hungry & hollow

nam joohwan. 25 years old. lead vocal and lead dancer of origin.

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Joohwan releases Gold Star Portal song “Sayonara Hitori”

Origin’s Joohwan has released a new song through the Gold Star Media branch of the Portal digital music project! The release is titled “Sayonara Hitori” and is his first Japanese-language release as a solo artist. “Sayonara Hitori” is a cross between a theatrical piano ballad and a dubstep dance track and the music video holds a similar duality of contrasting heavenly and hellish settings created through CGI. Joohwan contributed in part to crafting the song’s choreography, which appears throughout the music video.

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fmdandy​:

andy was dating a twelve year old.

a twelve year old who made his blood boil, and set fire to his skin with the slightest of moves. he was halfway convinced hwan’s tongue had venom in it with the way his lip stung. his hand lifted, temptation seething to touch it, but he stopped himself short of looking like a debby ryan in radio rebel ass romance chick.

“i so did not watch you!” andy called out after hwan, who had slipped from his eyesight. he could not believe this man, whom he chose to have in his life, was making him run, nor could he believe that he was actually doing so. it’d started as a jog, really, until andy realized he really had lost hwan’s sight.

there was no way any trainer could convince him to do more cardio for the next week, not at the speed with which andy found his legs pumping to. legs that led andy to… many dead ends. a stupid fucking pumpkin was in one of them, and it might have taken all of andy’s willpower to not punt that fucker into next tuesday. it was then he decided to give up on the traditional method, and climbed.

he looked towards the entrance first, in case anyone important was near the maze, but when he saw the coast was clear, climbed further, to look over the tops, where he saw his dumbass mophead. “fucking whore,” he called out, then, quieter, “i’m so gonna get his ass,” as he climbed back down and headed back towards the direction he’d seen hwan.

and when he found him, andy lurched forward, grappling hwan around the waist, and the back of his head. they fell to the floor, andy atop of hwan. not nearly uncharted territory. andy made quick work of redistributing his hands to grasping hwan’s wrists. his chest rose and fell in swift movements along with his breath, while he looked over hwan’s face. when he did end up speaking, it came out gruff, but quiet, “do i get my prize now?”

hwan didn’t know what had prompted him to run.

it was a very silly thing for him to do. if it wasn’t merely due to them being inside of a maze, of all things, but also because neither of them were kids. being playful was something that hwan and andy did, at times, in the privacy of their own home, within the limits they had agreed upon, but this was a bit too childish even for him. he didn’t regret it, though. there was something fun about the experience of being chased around, of knowing what would come whenever andy managed to catch him.

joohwan surely didn’t account for getting lost. he should’ve, considering it was indeed a maze, meant to make people confused. he ran around, trying to find the perfect place for him to stop, a place difficult enough to find that would take andy sometime but also remote enough that they’d have some privacy. he luckily didn’t run into anyone as he tried to find his footing, the weed he had smoked not really making the job any easier. hwan kept running until he found a dead end, a nook that would be slightly complicated for anyone to reach but he trusted his boyfriend’s intelligence.

as he very well should for it didn’t take long at all for andy to catch him. hwan loosened his body, allowing himself to be thrown to the ground and his wrists to be pinned above him. body lax, he went as far as arching his back so they were pressed even closer. joohwan put on a fake frown. “took you long enough, i was starting to worry you’d just leave me here, lost and dealing with my loneliness,” he spoke around a pout, moving his hips up to grind against andy’s.

“you already have me. i’m your prize. do with me whatever you wish for,” he smiled and reached forward, taking andy’s lips in his. it felt amazing to kiss him, especially with the added excitement that came at the very real possibility of the two of them being caught. he only drew back to whisper a single word; “please.”

