4th Oct
I want to start writing. I have always had this idea to blog but I have never really gone through with it. I want to start making it a habit or maybe that’s just my thought prosses in the moment right here right now. I can barely type without looking at the keyboard can you imagine. Regardless I think it would be a productive use of my time, Who knows. Non the less. It’s October 4th 2017...Still in that mental struggle trying to figure out what to do with my short period of time on this earth. I am sure it’s a question we all have, still drawing a blank though.
You know it’s truly amazing what people can do with their time...Just time, in general, it truly impresses me. Even when it comes to Memes on 9Gags or the works on DeviantArt, It's truly remarkable when people can create something that can make you feel something and the amount of hard work that they put in it you can’t even imagine. It’s a thought that always goes through my head from music, to pictures to movies. My dream is to do them all. of course, it’s not that simple but you have to start somewhere don’t you. If it was up to anyone in this world they would wanna be an artist or play sports...Aint no mother fucker wanna be a damn accountant ain't, not nigga ever said My DREAM is to be in Finance, it’s impractical (I am sure people have had these dreams duh but it’s rare).
The question still lies: What to do? What can you get into full throttle, full passion? It’s a tall order when you want to go into it INTENTIONALLY. Most passions are unintentional people just keep going with them cause they enjoy it. I have let go of all my passions (as in I have not done them in a while) Now I wanna enter something that I know will be a productive use of my time but I really can’t muster up the courage to just pick and start one. Is it because I value my time too much? Or I am just being a lazy ass bitch. I would assume it’s the latter but I keep cycling back. Who knows.
