Bliss Coffee Company

Hi I'm Mason and this is my blog for Bliss Coffee Company, a traveling coffee trailer in a renovated Airstream.

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Windows

Sometimes life feels like a dark room with no windows or doors. It feels like there is no way out and I can’t see that I’m in the middle of a simple riddle.

First I found a mirror and was forced to see the miserable mess I’ve become. I saw myself and I hated the darkness there. I found myself in that miserable fucking room with no way out and I only hated myself more for choosing the path that led me there. 

I could hardly hear everyone over my screams “just leave” they would say, and I would tell them “No! You couldn’t possibly understand.” How could they understand? I had built my own prison, locked myself in there, and swallowed that fucking key. 

But I finally got up the courage to stare into the mirror long enough to see. See everything that was so hard to see. See the dark parts of myself and start to believe, that those parts are beautiful too, and those parts are also me. 

That mirror started to morph and I started to understand that we all have dark rooms with mirrors and no way out, but those aren’t mirrors at all. 

That mirror was always a window.

And I was the light that needed to be let in.

The way out was always in.

P.S. Windows and insulation is being installed in the stream bean next; along with appliances. Always moving forward. Always at my own pace.

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Tenacious

What does your daily grind look like? Two jobs? Two kids and two jobs? Waking up early to open and staying late closing? Everyone has life happening one hundred percent of the time. Everyone has one million things to do on their to do lists. So how do we do it, how do we stay motivated to keep on that grind?

I have asked myself this often lately, sometimes I wander why I am still pouring  my hard earned cash into a shiny giant beer can instead of traveling to new fun places. I take extra jobs and I give up all my free time to research or drill out rivets, and this whole time I have seen all of it as such a struggle. All I do, everyone I talk to, everything I research, I view all of it as a struggle.

What if it never was a struggle?

I decided that if I were to ever enjoy life it is not going to be after I get x,y, and z done it’s now. Now is the time to enjoy spending my money on new shiny things for the stream bean. Now is the time to enjoy all the little things in life.

Bliss is happening now.

With that being said I have made some serious progress with the renovation. The old roof has been replaced with a new sheet of aluminum and the next part is the service window. I am always moving forward and I am seeing new possibilities in the reflection of that aluminum every day.

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Generosity and Gratitude

Only once in my have I been stopped in my tracks by someone else’s generosity. Even though people have been generous to me my whole life especially in my travels. People have opened their homes to me and fed me even made me feel like family. But never has someone blown me away with the generosity of their time. That’s all they gave me was their time.

What if that was all it took to change someones life, was to be generous with your time. Give someone your Saturday and change their heart. Generosity and gratitude a dance. A push pull that generates more love than I have ever known.

It’s a new year and the stream bean has been stripped down to her bones all that is left is to rebuild her, thanks to a dear friend of mine that took out my sub-floor. I am rededicating myself to my air stream. It is all rivets, coffee beans, and budgeting now until she is up and running and I am back on the road.

In the meantime I am learning to be grateful for the generosity the universe is sending my way.

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Motion

So many things, so much motion, and commotion. I have come from the east coast and am half way through my journey. Its been a long string of hello and goodbyes, of change and new beginnings. Mostly though it has been an eye opening experience of how much I have grown. 

Last year around this time I packed up my van and my airstream and drove 30 hours towards my most beautiful mistake. I since learned how to be alone, and how to really take care of myself. More than anything though I believe I have learned to be at home wherever I go. Making friends is always easier when you know in your own heart that you truly belong. 

I am grateful for my travels and I am grateful for an open heart that is eager for adventure. A heart that has the possibility of being outrageously courageous and bravely loving. 

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Grandeur

No one had to tell the Grand Canyon that she is one of the great wonders of the world. No one ever had to show her or tell her of her vast, breath taking, beauty. She knows. She always knew.

There was no need to boast, no need to prove anything. She just is as she always was and will be. She is grand. She is vast and untamable. Unforgiving at times but only maybe to give you a better understanding of your own true self.

There is greatness living quietly within each of us. Greatness that has an already always knowing of its own greatness. No need to discover. Simply become aware, and learn how to express your own wild, untamed, and unmessable heart. 

Learning to let go of my own fear of failure and starting to realize that my own greatness is quietly waiting for its chance to be known. 

There is nothing to fight here but, Self.

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Sticky Spots

What do you do when faced with a challenge? I am not talking about your friend who challenges you to a drinking contest, or even an athletic challenge. I am talking about the challenges who shape who you are. Like taking a pregnancy test and getting an unexpected positive. Or being homeless. The lost of a loved one. And how about those car accidents where it sounds like “I swear I only looked down for a second officer.”

These are some serious sticky spots.

Sticky spots define us. It’s like, cut the bullshit and show me who you really are, kind of spot. And all of that is interesting because, in these times we can’t lie to ourselves like we usually do. All of a sudden we are bare to the bone. We are authentic may it be good, ugly, bad, or beautiful. We are, and what is. 

Maybe that is moment to moment.

The other day I was in a fender bender. “I swear officer I only looked down for a second.’ was all I was saying. What is really interesting about this story is not is not that I hit a car but about what happened after. 

After the cops had all left and the tickets were given out. The other person involved in the accident had left in an ambulance. And I was sitting on a curb next to my now very beat up van. Maybe I was crying a little. Maybe I was crying a lot. I started feeling really bad for myself in the “oh poor pitiful me” kind of way.

This van is everything. Shelter from the elements and all the scary things at night. This van had taken me across the United States and helped me run away from heart break and there I was on the street corner with my busted up van feeling lonely in the worst kind of way. Then this little beat up truck parked right in front of me and I thought “great, thanks dude perfect timing”. The guy gets out and asks if I am waiting for a tow assuming he might be in the way. He looked so familiar and he was looking at me like he might know me too. Then I realize it was one of the captains I knew from working on the ferry years ago. What are the odds of that!

Not only did he lend a hand in getting my van back on the road he told me that he now owns a farm and deals with solar energy on a large scale, like whole communities and businesses. I had been looking for months to find someone who knows about solar because I want to make the stream bean energy efficient and off grid. Now I have this great contact and I think I can make this happen.

Now Fergie the plumbing van is getting a face lift at a very reasonable price, and I am learning yet another lesson. I am learning to get through the sticky spots and to stay present until the miracle happens. 

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Consumption

The airstream is moving forward and somehow I constantly feel like I am struggling get things going. So I am making money and I am blogging and I am always, always, always doing anything and everything to get things done.

Never enough.

All the rivets are out. Wait, look up there, you missed three.

One coat. Two coats. Three. And me?

Maybe that's why I love working so much because I’m Consumed.

Fully expressed and completely consumed. 

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The First Step

I’m not clear on what it is I want to accomplish with this tumblr thing but I figured I need to start somewhere so here we go.

When I first had the idea to have a food truck coffee shop endeavor I never would have imagined that it would take me to the places I have gone. I remember seeing her in an old barn with awful disco ball curtains and thinking to myself there she is. There she is and there she has always been. Sometime I feel life is really that simple, whatever it is you are up to or whatever your own dreams are they are there waiting. Patiently waiting for us to realize our own brilliance.

Now here I am two years later. Two rigorous heart breaks in. Twenty-two years old and twice as determined to make my stream dreams a reality. So join me on my grand endeavor and maybe you too will see that achieving your dreams starts with simply showing up.