“I just need to learn how to seem more normal and they’ll leave me alone,” she thought, lacking any ability to understand why the boys they said were her peers seemed to hate her from the moment they met her
Patriarchal society teaches boys to hate girls and believe it or not being a girl involuntarily sorted into boys spaces can very often mean being seen as an acceptable (and even deserving) target for that prejudice
“Hello yes the boys you keep forcing me to be around keep attacking me on sight and the girls I find myself relating to and drifting towards have already learned that ‘boys’ are dangerous, which I don’t disagree with, but as a result they’re keeping their distance out of fear that I’m the exact sort of predator I’m trying to find refuge from, may I have some basic human kindness and connection, please?”
“That’s extremely selfish of you have you considered that maybe you deserve to be abused?”
“I had not! I’ll just internalize that now since it’s the only consistent message that anyone is sending”
I literally cannot stress enough the constant societal forces that work 24/7 to make even an unrealized trans girl think that her existence is fundamentally wrong and she deserves to be punished for it
Before I knew it was about gender I still knew that there was something ‘defective’ about me that justified the bullying and the harassment and the total lack of empathy from the people who billed themselves as figures of authority
"Suicide survivor" (again, not someone who survived a suicide attempt) is truly impressive as a concept. They managed to make a group even more repulsive than just "parent"
My kid killed themselves because I was awful, I'm going to start a charity that yells at newspapers for saying "committed suicide" instead of "completed suicide" or something, they really should be more considerate to us Suicide Survivors (knew someone who killed themselves) (not people who survived a suicide attempt)
It's killing us. I don't think you understand it's killing us. Every time you scroll past a Black tgirl getting harassed without doing anything to make her feel less alone. Every time you just accept that a space you're in doesn't have Black tgirls. Every time you don't prioritize Black tgirls even when we are the primary victims of the thing you are talking about (like the ""deplatforming"" of trans girls who rely on mutual aid to survive, which disproportionately targets Black girls). I don't think you understand how much it's fucking killing us when you don't do a thing to help us and make us feel less alone in this transmisogynoirist hellscape. You use us for your arguments, you make one post or reblog about loving Black tgirls to make yourself look good, and then you leave us to die alone and afraid
I'm talking about Black trans women and transfems. I'm not talking about "POC." I'm not talking about "all trans women." I'm not talking about "Black trans people." Stop trying to broaden this post that I specifically made about Black trans girls.
I don't want to hear your white guilt. You are still ignoring us.
If you really need to talk about how guilty you are, how much you suck for being white, how you need to make more of an effort, go make your own post. Several Black trans women have used this post's tags and reblogs to speak about their own experiences being ignored in these spaces. When you fill this blog's reblogs and tags up with your "sorry for being white and sorry for ignoring them," you are covering up and speaking over their experiences in order to try and feel better about yourself. You are still prioritizing yourself in a conversation that is explicitly not about you.
Make your own post if you really, truly want to reflect on how you can be a better ally. Here is not the place for it. Let the dolls speak. Put them on a pedestal like they deserve.
Hey yall I am truly just trying to keep my head above water. I am working almost every day, often 7-8 days in a row. I have 9 days until my next paycheck and I am completely broke. I just want to pay for food and gas to work until the 19th. Thank you so much
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