The road to a better me

Laura. 26. Join me as I take my journey towards a better me. I haven't really found a diet and workout plan yet so right now it's a lot of experimenting. I made this blog to kinda keep myself accountable. Let's hope that it works. Start weight:320 Goal weight:130

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Easily Paleo-ified with some tweaks to the stir-fry sauce.

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Hearty and delicious roasted chickpea gyros with Greek yogurt tzatziki sauce. Recipe here!

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Spicy Noodles with Crispy Tofu

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winter citrus salad with walnuts, dates & rose

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West African Peanut Chickpeas

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Crispy Roasted Chickpeas

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Welp, here we go again.

I sit here typing this at the heaviest that I have ever been. Never before in my life have I weighed over 300 lbs. it’s embarrassing and honestly it makes me want to cry every day. I hate the way that I look and I hate the way I feel and I want to change but thinking about how far I have to go and where I am right now is incredibly disheartening. I know that the longer I wait that the worse it’s going to continue to be but it’s hard. It’s so hard.

I don’t mean that dieting is hard, I’ve done diets before, successfully and I’ve lost 30 pounds in a matter of two months before but I’ve always stopped, eating well, stopped going to the gym as soon as I say the slightest hint of a plateau. I’d look in the mirror and I’d see no difference. The scale would say I’m done 39 pounds but my clothes and my mirror would say other wise so I’ve always sabotaged myself. I know this sounds stupid but I’ve always found some sort of sick comfort in my weight. I am 26 years old, I’ve got depression, anxiety, and I’ve never been anyone’s girlfriend. I’ve always been able to chalk all of that off to my weight.

“Oh I could have a boyfriend easily if I wasn’t fat, that’s the only reason I don’t have one.”

“She would totally be interested in dating me and not that other person if only I was skinny.”

“If I was thinner, if I was healthier I’d be happier. I’m only unhappy because I’m fat.”

For as long as I can remember I’ve used my weight as my shield. It’s not me they don’t like it’s my weight. I don’t put myself out there because my weight would turn them off. I’m scared because if I lose the weight, I won’t have anything to hide behind. I won’t have anything to blame my problems on any more. I’ve had a very unhealthy relationship with food and with diets and weight my whole life starting around 8 years old thanks to my mother, but that’s a story for another time.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m done letting fear control me. I want to take back my own life. I want to be healthy and strong and I want to be able to wear what I want to wear and do what I want to do and date! God I want to find someone to date.

I’m looking for an accountability partner, someone to keep me in track, someone to kick my ass and make me go to the gym and make sure that I’m eating healthy and that I’m eating and drinking enough. I would love someone around my age with a significant amount of weight to lose but I’m not too picky. I just need someone, nipping at my heals that won’t let me give up. Someone that will make me keep going even when I see nothing changing or when I get scared again and want to quit.

If anyone is interest please message me! Sorry it was so long!

TLDR: Need an accountably partner to kick my ass and keep me on track. I’ll help you too and together we can build a better us.

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7 Meal Prep Hacks for Efficiency

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bali bowls with peanut tofu

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SUPER EASY MONGOLIAN BEEF (TASTES JUST LIKE P.F. CHANGS!)

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9 Roasted Side Dishes Perfect for the Keto Diet

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i may be fat and ugly now but soon i’ll be skinny and ugly

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How to Carb Cycle Effectively.

Carb cycling will definitely help you lose weight and keep your body guessing!

Weeks 1 to 3 (Of Each 4-Week Cycle) Day1 - Low Carb Day2 - Low Carb Day3 - High Carb Day4 - Low Carb Day5 - Low Carb Day6 - High Carb Day7 - Guilt Free

Week 4 (Of Each 4-Week Cycle) Days 1-6 All High Carb Day7 - Guilt Free

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Creamy Broccoli Salad Recipe

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This teppanyaki chicken quinoa bowl is so much healthier than anything you’ll find at the mall!  It’s gluten free and packed with protein!

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Prosciutto Baked Egg Cups

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