What She Says

I write when I'm inspired, and I write whatever comes to my mind. It might be lyrics. It might be my own words. It might be pictures. It might not make any sense.

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Alberta ➾ Luke Gram

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Peace.

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If we're only ever looking back, we will drive ourselves insane.

Bastille

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In case you need a reason to feel small.

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Friends

Here's a little cliche blurb about friendship. I only have five friends. Real ones, anyway. Sure, there are people who I would call "friends," but in reality, they're just acquaintances and classmates. Knowing that I have five people in this world (other than my family) who care about me more than anything is more than I could ask for.

What I will never understand are the people who act like they have, literally, a thousand friends. There's one girl who I follow on Twitter, Instagram, etc., who posts pictures everyday of herself and other people with the caption "with my best friends!" or "so happy to be reunited with my best friends!" But the people she's with are always different. I just don't get it. How can anyone possibly have enough time in the day or the emotional capacity to be "best" friends with so many people. I understand that some people are just social butterflies, but seriously. Can you say spread too thin? Maybe some people really can be friends with that many people, but as for me, I just don't have the energy, time, or the personality.

I regret to say that all these people with a thousand friends make me feel a little insecure about myself. What's wrong with me that I don't have that many friends? Should I be trying harder to make friends? Do people think I'm mean? A bitch? Stuck up? Not worth their time? I've heard myself as being described as each of these things before. Not to say that I have a low opinion of myself, but like any other human being, I do care, at least a little, about what other people think of me. But there's nothing wrong with me.

There's nothing wrong with anyone who "doesn't have that many friends," and shame to anyone who thinks so. Who cares how many friends you have as long as you're happy? Happiness means something different to everyone. Some people need a thousand friends to be happy. Some people just need five.

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A song that I can't stop listening to. AWOLNATION. Weird but so awesome.

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One day I hope to be lucky enough to travel to all these places.

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The Great Love

Music. The thing that runs, enhances, changes my life.

Music is what keeps me sane. I am literally (I mean that) always listening to music, with the exception of when I am in class, sleeping, or working - during which times I'm usually singing something in my head. I am not a musician in the modern sense, although I used to be pretty good at playing the flute back in high school. But I know how to appreciate good music when I hear it. I'd give almost anything to learn how to play the guitar and the piano. I'll fall in love with any guy who plays the guitar or piano and sings for me (although this love may be fleeting). 

I would just like to share some of my favorite artists, as in all-time favorite. There are too many artists that I like to share them all. But these are the four best, in my opinion, and in no particular order because I couldn't possibly rank them: Mumford and Sons, Zac Brown Band, Dave Matthews Band, and Bon Iver. To me, these artists don't just make music. They use their talent to instigate and provoke emotion. To let people know they aren't alone with their feelings. To inspire people to be better. To tell people there's still good in the world. To let people know it's okay to have a broken heart and to be emotional about it. Their lyrical and musical combinations create an experience for me that's better than any other and transport me to another world.

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A Description

I have decided to start a blog. Well, more of a journal. Recently inspired by a classmate living her dream across the world, I realized how much I feel like writing and having someone - anyone - listen. I want to say I'm a good writer and this will be interesting to read, but I can make no such promises. Mostly I'm doing this for myself, and anyone whose interest this sparks, is welcome to read along. 

I've been attempting to start a journal, because I know how much writing things down makes things in life seem just a little less scary. For some reason I just hate looking back at what I've written on paper as though I just wrote it for myself.. it seems weird to me. And I don't like the possibility of someone ever getting a hold of said journal. Maybe someone else has experienced that before? At any rate, perhaps an online 'journal' will be different. 

I do not claim to be a writer, but I enjoy pretty simple things when it comes down to it. Climbing mountains, being outside on a beautiful day, going on a run in the cemetery after a day of studying. All pretty basic stuff. I love all things by "Life Is Good." Their ideals speak to me. Live life more simply, look for the little things, be grateful for what you have, and you won't ever be disappointed. I love basketball. There's just something about popping in my headphones, grabbing a ball, and ignoring the world for a while. Definitely one of my happy places. I love to read. Although I don't have nearly as much time as I want to do so, I read whenever I can. Being in a rigorous doctorate program, I don't have much free time to do anything during the school year. However, since it's summer, I've been doing it a lot more of late. I love running. But I am by no means a "real" runner. I love photography. All I have right now is an iPhone and ambition, but I'm obsessed with taking pictures. Lastly, I love music. Love is an understatement. To say my life would be dull without music would be an understatement. I know everyone says they love music, but I am infatuated with music. There's always more to discover, always something you didn't notice in that song you've listened to a hundred times, always a memory to be brought back - on purpose or accident - by a song. I have songs I listen to when I need to cry. I have songs I listen to when I need to be reminded that life is more than just being stuck in a messed up world with messed up people. I have songs I listen to when I'm pissed off and feel like punching a wall. I can only hope and try to describe my love of music, but I'll probably never be able to. Someday I can only hope to find someone who shares that love and who I can love that deeply.

As you can probably see, I am a pretty average girl. I'm not traveling the world, I'm not going through the time of my life (that I know of), I don't have any spectacular talents. I'm just a girl trying to be okay with who she is and trying to understand a world full of hate by seeing the good.