Jisung x fem!reader (your name is khai)
friends to lovers/social media au
warnings: swearing, tooth aching fluff, sexual situations, probably some angst
Summary: aside from Khaiâs three girl best friends, Seungmin was her entire world. It was almost always her and Seungmin against the world, until finally Seungmin decided it was time to introduce her to his other best friend, Han Jisung
Khai offered to drive to the airport so that Seungmin could enjoy the reunion with the other boys but of course Seungmin used every excuse in the book so try and deny her offer. âSEUNGMIN, I HIT ONE CURB! LET IT GO!â
Seungmin stopped dead in his tracks (for dramatic effect) and blinked wildly at his best friend. âHIT THE CURB!? Khai, you drove over the curb and hit a pole.â
Jisung watched silently looking from Seungmin to Khai in the battle of âShould Khai Drive?â
âOh my god. The pole didn't even dent the car.â
âCome on Seungmin, you can even ask Yeonjun! I have gotten better!â She ran up to him and wrapped her arms around his and pressed her head against his shoulder. âPleaseeeeeeeee.â
Seungmin had caved and handed her the keys with hesitation, Jisung offered to sit in the front so that if Khai decided to hit something else he would take the hit rather than Seungmin.
It was bullshit and Seungmin knew that, even if Jisung didnât.
The entire car ride Seungmin made it very clear he was holding on for dear life, while Jisung praised her for turning well or coming to a nice stop.
âYou have arrived at your destination.â
âThank you Mr. Map.â Khai smiled, pulling to the pickup side of the curb and putting the car in park. Jisung and Seungmin hopped out of the car, opened the trunk and waited patiently for their friends to exit the building. They looked like husbands waiting for their partners to return home. It was pretty cute, actually. Khai was secretly recording the boys, wanting to capture the reunion on video and rightfully so because never had he seen Seungmin yelp the way he did when they caught a glimpse of Chan and Felix. Jisung was furiously hitting Seungmins shoulder as if he wasnât witnessing the same sight, once the two boys got closer the conversation was slightly muffled due the the fact the windows were rolled up but that wasnât important because the amount of jumping and hugging that was taking place was even more wholesome.
The girl sitting in the driver's seat was happy to watch her best friends being so excited, watching the way Seungmin was smiling so big and the way Jisung was looking at Chan with such admiration, his eyes full of hope and life, they was he looked like he was slightly bouncing in excitement over the mere fact his friends were near him, the way Khai couldnât see his face fully but knew wholeheartedly that he was smiling because it seemed as though his ears were perked up. She didnât even realize she was watching him so hard until Jisung turned around and pointed straight at her, resulting in everyone looking at her through the car window. A soft shade of crimson filled her cheeks as she sent the boys a shy wave before quickly turning to face the road without a second look back. Both car doors opened simultimusly and the boys came piling in and the two new faces were shoving their heads between both front seats with ear to ear grins. âHI, KHAI! ITS SO NICE TO MEET THE FAMOUS NOT SEUNGMINâS GIRLFRIEND.â Khai couldnât help but laugh at the greeting and not to her surprise, Seungmin slapped them both on the back sending the blonde one with freckles to shout out in a dramatic fit while the other doubled over in laughter.
The entire ride home turned into a chaotic mess of shitty karaoke and clowning Jisung for every little thing he did. By the time they arrived home, the other boys were just starting to drift off to sleep, of course until Chan and Felix decided to run in screaming for them to wake up. Changbin, and Hyunjin watched their souls leave their bodies out of the sudden fear, Lee Know woke up looking like he was ready to fight anything in his way, and I.N just opened his eyes unamused without a flinch.
Khai stood in the doorway watching the eight boys reunite in loud screams and tossing up of the Hyunjin against his will.