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fmdxaera​:

who: @fmdjoohwan​​ when: october 18th where: coffee shop in seoul

aera was never normally an active watcher of competition shows; she’s never been one for competition regardless, she is far too nervous in general for things like that. so her applying to be a guest on our songs was a shocker to most people who knew her. so as she sits in the coffee shop, she does her best to fight back the nerves that threaten to bubble up over the surface. aera knows she’s not exactly most people’s first pick for a partner for something like this. she’s not a main vocal, nor can she rap. but she supposes she does have charisma going for her, and she can definitely hold a tune.

the sight of the cameras swivelling to lock onto a somewhat familiar figure jolts her out of her thoughts, and she grins slightly when she sees who her partner is. “ah! hey. i guess i’m your partner!”

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the form they were given with the guidelines for the song creation didn’t really offer much information on the idols they’d be working with. there were several of idols hwan could think of that would fit the basics of what was said, so he didn’t really know exactly what path to take. the melody for the song came first and he composed it easily after that, just playing around with the guitar and the bass until he had something he was minimally interested in. but getting to the lyrics had been a… struggle, to say the least. and by the time he walked into the coffee shop – a few minutes late, as it were with his inevitably busy schedule – he only had some very vague lyrics he had asked one of the gold star producers to record for him.

joohwan isn’t surprised to see aera, but he’s grateful at least he’d be working with someone who seems to have a good temper. “oh, hello,” he bows his head to the staff around before taking his seat across from her. “hello, yes, i guess so!” joohwan smiles. he doesn’t know her well, beyond crossing paths backstage in music and award shows through the years, but she does seem like a sweet girl. “have you ordered anything? i’ll pay.”

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fmdxsuji​:

if suji knew anything more about joohwan and his songwriting habits then she would have been able to give a more enthusiastic response, but her knowledge about him was the bare minimum. his whole group is known to be active participants in their own music, but that’s pretty much all she knows. so she simply nods to his words, adding in a hum or two to indicate that she’s listening. “yeah. i would write and then completely scrap it because i wasn’t sure if whomever was singing it would share the same sentiments as i did.” 

tugging on the blanket that’s placed over her legs, she fixed her position as more people started to walk into the studio. “that’s true. i’ve placed fifth, what, twice now? maybe it’s an indication that fifth is where my music stands. though i don’t find that necessarily a bad thing. perhaps my music is simply comfortable to listen to but not good enough to be on top.” suji shrugs at her own comments regarding her music. the fifth place rankings haven’t been terrible, but it has been a bit discouraging that she’s been in the middle for both times. it also makes her scared that she’ll be the one to go this time around. that on top of a brand new style of music that she had to write just for this round? it’s a lot of things all at once.

considering origin’s been marketed for their self-produced music – never mind the fact that the group has barely been touching it for the past couple of years – joohwan went into our songs knowing he has big shoes to fill. it’s not fair, though, for people to have put super high expectations on him as if he has half of the experience some of his members do. he’s written maybe three songs for the group that actually made it into albums and none of them are particularly witty or incredible lyrics wise. so yeah, even though he’s into the show amidst claims that he’s one of the favorites due to the sheer size of his fandom, the expectations on him have been too big for him to properly handle it and he expects for it to start affecting him sooner rather than later.

none of those thoughts are voiced out loud. he doesn’t know suji so his grievances are going to be kept to himself. “well, i placed last and then third, so i don’t think there’s a genuine pattern for it.” the songs were completely different from each other, too. joohwan doesn’t know what to expect when it comes to the way people will react to this week’s song. “did you have a singer or a rapper?”

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njhnjh1109: another dazed bts... i promise i’ll stop posting pictures of that day but i have a lot of them on my phone ㅋㅋㅋ

njhslawyer: it’s okay daddy you can post whatever you want and we’ll love it! ethereal_hwan: wasn’t that water dirty? i hope you didn’t get sick!  petite_njh: still no feet pics ):  midnight_joohwan: HE’S SO TINY LOOK AT THIS      ↪ peachy__hwan: @midnight_joohwan what are you talking about this man is 6′0 it’s the bridge that’s big hwan_1109: are you posting this to distract us from the reports of fans seeing you in paris?  👀

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fmdxsuji​:

everytime suji stumbles upon joohwan, she can’t help but wonder what’s going on in his head. it’s not like they were friends though they’ve gotten past the bumpy road of their acquaintance, but she still likes having an idea on how people are like. joohwan remains somewhat of a mystery to her. she nods at his words, pretending like she actually knows what he usually writes about. she’s listened to his solo music, yes, but she’s never fully paid attention to the topic of his pieces. 

