I Want To Have Control

TW: ED, Depression, Self-Harm Age: 26 SW:130 lbs CW: 138 lbs GW: 90-100lbs Height: 5’2

[finally-gettingtobefree]

Reasons to Keep Going:

So I can feel small

Look good in clothing without having to change my outfit a million times

To like what I see in the mirror

So people can easily pick me up

If I’m smaller, I won’t need to eat as much

Look decent in candid pictures- not just like a gross blob

I can wear the styles I want

Be able to look small in baggy clothes/layers

To make myself proud

Flat stomach

Get rid of my thigh fat

See my ribcage

So I don’t feel like a pig

Improve my jawline (hopefully)

Get drunk easier

More prominent collarbones

I can be my own thinspo

Actually be able to wear a swimsuit comfortably

Get rid of my lovehandles

Slimmer arms/shoulders

Angel wings- I hate my back pudge:/

To feel fragile and dainty

Take up less space

People will be able to wrap their arms all the way around me when they hug me

So the 7 years of my ED will have meant *something*

Please block or don’t follow if you don’t have an ED. It pretty much sucks and you never really feel good enough but you keep going because it’s all you have.

[r0sypeach]

[dreamingawayyour1ife]

[fawnerd-deactivated20260410]

"2024 gonna be a vibe!"

the vibe:

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today's pinterest haul 🤍✨

[sophiedaisy]

[purple-raccoon]

[twilightly-blog]

Jennifer’s Body (2009) dir. Karyn Kusama

[stuckinapril]

this is genuinely exactly how i strive to be

[petfan7]

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[thinisty]

poc th!nspo 🌸

[justpeachythxs]

@beatriclaframbosie

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

Don't test people by not actually telling them what you want, need and expect from them in the hope that they will figure it out by themselves. Test them by communicating your needs, so that you can then see whether they're willing and able to adjust their behavior accordingly. That says more about their quality than whether they can intuitively figure out what you want from them

[hismissamericangirl]

[slender-wannabe]

ngl i'm in a mood where i want to switch my

✨mental health/childhood trauma/abusive relationship healing era✨ to ✨relapse into severe restriction era✨

[thethirtyproject444]

green juice