Road to 'Odyssea Serenitatis' (cont.)
And now we're in 2013. I open this blog around the same time I decided to try my hand at writing and completing that unfinished and deleted SilMil fic.
By this time I've already read the manga, watched PGSM and was waiting for the "reboot" to premiere, so it's safe to say my understanding of the Sailor Moon universe is much bigger. I mentioned it on another post, for this version I decided to start with Queen Serenity's birth.
I had Guardian Cosmos essentially give her an exposition dump speech, telling her who she was and assigning her a mission, and then I must have written another chapter or two solely focused on her.
I know I had some leftover ideas from the previous version, but I can't remember how much I knew back then, so I can only truthfully say that for this version I wanted to turn Luna into Queen Serenity's first daughter. I used to be really into the idea of making her and Princess Serenity sisters, mostly because I didn't understand or accept the whole Luna-being-from-a-far-away-planet thing while still having a crescent moon mark.
I put Queen Nehelenia into the story, used her 90's-anime-Stars-miniarc backstory, made her initally good but had a manifestation of Chaos trick her into becoming evil by kidnapping Queen Serenity (and her husband)'s firstborn. She'd immediately regret it and turn her into a cat, then drop her off at the Queen's doorstep anonymously. Eventually she'd get corrupted by her desire to stay young, blah blah blah *swallows all her minions/citizens Dream Mirrors turning them into demons* *attacks Helios and then Queen Serenity during the princess' birth party*
Or the other way, I don't quite remember.
I also made a self-insert OC. Back in my forum days I wrote this story proposal for a roleplay, it got accepted and I got to do it with a few friends from back in the day. This was way after the first version of the SilMil fic so by this time I had formed some strong opinions on UsaMamo from the 90's anime. That is to say, I wanted to break them up. So. Bad.
It was a great time but it was such terrible writing on my part, I held so much shame from it that I wanted to make it right somehow. So I introduced the concept of this OC into the fic, made him Princess Serenity's male bestie since childhood, and he had a crush on her the entire time.
I wouldn't go on to do much with him to be honest. I never intended on writing a canon divergent SilMil fic so of course he was going to die along with everyone else at the end, but I did have plans to do sequel fics rewriting at least the Dark Kingdom and Black Moon arcs. I think that just by saying that you can guess my big plan was having this OC reincarnate along with the main cast and date Usagi during the R break-up arc just because I wanted to spite 90's Mamoru that badly.
I'm now a gay enby so I don't really care about doing any of that, meaning this OC will never see the light of day, probably.
What ended up becoming of this version was, I outlined up to the last chapter where I'd be dealing with the fall of the Moon Kingdom, incorporating the Outers' role from what the manga says during the Infinity arc.
It took way too long, I dragged this process out through academic stress/burnout, and eventually I faced facets of my own identity that made a lot of what I was writing not make any sense to me, as in I no longer understood why I was so adamant about certain choices.
On top of that I was very insecure about the writing itself. So, when I decided there was just too much to fix before I felt content enough publishing any of it, I simply deleted the files. I'm not even sure I own the hard drive they could be found in anymore.
This seems like a sad note to end on, but there is more to it still which I'll be going into for the next post.