Orchid Horror

Indie Matou Sakura - HF spoilers - by Hakunon - Read the Rules and About before following, as this blog contains dark subjects and heavy themes.

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Send me a url and I'll record my voice saying the url along with what I think of them.

I’ll do them all in one audio clip

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hi this url yes pls

hi mom (part 2)

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✗miscellaneous sentence starters

❝ sometimes i feel like nothing’s real. ❞ ❝ oh, forgive my manners. ❞ ❝ don’t play with fire unless you’re willing to get burned, darling. ❞ ❝ stop depending on me so much. ❞ ❝ will there ever be a day where we won’t end up shouting at each other? ❞ ❝ you smell so nice. ❞ ❝ i love you and trust you, but you need to slow down a bit– with everything. please? ❞ ❝ that’s a nice hickey you got there. ❞ ❝ are you out of your goddamn mind? ❞ ❝ we don’t have much time left. ❞ ❝ take deep breaths, honey. ❞ ❝ i don’t want to talk about it now. ❞ ❝ knock it off already, __. ❞ ❝ you seriously don’t know how to tie hair into a ponytail? ❞ ❝ wait for me right here and don’t move, i’ll be back in a minute. ❞ ❝ i’ve taken some pretty photos yesterday. do you want to see them…? ❞ ❝ i want a new tattoo. ❞ ❝ i don’t want a fucking rose bouquet, __. i want chocolate. ❞

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diexirae

@flosregiis x here

“The view of a dead world that has nothing alive past all this white?” the drab man pointed out. Maybe it was exactly that which was enchanting the girl, he mused to himself silently.

“You do not need to concern yourself with that. Although weak, I am still a Servant… besides, every time I close my eyes I am alone with my own darkness. And I made a promise, that I would keep myself away from it inside these walls.”

“Yes, I don’t really know how to explain it but it helps me a bit.” The knowledge that everything and everyone she had once ‘known’ was gone - erased from the very concept of existence, not just dead - this scenery eased that burden somehow. “Knowing what happened and seeing the world like this . . . those are two very different things, and seeing it helps me.”

“Do Servants not need sleep? I’m sorry I-I don’t really know much about what it means to be a Servant.” She had some memories of course, but had been told they didn’t really belong to ‘her’. That she was just a copy of a real person, who might have existed at some point in time. “That Master asked me to support you, but I don’t really know how I can do that.”

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grailoved

He nodded, fading from view, silently accepting his role as the servant of his master’s brother.

It was a revolting thought- the boy was everything he had hoped for so long to stop, and yet here he was, forced to play as his personal tool.

Truly a black joke for a Hero of Justice.

Perhaps, if he had been the teenager he started his journey as, he would have chuckled at the thought.

Time passed, as it always did for her, in a painful blur. The only bright spot in her life was the daily breakfasts she was still able to take at the Emiya house. Nii-san had insisted, so she now took dinner back “home”, with him. Really, he just wanted to keep her close by for his own convenience, since his mood was ever-fluctuating. Every night he would set out, full of confidence, with Assassin in tow. He always demanded that she be there to see him off, and was always there to welcome him home, as though they were a real family. Really, it was just for his own convenience though.

Shinji would set out full of confidence, but always return dissatisfied. They were never able to find an enemy, or their scouting had turned up unfavorable results, it was too cold out - Sakura had heard all of these reasons as more as justification for Shinji’s black moods. And with his wrist still in a sling, he had been forced to get creative with his methods of venting his stress. Lately, he had become fond of using the hardcover back of his contract tome to knock her face to the side - sometimes even clear off her feet until she fell to the floor with a heavy ‘thud!’. Sakura didn’t mind though, after all, since in those weeks it had only been the one time that his mood was either good enough or bad enough for him to- 

they would- 

Nii-san would force her to-

In the midst of all this, Assassin was a constant in the corner of her eye. For a Servant who’s main trait was supposed to be invisibility and stealth, he was awfully . . . present. Every now and then Sakura would catch herself wondering at his thoughts - but would quickly catch herself and remember that it didn’t really matter, as it had nothing to do with her.