“my process was something like that. i usually figure out the lyrics first, but this time i ended up coming up with the melody and composition before i could even think about what to write about.” pursing her lips together, she let out a deep sigh before shrugging at his last question. “i’m not fully satisfied with it, but i don’t hate it either so that’s gotta mean something, right?” it’s a rhetorical question more than anything, and she doesn’t expect joohwan to even answer it. “just hoping to not be eliminated i guess. the show’s been pretty good at challenging me.”

the relationship between him and suji – or lack thereof – is a good indicative of the way hwan interacted with most people in his company. they are both the same age, they had trained together at one point, even if hwan’s training period had been infinitely shorter. never had a direct issue with each other – differently from the issues joohwan had had with other trainees, some of which had even joined his group – yet hwan couldn’t even begin telling anyone anything about suji. she’s… a good singer. british, he believes. but that’s about it. her fans probably know her way better than he ever could.

“hm, there’s definitely a challenge in trying to write words for someone else.” especially when he’s a man writing a song for a woman. perhaps he’s more aware of these things than most songwriters but through the process joohwan had had to stop himself several times to wonder whether it’d make sense for a female idol in particular to say some of the things he was writing about. a difficult affair. “as much as i reckon it’s important for us to like the things we write, our opinion ultimately counts a lot less than what the public enjoys, doesn’t it? i think that’s why it’s frustrating. there’s nothing we can do about it once it’s out there.”

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fmdjoosung​:

extra hugs were sung’s forte. he squeezed hwan in a little tighter, and brought a hand up to stroke at the back of hwan’s head, lazy scritches just to add more warmth to their shared touch. a couple of years ago, this interaction wouldn’t have happened if pigs grew wings, and yet knowing that only made sung all the more grateful for the moments the two of them were comfortably intimate. it meant joohwan had accepted him into his heart. and though he’d like to say it was entirely selfless, that was part of why he squeezed in tighter.

but then, it was hwan pulling back first, despite sung knowing he could have stayed in that position for hours. the gentle thoughts were interrupted, as hwan mentioned his blush. he brought a hand up to his cheek, small gasp preceding the pouting fall of his face that came after. sung wasn’t good enough at makeup yet, but at least he had hwan to help him until then. he sat down at the vanity and watched hwan fix him through his lashes. “i’m worried about that, um, sort of. positions and musical preference aren’t a great way to determine skillset. i like pop a lot, but i wouldn’t sound good singing a pop song.” though he’d tried. “i wouldn’t want to blame them, whoever it is, because they’d probably do their best but-” sung huffed, blowing his hair a smidge. words were hard to combine with thoughts. “um, i just wanna know who they are, y’know?”

joosung was cute. hwan was certain that the older man was aware of it because there was no way he didn’t play up his cuteness on purpose sometimes but it was still fun to note. if hwan felt his walls crumbling a little bit whenever sung acted more like a teenager girl than his twenty-seven years old self. he didn’t comment on it though, focusing on adjusting joosung’s blush. joohwan had been doing stage make up since he was ten, and his skills only improved after he became an idol and got to work directly with make up artists willing to give him some tips and tricks. it would probably be a surprise to fans how good at make up hwan actually was but he refused to let them in on this anyway.

joohwan scoffed. “anyone can sound good singing a pop song,” if hwan had managed to do it back when his vocal skills were less than subpar, anyone could, really. “the problem is that most composers are too scared of making pop songs in lower keys so you rarely see baritones singing a pop song but it doesn’t mean they can’t. anyone can. pop is a very versatile genre and it’s underutilized in this industry since there’s a very specific vocal tone most people enjoy.” as he was working on his sophomore album, joohwan had been studying music further, both composition and production. there were patterns that even with his decades of musical training he had only recently started to notice. “i care less about who they are and more how willing they will be to go with the suggestions i present. i don’t want to work with someone picky. i’m enough of a perfectionist for the both of us.”

