Jamie Campbell Bower - Waiting For Your Love
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Jamie Campbell Bower - Waiting For Your Love
Pray tell, Father ~ Amos & Fraud
Heavenly and Hellish fathers and mothers- it is here that I plea to give me strength. To give me the powers that I need to be useful to this world and the next-
A whisper- it was unmistakable as the man was on his knees and felt the brush of a deity against his cheek. The first time he had felt it, he had been shocked. Amazed that finally someone was listening to him in this forsaken world. These days it was expected and the outcome he knew he would welcome as he prayed for sinners and saints. When he prayed to All, it was always a surprise which deity would answer. Tonight he felt a darker presence- a shade to this world but powerful nonetheless. There was another whisper, a vision, a thought and a hesitation. Fraud knew he had been called upon to help- not knowing exactly what or how but knowing he was needed.
They had done so much for him, he would have to return the favour- any favour -when so asked. The man got up, his black robes akin to those of a Catholic Priest. Though while he also prayed to that God he did not get a lot of answers from them, instead the smaller deities and old ones of Before liked to answer him more. Still, it was the uniform he had grown up in- it was comfortable and looked good on him. The faded and blown-out tattoos of FAITH and LORDS itched a bit, he wasn’t sure why they did that at times but it was what it was. No use to think much on it. He thought back to the seafood soup he had earlier. Maybe he was mildly allergic to shrimp.
Fine. It was time to move, he had been given a task by a familiar Power and he needed to answer the call so his own powers would grow. Unsure where he was going he let the powers guide him, which led him through the country to the next and moved him to a place with an unknown language but due to the demons and angels he was able to pick it up pretty quickly. The faded memories he had been given did not make much sense to him. The sounds of laughter, blood dripping, tainted smiles and suffering that he did not understand but felt. There was a tortured soul and it was an unusual type of pain. That much was clear.
He found himself in front of a shop of magical books of some kind. Studying the windowsill, he did not see a reason for concern right away. No immediate danger- He still threw a small hail Mary and then a hail Satan just to be sure before he knocked once on the door and waited. Hands folded into each other in front of him.
Waiting- nothing.
He frowned, the saviour was not one to be let waiting and with a small sigh he knocked again. This time it did it- sounds from inside and then the door opened. The face was oddly familiar. From the visions he had been given. A smile from him- small but a smile nonetheless.
He bowed lightly. “Good evening, I have been brought here to assist you. Save you from a horrible torture,” a short pause- the other did not look very tortured. More annoyed than anything. It was the person he needed though, this Fraud knew for sure.
“A Demonic power with green eyes sent me” he added as to clarify- perhaps Amos would know immediately who Fraud meant- maybe Amos had a whole crew of green-eyed powerful demon friends from his past. Fraud did not know, all he knew was that he was definitely mildly allergic to shrimp but pretended he did not have an itchy throat as he looked at the man in all seriousness. He pushed the ‘welcome’ mat with his foot so it was neatly positioned and then looked up again, pale blue eyes finding the other’s eyes.
It has never controlled me. And I never controlled it. Don’t you see, William? I could have resisted it. But I chose to join it. JAMIE CAMPBELL BOWER as HENRY CREEL in STRANGER THINGS S5E08 ‘The Rightside Up’
HENRY CREEL - VECNA / STRANGER THINGS 5 (2026)
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JAMIE CAMPBELL BOWER "If you can't handle me at my Vecna, you don't deserve me at my One, basically."
Christmas without you would just not be Christmas at all. happy birthday to our forever winter bear, kim taehyung 🐻❄️ (1995.12.30)
hyungwon-ia:
vee-ia:
Nugusaywho? Veewon
He had clutched the flowers delicately, not wanting to hurt them despite how nervous he felt. Lilies, roses and daisies, he couldn’t see them but they had spoken to him, told him exactly what they were and even the florist had been amazed when he knew despite the blindfold. He had told her he could smell them, he knew saying he could hear them would sound crazy.
