bill was the only one on eva. bill is inside the capsule.
we have 3 expies. 3 accounted for. they are all inside the capsule. the door is locked.
Something is outside the capsule. it is not an expie. it is allegedly bill. bill is inside the capsule. the hatch is blocked. they have no eyes. no face. Something is outside the capsule. I cannot save the game. I cannot load a save. Something is outside the capsule. The door is locked.
THATS NOT BILL. THAT ISNT FUCKING BILL. IT WONT LET GO. IT WONT LEAVE. THAT ISNT BILL EXPIE I KNOW IT ISNT BILL IS IN THE FUCKING CAPSULE. WE HAVE NO CONTROLS. THE BUTTONS DONT WORK. THAT ISNT BILL.
bill was the only one on eva. bill is inside the capsule.
we have 3 expies. 3 accounted for. they are all inside the capsule. the door is locked.
Something is outside the capsule. it is not an expie. it is allegedly bill. bill is inside the capsule. the hatch is blocked. they have no eyes. no face. Something is outside the capsule. I cannot save the game. I cannot load a save. Something is outside the capsule. The door is locked.
THATS NOT BILL. THAT ISNT FUCKING BILL. IT WONT LET GO. IT WONT LEAVE. THAT ISNT BILL EXPIE I KNOW IT ISNT BILL IS IN THE FUCKING CAPSULE. WE HAVE NO CONTROLS. THE BUTTONS DONT WORK. THAT ISNT BILL.
the thing is, if your younger self was a bigot or an abuser, u can't make people forgive you. but you still gotta forgive yourself, like that's non-negotiable, dude. that happens before u can even ask the question of earning forgiveness from anyone lese
oops, in your attempt to martyr yourself out of respect for your victims you accidentally sabotaged your own ability to conceptualize yourself as anything but a perpetual evildoer who is always one bad day away from hurting everyone you love, all but guaranteeing history to repeat itself. rookie mistake
im gonna try explaining myself, cus im a gambling addict and im waiting for the day that it actually works.
"forgiveness" is personal, that's why I said in the post that you might inflict harm on people for which they can never forgive you, but that's their quest. if you abuse someone, you can't go no-contact with yourself. you actually keep living in your own head indefinitely, and ultimately you need to learn to live with yourself in order to continue living a full life without further harm. this is not necessarily an anti-carceral thought, although i am generally anti-carceral myself. I simply want people to like, fix their heart and atone for real with measured accountability & self love instead of dissociating, self-marking themselves forever and guaranteeing their recidivism.
You and a remorseful abuser would both think I'm giving the easy, coddling path. It's actually the tough pragmatic path in disguise.
bill was the only one on eva. bill is inside the capsule.
we have 3 expies. 3 accounted for. they are all inside the capsule. the door is locked.
Something is outside the capsule. it is not an expie. it is allegedly bill. bill is inside the capsule. the hatch is blocked. they have no eyes. no face. Something is outside the capsule. I cannot save the game. I cannot load a save. Something is outside the capsule. The door is locked.
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