see him so joyful in a scene where he's not actively causing chaos. alas, it gets points deducted because THEY FORGOT HIS TAIL AGAIN!!!

[fiendblooded]

Valki, God of Lies // Tibalt, Cosmic Impostor (Kaldheim, #286)

3/10. this is my least favorite depiction of tibalt BY FAR. starting with the front, Valki... this is some other guy. this is not tibalt. this is genuinely some other guy, and he barely even resembles the original printing of the guy! contrast this depiction of valki with the depiction from the card above. the facial hair is not the same, this version's goatee is much lighter. the skin tone is also not the same, looking flush and healthy in comparison to the original's pale/greyish tone. the nose doesn't look similar to me either, original valki's being flatter than this one's

and then... tibalt. Tibalt, Cosmic Impostor. why is he grinning like that? his expression is so understated compared to like, every other depiction of tibalt. why is his hair so flat? he looks like a drenched cat. this is the first time we see him wielding magic that's blue in color, and it's the last time too. why? why are his eyes blue? why does he have pupils? why does he have fangs? and for the love of fucking god, WHERE IS HIS TAIL?????

i don't want to shit on it completely. i think it looks good from an objective standpoint. i like the style, but as a depiction of tibalt it really misses the mark

[fiendblooded]

Valki, God of Lies // Tibalt, Cosmic Impostor (Kaldheim, #308)

10/10. now we're back to the good shit. once again, like in the original printing, we see valki wearing a grin very reminiscent of tibalt's. there's also the tip of a bloodstained dagger behind him, further indicating something sinister and hidden about this individual. lo and behold, it was tibalt the whole time!!! and gosh, what a gorgeous depiction of tibalt it is. they remembered his tail this time!!!

i love the stylised smoke magic, though i wish it were a little more prominent, as i feel it's easy to miss. i also like the coat that he has on in this art, it strengthens cohesion between the front and back face, and it's nice to see him in weather appropriate clothing. wouldn't want him to get cold as he's out there fucking everything up for everyone!

[fiendblooded]

Open the Omenpaths (Kaldheim)

6/10. it's recognizable as tibalt at a glance, but if you look closer then you see that they seemingly made him noticeably feminine? his eyelashes, previously not depicted at all, are now lush and full? it looks like he even has a little eyeliner on. i feel like his lips are fuller too, and they've got a tint to them that makes me think he's wearing lipstick. i think it's further aided by the fact that the grin he wears in his depiction is so small, not exaggerated at all like in most other depictions. it's the most serene he's ever looked, honestly, outdoing even blightning and his very first printing in terms of calmness of face. good for him i guess, though i have to rank it low because it doesn't actually look much like him aside from his clothes, hair, and skin tone

[fiendblooded]

Tibalt's Trickery (Kaldheim)

8/10. this is good! i like this! his hairstyle is on point for tibalt, his expression is immaculate, and we get a good view of those claws for the first time since Blightning. the magic that swirls around him certainly seems like the kind of jagged, unpleasant magic he'd wield, and the chains of his shackles being broken is a nice nod to his slippery nature. i WOULD take points away for his tail being missing but i'll give this depiction the benefit of the doubt and say it's just the angle

[fiendblooded]

Tibalt, Rakish Instigator (Promo Alt)

8/10. i am not partial to this depiction of tibalt but i have to give it its due for being very faithful to him. we have smoke magic and his forked tail, and his pose is certainly dramatic enough for him. he seems to have a penchant for being high up with one leg raised looking over the carnage. personally it's not my favorite. it's the face in particular that does it in for me, he is too conventionally pretty. i think his face has a lot of his character in it and that character is lost when he's made into a kind of generic (albeit demonic) anime boy. ultimately though that's not going to keep me from giving it a good grade for overall getting him right

unfortunately i do not :( that post is from almost a year ago, and at that point i had already had the image just sitting on my computer for years. i gave it a cursory search to see if i could find it as easily as i did originally but i did not find the source. i apologize

[fiendblooded]

also, while i'm here,

Tibalt, Wicked Tormentor (Alchemy)