He had slept most of the ride to Vee’s home, the doctor had told him he would feel tired more often, that he needed the rest. By the time he was fully awake they were standing in grass, he could hear flowers from every direction murmuring his name excitedly, warmly, and hear voices from people. He clung to Vee feeling shy as they approached.
“Wonnie…” that name again, just like when Vee used it he liked hearing it.
“Hello…Maam,” he melted into the hug, burying his face into the womans shoulder before pulling back to gently trace her face with his fingers. “You…you have Vee’s smile.” He smiled at that before pressing a small kiss to her cheek. Why had he done that? He didn’t really know but it just felt right.
As they stood he felt something tugging his leg, then his hand and before he knew it a not so small child was practically climbing his body until Hyungwon instinctively swung him up and into his arms; who knew his balance was so good.
“Uhh hey, hi,” he gently patted the head now resting on his shoulder before smiling. “I…I like your family. Everyone is so nice, especially you maam, I can feel it, I like you a lot.”
This was a different kind of arrival than before- the first time Hyungwon had been silent as well but for a different reason and Vee wasn’t sure how to feel about this new way the other was behaving. Never would he have thought he would miss the man’s crude words sometimes- or how he did not want to give in and have fun. This, this was different and he loved him still but missed the rough edges he had learned to love like a masochist who enjoyed the rough edge of a knife.
Seeing his mother embrace his lover was good. He knew things would surely look up after this. he watched how his mother embraced him and the kindness between the two. Then three- as one of the fae toddlers had found Hyungwon and demanded attention. Vee’s yellow eyes softened slightly as he nodded to himself. He had done well.
Well, that is good. I like you a lot too. Or I would not have approved of your relationship with my dear son. Mother nodded at Vee as she spoke to Hyungwon and reached out to pet the child’s head and then Hyungwon’s head, tilting his head slightly to look into his eyes. “Do you want to get better?” she asked, suddenly and out of nowhere. “You’’re free of the demons of the past now. I could let you remain like this, without the memories that shaped you.”
Vee’s heart halted for a moment as he wanted to comment and say something. Though he knew it wasn’t his choice- he should not interfere and instead he got silent as he watched his mother and his lover talk. His wings stopped fluttering and folded on his back as he watched and waited for the conversation to continue.
One evening off without having to think of everything that was going on. Vee bit his lower lip as he considered it and then let out a sigh. It was almost too hard to think on this while walking with his Hyungwon. Here in the flower field it was almost impossible to think about how their lives were in the real world- out there.
“Yah,” Vee said as he nudged Hyungwon in his lap with a small smile. The night was cool but not cold and the flowers sang little songs to them as they had sat down in their realm. “Even without your memories you’re still so smart.” He grinned shyly at the other’s words and then the question… Ah that was a hard one to answer really, he did not know it really…
“Mmmm, you weren’t hard to love, but you were hard to make you love me back.” Vee admitted with a small, sly smile. “You’re rough on the outside but soft on the inside and incredibly stubborn. You don’t like people and not a lot of people like you because you can be so stern but to me-” a small pause as the fairy smiled and nodded as if to confirm it to himself “to me you’re sweet and protective. You love deeply when you do and you don’t hesitate with me to love me, you’re always true and you would never hurt me on purpose. I knew you were a good man when I saw you the first time and you thought I was horrible I am sure! We’re polar opposites, my friends don't always understand why we are together but to me it makes perfect sense. You make my lonely nights less scary and I, well I hope, I make your crowded rooms bearable.”
It was a lot, maybe, but it was true. “I’ve loved before, but never like I loved you. My mother is very sure that we will marry one day, you know.”
vee-ia:
It was odd how they grew apart and yet they did not feel like they had been apart for very long- sure, the two had missed out on some of eachother’s milestones but now as they were together here it felt… as it should. Taehyung could not really explain the feeling he had right now, it was one of love and adoration and some fear that Hyungwon would eventually not feel the same- or worse, judge him for the feelings he had. His heart felt like it was grabbed and crushed in taloned hands as he stared at the other man and waited for some kind of reaction to his heartfelt reaction. What ever could the other be thinking right now! What was going on in his mind?
