āplease donāt leave me alone.ā + Tony Stark/James "Bucky" Barnes
Bucky blinks tiredly at the fading sun. His entire form aches from heavy lifting, from being thrown through a wall or three, from being hit by a couple of ray beams, and whatever else he and the others faced in the last three days. He wants to call it a day and sleep for ten years.
Heās sitting on the ground, back leaning against a half crumbled wall, waiting for someone to find him. He lost his ear comm halfway into the final battle when he was blasted from a rooftop by some sort of droid.Ā
Sometime after that, he gets separated from the others. Bucky knows for a fact that Steve is freaking out about him right now. His gut is telling him so. He wonders if the others - Natasha and Sam, particularly - are worried about him?
A sort of heaviness settles on his shoulders.Ā
The fight was tense but not nearly as intense as it was to be in the same room as Steve and Stark as they both tried to maintain some sort of civility while discussing Thanos, the invasion, and the possibility of dying. Stark occasionally has a smug look on his face that didnāt help improve anyoneās mood, but Bucky doesnāt care. From what he was told in passing, Stark foreshadowed something like this happening a while back.Ā
And Stark barely glanced his way since he and Steve called a shaky truce. Bucky knows it has something to do with being in King TāChallaās palace. Stark is smart enough - Steve has enough common sense - to not do anything that would anger the king (like breaking a meeting room or destroying personal property).Ā
And so they are civil and Stark keeps them all at a distance. Even Romanoff and Bucky thought they were friends. He has no idea whatās up with Barton and Stark, but the hostility is nearly as bad with them as it is with Steve and Stark at times. And the Maximoff girl? Bucky doesnātĀ know where to begin with her. She and Stark donāt speak to each other. Donāt even look at each other. Everyone else just stays out of the way.
Bucky groans when he shifts his arm, the metallic one, and feels something pull within. It stings like a motherfucker. He hopes, prays even, that someone will find him soon so he can get his arm looked at and quite possiblyĀ sleep for a whole decade.Ā
He hears something in the distance. Something flying? Maybe? Not giving much thought to it, Bucky closes his eyes and breathes deeply.Ā
And then something heavy lands in front of him and something that sounds suspiciously familiar follows. Like a mechanicalĀ door sliding open and then closing. There are footsteps and then someone is crouching in front of him.
Buckyās eyes pop open and heās sitting up ramrod straight staring into the dark brown eyes of Tony fucking Stark.Ā
āCalm down,ā Stark says followed by an eye roll.Ā āIām not going to hurt you.ā
Bucky doesnāt reply. Realistically speaking, there has been no mention of what happened in Siberia and both Steve and Stark actively avoid discussing what went down. And he, himself, went back into the ice willingly for nearly a year before the Thanos threat became too big.
Heās in no position to be making any means of escape or to defend himself and, judging by the Iron Man suit standing at the ready, all Stark had to do is give the order and heās done for.Ā
āJesus Christ, Barnes. Relax!ā Stark snaps.
Bucky didnāt realize he was close to panicking, didnāt realize that his heart started beating fast, that his hands were shaking.Ā
āYou aināt gonnaā kill me?ā Bucky manages.
Stark stares at him with blank eyes. No anger. No remorse. Thereās something, maybe pity?, in his eyes and Bucky hates it.
āIf I wanted you dead, youād be dead.ā Itās the only thing he gets.Ā āNow sit still so I can look you over.ā
Bucky doesnāt bother concealing the flinch when Starkās fingers start probing along the right side of his temple up to his hairline and then to his neck. He mumbles to himself under his breath but doesnāt move Bucky beyond shifting his metal arm somewhat to check his ribs.
When his down, Stark deliberate gets up slowly and backs away much like one would do to someone who is frightened. If heaviness werenāt settling over his eyes, Bucky might have laughed. Ā
āOkay, Iām gonnaā go get Rogers and, uh, a medic team. Just sit tight.ā
Panic floods Buckyās mind and he shakes his head.Ā
āDonāt leave,ā he demands.Ā āDonāt leave me here.ā
Stark just looks at him, face blank. And the panic that he felt quickly doubles. He doesnāt want to be left alone. Who knows how long it would take for Stark to being Steve or whoever else along? He didnāt want to risk falling unconscious or something worse.Ā
āIām not medically trained to help you, Barnes. Nor do I have the supplies to help.āĀ
āDonāt care,ā Bucky replies, feeling his grasp on reality starting to slip.Ā āJust - fuck - just,ā he curses when he moves his arm and jolt of pain shoots across his shoulders,Ā āplease donāt leave me alone.ā
His head drops. It sounds pathetic even to his own ears. Begging someone who clearly doesnāt want to stay.Ā
If only Steve were - āOkay.ā
Buckyās head snaps up. Did he hear that correctly? Did Stark actually agree to stay with him until help arrives?Ā
Stark turns to his suit - āFRIDAY, activate protocol 134452ā³ - and crouches to Buckyās level as the suit takes off to the sky, probably looking for Steve and the others.
āI know you d-donāt want to stay -,ā Bucky begins.
ā - but thank you, Stark.ā He finishes as though Stark didnāt speak.
They sit there in silence for minutes. Bucky is trying - and failing - to not fall asleep and Stark hasnāt moved from his crouched position. It canāt be comfortable, but Bucky isnāt stupid enough to test his luck and ask Stark to take a seat.
He is, however, apparently stupid enough to say something else.
āAbout that time i-in Siberiaā¦ā Bucky coughs. āNothing can change what I did - ā
āBarnes, you really need to stop talking.ā Itās a warning, but Bucky knows if he doesnāt get it out now, the chances of them being alone like without outside influence are slim to none.Ā
āJust let m-me finish, please?ā Stark doesnāt reply so Bucky takes that as a sign to continue.Ā āI canāt change what I did, but I n-need you to know that Iāll spend the rest of m-my life wishing I could take it back.āĀ
Stark sucks in a shaky breath.Ā āYou had no control over your actions.ā
āFor fuckās sake, Barnes!!ā Stark snaps.Ā āI know it doesnāt matter to you despite you having no control!āĀ
āAndā¦ā Stark starts again, much calmer,Ā āit didnāt matter to me at the time when I saw the fucking video. But now,ā he licks his lips.Ā āItās not fair to hold it over your head for the rest of your life. I just,ā Stark looks pained for a moment.Ā āI just wish I could have said good-bye to my mom. Dad? Itās been rocky for years. But mom? She wasā¦everything to me.ā
The telltale signs of tears sting the backs of Buckyās eyes. Stark looks close to crying himself.
āStark -,ā Bucky wants to say something.Ā
God, the situation is fucked.
āMy mom wouldnāt want me to hold it against you and after some time of being away from everything to do with Siberia and The Accordsā¦Iām much more clear-headed.ā He hesitates.Ā āSteve wonāt like it, but I want to help you. My mom may have lost her life, but I can help you get yourās back.ā
āWhy would you want to help me?ā
āConsider it an IOU,ā Stark replies simply.Ā
Itās going to be a rocky future and Bucky knows that he and Stark have more to discuss, but this is a start.Ā
Probs wasnāt what you expectedā¦
Still, I hope you liked it. :)
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