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Languages tend to peak at their word for butterfly. Never seen 2 that are the same, either. Papillon. Mariposa. Borboleta. Fluture. Vlinder. Schmetterling. Pillangó. Babochka. Farfalla. Sommerfugl. Perhonen. Farasha. Titali. Chōchō. Nabi. Húdié. Buom buom. Great job guys, i really mean it.
Once you learn that the megalodon mostly lived in relatively shallow waters you’re like okay yeah people thinking it’s still alive is just wishful thinking huh
one of the best ways i’ve found to combat that inherent depressive pessimism without veering into toxic positivity territory is simply the phrase “i’m open to the possibility”
this particularly works with anything negative i’ve forecasted. “i woke up feeling like shit today, so my day is gonna suck” isn’t a particularly helpful thought, but “it’s a great day to be alive!!!!!” feels hollow and insincere when i have a pounding headache & am running on three hours of sleep
instead i’ll tell myself, “i really don’t feel good right now, but i’m open to the possibility that coffee and breakfast might perk me up a bit.” or “i’m in a lot of pain today, but i’m open to the possibility that my workday might still have fun parts despite that”
sometimes, when your impulse is to slam the door on anything good, but you’re not exactly up to going out & hunting it down yourself, leaving the door open just a crack makes all the difference
It's so funny cause i've been going down such a rabbit hole into disturbing fictional media (Such as Tender is the Flesh, Dogtooth, Taxidermia, and now In the Miso Soup) and understanding that these books and movies are made with the intention of picking apart the seedier/ugly parts of the world in a raw stomach churning way (which it succeeds I turn green very quickly reading/watching some of these) but the first thing I think is
"Man. Maybe I'm not writing fucked up enough"
My great great grandfather’s first wife (who was also my great great grandmother’s younger sister because my great great grandfather married his deceased wife’s widowed sister after her death, yes, my great grandmother had older siblings who were simultaneously her half-siblings and first cousins, my family tree is a bizarre wreath and this is the tip of the iceberg) contracted scarlet fever as a child and it caused rheumatic heart disease which is where the inflammation triggered by the strep infection causes chronic damage to the heart and makes the heart valve malfunction and grow more narrow over time. In her final pregnancy, she contracted measles (or possibly rubella/German measles, this occurred in rural Appalachia in the 1910s so the medical care was spotty) and it caused her to go into labor prematurely. Pregnancy already puts extreme stress on the body and the combination of viral disease, a chronic heart condition and preterm labor caused her heart to fail right after she gave birth to her stillborn daughter.
Her death and the death of her baby would have been totally preventable in the modern day. Strep throat is still a common childhood illness but it can be easily treated with antibiotics and it rarely progresses into scarlet fever and rarely causes rheumatic heart disease with proper treatment. Measles and rubella are both prevented by the MMR vaccine, which is safe and effective. Proper prenatal screening would have detected her heart weakening and been able to monitor and treat her and her baby accordingly. Modern medicine would have been capable of monitoring fetal heartbeat during labor and they could have performed a c-section when the baby showed signs of distress, saving the life of her child and preventing this poor woman from going through hours of agonizing labor that ultimately killed them both.
Her death was due to damage caused by a common and treatable childhood illness, caused by a vaccine preventable illness and a lack of obstetrical monitoring and emergency intervention. And people want to give their children homeopathic bullshit instead of taking them to the doctor and receiving actual appropriate treatment for common childhood illnesses. People do not want to vaccinate their children because they forget these viruses are a bigger threat than the small risk of vaccine reactions OR they truly believe vaccines cause autism and would prefer to have a dead child instead of an autistic child. People want to forgo any prenatal treatment and have wild pregnancies and free births with no medical supervision because ‘our bodies are made to do this’.
And I get it, I get it. I do understand why there is a lack of trust in the medical system, I understand the extensive failures of obstetrical care and why pregnant people may be afraid to entrust these people with their lives. The answer to your stress and fear and desire to do what is best for your child and yourself is not to shun modern medicine but to fight like hell to make it better.
Because we can’t go back. Because we shouldn’t go back. Because my great great grandmother’s sister’s death was 100% natural and unmedicated. She did not deserve that. Her baby did not deserve that. No one should die like that in the modern world where it can be prevented. Healthcare should be free and accessible and patient focused. Public health and preventative measures like vaccinations should not be matters of political debate.
doodles of my fave flower + studies of their body shape! :] (i want to bark bark hiss every time I see people draw Green able bodied, when their sprite very clearly has a hunched back)
inspired by me spacing out on a long drive & staring at trees. this happened earlier this year, and birches ended up growing leaves before i finished the doll.
all branches & roots are made of metal wire + hot glue, which makes them poseable and also keeps them from snapping.
migraine is so bad i cant stand up straight, out of emergency meds, out of toilet paper, threw up twice since i woke up, fridge is bare. even $1 will help
HRA didnt scan my lease when i waited hours to give it to them yesterday further delaying my case, i have to go and resubmit tomorrow. ive been sick 3 times this afternoon alone, the migraine meds i need are $480 without insurance. genuinely im struggling on an unearthly level. even $1 will help
my phone battery is almost done for, they fixed my screen enough for me to use it :/ walking home. cant afford the er w/out insurance, goal is still soup for meds <3
i know this is tumblr and we’re all playing perverts but i just think some of you would be excellent company for a late night walk and a four hour conversation about absolutely nothing