A kiss- one against his cheek. Yet it was so much more meaningful than the ones in the closet with alcohol in their system. “I- don’t be sorry. You… you don’t hate me for it? For… liking you?” he asked as he awkwardly grabbed the other’s hand in his own and squeezed lightly. Wanting to hold the other closer- wanted to hug and embrace him and finally convey all these stupid feelings to this stupid man. It was hard for him to keep breathing steadily at the moment as he shuffled a little closer. “Hyungwon I need some kind of… clear answer, you’re confusing me. That’s hard to do, you know.” a small joke “you know since I’m so smart.”
Awkward? Definitely. Honest? Also, very much so.
“Hate you?” He chuckled softly as Taehyung cracked a joke. Bumping into the all star he nudged his shoulder with a shake of his head. “Dummy. For someone so smart you definitely need help reading between the lines.” The room around them was still empty, though he wouldn’t have cared either way at this point. This moment was his and no one could take it away.
“Why would I hate you returning my feelings?” He let go of Taehyungs awkward hand hold only to loop their fingers together as he stepped closer, eyes locked on his friend. “Yes, completely, I like you, I’ve liked you, dummy, I can’t believe you never knew.” His lips split, eyes crinkling as he started to laugh softly. Even his mother had known and teased him a few times over it.
His laughter quieted down realizing they were still in a museum which required a bit of class. With his free hand he slipped his glasses back on, nudging them up his nose and into place as he took a breath letting out a spill of words before he could regret it.
“Kissing you the other night, that was, it was the best thing that’s happened to me in forever. I didn’t think you’d remember, let alone care. And then you asked me here and I was nervous, excited, and now this and I’m ecstatic, amazed, enraptured, and…oh god… I need to sit down.”
The intensity of it all came at him with crashing force as he dragged Taehyung to a bench against the wall and sank down onto it hanging his head between his legs.
“Sorry…when I think too fast I get,” he made a twirling motion with his free hand still refusing to let go of the very warm, very large hand against his own. “Just another nerd thing I guess.”
The jock’s eyes softened as the man needed a moment to breathe- literally. He did not haste the other as he watched the man and just nodded with a small smile. “I think that would be lovely, a walk on the pier.” he said as he led the other to the exit and then in the direction of the ice cream shop.
His hand felt the warmth of the other’s body as he led him outside and smiled a bit- oh this was everything he wanted and so much more. Finally, they were together- or something like that. He felt his heart swell with the anticipation of everything that might happen in the future. But for now this was perfect- Hyungwon was perfection himself.
vee-ia:
It was odd how they grew apart and yet they did not feel like they had been apart for very long- sure, the two had missed out on some of eachother’s milestones but now as they were together here it felt… as it should. Taehyung could not really explain the feeling he had right now, it was one of love and adoration and some fear that Hyungwon would eventually not feel the same- or worse, judge him for the feelings he had. His heart felt like it was grabbed and crushed in taloned hands as he stared at the other man and waited for some kind of reaction to his heartfelt reaction. What ever could the other be thinking right now! What was going on in his mind?
A kiss- one against his cheek. Yet it was so much more meaningful than the ones in the closet with alcohol in their system. “I- don’t be sorry. You… you don’t hate me for it? For… liking you?” he asked as he awkwardly grabbed the other’s hand in his own and squeezed lightly. Wanting to hold the other closer- wanted to hug and embrace him and finally convey all these stupid feelings to this stupid man. It was hard for him to keep breathing steadily at the moment as he shuffled a little closer. “Hyungwon I need some kind of… clear answer, you’re confusing me. That’s hard to do, you know.” a small joke “you know since I’m so smart.”
Awkward? Definitely. Honest? Also, very much so.
“Hate you?” He chuckled softly as Taehyung cracked a joke. Bumping into the all star he nudged his shoulder with a shake of his head. “Dummy. For someone so smart you definitely need help reading between the lines.” The room around them was still empty, though he wouldn’t have cared either way at this point. This moment was his and no one could take it away.