Khai was living for watching her two favorite boys in their natural habitat, a bunch of boys being boys in the most loud and obnoxious way but still it was a sight that was worth more than a million bucks. She wasnât used to being around more than Seungmin and Jisung these days, so suddenly being around eight was definitely new. âSo, Khai are you going to be staying the whole time we are here?â Felix smiled, while the other seven looked at her with shit eating grins.Â
âYes, if thatâs okay with you guys.âÂ
âWe wanted to go to the zoo and an amusement park tomorrow. Just kinda spend the entire day out.â Lee Know exclaimed in excitement. Everyone nodded in agreement while Khaiâs nod got interrupted by a loud and dramatic yawn, sending Jisung to softly chuckle at his friend's attempt to hide her droopy eyes. âSounds good to me.âÂ
âKhai, you can go to bed if you want.â Khaiâs smile was laced in humorous guilt as she giggled softly falling into another loud yawn. âI donât want to be a party pooper..âShe mumbled softly, all the other boys smiled at her attempts to stay awake until Seungmin and Jisung walked towards her to shoo her out of the room with little to no trouble considering she was too sleepy to argue. âGOODNIGHT KHAI!â All the other boys screamed from the living room.Â
Khai softly hummed in response, Seungmin made sure Jisung had her held before letting go and kissing her softly on the top of the head. âTake her socks off before tucking her in, because she WILL wake up with only one on and she WILL blame you for it. Itâs best to avoid the sock fiasco all together.â The small laugh that fell from Jisungâs lips made Seungminâs face go serious. âNo seriously, she literally didnât talk to me for a week because I forgot the take off her socks after she fell asleep.âÂ
Seungmin patted Jisung on the back before heading back to the living room, leaving him to shuffle his way to get Khai into bed. She kept giggling at Jisungâs grunts and hisses every time he accidently ran into something he forgot to pick up off his floor. âYouâre so clumsy hannie.â Khaiâs sleepy state resembles that of a drunk teen, slurring words slightly and saything things that she most likely would never say if she was wide awake. âWell Khai, you are not making this easy on me.â Jisung laughed back, his cheeks growing a soft shade of pink at the nickname she had never said to him before. âAre you going to sleep now too, Jisunggie?âÂ
âJisunggie? That is the ugliest pet name I have ever heard, dork.â All Khai could do was giggle in response, making her way under the sheets and sinking her head into one of Hanâs pillows. Before Jisung could respond to the sleepy girl in his bed to tell her he wasnât going to bed just yet, she had already fallen asleep. He uncovered her feet before leaving, shedding off her fuzzy socks and setting them on his bedside table. âGoodnight, Khai.â Â
Closing the door behind him softly, he headed back to the living room where all the boys were huddled together speaking in loud whispers. âWell Khai is OUT.âÂ
âOh, yeah she is the heaviest sleeper I have ever met.â Seungmin laughed. Seungmin was convinced that Khai was his soulmate, no matter how the universe wanted to write it. Khai was the first person he wanted to talk to in the morning and the last person he wanted to talk to before he went to bed, plans had been set in motion one drunken night a couple months into their friendship. âSo if we are both single at 30, we get married.â Khai was looking at him intently waiting for his answer, fear hidden deep within her eyes hoping she didnât mess anything up. âI think you and I are already going to spend the rest of our lives together regardless so yeah, getting to have a giant party too? Sounds good to me.â Seungmin didnât have a crush on Khai, more like a love so deep that frankly he would spend the rest of his life with her in whatever way she would let him, they sealed that marriage promise with a kiss that night. It was the first and last time the two ever shared a kiss, it wasnât a bad one it was nice, Seungminâs lips were soft and tasted like fruit from the alcohol, Khai honestly wouldnât have an issue kissing them again, Seungminâs hands rested on either side of her face which made her cheeks heat up, and Seungmin liked the way Khaiâs lips felt against his. It was a nice kiss, nothing bad about it- but there was no magic, no fireworks, no time stopping, stomach full of butterflies feeling. It was just something they both enjoyed and wouldnât mind doing again but that didnât stop Seungmin from knowing that this girl was going to be the only girl he felt he could pull out all the stops for. While sure he didnât love her in that way, he still couldnât see himself finding anyone else he loved even remotely as much as he loved Khai. Frankly her friendship (and of course all the boys) was all he really needed.Â
âHow is it you have been friends with this girl for like two, three years and we are just now meeting her?â Felix asked, hitting Seungmin in the shoulder. Seungmin honestly wasnât actively pushing his friends away from Khai, he just also wasnât exactly wanting it to happen. âWell, to be fair yall are a lot and I wasnât prepared to have to dump yalls annoying asses if she didnât like yall.â All the boys laughed as quietly as they could, eyes wide in disbelief at Seungminâs blunt confession.Â
âYou would leave your friends of 10 plus years for someone you met a couple years ago!?â Chanâs eyebrows were basically in the back of his head and he was laughing through his pretend anger. âWithout a doubt. She does steal all my food.âÂ
