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Have you ever been scared atleast once in your life? I did. From the first ever roller coaster ride to travelling outside the country for the first time and even on having first boyfriend. Yes, it's damn true, "firsts" are always damn scary. Weeks ago, I have been feeling differently about my body and I am more of like feeling sick. It was very unusual because the changes were extreme like breast tenderness and cravings and urging to eat a lot more, not only that but my mood swing has gotten worst. I have been in a constant fight with my boyfriend and I am not happy about it. Our relationship almost ended. My boyfriend thought I was being crazy and changing and having a bad attitude (which I think I am) and then two days ago, everything made sense. My period had been delayed for 11 days and I tried taking a pregnancy test. It was positive. Remember about me saying have you ever been scared atleast once in your life? This is it. I was crying in the bathroom because I am scared. I am scared about everything. The pregnancy, the changes, on how to tell my parents and everything else. I went out, told my bf and he asked why I was crying. I gave him the result and he was just there, hugging me and speechless. He said he kinda knew about it but he still didn't believe since there was no proof. But now everything sinked in. Now, I am still kinda feel weird about me being pregnant, I am getting the signs like constantly feeling nauseas and feeling to vomit, body pain and the most hated thing ever is pain while urinating. I am resolving that by drinking lots of water. I haven't gotten for a check up just yet, but maybe couple of weeks from now. I think I am going to wait until I feel maybe a little bit heavier. I'm not really sure. Since this is my first pregnancy, I don't really know what to expect. I don't actually know what to do. I am not really feeling of becoming a mum to be honest. Not that I hated kids, but I don't know, I just don't feel that I'm gonna be best at that forte. But who knows, maybe I am after all. I ak just grateful enough that I have been bless with a very supportive boyfriend. He's been taking care of me and I am so happy about it. Anyways, I'm quite sleepy, so more updates soon Cheers.