“Why would I hate you returning my feelings?” He let go of Taehyungs awkward hand hold only to loop their fingers together as he stepped closer, eyes locked on his friend. “Yes, completely, I like you, I’ve liked you, dummy, I can’t believe you never knew.” His lips split, eyes crinkling as he started to laugh softly. Even his mother had known and teased him a few times over it.
His laughter quieted down realizing they were still in a museum which required a bit of class. With his free hand he slipped his glasses back on, nudging them up his nose and into place as he took a breath letting out a spill of words before he could regret it.
“Kissing you the other night, that was, it was the best thing that’s happened to me in forever. I didn’t think you’d remember, let alone care. And then you asked me here and I was nervous, excited, and now this and I’m ecstatic, amazed, enraptured, and…oh god… I need to sit down.”
The intensity of it all came at him with crashing force as he dragged Taehyung to a bench against the wall and sank down onto it hanging his head between his legs.
“Sorry…when I think too fast I get,” he made a twirling motion with his free hand still refusing to let go of the very warm, very large hand against his own. “Just another nerd thing I guess.”
A scowl from the man as the other joked- he felt weird about it. It was weird for him to be so uncomfortable in social situations and yet here he was. “I never knew…” he muttered almost not believing it; it was so silly how could the other love him back? He simply did not know. “I wouldn’t be able to forget it even if I tried- kissing you like that it was a dream come true Hyungwon.”
He paused, it was true- but it was so embarrassing to say it out loud. “Hey- you okay???” he got worried now as the other seemed to overheat like some old laptop that ran the Sims 4. “Hyungwon- do we need to get you some food and water?” he asked as he rubbed the other’s back, snorting at the nerd comment.
“You’re my favourite nerd, you know.” how sappy they were all of a sudden but it was true nonetheless.
“Wanna get out of here and get some icecream?”
hyungwon-ia:
vee-ia:
Nugusaywho? Veewon
He had clutched the flowers delicately, not wanting to hurt them despite how nervous he felt. Lilies, roses and daisies, he couldn’t see them but they had spoken to him, told him exactly what they were and even the florist had been amazed when he knew despite the blindfold. He had told her he could smell them, he knew saying he could hear them would sound crazy.
He had slept most of the ride to Vee’s home, the doctor had told him he would feel tired more often, that he needed the rest. By the time he was fully awake they were standing in grass, he could hear flowers from every direction murmuring his name excitedly, warmly, and hear voices from people. He clung to Vee feeling shy as they approached.
“Wonnie…” that name again, just like when Vee used it he liked hearing it.
“Hello…Maam,” he melted into the hug, burying his face into the womans shoulder before pulling back to gently trace her face with his fingers. “You…you have Vee’s smile.” He smiled at that before pressing a small kiss to her cheek. Why had he done that? He didn’t really know but it just felt right.
As they stood he felt something tugging his leg, then his hand and before he knew it a not so small child was practically climbing his body until Hyungwon instinctively swung him up and into his arms; who knew his balance was so good.
“Uhh hey, hi,” he gently patted the head now resting on his shoulder before smiling. “I…I like your family. Everyone is so nice, especially you maam, I can feel it, I like you a lot.”
This was a different kind of arrival than before- the first time Hyungwon had been silent as well but for a different reason and Vee wasn’t sure how to feel about this new way the other was behaving. Never would he have thought he would miss the man’s crude words sometimes- or how he did not want to give in and have fun. This, this was different and he loved him still but missed the rough edges he had learned to love like a masochist who enjoyed the rough edge of a knife.
Seeing his mother embrace his lover was good. He knew things would surely look up after this. he watched how his mother embraced him and the kindness between the two. Then three- as one of the fae toddlers had found Hyungwon and demanded attention. Vee’s yellow eyes softened slightly as he nodded to himself. He had done well.
