Villanelle is a Pretty Word for Poem

If you're reading this...

[fiiieeee]

You Don’t Understand

the depth of the sadness that doesn't heal inside me

I'm the figure of the story you know

of a girl whose outside is whole

but under layers of whatever

there is jealousy

anxiety

disbelief

hopelessness

fear

I don't know how it started

but I don't dare to go outside

my head is my prison and my body obeys my head

monsters

hospitals

are painted on my curtains

I'm scared

I'm so scared of everything

and everyone

and it's not right

I keep tearing myself apart

but you don't understand

[fiiieeee]

Hey

Sometimes I tremble, no actually often do I stumble

Upon photos of your face, though only through memory they appear

Like the girls in the shoe shops, I’m not

I don’t know what I want

I don’t know how to make decisions about shoes or questions or boyfriends

Some would call me indecisive of nature

I think not but then again that’s only a thought

I heard that someone died from thinking he was right and that may be just the way to be not that

But the photos, they appear before my eyes, like tiny little drops of memory that flies

If only they’d really fly with a whole new destination

And one where it doesn’t stick and glue and clasp together with everything I try to become

Everything that is not you

Does not involve you

Does not need you or even despise you

Just lives and breathes and plants in its own soil without you

Somewhere out there

You are not

[180400]

[fiiieeee]

Un-whole Days/Adventure Ahead

When no one shares your enthusiasm for ugly animals combined with your one-legged adventure that never is more than a thought, maybe a sentence but not more than that

When London is far away and you're craving to disappear within a middle of middles leading up to much more

When a boy named illusion walks up to your face just to tell you how utterly beauty-filled your face would be, had it only been so

When it's just one of those moments you don't like to call your best and the whole world sinks into a ray of stormy seas hitting some face

not necessarily yours but who cares, it still hurts does it not? That no one can see all the sanity you hold, hidden perhaps but still there, quite a lot

Yea it's true what they say, there's hope where there's hope but how can you hope when you asked for the milky way twice and all you got was 3 more adventures in the shape of a thought

One of those days, they come and they go, they might leave you baffled or wholly un-whole

[fiiieeee]

The Mountain and the Cloud

you're the top of the mountain, I'm the fleeting cloud

only shortly touching while moving

then gone

until suddenly the wind blows again and we're back

to where we started before we parted

It's worth every fleeting moment, every pain and every storm

to know that some day will always be the day when we return

[fiiieeee]

As soon as you know, you will never be the same

[fiiieeee]

When You Feel Like University Has Its Foul Hands Around Your Neck

Your airway is foolishly fastened by these breathtaking fingers it's choking your frame, your bones feel bulky about to creep out of your skin The only thing you should be creeping out of is your bed in the morning but there's no way today because you feel like a criminal trying to head home it's heartbreaking to feel this way like you're behind the bars of the whole world drawn back there every day for the sake of knowledge about a thesis that won't make you into a better person facing the heartbreaking consequence of knowing too much

[fiiieeee]

Now June is Over

It started that day in the first week of June

and you told me I was a bird within a cage

and all I needed to do was get out of there

so you steered me in some directions

to make me feel loved

so I would let go

to make me feel worthy

so I would look happy

and the day I thanked you, you were in my heart

more than I wanted to say, so I didn't

Instead it bled from my chest

an aching pain of self-disgust

and I pity myself still to this day

for not telling you how I felt

when you were spreading chocolate on top of your bread

and I didn't feel like the worst person I could be

but I didn't feel good either

so I decided not to feel any of it

and now you're smiling at her instead

[fiiieeee]

You have walked on my soul with the affection of your feet against my dusty inside and I have loved every step, every mark you left behind as a nicely made rose path all the way to my heart

[inritum]

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

[ghostdog07]

OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.

THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.

The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.

AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.

THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.