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𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐬 𝐚𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐜 ; 𝐝𝐧𝐚

dna was the title track of the mini-album love yourself: her, which came out on september 20, 2017. it was the start of the love yourself era, the one that launched origin into absolute stardom and, subsequently, the start of hwan’s never ending migraine. he likes the song, thinks it’s one of the best in the realm of pop that they’ve been working with since, but sometimes he wonders what would’ve happened if the song never got that big and origin didn’t reach the level of famous they are now. aka his life would probably be considerably easier and he would have way less grey hairs.

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fmdxsuji​:

though she was nervous about the performance of her own piece, she was quite excited to see what the other competitors could come up with. suji had walked into this round feeling the least confident so far because of her stagnant rating. the twist of a mission didn’t help either seeing that she’d had to dive into a genre and skill set that she’s never even attempted before. the others seem to have more experience writing for other people as well, and so she just felt that she was at a disadvantage overall. probably her fault for not branching out earlier enough. 

the audience is slowly starting to get seated, and there’s only a couple of idols that have arrived already. even the staff members are still getting everything ready. it feels almost like deja vu to the first round when they were seated like this, and she had started a conversation. her emotions now are similar to how they were back then as well, and so she decides why not go full circle and strike up another conversation.

“hey, how was writing for this round like? i think i blanked out for like a whole week trying to figure out how to write for someone i didn’t even know.”

@fmdjoohwan, november 7th

for once, joohwan arrives early. it’s mostly due to the low number of origin activities in the past few days, what with the end of the promotional period. it definitely helps that gold star doesn’t seem to schedule all that many promotions for them anyway – what’s the point in them wasting so much time when they are going to sell extremely well regardless? and such is that having yet another million seller album has mostly helped hwan’s mood remain on the good side the past few days. that definitely matters very little when it’s already been proven that his fame is not going to make him win or even get too far in this show, the memory of being the last ranked in the first round still a bitter round. he’s happier with his position in the second one but he definitely wishes he could improve it further.

hwan is not even camera ready yet. no make up, still wearing the clothes he came to the studio with. it’s the only time he’s found to have any type of meal and he’s just finished eating when suji approaches him. he looks up from where he was scrolling through his phone to pay the woman attention. “i just wrote about something i could relate to?” love, as per usual. he could hear some distant teasing in the back of his head, telling him that he’s become extremely mono-thematic for very obvious reasons. “i did struggle a bit, though. got the composition done before the lyrics then i had two days to come up with something. i’m still not happy about it, though. you?”

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notes: mentions of duri, youngjoo, suji. 

The nerves are probably visible on Joohwan’s face and he doubts he does a good job at clearing his expression before sitting down for the interview. Oh well.

Talk about the song you wrote for this task. How do you feel it compares to the first two songs you wrote for the show?

“I think Diver definitely falls in line with Whistle more so than That’s Not Me, if only because of the retro sounds as well as the live band aspect of it.” He scratches his chin, smiling apologetically. “Does that make sense? I don’t know if they are all similar to each other since they are thematically very distinct but Diver and Whistle definitely are the closest of the three.”

How do you feel the idol you wrote for did in performing your song? In what ways do you feel the song benefited from not being performed by you?

“Aera did great.” He needs to believe in that rather than allow for his thoughts to make him second-guess someone else’s work. “In my opinion, the song definitely fit her and allowed for her to showcase a slightly different side of herself while still fitting the sound that WISH has been developing these past few years. I don’t think I would’ve done it justice because the song asked for someone who was more youthful than I am!”