Well, that is good. I like you a lot too. Or I would not have approved of your relationship with my dear son. Mother nodded at Vee as she spoke to Hyungwon and reached out to pet the child’s head and then Hyungwon’s head, tilting his head slightly to look into his eyes. “Do you want to get better?” she asked, suddenly and out of nowhere. “You’’re free of the demons of the past now. I could let you remain like this, without the memories that shaped you.”
Vee’s heart halted for a moment as he wanted to comment and say something. Though he knew it wasn’t his choice- he should not interfere and instead he got silent as he watched his mother and his lover talk. His wings stopped fluttering and folded on his back as he watched and waited for the conversation to continue.
This was his savest place in the entire world; his home. This was where he belonged. Vee waited as the other two spoke and he was nervous- anxious for what was to come. Listening to his Hyungwon speak and it hurt him how helpless he sounded; though he also sounded so free from pain and maybe his mother had a point. Again: it was not his choice.
The one that loves him too. Vee had not considered that - foolish of him really. That Hyungwon did not remember anything, not even how their love had bloomed in the most unlikely of ways and perhaps he was not able to make Hyungwon fall in love with him again.
He held the other’s hand and squeezed back. This was a rough one but Hyungwon chose and it was his decision no matter what Vee thought or what his mother thought about the situation- this was on Hyungwon and Hyungwon alone.
Fine then, enjoy the night in the morning we will perform the ritual. She said with a nod and she took the child from Hyungwon and left the two alone.
“We have an evening off.” Vee said as he walked with Hyungwon- past the tree and to the field of flowers where he had taken the other before; not that he would remember but it was a good place. The ancestors were near, always whispering softly. “You sure?” he asked then as they sat in the field “You had a lot of bad memories, a lot of good ones too, I think, with me. Some of your friends. but also a lot of bad ones.”
hyungwon-ia:
vee-ia:
Nugusaywho? Veewon
He had clutched the flowers delicately, not wanting to hurt them despite how nervous he felt. Lilies, roses and daisies, he couldn’t see them but they had spoken to him, told him exactly what they were and even the florist had been amazed when he knew despite the blindfold. He had told her he could smell them, he knew saying he could hear them would sound crazy.
He had slept most of the ride to Vee’s home, the doctor had told him he would feel tired more often, that he needed the rest. By the time he was fully awake they were standing in grass, he could hear flowers from every direction murmuring his name excitedly, warmly, and hear voices from people. He clung to Vee feeling shy as they approached.
“Wonnie…” that name again, just like when Vee used it he liked hearing it.
“Hello…Maam,” he melted into the hug, burying his face into the womans shoulder before pulling back to gently trace her face with his fingers. “You…you have Vee’s smile.” He smiled at that before pressing a small kiss to her cheek. Why had he done that? He didn’t really know but it just felt right.
As they stood he felt something tugging his leg, then his hand and before he knew it a not so small child was practically climbing his body until Hyungwon instinctively swung him up and into his arms; who knew his balance was so good.
“Uhh hey, hi,” he gently patted the head now resting on his shoulder before smiling. “I…I like your family. Everyone is so nice, especially you maam, I can feel it, I like you a lot.”
This was a different kind of arrival than before- the first time Hyungwon had been silent as well but for a different reason and Vee wasn’t sure how to feel about this new way the other was behaving. Never would he have thought he would miss the man’s crude words sometimes- or how he did not want to give in and have fun. This, this was different and he loved him still but missed the rough edges he had learned to love like a masochist who enjoyed the rough edge of a knife.
Seeing his mother embrace his lover was good. He knew things would surely look up after this. he watched how his mother embraced him and the kindness between the two. Then three- as one of the fae toddlers had found Hyungwon and demanded attention. Vee’s yellow eyes softened slightly as he nodded to himself. He had done well.
Well, that is good. I like you a lot too. Or I would not have approved of your relationship with my dear son. Mother nodded at Vee as she spoke to Hyungwon and reached out to pet the child’s head and then Hyungwon’s head, tilting his head slightly to look into his eyes. “Do you want to get better?” she asked, suddenly and out of nowhere. “You’’re free of the demons of the past now. I could let you remain like this, without the memories that shaped you.”
