Tumblr is where I come to vent (its currently my only social media) and I wanna talk about how I fucked up yesterday but since the ppl I bothered are here on tumblr I'm like """"scared"""" that it would be wrong to do idk ;; but its my blog so I guess I'm not bothering them anymore.
So what happened is that by little chance I came across an interaction here at tumblr dot com in a post discussing something about if trans men benefit from misogyny, or something like that. I didn't pay it much attention bc it's something I've read already and honestly even with that I still feel like I need to learn more to form a proper opinion on it. But what I saw was, to my eyes in that moment, a discussion about how A interpreted the post, and B was giving her opinion being like "are you stupid?" While A gave their interpretation but still apologized for it. I thought B was being mean and, honest to god, I just thought it would be nice to say to A "hey this person was being mean to you, I'm sorry about that!". Because idk, I don't think anyone needs it, but it could be nice, methinks? so I sent them an ask bc their messages were closed.
Now this is where I fucked up bc of some reasons:
First, their ask button said "NO URLS NO CALLOUTS". I didn't pay it much mind bc, well, I wasn't trying to call out no one. And I thought the URL thing was literal. Not sending URLs bc, well, remember how they teach you not to open a link from a mysterious email bc it can be a virus or something? I thought it was more like that. "Don't send me a link bc that's shady af im not gonna open it"
But then when I sent them my message (as an ask) I said "hey I saw this person (her url) treating you like this" so that's where I first fucked up. I kinda get how that can read as a "omg how can -> THIS <- PERSON DO THAT?!!"
After that I said something like "I don't even mind what you are discussing, if trans men benefit from misogyny" bc, well, I wasn't there to argue for or against it. I was focused on another thing
Then I said like the main thing right? Something along the lines of "i just wanted to say sorry that someone was mean to you!". And finally, and this was maybe not the place or time, I said that something B said in the tags ("trans men are our sisters" or smthng along those lines) was weird. Which I meant literally bc I wasnt sure what it meant? It prolly was ironic on some level, but I still don't get it.
Then I sent it, and just then I actually kinda checked their blogs. A was a trans man/non binary he/they, and B was a trans woman. Then I thought a little more carefuly about what I wrote, and sent A another ask saying "hey im not trying to callout nobody or start a witchhunt, much less against a trans woman. Feel free to ignore this ofc"
All of this was 5 on the morning and I just woke up a while ago and also I was dissociating. Did I fuck up? Yeah it wasn't my coolest move. I didn't respect a rule they put in their blog (the no url thing) even if by accident. And in fact their response was about that: "hey what the fuck do you think no URL means?" and "#also that's my mutual :)"
I read that and got really nervous, and the first thing I did was send them an apologize. Paraphrasing I said: "hey yeah I might be fucking stupid. No I don't know what that means, in fact just in case I'll mark anon this time bc I don't have a clue what that is. And I'm sorry for bothering you and your friend, I was having a derealization episode when I sent it. I'm sorry." I tried to be honest, explain why I did it bc to me that's part of an apology.
Just to be clear now with a clearer mind I think I wasn't experiencing a derealization episode but yes I was dissociating.
Their response then was that "no url" means "not sending them the fucking url of someone else in this site" and then in tags something like "what a backpedal lol" "you already showed that you are not a transfeminist. since you don't think trans men benefit from misogyny" and I don't remember what else. Also then they reblogged it saying like "just for the future maybe don't say that you did something bc you were feeling bad when apologizing". This is when I check a little of their blog and see that they got REALLY mad over my first two asks. I've only read it once and quickly ("por encima" como diríamos acá) bc I knew it was gonna make me waaay more anxious. They said things like "why do people think they have to come cuddle a trans man the second an evil trans woman does the littlest 'mean' thing" "that's crazily parasocial omg get a life" "also do they think I can't handle such a little internet interaction???" "And WHY DO THEY UNMARK THE ANON that shows that they KNOW they are not gonna get consequences for their actions omg"
And
Oh my god. Pal.
I know I was the one that reached out and tried to be nice AND I KNOW I was unappropiate now. but Holy Fuck. I don't fucking know you. I don't fucking know or think that you can or cannot handle someone on the internet calling you an idiot Ok. I didn't really think much, and THAT was my mistake. But I feel like they read me in the WORST way possible. Parasocial???? Who are you? And also I didn't even KNOW B was a trans woman!! I only checked her pronouns to not missgender her on the first place!!
A todo esto B only said lol and @[me] can i help you? which actually made me laugh and I <3 that comment and she then said "ok I'm glad I could help" which I also put the heart on bc it again made me laugh. I wish I could apologize to her personally but I feel it would be for worse and MAYBE? it would only be like I'm trying to make her clean my conscience??? tbh at this point I'm just "scared" of interacting so I don't wanna do that. But I really would like to apologize to her bc methinks that yeah. My first message was pretty bad.
It got me thinking about how one can communicate such different things that one wants to, and that really really scares me. And why did I write it like it was a callout (if I did...?)? I think that's a way in which a lot of things on social media (especially twitter) is written, a lot of "bajada de línea" how we would say. And that stuff gets its way onto how oneself speaks and thinks. At least that's my opinion. Oh and also I unmarked the anon bc I thought something stupid like I would be a coward if I didn't. Like, I take responsibility for my words kinda thing. Me hago cargo
So in short I fucked up and I'm really sorry of what I did but also I think A (the they/he) really scalated things and readed me in the worst way possible. I kinda get why but saying that I "backpedal-ed" makes me mad tbh. Like I said I don't know them, they don't know me either... I got mixed feelings. I feel guilty but also angry
At the end of the day maybe I am the one that can't handle internet interactions very well. It also angers me a lot bc I feel stupid for crying over this! I HAVE BIGGER PROBLEMS THAN THIS SHIT! And bc I was doing soooo fine since I left twitter. I didn't get into any more internet discourse or fights since a long time ago :/ which funnily I used to get into TRYING TO DEFEND trans ppl and especially trans women
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Our president just allowed a northamerican rabbi (Jaime Libersohn) to purchase an entire town in Argentina. An entire town. With people living there and the largest water reserve in the entire province.
He's letting northamericans and israelis buy land like it's candy and no one knows or cares about this because they've successfully convinced everyone that we're the enemy instead of the country that just bombed Iran.
Edit to add: This is not a recent purchase, he tried to purchase it in 2008. Keyword TRIED. The local laws prevent him from doing so, because the land is right next to Chile and is a suspiciously convenient strategic place for a foreigner to buy land. And that's without taking into account the fact there are PEOPLE LIVING THERE.
Now, HE IS STILL TRYING TO GET THE LAND HE PURCHASED. There's been back and forth over the years and with more protective laws he doesn't legally have the ownership of the land. The thing is, with the new law Milei is trying to pass, it will be impossible to stop the rabbi of doing whatever the fuck he wants with this place and the homes of the people that have been living there for decades.
And if he is successful, more rich foreigners will do the same to do god knows what. IT WILL BE IMPOSSIBLE TO GET IT BACK LATER. THEY WILL KICK PEOPLE OUT. THEY WILL DO WHATEVER THEY PLEASE. This is BAD.
It is NOT a coincidence that Peter Thiel is here, specially after his failed experiment with Prospera in Nicaragua. It wouldn't be an exageration to think that he is waiting (and probably lobbied) this law to pass to do the same bullshit experiment here where our stupid ass president will turn a blind eye on it.
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