Jisung was the next one to yawn, wanting nothing more than to go lay in his own bed but not wanting to be a party pooper.Â
âJisung, it's okay if you go to bed you know.â Jisung just smiled guiltily, waved to his best friends and was on his way to his warm bed. His friends voices subsided into far away murmurs by the time he reached his bedroom door, he had honestly totally forgot about Khai even being in his bed, so he began with his normal routine, kicking off his slippers, making his way towards his bathroom and to wash his face, his mind still in a daze he began making his way towards his bed and shedding off his sweats just as Khai decided to sit up. âHan, did you forget I was here?â She saw the color drain from his face even in the dark, suddenly wide awake at his sudden realization that he was in fact standing there in his boxers with his sweats half down.Â
âOhmygod- I kind of did, yes.â He quickly pulled his sweats back up and began frantically grabbing his pillow and blanket while mumbling apologizes, he was honestly prepared to force Lee Know and Seungmin to make him a spot in their bed- far too embarrassed about this situation happening. âWhere are you going, goofball?â Attempting to grab his arm only made his cheeks grow hotter feeling so exposed and flustered all at the same time.Â
âI can go sleep out there, it's okay. Ha.â Khai was giggling like crazy at this point, getting out from underneath the comforter, grabbing Jisungâs waist and slamming him into the bed with her. âStop being so stupid!!!â Khai was basically spooning him, arms tightly wrapped around his waist while he kept attempting to pull her hands off. âItâs just your boxers Hannie, Iâm not making fun of you! Now if you promise you won't try to run, then I will let you go.âÂ
âOkay, okay. I promise.âÂ
Hesitation laced Khaiâs limbs as she slowly let go of him, he sat up softly to assure her he wasnât going to run away before setting his pillow next to her and plopping down to face her. âYou called me Hannie again, I thought that was something sleepy Khai only said.âÂ
âYeah but I slightly remember your cheeks getting all red when I said it before so I thought Iâd try it again.â Khai hadnât even noticed how flirtatious this entire situation was coming off simply because being around Jisung was so simple and natural. They were a good foot apart but still facing each other in the darkness of Jisungs room, a small beam of light from the lamp post outside peaking through from the blinds. They spent what felt like a few minutes going back and forth about embarrassing stories they had of Seungmin, and how being friends with him was possibly one of the single best things to happen to them. âHey Jisung? Can I ask you something?âÂ
She was looking shamelessly into his eyes to assert platonic intimacy, and it certainly didnât seem to bother him. âOf course.âÂ
âWas it awkward to still be friends with Lee Know after yall broke up?â Jisung sent a smile her way to assure her that speaking about his past relationship with Lee Know wasnât crossing any boundary. âNot at all, he and I started off as friends and we just knew there was this unsaid mutual liking until finally we did something about it. It was already easy to talk to him and be around him, and after the first time we kissed as a joke.â He put air quotations around the work âjokeâ and chuckled softly to himself thinking back to their relationship. âI started wanting to kiss him more, and he felt the same. It was like âYeah, I like this guy. I think I want to hold his hand and go on dates and stuff.â but deep down I knew that this wasnât my forever. He knew that too and eventually our âhoneymoonâ phase was dimming and we found ourselves noticing other people more and we came to a mutual understanding that this was fun and no matter what we would remain friends.âÂ
Khai was drinking in everything that Jisung was saying, finding it so fascinating how Lee Know and Jisung came to be and where they ended up, how despite everything they still remained friends. She hummed in confirmation failing to meet the boys eyes because she was too busy getting lost in her own thoughts. A few pings of silence went by before she shifted her weight and faced the ceiling. âAre you thinking about your ex?âÂ
Jisung never took his eyes off of her, she nodded softly all the while opening and closing her mouth like she was about to say something but then quickly changed her mind. The boyâs first instinct was to reach over to take her hand in his but he decided against it, already well aware that sharing the same bed and speaking of secrets could already be pushing the boundaries of friendship, instead he lay there waiting for her to speak if she chose to tell him what occupied her mind and why.Â
âHis name is Jungkook.âÂ
âWe only dated for a year, but I found myself really liking enjoying his company a little more everyday,â Her eyes never left the ceiling, blinking away frustrated tears. âI met him before I met Seungmin but we didnât talk until a few months after me and Seungmin had become friends. Jungkook would walk me to class, send me music, let me watch him practice some songs, bring me pastries from the bakery and would tell me I looked pretty and all that shit.â A small reminiscent smile fell upon her lips as she thought back to that feeling of being wanted. âI had never had anyone take interest in me in that way, sure I had been on dates before but nothing like this- no one ever spent months talking to me and flirting with me and making me feel like I was the only girl in the world. God, I know how gross that sounds but anyways.