Vee’s heart halted for a moment as he wanted to comment and say something. Though he knew it wasn’t his choice- he should not interfere and instead he got silent as he watched his mother and his lover talk. His wings stopped fluttering and folded on his back as he watched and waited for the conversation to continue.
hyungwon-ia:
vee-ia:
Nugusaywho? Veewon
Well he had tried. He had spent the better part of every day begging the nurses to let him leave. Only one of them, the nurse he had affectionately nicknamed ‘auntie’ had treated him kindly when she told him no. He let Vee gently lay him backdown, he quickly grabbed the boys hand looping their fingers together in case he was thinking about moving. There was something he like about holding his hand.
He nodded miserable, lips downturned in a small frown. “They said something about swelling and pressure and the bandages keeping things from getting too bad. Your mother…is she as nice as you? I like the thought of visiting your home.”
He squeezed Vee’s hand softly, turning towards the sound of his voice. “I can’t see myself ever not wanting you. You’re important to me, I can feel it.” It probably wasn’t something to say to someone he had just met, but he felt it needed to be said.
***
“What if she doesn’t like me? What if she thinks I talk to much or look funny? Are you sure she’ll like my flowers?” Holding onto Vee’s arm his questions had been endless since the release from the hospital and trip to Vee’s home. Vee had told him about his family, little bits but Hyungwon was still nervous.
“I just hope they like me.”
“My mom is even nicer than me!” Vee said with a grin as he looked at his boyfriend affectionately. He loved the other so much and maybe everything was messed up now but Hyungwon would be okay. Even if his memories would stay away, it would be okay. Vee knew that because they belonged together after all. Him and Hyungwon were soulmates and not even this could drive them apart from one another!
The way the other spoke, it was like glimpses of Hyungwon from how he could be when they were alone and the other let his guard down a bit. His Hyungwon was in there, he knew it for sure. The soft beeping of the hospital devices melted into background noise as he watched Hyungwon and nodded. “We are very important to each other Won, we’re eachother’s people.” He whispered to his lover. “It is okay, everything will be okay. I will take care of you like you’ve always taken care of me…”
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“Hyungwon she already knows you, she will love you just as is.” Vee tried to reassure as they were in a carriage. They had already gotten smaller- Vee had chosen for some potions to help the transition and to do it inside the carriage instead of outside so it would be less disorientating for them. Now they were almost at his family home and he was excited- and a little scared. Even if he knew his mother would love and dote on Hyungwon he did worry about the environment change. Would this be good for Hyungwon??? He had to believe that it was, after all, the other had a home here too even if they had visited only a few times in the past years.
“She will love your flowers.” Vee assured and then they were there, leading Hyungwon out to the large clearing near the family tree. the grass was green and soft, spring was slowly making it’s way here but there was still some snow here and there. Large snowdrop flowers were around the clearing as some sort of natural barrier.
“Welcome home,” Vee whispered. There were some people outside but not as many as usual. It must be because of the storm that was coming. “Come on, we need to get inside.” he whispered as he tugged Hyungwon along, carrying a bag with clothes and some supplies as they entered the family home inside of the tree. Here Some of Vee’s siblings greeted the duo excitedly. One of Vee’s sisters was immediately in Hyungwon’s face. I know you don't remember us but welcome back Wonnie!!! she chirped and immediately offered him some cookies.
“Come, Mother is in the living room I bet- is she?” Some of the children around them nodded and Vee led the other up the stairs to where (one of the) living areas was. There his mother, in a beautiful dark purple gown, was sitting reading a book and looked up immediately.
My sons, she greeted and got up to wrap her arms around both the young men. How pleasant to have you here but how sad to have you arrive on the waves of sorrow.
hyungwon-ia:
vee-ia:
hyungwon-ia:
The small smile that perked up his lips was acknowledgement for the cookie memory. They had spent so much time together doing everything including baking. Hyungwon had been good at it following every rule and measurement exactly, but Taehyung like most things had been great. He couldn’t remember exactly how the dough had ended up all over him as the other laughed merrily, but he had not been happy. He had not cried, but he had been upset… and maybe he cried a little, in secret.