Which of the other songs/performances caught your attention the most?

“I really enjoyed Duri sunbaenim’s performance of Heaven. It’s a really good song, Youngjoo sunbaenim did a great job with it and his vocals really improved what was already good.” Hwan was jealous, a little bit. He wished he could sing even a little bit like Duri did. “I enjoyed Iljido as well. It was a different performance from the rest so it’s bound to stand out, and very different from what Suji performed last week so I’m sure the audience is going to be excited when taking that into consideration. It showcases a lot of versatility from her.”  

Which song do you expect got the most votes online and from the audience?

Hwan suppressed the desire to roll his eyes – were they going to ask this always even though it was impossible to tell? “By now we’ve noticed that there’s no way to tell. I think all the songs have a good shot because they are all good songs that deliver well on what they intend to.”

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Thoughts still lost on what they had just been told about the production in regards to the theme for the next round, Joohwan is less present than usual when he sits down to do the mandatory interview.

How are you feeling about the ranking you received last round? How do you feel about it in comparison to your rank for the first round?

A moment to think about the last round. He had placed well. Third rather than dead last as he was expecting to do and much better than the dead last he had reached in the first round. Definitely an improvement. “I’m very happy about it!” He puts on a smile, hands resting on his crossed knees. “Definitely an improvement comparing to the first round. I thought I was going to be eliminated but I’m glad people enjoyed the song I wrote this time around and decided to support me.”

What are your thoughts on the song you’ll write this round based on the information you’ve been given about the idol you’ll be writing for?

Joohwan has… none, not really. He struggles with knowing he has to write for a female idol, for one, and he has no idea how he’s going to write another retro song without making it sound just like Whistle. “Hm, I think I need some more time to think about it? I’m honestly still a bit overwhelmed with the information that we’re not writing for ourselves so I don’t think I can even come up with an idea right now.”

How will you approach writing a song for someone else differently than you’ve approached writing songs for yourself for the first two rounds?

“I think I can only write from my own experience or the things that I know, regardless of who’s going to be the person singing,” and it’s true. There’s nothing for Hwan to offer other than himself and what he knows. “So I’m just going to try to adjust my tone to someone who’s different from me, I guess.”

What are your thoughts on your other competitors at this point in the competition?

“Everybody is truly doing the best they possibly can and it’s admirable to see it,” he nods. Choosing to be democratic and praise everybody seems to be the best alternative right now and Hwan doesn’t care to point out specific people he prefer, especially if that might piss of any fanbase. “It’s really difficult, I’m not expecting it to be easy at all.”

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OUR SONGS: SELF PARA #6

only the future would tell if joohwan’s decisions for the performance of his song were the best ones possible.

considering aera had never released a song completely by herself before, it might have been a kinder decision to put her up on stage with dancers. an entire choreographed performance that might distract people from whatever nervousness that might become transparent. that idea wasn’t really what joohwan thought would be best for his song though, and he had asked for the stage to be kept at a minimum. there were dancers, but only two of them, and added mostly to make numbers and create a slightly more impressive performance. a mic stand in the middle and a proper live band was everything hwan had asked for. he trusted her to do her best and ultimately that was all he could cling to.

he tried his best to watch the performances before aera’s with as much focus as possible but it proved to be really difficult. he thought jaewon’s song was great and really brought in the city-pop feel whereas he was proud of sung’s song for fitting so well with who was performing but he couldn’t help but think about everything that could go wrong with aera’s performance. and most of it wouldn’t even be her fault – what if the song simply didn’t work for her? what if the audience hated and got bored? hwan didn’t know how that would be possible with the song being as upbeat as it was but there was always the possibility.

it was funny to think about how, originally, hwan had believed that being the one performing made for a much more nerve-wracking affair but she hadn’t even gone on stage and he was already cracking his knuckles in anticipation. it had truly dawned on him that he didn’t have any actual control of the situation. it being out of his hands meant that the failure, if it happened, wouldn’t be on him but it would still cause his sub-sequential failure.

joohwan kept having to remind himself that there was nothing for him to lose here – being as consolidated in his career as he was, being eliminated in a competition show wasn’t likely to change it whatsoever, but he was still scared as he had a big desire to succeed at something that he didn’t have to rely on anyone else or origin for.

acknowledging that thought, hwan put it aside, storing it away from whenever he spoke to his therapist next, and focused on aera’s performance that was about to start.

