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my name is psychix, 23 years of age from indonesia. pronouns are they/it. i'm tme. aspiring ML and no fun at parties.

dni tropical fruit haters

zionists transmisogynists mras and their ilk get blocked

finished art only sideblog @psychicism

#pinned #easy access links ->#my art #chixtalks #inquiries #tunes

impulsively met up with one of my oldest friends (knew her in grade school and contacted each other sparingly throughout uni) and not only we still connected really well thru our interests but she told me she's diagnosed with adhd and said she had a feeling that i was very much similar to her in that regard. and i was. our experience throughout high school and uni despite being apart were pretty much the same. we display the same symptoms and ways of going about things be it living or learning. so. haha hihi

#chixtalks #thing is this is the friend who. had a huge influence on me when we befriended each other and vice versa as well according to her #i'm talking 70% of the interests that shaped me to be the person i am today can either be attributed to my brother or her #horror games? anime? drawing? can all be traced back... like old pre-social media internet stuff too #i'm just baffled at how much we still connect it's like time barely passed #to top it all of from our friend group we were the only ones that got into art/design. everyone else either went into stem or medicine #bc of course we did........#ALSO probably the one other irl that knows i'm not cishet

synibread

Hmmmm,mmm pondering photocards

#aa #adversaries queuerified

hellothisisangle

#lotr #adversaries queuerified

considered coming back here only when i get in a better mood overall but pardon me for being vulnerable because after having it been shoved down in my throat for days (years, if you really think about it) by my mother i need to let this out i genuinely can't help but think a domestic life where i settle down and mostly only become someone's wife or someone's mother is the most repulsive way to live *for me*. dear god i hope some time soon i find my way out of this. oh how i envy mothers who are content with their children especially ones they perceive as a daughter being able to provide for themselves and demand nothing more. i can only have this one life to live for myself and i don't want it to waste away in such a deeply horrific existence. i've just learned to move through life without thinking everyone including my own self hates me, why in hell would i want to trade it in for an experience that is sure to kill me sooner or later. i can't see myself living past my twenties with that kind of life.

#chixtalks #my mood has gotten worse to the point my brother noticed despite me attempting to hide it but i don't think isolating myself #is the right course of action #i kind of forgot who psychix is. but to be fair i also forgot who [govt name] is. it hurts #do i need help remembering who i am?#this isn't even the reason i took a week off posting it was some other reason i can't even lay out in words. this is a new problem #oh my god. oh goodness #usually i joke around and poast as a way to not think of things like this but not doing that is worse i won't lie #ftr i had fun at graduation but i was more momentary. probably because i got to talk to people that are not my family #and i didn't have to reach out... it's that dire

serijoot

lets dress fancy with big brother

#aa #adversaries queuerified

chaiikomi

gorumaku fans international

#uma #mejiro mcqueen #gold ship #adversaries queuerified

garygoldenbignaturals

graduation today and diana ross' i'm coming out plays on the radio on my way to the venue. and the universe said you're gay

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degree gotten 👍 fake ass sounding one like "design"

pariambod

#adversaries queuerified

sparrowhawk-station

It wormed it’s way into my brain 🐛

#uma #rice shower #mihono bourbon #adversaries queuerified

graduation today and diana ross' i'm coming out plays on the radio on my way to the venue. and the universe said you're gay

#chixtalks #Hi how's everyone. i've been disassociating this past week ♥️ last night in particular was bad

ambafaerie

Char overheard his father claim himself a savior martyr and that delusional proclamation fed his own martyr savior complex when he became the leader of Neo Zeon.

#msg #msg cca #adversaries queuerified