6/10. i have mixed feelings on this one. it gets him right! everything is there! but it's also... not him. he is causing chaos and reveling in it but every time we've seen him prior he has been causing chaos through guile, not wanton destruction. he does not go in and burn things down himself as if he's some kind of destructive powerhouse. in particular it makes me think about the art for Rakish Instigator. that's a similar piece in that he is clearly at the head of some major carnage, but in that piece he is striking a pose and reveling in the carnage as others do it for him. he is responsible for the carnage because he set up the circumstances for it to happen, not because he himself burned it all down, which i think is much more inline with his character. he is not a Wildfire Devil, he is the one that set them loose. i also feel like he is too exaggerated in his reveling. his facial expression is just too much. i think this is the only expression where he is so overjoyed with chaos and pain that he opens his mouth as if cackling over it. where is his iconic grin??? also he has pupils 👎

[fiendblooded]

rating most depictions of tibalt in mtg

Tibalt, the Fiend-Blooded (Avacyn Restored)

7/10. it's a good piece, it includes his tail and his smoke magic (forgotten in some later depictions), my only gripe really is that it feels a bit too serious? there's a bit of drama missing from this piece that later depictions capture better. also, his goatee is almost the same color as his skin which weirds me out a little considering the hair on his head is clearly brown.

[fiendblooded]

Tibalt, the Fiend-Blooded (Duel Deck)

9.5/10. this is one of, if not my FAVORITE depiction of tibalt. look at the POSE, the EXPRESSION. this is the first time he would be seen with his devils and i am FOR IT. i really can't express just how much his body language in this piece does for him. his original printing had his visage, but THIS depiction really captures his dramatic, showboating personality. the only, ONLY reason it doesn't get a 10/10 for me is because they forgot his tail :(

[fiendblooded]

Blightning (Duel Deck)

6/10. it's okay. i'm not a huge fan of the magic visuals, it departs from his smoke and embers to smoke and lightning, but it's a card named "blightning" so of course there has to be some kind of lightning element. not much to be done i fear. i also think he looks a tiny bit goofy creeping in the background, but it looks like him at least so whatever. it's not bad, i just personally have gripes with it

[fiendblooded]

Browbeat (Duel Deck)

8/10. another one of my favorites. you might be thinking "ok but did tibalt really like, conjure a whole cloud's worth of smoke to yell really loud at this one guy?" like i was originally, but i realized that this is probably actually just a hallucination, as tormenting visions are like, the Main application of tibalt's smoke magic. i posit that this is a literal event being depicted, from the perspective of the guy kneeling on the rocks, and that the giant tibalt cloud is merely an illusion generated by smoke magic.

it's also worth noting that this card garners a bit of favor with me (perhaps unfairly in a competition of art) because the mechanics of it are also spot on for tibalt

[fiendblooded]

Tibalt, Rakish Instigator (War of the Spark)

10/10. this is a perfect illustration of tibalt. his pose is dramatic, his expression is devilish and jubilant, and he has devils galore. they even remembered his tail this time! you can tell because it's forked unlike the unforked tails of the other devils! this depiction is so excellent. i love it

[fiendblooded]

Valki, God of Lies // Tibalt, Cosmic Impostor (Kaldheim, #114)

8.5/10. i really like this art. i love that in the front side, Valki, God of Lies, it uses the kind of body language and expressions we've come to know as tibalt's. because of that, even when it's not him, it still feels like him. and then the other side, Tibalt, Cosmic Impostor, shows a side of tibalt we haven't seen much of before which is the side of him that loves to revel. sure, we've seen him grinning at his own mischief to come, but not in private like this when all is said and done. it's very likely that all of that treasure is stolen, as he takes on a very tricksterous role in this set, and he is clearly Reveling in it. i think this is one of the only times we see him so joyful in a scene where he's not actively causing chaos. alas, it gets points deducted because THEY FORGOT HIS TAIL AGAIN!!!

[fiendblooded]

Valki, God of Lies // Tibalt, Cosmic Impostor (Kaldheim, #286)

3/10. this is my least favorite depiction of tibalt BY FAR. starting with the front, Valki... this is some other guy. this is not tibalt. this is genuinely some other guy, and he barely even resembles the original printing of the guy! contrast this depiction of valki with the depiction from the card above. the facial hair is not the same, this version's goatee is much lighter. the skin tone is also not the same, looking flush and healthy in comparison to the original's pale/greyish tone. the nose doesn't look similar to me either, original valki's being flatter than this one's

and then... tibalt. Tibalt, Cosmic Impostor. why is he grinning like that? his expression is so understated compared to like, every other depiction of tibalt. why is his hair so flat? he looks like a drenched cat. this is the first time we see him wielding magic that's blue in color, and it's the last time too. why? why are his eyes blue? why does he have pupils? why does he have fangs? and for the love of fucking god, WHERE IS HIS TAIL?????