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OUR SONGS: SELF PARA #5

this time around, the melody comes before the lyrics.

joohwan had been very confused upon being give the paper letting him know exactly what he was supposed to write. they had barely registered the fact that the songs wouldn’t be written by them for them, and he was still digesting the information upon the revelation that they would have a very specific set of guidelines for what the song was supposed to be like. the challenge was very clear – it was one thing to write something for yourself, the person you know best, but it’s a complete different situation to have to write an entire song for someone else. hwan really hadn’t experienced that yet, unlike other people in the line up. hell, joosung himself had written songs for hwan, but joohwan had simply not had the chance to do that yet.

things were made even more complicated when he realized he’d be writing for a female idol. joohwan had all the respect in the world for female artists and their work but he just simply wasn’t a woman, and didn’t really know how to navigate writing a song that should technically be coming from the perspective of a woman. adding to that the fact that the person had asked for a song that didn’t follow the theme of love? hwan was truly at a lost at what to do.

it was during a down time in gold star’s studio – hwan having escaped to the building rather than working at the studio at home because he needed less distractions – that the melody came to him. he was just fiddling around on the bass when a couple of notes stuck to hwan particularly. he had been listening to several retro pop tracks in the past couple of days trying to come up with something and it definitely translated in the sound he was coming up with.

replacing the bass with a guitar, it was even easier for him to work on the melody. a guitar riff that was constant, something that would add dynamic and proper excitement to the song. he couldn’t avoid thinking, even as he worked, that what he was coming up with reminded him of michael jackson’s wanna be startin’ somethin’ and hwan had to check the song several times to make sure he was still making something that didn’t sound like a carbon copy.

what he had upon vaguely finishing the work on the melody was a song that was retro in a way that could refer back to what he had performed in the last round but it was much more funky and groovy than whistle. perhaps people would listen to it and know it was him from the go but hwan would be flattered if they did, really.

now onto the lyrics.

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fmdjoosung​:

hand stuttered in place at the knock of the door, sung turned back, as if he were caught red-handed, though his swiftly beating heart slowed again as he saw hwan was the one to greet him. his makeup artist had gone outside for a break, and though he was grateful for what they did for him… sung wanted more blush. just a little.

“oh, hi.” sung turned, and resumed patting down the blush onto his cheek while his friend came over. joohwan was more than supportive of sung’s habits, but he was never sure how other people might feel. at least his manager wouldn’t get upset at him for it. they’d walked into the dorms to see sung in his off-the-clock outfits enough without trouble that it was fine. “we? um, i’m okay. kinda nervous, but, maybe less nervous than last time?” though, when nervous, sung had a little bit of a harder time thinking. as he finished patting his blush down well enough, he righted himself, so that he could hug hwan. “how are we doing? do you need an extra hug? i can give lots.”

a quirk of an eyebrow is all the reaction joohwan outwardly gave when he realized what joosung was doing. how far had the older man come? hwan remembered when sung would feel ashamed if he so much as thought about adding more make up than necessary or wearing it outside of a schedule. he was thankful sung had made so much progress since they’ve met, thankful that some of what his parents had pushed into his head was slowly fading away even if there was a lot more left to work on.

letting himself be hugged, hwan put his arms around the older man’s waist, pulling him closer. “i could use an extra hug, yeah.” it wasn’t just anyone who would get this side of him, who joohwan would willingly hug like this, going as far as burying his face on the other’s neck, but sung’s presence was comforting. he couldn’t bring himself to be all tsundere about his close friendships as he once had been. leaned back, his eyes scanned sung’s face. “come here, the blush is uneven.” dragging sung back to the vanity, hwan reached for the blush and started fixing the make up. “at least this time we don’t have to perform too. though i guess this is stressful on itself because we’re relying on someone else to make our songs sound good.” hwan sighed. “worst case scenario the performance is shit and we get eliminated, but at least we can blame someone else for it.”

