It was difficult to watch him go, but such had become her life, and she had learned to cope with the loneliness. Hands slid out from under her until she was flat on her side, and her spirit suspended as she lay herself to rest, to recover, to meditate until she had recharged.
In the days that followed, she kept herself busy but hadn’t forgotten about her late-night visitor, and how she hoped he’d return. Lazarus was quiet enough to keep her company during the day and keep her focused on their research, but once he retired for the evening, Rue was left to her own devices, something she wouldn’t have minded in life but detested in her half-life. And so in the hours between the time he left and when he arrived in the morning, her attention turned to some of the other, smaller windows, to the sapling of Fjörgynn in the Iron Temple. She couldn’t see much of what was there, but it comforted her to know she hadn’t been forgotten in the evolution of life as she’d known it. It made the isolation more bearable, less cold and empty, to hear voices, to hear their gratitude.
She often turned to the windows of her friends as she watched them in their downtime at the end of the day, often focusing on Dee’s mirror over others, as it was usually the “safest” to observe through. One of the things that had come about in her absence was Hayden’s relationship with Dee, something she had always seen coming, and she was glad to see her taking care of him in the wake of her death. Of all of Daybreak, Dee had taken her death the hardest, but he had also been with her from the beginning- during the collapse as they’d fled to deep space, in the Reef as Mara Sov attempted to unify the Awoken against those left behind, and the years that followed as they made their way back to Earth before their untimely deaths… then into their lives as Guardians. Dee had been her friend for so long, and he had had so few loving companions over the years, it warmed her heart to know that someone again loved him as he had loved so fierce; but there were times she also had to ignore his window (for obvious reasons), which she also frequently had to do for Addy, Nik, Laz, and Wylie’s. As much as she loved her friends, she had no interest in observing their overactive libidos at work.
But when she had finally run out of people-watching options, Rue returned to her meditations, which carried on strong throughout the night that night and the next, but by the third, she felt his familiar light permeate her aura’s range. She smiled quietly to herself as they entered, shifted a palm to rest on the window’s veil, and waited.
It had been two days since Asmodeus had encountered the beloved astral voice of Rue; his head swam as sleep never came amongst the demand of his team mates and the desire to hide in the library was exactly what he needed right now as his Ghost excitedly danced around him.
“Everyday in here is like Yol!” And he nodded in agreement as weary hand came to rub his eyes.
He was too excited for sleep though he didn’t express that to her. He had been looking forward to speaking with Rue again ever since their first conversation; he kept replaying her words over and over again least he forget her voice. When they crossed the threshold of the entrance, Spooky bolted off, Asmodeus touting to her to mind her manners and to not snoop where she isn’t allowed.
“I hope you’ll forgive the delay… but I hadn’t forgotten you.” Honoring the dead was something deeply rooted in his heritage, and trying to make up for the improper introduction from the last time, he produced a small bouquet of wild flowers.
“I know they aren’t much but…. I wanted to apologize, and to honor your spirit.” He approached the tree, looking up to it with a soft smile parting his lips as his hand came to rest on his chest.
Rue smiled warmly and soft lids fluttered. “There’s nothing to forgive,” she replied honestly, “But it’s nice to see you again, Asmodeus. Welcome back. To what do I-”
She cut herself off as he pulled something out of his robes. The flowers were blurry through the veil, she could hardly make out their shape until he laid them at Fjörgynn’s roots, but the moment they touched the bark she cold see them clearer than anything she’d seen through the veil. The gesture stole a soft breath from her and (were she flesh and blood) a soft blush that warmed her spirit. “Thank you for your tribute, it was very thoughtful…”
His face was clearer that day than it had been the last time he visited- clear enough to notice his shaven head and long beard. For a moment she wondered how old he was, out of curiosity. The heaviness in his voice told her of his heartbreaks, his loneliness, but it lacked the weariness of an old man spent on life; somewhere beneath the glum there was the youthful determination of a man not yet ready to give up on being accepted and loved. That reassured her.
“Is there something I can help you with…? Something on your mind?” Rue knew why he had returned, but she wanted to know what he wanted, what she could do for him in her disembodied state.
“It’s the least I could do for such an intrusion…and for Spooky poking about as she does.” Again, he mimicked his Ghost playfully, finger stabbing at the air as he squinted an eye.
“But…. the other day… you caught me off guard…. not because you’re a tree goddess but….” He rubbed the back of his neck as he chuckled. “But you spoke to me…. more so replied in Norsk? Spooky is the only one I’ve ever known to have had that knowledge…. and it was a more welcome surprise that I’ve become accustomed to here recently…”
He thought about how his life over the last six months had changed so suddenly, and for the better, but he wasn’t lying when he admitted that she had held one of the most meaningful.
“I wanted to thank you for that… regardless of how…. insignificant it may seem.” He didn’t feel as nervous as he had the first night they spoke, but he was thankful she hadn’t turned him away, or even more so, kept quiet, and the weight he had so desperately tried to escape from earlier was now almost non existent.
“It’s alright,” she assured him as he started with the apologies. “You’re respectful of the space and everything in it. That’s all I ask.” But as he thanked her there was an extended pause before she smiled to herself, quiet and fond. “In my life before the Collapse, my family was dedicated to preserving the language and culture of our Ancestors,” she explained, realizing that she hadn’t told anyone that in a very long time. “So… it was a welcome surprise for me as well. Thank you.”
For a moment Rue felt dizzy as she realized she had been speaking perhaps a little too much already. Being verbose was certainly within her limitations for now, but he had come back to her looking for conversation, and she would give him all she could. After a few minutes of refocusing her strength, she replied, again in Norsk. “(If it soothes you, I can continue to do so),” she offered, eyeing his silhouette through the fogged glass. “It comes as naturally to me as-” She was about to say “breathing” but cut herself off when she realized how inappropriate it sounded… then laughed quietly and finished her thought anyway. “Breathing.” How dark, she thought.