i don't want to shit on it completely. i think it looks good from an objective standpoint. i like the style, but as a depiction of tibalt it really misses the mark

[fiendblooded]

Valki, God of Lies // Tibalt, Cosmic Impostor (Kaldheim, #308)

10/10. now we're back to the good shit. once again, like in the original printing, we see valki wearing a grin very reminiscent of tibalt's. there's also the tip of a bloodstained dagger behind him, further indicating something sinister and hidden about this individual. lo and behold, it was tibalt the whole time!!! and gosh, what a gorgeous depiction of tibalt it is. they remembered his tail this time!!!

i love the stylised smoke magic, though i wish it were a little more prominent, as i feel it's easy to miss. i also like the coat that he has on in this art, it strengthens cohesion between the front and back face, and it's nice to see him in weather appropriate clothing. wouldn't want him to get cold as he's out there fucking everything up for everyone!

[fiendblooded]

Open the Omenpaths (Kaldheim)

6/10. it's recognizable as tibalt at a glance, but if you look closer then you see that they seemingly made him noticeably feminine? his eyelashes, previously not depicted at all, are now lush and full? it looks like he even has a little eyeliner on. i feel like his lips are fuller too, and they've got a tint to them that makes me think he's wearing lipstick. i think it's further aided by the fact that the grin he wears in his depiction is so small, not exaggerated at all like in most other depictions. it's the most serene he's ever looked, honestly, outdoing even blightning and his very first printing in terms of calmness of face. good for him i guess, though i have to rank it low because it doesn't actually look much like him aside from his clothes, hair, and skin tone

[fiendblooded]

Tibalt's Trickery (Kaldheim)

8/10. this is good! i like this! his hairstyle is on point for tibalt, his expression is immaculate, and we get a good view of those claws for the first time since Blightning. the magic that swirls around him certainly seems like the kind of jagged, unpleasant magic he'd wield, and the chains of his shackles being broken is a nice nod to his slippery nature. i WOULD take points away for his tail being missing but i'll give this depiction the benefit of the doubt and say it's just the angle

[fiendblooded]

Tibalt, Rakish Instigator (Promo Alt)

8/10. i am not partial to this depiction of tibalt but i have to give it its due for being very faithful to him. we have smoke magic and his forked tail, and his pose is certainly dramatic enough for him. he seems to have a penchant for being high up with one leg raised looking over the carnage. personally it's not my favorite. it's the face in particular that does it in for me, he is too conventionally pretty. i think his face has a lot of his character in it and that character is lost when he's made into a kind of generic (albeit demonic) anime boy. ultimately though that's not going to keep me from giving it a good grade for overall getting him right

unfortunately i do not :( that post is from almost a year ago, and at that point i had already had the image just sitting on my computer for years. i gave it a cursory search to see if i could find it as easily as i did originally but i did not find the source. i apologize

[ihnmaims]

i am tired of making these posts but i need help again. i'm sorry.

i'm a twenty-year-old jewish trans man. i am too physically disabled to work, and both of my parents are retired and surviving primarily off of SSI.

unfortunately, my mother has stage 2 small-cell lung cancer and stage 3 non-small-cell lung cancer. (message me or send me an ask off of anonymous for proof of my claims.) according to her oncologist, she has approximately one year left to live. her condition cannot be cured — her passing can only be postponed.

we are trying to make that final year a comfortable one for her, but it's hard when we're so financially strained. chemotherapy and radiation severely affect a cancer patient's appetite and sense of taste, and tend to cause terrible nausea, so she's very, very picky about her food. eating the wrong thing at the wrong time makes her sick. she has specific cravings that appear and disappear on a whim and it is crucial that i am able to afford the select few foods she's able and willing to eat. she's losing a lot of weight, and watching her wither away hurts my heart.

please help me so that i can help my mother; i love her more than i have ever loved any other earthly being or thing. i am again asking for around $100 for groceries to ensure that she eats, and an additional $50 for transportation if it's possible, but that's nowhere near as important as feeding her.

any and all donations are appreciated and helpful even if it is literally only one dollar. please don't hesitate to contribute because "it isn't enough to matter." every cent matters. reblogs are also appreciated. thank you so much, and i'm so sorry i've been such a burdensome presence on here lately. you've all been very kind to me and patient with me and i love you.