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i’ve been really busy but also really sad this week for personal reasons so it’s been difficult to find will and time to write fnsdfds i’m gonna get to more replies tomorrow though and get to replying some people on ims that i left hanging for the past week please be patient with me

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𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍: our songs set || 𝐃𝐀𝐓𝐄: oct 10 || 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇: @fmdjoosung​

after the results from the last episode, joohwan hadn’t really had time to approach anyone else. he had honestly been exhausted and even the happiness that came from finally not placing last and doing pretty decently for himself hadn’t been enough to keep him around for longer than the time it took to change from the outfit he wore for the stage and the more comfortable combination of sweatpants and t-shirt he wore to go home. music core airs earlier, though, and origin didn’t have any schedules after so hwan could take his time arriving to the studio and getting ready. which meant he was done with enough time to be able to visit joosung’s dressing room. he knocked on the door frame and greeted the older man’s staff before entering. “hi,” hwan smiled at his friend, leaning against the vanity in front of where sung was getting ready. “how are we feeling today?”

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fmdandy​:

“you this eager to get some alone time with me, babes?” despite the words, andy’s tone lilted upward, and his cheeks lifted with his lips. andy wasn’t much of the hand holding type, but in that moment he was glad hwan was, because it meant it was that much easier to tug the other man to him down a dead end of the hedge maze, and lock him in against the green wall.

andy let go of one hand gripping the leaves behind hwan to card through the other man’s hair from below, until it reached the crown of his head, where he gripped, with a slight pull. “if you missed me so much, you could have said something sooner.” he could see the playfulness still alight in hwan’s eyes, only visible from a close distance like this, given the mask covering them. envy bubbled lightly in his stomach, but louder, was an ache in his chest. andy wasn’t all that great at deciphering those; one of few things he wasn’t best at. “don’t leave me again. it’s fucking boring around here without you. and i don’t want these bitches thinking they could have you.”

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it hadn’t occurred to joohwan to do all the things he had done since arriving at the ball. a very stern warning had been given to him, as he was getting ready, that he was contractually not allowed to drink, as the last thing prada wanted was for one of their faces to be caught in a scandal. that obviously just meant he had to get his kicks from somewhere else, if he didn’t expect to be extremely bored for however long he had to stay at the ball. being high never had joohwan acting quite this playful but he’d write it off as him just being happy. satisfied, comfortable, interested in doing things he wouldn’t normally do, all that jazz. eventually the man had gotten tired of having fun with other people and went seeking his boyfriend, dragging him in the direction of the hedge maze, which had lead them to this.

“hm, i actually think you’re the one who missed me,” joohwan pointed out, allowing for andy to handle him as he pleased, limbs still loose and comfortable. he wasn’t supposed to still be feeling a little high but it had been a while, after all. “caught you watching a couple of times. you’re not really subtle, you know.” he leaned in to lick at andy’s bottom lip before chuckling. taking advantage of his height and built – hwan was, after all, still bigger than andy – he managed to sneak away from andy’s grip. just because he was comfortable where he was, it didn’t mean hwan didn’t want to play still. “you don’t expect me to make this easy for you, do you?” he asked, head tilting to the side as he stepped backward, having made sure he didn’t have his back to the dead end. “i’ll let you touch me but only if you can catch me.” and off joohwan went, using the head start and maybe the possibility of andy being a bit shocked at his antics as an advantage as he ran further into the maze.