[deathklaue]

YOOOOOOO

I SAW THIS ON MY DASH THE OTHER DAY AND THOUGHT “ITS WORTH A TRY” SO I WISHED I COULD GET A 3DS

LITERALLY LIKE 4 DAYS LATER MY DAD SENT ME A PICTURE OF THE 3DS XL HE BOUGHT FOR ME WHILE I WAS AT SCHOOL

IM STILL FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS

[doryishness]

holy fuck, I didn’t expect this to work, I was like psh, whatever it’s just a quick reblog, but I wished my Dad would actually respond back to me AND HE FUCKING DID A FEW DAYS LATER, I GOT A FUCKING TEXT FROM MY DAD TODAY WHO HASN’T SPOKEN OR RESPONDED TO ME IN MONTHS HOLY FUCK WHAT IS THIS MAGIC IT WORKS. 

[victoriaringsinyourears]

I WANTED TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND AND I DIDN’T THINK I’D GET DAYS OFF BUT THIS WEEKEND I’M HEADING UP THERE??? THIS IS CRAZY SHIT 

[lenshade]

SO LIKE I JOKINGLY WISHED FOR MY OWN LEN KAGAMINE AND THEN LIKE A WEEK LATER I GOT A LEN NENDOROID??? H ELP

[themixedbagofwhat]

WTF OKAY SO THIS SHOT ACTUALLY WORKS BECAUSE WHEN I WISHED, I HAD WISHED MY CRUSH WOULD LIKE ME BACK AND GUESS WHAT? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW. WHAT THE HELLLLL?????

[wodkat]

ok I’ve said this before but IM DOING IT AGAIN THE FIRST TIME I SAW THIS, MY WISH DID COME TRUE SO I REBLOGED AGAIN AND SAID IT IN THE TAGS BUT THEN I WISHED FOR SMTH ELSE AND IT LITERALLY LITERALLY HAPPENED LIKE A COUPLE DAYS LATER WHAT THE HELL SO NOW IM WRITING THIS HERE FOR YOU BC I DONT BELIEVE IN THIS CRAP BUT STILL IT’S AN AWFULLY BIG COINCIDENCE

[iamsherlokid]

So last time I reblogged this I met Tom Hiddleston within the month…

[lumos-of-my-life]

I saw this twice before and I didn’t really believe it but I wished for the same thing both times and now seeing it again I realise that I got my wish… The guy I like likes me back

[jane-eyyyre]

I hope you fall in love With someone who always texts back and never lets You fall asleep thinking you’re Unwanted. I hope you fall in love with someone Who holds your hand during the scary parts of Horror movies and burns Cookies with you when you’re Too busy dancing around the Kitchen. I hope you fall in love with Someone who sees galaxies in your eyes And hears music in your Heartbeats. I hope you fall in love with someone who Tickles you and makes you smile On hard days and on easy Ones. But beyond all that I hope You fall in love with someone Who will never leave you behind And who will never take you For granted, someone who Will stand by you when you’re Right and stand by you When you’re wrong, Someone who has seen you at your worst And has loved you Still. I hope you fall in love With someone who Kisses you in the rain And hugs you in the cold and Wouldn’t have you any other Way.

Wouldn’t It Be Wonderful, l.h.k. (via snakevenomisdelicious)

[bromo-aj]

[theblackquill]

Come away, O human child! To the waters and the wild With a faery, hand in hand, For the world’s more full of weeping than you can understand.

W. B. Yeats, The Wanderings of Oisin and Other Poems (via theblackquill)

[peoplearejustpeoplee]

[let-me-be-your-fashion-princess]

[fiiieeee]

“You do not need to leave your room. Remain sitting at your table and listen. Do not even listen, simply wait, be quiet, still and solitary. The world will freely offer itself to you to be unmasked, it has no choice, it will roll in ecstasy at your feet.”

-Franz Kafka

[bibliobibuliscz]

“I shall be miserable if I have not an excellent library.”

Jane Austen, Pride and Prejudice (via mycolorbook)