$st4rc4ndy on c.ashapp

st4rc4ndy on v.enmo

i don't have p.aypal

$0 / $100 or ideally $150

[ihnmaims]

$50 / $100 ! oh my god thank you

[ihnmaims]

$70 / $100 💓

[ihnmaims]

$10 from 3 more or $5 from 6 more people would bring me to my baseline goal. the extra $50 isn't as urgent and doesn't need to be collected as quickly. please? ;;

[ihnmaims]

i am tired of making these posts but i need help again. i'm sorry.

i'm a twenty-year-old jewish trans man. i am too physically disabled to work, and both of my parents are retired and surviving primarily off of SSI.

unfortunately, my mother has stage 2 small-cell lung cancer and stage 3 non-small-cell lung cancer. (message me or send me an ask off of anonymous for proof of my claims.) according to her oncologist, she has approximately one year left to live. her condition cannot be cured — her passing can only be postponed.

we are trying to make that final year a comfortable one for her, but it's hard when we're so financially strained. chemotherapy and radiation severely affect a cancer patient's appetite and sense of taste, and tend to cause terrible nausea, so she's very, very picky about her food. eating the wrong thing at the wrong time makes her sick. she has specific cravings that appear and disappear on a whim and it is crucial that i am able to afford the select few foods she's able and willing to eat. she's losing a lot of weight, and watching her wither away hurts my heart.

please help me so that i can help my mother; i love her more than i have ever loved any other earthly being or thing. i am again asking for around $100 for groceries to ensure that she eats, and an additional $50 for transportation if it's possible, but that's nowhere near as important as feeding her.

any and all donations are appreciated and helpful even if it is literally only one dollar. please don't hesitate to contribute because "it isn't enough to matter." every cent matters. reblogs are also appreciated. thank you so much, and i'm so sorry i've been such a burdensome presence on here lately. you've all been very kind to me and patient with me and i love you.

$st4rc4ndy on c.ashapp

st4rc4ndy on v.enmo

i don't have p.aypal

$0 / $100 or ideally $150

[ihnmaims]

$50 / $100 ! oh my god thank you

[ihnmaims]

$70 / $100 💓

[ihnmaims]

$10 from 3 more or $5 from 6 more people would bring me to my baseline goal. the extra $50 isn't as urgent and doesn't need to be collected as quickly. please? ;;

[fiendblooded]

i honestly dont know why i post anything to this blog. nobody has interacted with me in genuinely years. i am effectively completely alone here

[fiendblooded]

my night be so fine and then boom!!! dysphoria bc i have hair on my hands

[pawgliacci]

At the end of my rope and it keeps getting longer like some sort of clown handkerchief bit?

[estrogenesis-eeveeangelion]

no animal was harmed during the making of this video. not one. for the few minutes that we were shooting film, the guns of each hunter fell silent. the industrial bolt throwers observed a moment's peace and the jaws of every predator hung softly open. no fish bit any hook and the bait worms held off on drowning only until the cameras stopped. the tails of ruminants ceased to flick just as their attendant flies, in unison, landed on their flanks to catch their tiny breaths. a spider instantly stopped winding silk around a wasp, patiently waiting for the caesura to end. a young veterinarian paused with the syringe in their hand. somewhere, a colicky baby stopped biting its mother's nipple and nursed happily for the very first time. we're sorry. we're sorry it couldn't have been longer. we didn't know this would happen.

[byjove]

stoned and autistic at a party trying to make conversation: I find the comparative lifespan of organisms so interesting. Spiders are comparatively long lived animals. Female black widows can live up to 3 years but their male counterparts rarely live four months. Some tarantulas live upwards of 20 years. The longest lived spider was around 43 years old when she was cruelly assassinated by a parasitic wasp. Domestic rats have a lifespan comparable to female black widows. To put things into perspective, there are spiders that remember a pre-pandemic world but it is likely every rat on earth was born post-COVID. There could be a spider out there born when Reagan was in office.

[aokozaki]

Say what you will about 4chan, but it's really hard not to read "fwiw" as "folga wooga imoga womp"