He didn’t move away as Taehyung touched him, just took a deep breath letting the other speak because he didn’t think he was capable at the moment.
He confessed, this time it was clear and Hyungwon could have cried again as some invisible weight lifted off his chest. He had dreamed about this moment but never imagined it would actually happen, not to him!
It was unusual to hear his friend sound so uncertain and almost pensive and he felt himself biting back a smile. Impulsively he turned, pressing a soft kiss to the jocks cheek. Just as quickly he was blushing again, hand coming up to brush his lips as he realized what he’d done.
“I, I’m sorry i just, I didn’t know what to say back, I should have asked first.” Apologies, word after word being stumbled over before he stopped, cleared his throat. “ Now that he had said it allowed, he felt almost euphoric.
It was odd how they grew apart and yet they did not feel like they had been apart for very long- sure, the two had missed out on some of eachother’s milestones but now as they were together here it felt… as it should. Taehyung could not really explain the feeling he had right now, it was one of love and adoration and some fear that Hyungwon would eventually not feel the same- or worse, judge him for the feelings he had. His heart felt like it was grabbed and crushed in taloned hands as he stared at the other man and waited for some kind of reaction to his heartfelt reaction. What ever could the other be thinking right now! What was going on in his mind?
A kiss- one against his cheek. Yet it was so much more meaningful than the ones in the closet with alcohol in their system. “I- don’t be sorry. You… you don’t hate me for it? For… liking you?” he asked as he awkwardly grabbed the other’s hand in his own and squeezed lightly. Wanting to hold the other closer- wanted to hug and embrace him and finally convey all these stupid feelings to this stupid man. It was hard for him to keep breathing steadily at the moment as he shuffled a little closer. “Hyungwon I need some kind of… clear answer, you’re confusing me. That’s hard to do, you know.” a small joke “you know since I’m so smart.”
Awkward? Definitely. Honest? Also, very much so.
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Nugusaywho? Veewon
“I’m not that hurt, ” he spoke hurriedly, lips lifting into a smile. “Despite all the wires, beeping and bandages really… the doctor said i can take the bandages off soon, and then i can see you!”
He couldn’t remember how he’d hit his head, or why he’d had such deep wound but they were healing nicely, or so he’d been told.
“I-I remember… it was quiet and all at once loud. And-” his head began to throb and he grimaced, forcing the look into a smile so Vee wouldnt worry. It happened like this every time he tried to retrace exactly what had happened. And he had been trying so hard. Everytime they left him alone for more than a few minutes. But it was as if there was a wall put into place. “Im sorry, I’m trying.”
He hated it, all of it. The constant questions, the poking and prodding. They told him to rest and yet they never allowed him too. This was the most at peace he had felt since waking up, here holding Vee’s hand.
“I want to leave here.” A sudden confession as he attempted to sit up but was stopped by the wires connected to his shoulder. “Can’t i go with you? Couldn’t you take me to my home?”
Hyungwon might not have been as hurt but Vee was hurt too! Mentally by all of this, his Wonnie didn’t remember him and oh! He had made such an effort to make Hyungwon see him and love him and now?! He had to start all over again??? “It is okay, you don’t have to remember now- it is okay… I always thought something like this would happen but I am glad you’re still here! Okay! We can do this.” Desperate to not have the other be in more pain even if it meant suffering more himself. He supposed that was what love was.
“Oh, Won. You can when the doctors say you can. They connected you to all of these super important machines that tell us how you are doing.” he pushed Hyungwon gently back into the bed. “You will be able to leave soon I am sure, they said that the bandages van come off soon right? So then it can’t be long… And then when you're better I will take you home to my home… Or maybe to my family? Oh, yes we should do that. Mother will know how to take care of you and make you better even quicker!” He trusted his mother’s magic over whatever they did here but did not say that not wanting to make the other rebel even more…
“Everything will be okay, okay? I will be here as long as you want me to.”