āI Canāt. Thereās too many. I canāt save everyone. I canāt save anyoneā
This line seems to indicate that Jon has given up on being the good guy. Every avatar heās come across has made sure that he knows that he caused this, made sure he knew what he had done. Each encounter has shown him just how similar he is to all the other avatars, and itās taking itās toll on him.
Even before this he has been told over and over again that heās just like the rest of them. This was especially true with Helen who made a point to make sure Jon knew that they werenāt really so different. Helen is an excellent character to compare Jon to as her evolution is similar to Jonās, even if Jonās has taken much longer.Ā
Specifically in MAG152, when sheās speaking to Jon about why she stopped feeling bad about taking her victims, you can see just how similar they really have become.Ā
She says:Ā āHelen was like you at first. She felt such guilt overtaking people, until one day she realized she wasnāt going to stop doing it. So she chose to stop feeling guilty.ā
This seems to be what Jon has done. He started out the apocalypse with good intentions, hoping to try to reverse what he has done. He doesnāt want to kill just for the sake of killing, so he spares Oliver Banks.Ā
Then we see him go after Jude for the sake of revenge. A couple episodes later, he confirms that itās all about revenge for him, when Jared Hopworth asks him why heās doing what heās doing.Ā
I think that at this point, Jon has realised that heās not going to stop what heās doing. Heās reached the turning point where heās starting to not feel so bad anymore, thereby becoming the very thing he is trying to combat.Ā
Martin asks him if theyāre still doing good, but Jon just states that he doesnāt āknow if that was ever an option.ā
Heās realised that as much as he tries, heās made to harm people, and that as much as he tries to fight it, he always ends up failing. The willingness to accept what heās become is very reminiscent of all the other avatars weāve encountered, and the only difference with Jon is that he has Martin to fight for. Perhaps if he can keep one person safe then it will be worth it in the end, but if/when thatās not enough anymore?Ā
What will be left to do but stop fighting?