Eventually he asked me out and I said yes, one date turned to two, turned to three turned to hanging out all the time, he was a good boyfriend. I fell for him pretty hard so fast forward to a year later and he started getting a bit jealous over Seungmin, he would be upset if I picked up extra shifts. He just always wanted to be with me. Like 24/7 and I started feeling a little suffocated and so I was forcing myself to stay with him because I loved him but⌠it shouldnât have to be a chore to be with the one you love.âÂ
Truthfully Jisung didn't know how to respond, he knew there was more than what she was saying but he didn't want to pry.Â
âIt's only been a year? Maybe two? I donât know I lost count- but throughout that time we were okay, occasionally we would.. uh.. ya know..â Khai was bright red and Jisung didnât need light to be able to tell. âWe would cuddle afterwards and he would kiss my forehead and I would find myself missing being with him but then the day goes by and he acts like nothing happened.âÂ
âMaybe he doesn't want to pressure you into dating again?â Jisung attempted, making sure his bias didnât get in the way of giving her truthful advice.Â
âI don't know⌠but then all of a sudden recently he started acting the way he did before we started dating and it has me confused because I donât know if this is genuine or if he is being a guy and getting jealous that iâm hanging out with you.âÂ
âWhy would hanging out with me bother him though?â This was the thing that made no sense to him, he couldnât figure out if Jungkook was still in love with Khai or if he just couldnât stand the idea of her being happy with someone who isn't him, even if Jisung was just Khaiâs friend.Â
âI donât know, that's just what Phoenix said. She said that she thinks it's weird that Jungkook randomly asked me out on a date and it just so happened to be right after I posted all those things about you.â She turned to face Jisung with a small smile spread across her lips. âYou are the only other guy- aside from Seungmin- that I have felt this close to.âÂ
âYou are the only girl I have ever been close to.âÂ
Something filled Khaiâs heart that she assumed was appreciation as she and Jisung sat in silence looking back at one another in awe. âHey, Khai?âÂ
âDo you know what YOU want?â She knew he was referring to whether or not she wanted to get back together with Jungkook or not, but frankly she has spent the entire time avoiding having to think about it.Â
âNo.â Her voice was just below a whisper, so low and broken that the air in the room could have easily picked it up and taken it away but lucky for Jisung he heard her. He saw the small tear trickle down the side of her face in the darkness, understanding it must have been a very hard feeling like you have to settle for something. Sure Khai didnât outright tell him that she was terrified that Jungkook might be the only person to ever love her in the most romantic and unconditional way, terrified that no one was ever going to treat her like a princess again- but he knew the true story between her words.Â
âCome here, come here.â Jisung whispered scooting closer to her with care and scooping her up into his arms, she didn't need to think twice about it. Simply melting into his touch and burying her head into his chest, seeking comfort in this new person in her life. Not yet understanding that her heart was swelling was because her person had been so close to her this whole time, Jisung not yet fully understanding why all he wanted to do was to be next to this girl for as long as he possibly could.Â
âThank you, Han.â He took Seungmins' thing and pressed his lips softly to the top of her head, it was over the moment it began but Khai could not wrap her head around how lucky she was to have not one, but two amazing men in her life.Â
Hans soft heartbeat was the last thing Khai heard before falling asleep yet again.