it actually got better

Trying to be a person the younger version of me needed. 

[cokezerohoe-deactivated20210418]

good morning to everyone except people who make fun of eating disorders

[preschooldr0pout]

[slslslslslslslslslslsl]

everyone is judging so do whatever the fuck you want

[dudepositivity]

You don’t need to lose weight

You don’t need to diet while recovering from a restrictive eating disorder

That could literally kill you

You owe it to yourself and to your recovery efforts to focus on living, not on losing weight.

[frenchtoastfordinner]

People talk up recovery so much but no one portrays just how good it feels to not have every moment of your life ruled by food. To sit and snack on your favorite treat right out of the box and just stop when you’re full and not give it another thought. To be fully present to days at the pool and order foods simply because they sound yummy. Idk I think this stuff is underplayed.

[positiveautistic-deactivated202]

Choosing recovery is a very brave thing to do

[frenchtoastfordinner]

During the thick of my recovering, it made me super uncomfortable to say I was hungry or ask for more food and my girlfriend and I had almost a secret code of exchanged looks where when she knew I wanted a food she would say things like, “well I really want [insert food here] and if you do too that’s cool let’s go” or she would put the second roll on my plate that I was too overwhelmed to grab myself and basically recovery is doing whatever it takes to make it through the meal in one piece and that may look different for everyone but there is no right or wrong or dumb ways to get through it.

[frenchtoastfordinner]

Sit on the bathroom floor and let yourself experience this pain. It will make the good days that much sweeter.

[heart-of-a-wildflower-deactivat]

“There are far too many silent sufferers. Not because they don’t yearn to reach out, but because they’ve tried and found no one who cares.”

— Richelle E. Goodrich (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

[feelnothingbutnumb]

[frenchtoastfordinner]

7/10

I’ve been steadily eating dinner since last fall and it’s been quite a struggle. That being said, I got out all of my summer clothes recently and they’re all too big? I’ve been eating much more than I ever did over the past six disordered years and somehow I’ve needed to buy a smaller summer wardrobe. This has made me so uncomfortable and I’m not sure why. Maybe it makes my hard work seem invalidated? It also makes me feel giddy in a way I’m guilty to admit? It’s also made me a little more hyper aware of food than I was before I pulled the clothes out. Like somehow I need to keep going with this “progress”. Has anyone else experienced this? Send help.

[warm-positivity-deactivated2022]

look not to spoil the ending but you’re going to recover and be happy

[frenchtoastfordinner]

I’ll thrive just to show you I can

[manicbones]

you know what’s more freeing than killing yourself? running away to a small town and getting a job as a waitress. buying a cheap car and sticking a bed in the back and driving southwest. adopting a cat. learning a new instrument. moving apartments. visiting a friend in another city. chopping all your hair off.

you can kill your current life without dying. you can kill this version of you and make a new one.

maybe I’m just a bipolar sucker for rebirth but sometimes that thought is all that keeps me alive

[gentle-reminder]

gentle reminder

when ever you get the chance, please try to remind others you love them, and try your best to love yourself as well

[gentle-reminder]

gentle reminder

you’re are worthy of the same love that you give the people around you

[die-rosastrasse]

transparent flowers illustrations ❀