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fafnirsxbane

He wont kill your senpai. He’s just going to hurt him. Very, very badly. You can take care of his mangled body afterwards.

No. No, no. No! No. Unacceptable. There will be no mangling, no wounding, maiming, or harming! “Should I just swallow you now? You're a smaller morsel than that golden guy . . . and the Grail is always hungry for more.”

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@fafnirsxbane

There will be absolutely no Senpai-killing in this establishment.

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cursedjustice

“Thanks Sakura! I-”

“-WAIT, WHAT!?!”

“Hm? Is something the matter? All I said is that Senpai’s butt is nothing like a lumpy cinnamon roll, but instead is like a nice, juicy fruit!”

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noircisaint

Pathetic.

One word that could describe the figure in her arms. One that was treated like a mere object and cast aside when attention for her was thinned out. For three nights and three days she was witness to the use of this human sized plaything. Pity was not something Avenger had for this girl, yet she would be damned to leave her to waste away on the floor as she seemed to want. Was she not aware to the potential she embodied?

Her spirit so shattered that she would act according to the wills of others rather then her own?

❝ For what reason do you refuse to fight back? Remaining submissive shall only lead to more misery. ❞

One question and the consequence if refusal to stand would be responded. Avenger wished to only know this. To know why one refused to rebel to such mistreatment.

@flosregiis | Cont.

Ah, there was the mockery she’d been expecting. The questions - the demands that echoed the voices in her head. Why was she even asking, really? Was the answer not obvious, especially to a self-proclaimed villain?

“I think I know why I was able to summon you, Avenger.” she said, in lieu of a direct answer. “You have enough power to not only win this war, but to level the city, I think.” The warmth of another human body was slowly defrosting her limbs, but with that warmth came pain and awareness that the cold had numbed.

“You’re my test.” Could she resist giving in to the urgent rage inside of her? Sakura felt that eventually the sheer force of it would break her ribs, thumping out a deadly rhythm next to her heart. How long could she keep it contained when the temptation of bloody revenge was dangled in front of her? “If I can resist, then maybe I can finally be wiped clean. If I give in though, that would just prove it wouldn’t it? That I really do deserve this.”

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*set to the tune of the Danny Phantom theme* Young Shirou Emiya was 17, when he met a tsundere girl named Rin, competing in a war unseen. (he’s gonna save ‘em all ‘cause he’s Shirou Emiya) When he got in too deep, he got killed and died, but Rin wasn’t just gonna let it slide, just when he thought that things couldn’t get more weird, a legendary king had appeared! (Emiya, Emiya) [Part 1]

Oh really? Sounds like Senpai is really popular … . She’s happy for him, no really! There’s no reason for her to be jealous - no years-long hopes and dreams that could be crushed as easily as a fragile balloon with the news that he’s suddenly spending lots of time with beautiful and mysterious foreign warriors and her perfect annoying thieving sister!

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Sakura might not be as physically intimidating as any servant or any of the alters like cu alter or jalter or any other stand-offish character. But she’s just as hard to get close to and get to know, which can make RPing her a bit difficult. But at the same time I don’t want to sacrifice her coping methods and the boundaries she naturally would have put up as a victim of long-time abuse for the sake of easier interactions.

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jokes aside I’d really like to be active again here so like/reblog this if you’re interested in interacting or plotting something pre-established out? i live for that stuff

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jokes aside I’d really like to be active again here so like/reblog this if you’re interested in interacting or plotting something pre-established out? i live for that stuff

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cursedjustice

“I could never forget or hate you, Sakura. You will always have a place in my heart. If you plan to stay anywhere, being at my side is better than nowhere!” Senpai heard your depression and he will stab it.\

“Goodness Senpai, whatever are you talking about? That was quite the dramatic proclamation! Are you sure you should be wasting those great lines on me?” Does a 180 and casually sweeps self-hatred and depression under the rug. Not for Senpai’s eyes!

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“It’s been so long since I was here . . . everyone’s probably forgotten about me by now . . . or hates me for disappearing. Either way it would probably be better to just stay gone.”