ghoul

zombie blog

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dont have much of an intro. i do have a normal life outside of tumblr, i exist as a human, but i find great comfort and identity in zombies/ghouls/other undead beings and wanted a blog to post about those experiences.

that being said, i DO identify as a zombie/ghoul. im just not sure what the nature of that identity is (spiritual, physical, etc.).

i am also tentatively a coyote therian, though that seems deeply connected to my zombie thing.

no written dni, but i block freely.

uncomfortable with radqueers as someone with diagnosed physical disabilities. please respect that.

my mortal containment is 17 years of age.

edit: lmao physical zombiekin copinglink corpsekin mutt/coyote therian. and ghoulkin/monsterkin/undeadkin but I use all those interchangeably with zombiekin.

i follow from @bug-mortuary but please keep these blogs seperate!!

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havent been active cause my alterhumanity fluctuates! my identity doesnt change, but my connection to it does mostly due to dissociation and depersonalization.

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been questioning a hivemind/eldritch being/whatever the hell kintype lately. might just draw what i have in mind, its extremely specific. blend of tentacle monster disease creature and also hivemind. yup.

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idk if they do it on purpose but sometimes my friends will casually/jokingly call me a zombie and it makes me so giddy.

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lowkey feel invalid in nonhuman spaces sometimes cause i do know logically being zombiekin comes from my trauma. like this wasnt a lifelong thing. its involuntary, but like, idk. would i still be nonhuman if it weren't for ptsd?

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near death experience -> chronic pain -> systemic chronic illness -> zombiekin :3c pipeline

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having chronic pain and illness triggered by activity so now something as simple as going on a walk is self sabotage.

never thought id be going outside and touching grass to hurt myself.

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i hate loving a label thats often used just in the context of kink. its so disheartening.

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honestly mutt has been one of my favorite labels for my entire identity lately. gender? mutt. sexuality? mutt. humanity? none im a mutt.

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Zombie Apocalypse Regressor things <3

Hand-whittled toys, or dirty/broken/found toys

Lots and lots of books

Quiet game or mousy-mousy-123

Hide and seek (you stay here and I'll come back version)

Eye-spy games too!

Learning how to ride a bike with an old bike you found on the highway

"Here you go kid, I found you a bag without holes"

Lots of learning about foraging and medical aid and geography

Abandoned children's libraries actually! I for one have always wanted to sleepover at the library.

Libraries tend to also have snacks and water in the back and are usually forgotten by scavengers!

Some libraries even have stuffed animals! Don't worry they aren't in danger because zombies dont like cotton and fabric. You gotta pick just one tho!

Handmade straps on backpacks are also good for holding stuffies on! Sew the straps on nice and strong!

Sucking thumb or chewing on hoodie strings as opposed to paci, which needs to be cleaned and stored so isnt very practical

Unless you find a cute paci clip! Bonus points if it has little zombies on it hehehe

Fingerless gloves and hand warmers

Ripped jeans and cool sturdy sneakers

Groups of cg's and regressors who stick together. Slumber parties and following the leader games!! It takes a village !!!!!

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went fishing. bugs bit my ankles. itches a lot.

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zombie yuri

go read chimidoro icecream rn all lesbisn zombiekins. now.

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dont even notice my hand tremors anymore. its just constant and im used to being always shaking, and i get confused when people are concerned by it.

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why does this stupid body need food.

ive been really struggling to eat lately cause of nausea (my digestive system wants me dead) and i just managed to down two slices of pizza and a couple breadsticks and now i feel sick.

but its ok um ill just go rot.

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I am not alive in the same way other people are

I'm alive in the way a zombie or Frankenstein's monster is

Slightly wrong and functioning differently

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lowkey a little worried i might have osdd but how do i bring that up to my therapist without sounding completely crazy.

but like. i feel like i have multiple completely separate identities at different times idfk but its never really a complete disconnect.

i also have ocd so like probably don't comment in case this is an obsession and feedback will only make it worse 👍 fucking hate not knowing whether my brain is playing tricks on me or if im actually onto something.

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shawls.