Ending my College Era
Hello Everyone who I had been writing for so long now, I don't know if this site is still up. I'm finally finishing up my college degree well that took me 4 years in total even 5 years to be honest. I have been struggling for not being a smartest and the bravest but yet here I am looking for job application already and no more deadline on the way. No more everyday grind making cute notes or even rushing to my internship now I'm just me. Me alone and looking for a job at the middle of me waiting graduation, adulting had been really hard for me, since I don't live near I need to exert more effort than what I have think it through. No more sleepless night for finals since now were in the finals. I actually like my course I enjoyed it, I had my fun. But now that there are so many competitions for the right applicant I no longer think it is rewarding.
It's rewarding somehow to finish college, but the thought that if will I be happy if I continue my chosen path. Then I remembered my old self wanting to be a veterinarian and to cater to animals yet I doubted myself after all those years. I lost all my skills on the road of paving the way and going through business school which is reasonable back then in my head. Now I'm alone in my room and looking for the day where I would feel alive again, looking through the pictures and laughs I used to give. Hello and good bye is the only thing that I had heard so far right now; this might be last time that I will be able to think about this and the only given time I can say good bye to my college self somewhat it's so vague and i thought it might not have already happened.
Anyways I'm happy to share such memories with you and my younger self doing what she just wants continue doing so. You might not be able to do it sooner.
