Me opening up the half-finished draft of my ‘narratively creative’ Conclave fanfic:
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we're not kids anymore.
trying on a metaphor
Peter Solarz
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Me opening up the half-finished draft of my ‘narratively creative’ Conclave fanfic:
Write it badly or it'll never be written
Write it badly or it'll never be written
Write it badly or it'll never be written
Write it badly or it'll never be written
Write it badly or it'll never be written
Please keep interacting with this post because when I come to tumblr to procrastinate, this shows up again in my notifications and guilts me into writing again
If I might add (as I am sure other have done before me)
DRAW IT BADLY OR IT'LL NEVER BE DRAWN
DRAW IT BADLY OR IT'LL NEVER BE DRAWN
DRAW IT BADLY OR IT'LL NEVER BE DRAWN
DRAW IT BADLY OR IT'LL NEVER BE DRAWN
“It’s okay if you thought you were over it but it hits you all over again.
It’s okay to fall apart even after you had it under control.
You are not weak. Healing is messy. And there is no timeline for healing.”
“They’re just looking for attention.”
Oh, a human being is seeking a social response? Human being, the social animal wired to make and track social connection? A human desires the vital blood that permitted their species to survive for millennia? The human being who was born completely helpless and primed in every way by nature to seek attention and help from their community?
Wow that’s crazy. How embarrassing. Humiliating even. Should we isolate them from community? Should we call Wire Mother?
in 2026, remember how GOOD writing feels. remember how satsfying it is to get your characters to the point you have been dying to get to, where they will experience the love, fear, relief or whatever the feeling you want to bring to life may be. let this year be the year of writing, prgress and of satisfactory endings.
If you are feeling good about yourself or situation and then your mood suddenly shifts leaving you feeling insecure, unsure, etc. try to remind yourself that nothing has truly changed but your perception. Your cute outfit did not suddenly become horrid. Your delicious meal did not tranform into a terrible one. Your peers perception of you has not radically transformed over a social misstep. Everything we experience is put through it through our mental filter, and that can convince us that everyone else sees us with the judgement we have for ourselves. Be kind to yourself.
things people have done to help me during a psychosis episode
i was on the buss and i hallucinated bugs crawling all over my hands, so my friend pulled my hoodie sleeves over them with permission and held my hands through the sleeves to "keep them off". they used the logic you would in a real bug situation.
i went nonverbal in a bad one in class, so my friend wrote me a note to give to the nurse since the teacher wouldn't let her go with me.
i often am very paranoid about the delusion that meat is actually rotten, so my dad will sometimes eat a bit of it before me
instead of telling me my delusions arent real, they help me through it using logic like it was real. they dont tell me that nothings going to hurt me in my sleep, they stay with me to keep me safe. then when it passes i can realize its not real
edit: i am not a doctor. i am not saying this will work for everyone, the only reason this works for me is because I have short term delusions typically. Typically, it helps me most when people point out the things not real in a loving manner AND help me as though it is
this is not advice for helping every mentally ill person
i am glad it is helping so many people tho! i love you all and I never thought this would blow up.
Reblogging on main!!!!
Your trauma is valid even if you freeze in the moment.
So many survivors shame themselves for not fighting back. For not running. For not screaming. But freezing is a survival response just like fight or flight. It is automatic and built into the nervous system.
If you froze, it was because your body believed it was the safest option. You did not fail. You survived. That is what matters.
You are still allowed to grieve what happened. You are allowed to be angry. You are allowed to seek support. Freezing does not make your trauma any less valid.
me, reaching into my dresser drawer for black pants: I hope this isn’t the pair with big holes worn in the inner thighs
Marie Kondo, gently over my shoulder: why is a pair of pants you find unwearable still in your dresser drawer
me: oh shit that’s right!! The dresser is for clothes that under some circumstance I might conceivably wear!!
Marie Kondo, beaming proudly: Yes, that’s correct!! These pants must have been your favorites. How wonderful that they were so comfortable and practical that you wore them out. But now since they no longer function as pants, you should move them from the drawer where you keep your functioning pants!
me: Yes thanks I got it they’re in the fabric basket now
Marie Kondo, fading back into the darkness: I love what you’ve done with the kitchen!!
I will get there
sometimes mental illness does make you act like a piece of shit. when my ocd was undiagnosed a couple years back I was absolutely insufferable because I could not control my confession/reassurance and rumination compulsions at all and I fucking hated myself so everything had to be morally pure or I would spiral and I made myself believe and said some things that made my personality not the best. sometimes healing means knowing that you are not perfect. sometimes mental health issues make people act awful and that does not give you the right to demonize and dehumanize them or the disorder. yes even that disorder. and sometimes you have to forgive yourself for the bad things you believed. you are not perfect and that is a good thing.
Gotta continue drawing gang, if not for you then for your inner tween self who makes vampire oc’s