It took him a while to even realize he had feelings for you, of course he wants to spend all his time with you, you're funny, smart, pretty, kind and caring, naturally he would want to spend all his time with you, you're a great company!
The only reason he noticed something is because Ace started teasing him on how clingy he has been towards you lately.
He laughed it off at first, but during the night he couldn't stop thinking about it, is he really that needy? It just that being around you makes him so happy, you're special, you make him feel warmer, different but in a good way, maybe you're more than a friend to him? Is this how love feels like? He doesn't have a lot of experience with this stuff, aside from his parents and watching some movies, he imagines it's you as the romantic partner to these shows, would be shy and cute? Or are you the more passionate and straight forward type?
That night he falls asleep thinking about you.
He wakes up more energetic than usual, if you can even imagine that, he has decided last night, he's going declare his feelings towards you, even if it's scary to think about you rejecting him, at least you can stay friends right? Besides he needs to tell you how much you mean to him, his late night yearning has done irreversible damage to his thoughts already.
Unfortunately his fantasy about living a happy intimate life with you shatters the moment he sees you again.
When he looks at you, really looks, smiling with your friends, looking so cheerful, and free, that's when he realizes, he can never give you that, because being with him means being in the same danger that he has lived with.
Kidnapping, poisoning, assassination attempts.
You don't have to worry about that, you're unbound to anything, a magicless student from another world, yet you posses the greatest magic he can't have, the liberty to live how you want, you can become anyone but he will always be the Son of House Asim.
He can't have you, not knowing he would be source of your suffering.
That's why he burries his feelings, contenting himself with your presence, trying to make the best of the limited time you two have together, maybe some days, he can even give himself the privilege of fantasizing that he's a different person, that he can love you without risk, and you two can be together.
(I apologize for any grammar mistakes I wrote this late at night, and English is not my first language! 😅, this was supposed to be way smaller but I got too into it)
Weird how so many countries elected extreme far right leaders and simultaneously all of those countries with said far right leaders are experiencing historic economic collapse.
being mutuals with really skilled artists is so funny. van gogh & monet are in the tags of my shitposts telling me they love my sense of humor. I feel like roger rabbit
hearing anything about the nolan odyssey is so funny. it's like "they cut the extremely important and infamous nobody scene" "the cyclops is a giant puppet that they put in an actual historical cave + gave circe animatronics for her pig transformation instead of cgi" "they dumped plastic skeletons in an environmentally protected location they were not supposed to be in" "they recreated ancient greek instruments in order to have an accurate score" "all of odysseus's agency is basically gone" "anne hathaway actually learned how to weave ancient looms" "the women in this movie are treated like shit" "they actually buried actors alive to get those underworld shots" "did you see what the fuck zendaya was fucking wearing holy shit you can't DO THAT, MA'AM" "what do you mean there was a legitimate epic the musical reference" "NOT A SINGLE FUCKING GREEK WAS CAST IN THIS MOVIE"
like did nolan have two guys standing at his side at all times whispering ideas in his ear and one told the truth and the other told lies and they didnt tell him which was which until they wrapped production cause
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