either i'm an idiot, or i'm doing it on purpose.

abandoned blog. not dead or anything--just tired 〣 tw! frequent mentions of $h 〣 pro recovery, excluding myself 〣 call me sel or fish or your best creative insult 〣 they/he/she 〣 dx'ed autism and adhd. plus the other stuff i don't want to bother anyone about 〣 older minor

[fishysel]

yo i'm done with this blog. long story short, i'm headed off to the grippy sock dungeon. it's also way more stressful than i thought it'd be to have this,, like,, self-imposed obligation to post something hanging over my head all the time. that and the overwhelming state of idiot soup my brain is in do not mix well. socializing sucks a lot less here than it does in real life but it still makes my chest feel tight and weird sometimes

plus it was cringey anyways q:

[find-the-beauty-within]

The person I reblogged this from deserves to be happy

[priincessolivee-deactivated2025]

I tried to scroll past this. I really did

[subtlysinning-deactivated202511]

♡

[pinkglitterygutzz-deactivated20]

Me staring at that mootie's blog, being too socially incapable of talking to them

[fracturedllove]

me after telling my therapist im not self harming and i have no urges too. (im lying):

[the-kirbe-anon-archive-deactiva]

I love dandelions!

*puts a dandelion in your hair*

Reblog to put a dandelion in prev's hair

[totheoneswhostayupallnight]

Shut up, I know others have it worse.

I know I’m a horrible person.

I know that I deserve my poisoned mind.

I know that I’m not worth anything.

I know that I deserve everything that’s coming for my life and my throat.

I know that no one will ever want me.

I know that I’m ugly.

I know that I’ll never be loved by a stranger.

I know that I don’t deserve to complain.

I know that I’m privileged.

Goddamnit, I fucking know that I deserve these thoughts, that I deserve to die and, god, I know that I should’ve never been born to begin with.

So shut the fuck up.

[transluceon]

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I want to scream i hate myself so much and I wanna punch something and destroy everything im such a mess

[fishysel]

me feeling like a wimp after actually getting a little triggered by something that had a trigger warning on it

[fishysel]

was looking through a drawer for scissors in my robotics classroom (for surprisingly normal reasons) and i saw one of those 'proper' bl@des people use that i couldn't get for fear of being caught... so haha, well. let's justr say. party rock is certainly in the house tonight. (i got 2 beanses)

[fishysel]

cvt at school and these were the mf bandages the teacher gave me 😭

he looked at me funny when i laughed

[fishysel]

these are fun i like them

(boxcutter)23@&+=#

[fishysel]

did a baby beans that was shallower than usual and i lowkey started giggling because there was just like,, ONE bean sticking out 😭😭😭

[fishysel]

ahem. i would like to apologise to everyone who i like too many posts from in a row for probably looking a little stupid. i promise im not a stalker. unless you want me to be baba grill

[fishysel]

dUDE i Cannot With This Shiz Anymore i need to cvt my arms so badly

why can't i just be fine with ruining my legs?? i gotta have an unyielding urge to make it even easier to get caught, too??? what is my major mal-fucking-function

and in SUMMErtime, no less. dumb idiot brain. stupid frikcin weirdo.

[k1-2-ur-h3art]

My ideal body is covered in scars but apparently that’s not an acceptable body goal

[gh0st-m00ns]

I have such a bad relationship with food.

Sometimes I don't eat anything one day then the next I eat three whole plates and snacks

Other days I don't eat in the morning and then stuff myself full at night.

I wanna lose weight but with my bad eating habits and low motivation it's hard to keep up with it.

Kinda wish it was easier to drop weight