get it off my chest

and out of my mind

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Hey uuuuhhhhh......

I'm trying to change my name and I'm just wondering.......

Any trans/nb/gnc peeps out there to offer advice? Cause I'm feeling things and I don't really know anyone irl that's gone through this (or something similar) so I don't have anyone to talk to that understands, ya know?

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Mmmmmmm *lip smack*

I just love the taste of ✨severe depression✨ in the morning

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Thinking about..... making a depression group chat in discord...... and making it public..... where we can just vent when we need to....... and get support when we need to..... because sometimes it's easier...... to talk to people you don't know...... would anybody be interested in that?

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So I.....may or may not have started an onlyfans.....

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So like...... I'm 98% sure I'm autistic. HOWEVER because I was also a "gifted child" and afab, it was never even considered as a possibility for me. So I was never tested or diagnosed.

Several of my friends (who also have autism) have said to me "there's no way you're not autistic" or other things along those lines. I joined tiktok recently and I relate to a lot of the content posted by and for autistic people.

But, when I brought up the possibility to my therapist she said "no, I don't think so." And when I brought up the idea of trying to get a diagnosis to my PCP she said "well what would that even change?"

I'm just struggling because I want to know if I actually do have autism. Because I relate to experiences expressed by the community and it helps put at lot of my habits and actions into perspective. But I also don't want to claim I'm part of a community that I may not actually be a part of...

Anyone have any ideas?

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When you miss working, but the second you go back, your brain goes "nah, fuck this" and dissassociates

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Oh no

I'm just stuck....

Listening to Turncoat.....

On repeat....

At work.....

And it's giving me an existential crisis.....

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More gender confusion time.

I know I'm non binary. I know I'm fem leaning. I know I want to use they/them pronouns. I know I'm allowed to feel girly or masc without that changing my gender.

So why do I feel, for lack of a better word, wrong about my pronouns? Like, sometimes I still wanna be she/her but if I do that people will ignore the other part of my identity??? They just won't use they/them? I want both but it just seems like I cant have it...

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I don't know why it's taken me this long to realize that I can feel girly and feminine, but that doesn't make me a girl...... Just the same way I can feel masculine without being a man......

......I don't have to choose......

[wolf-of-odin-1963]

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I cannot believe.....

That my loving boyfriend, whom I love very much,

Got so damn excited about having my try his mother's homemade biscuits.......

That he forgot to mention that they were made with a metric fuck ton of buttermilk................

I am SEVERELY lactose intolerant.

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Turns out....

Titty too big to bind.....

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I was wrong.

Titty had been binded.

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I've lost faith in my city police. They we're hosting Tr*mp Supporters in their lot.

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When you still pick up your mother's hoarding habits even though you've actively tried not to you whole life...

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Ok, so, pronoun decision confusion......

Go!

So Im non-binary, have that in my first post so no surprise there. Specifically demigirl (again nothing new) so I prefer the pronouns she/them.

The confusion is coming in because lately, at work, whenever I'm refered to with female pronouns it rubs me the wrong way. Now thankfully my workplace is super accepting, in fact in the interview process I was like "look I'm queer and I'm not gonna hide it". All my coworkers have treated my identities as a normal thing. No "when did you decide..." "Why are you..." Nothing even vaguely queerphobic. It's been great. So it's not that I'm afraid of saying "hey can you use they/them pronouns for me?" Because I know they would change their pronoun use without hesitation.

It's more of a, "am I lying to myself?" Thing. Or..... Ugh it's a bit confusing to even try to explain. I think it's more of a relationship dependant thing. Like, with my close friends and people I care about, I have no issue if they use female pronouns with me. Sometimes yes, I do prefer they/them, but if the use she/her it never insults me or makes me feel bad. But with people I'm not really close to, I feel like more of a they than a she.

I'm going to tell my coworkers that I prefer they/them because that would make me more comfortable at work.

I think I want the end goal to be the people in my life using she/them interchangeably. But I don't know if that's going to happen. And I don't want to just stick to one "set" of pronouns (she/her or they/them) because that's not who I am. I'm both. It just fluctuates. It's all just so confusing....

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Turns out....

Titty too big to bind.....

[wootwona]

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