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Your writing is beautiful. And I think you're really strong person. I'm glad that I found you and I can follow your story.
Thankyou!! Same yo you!
The sixty thoughts I have when I see a member of the opposite sex
1. You are cute 2. Would I sleep with you? 3. Probably. Yea. I guess. 4. Are you hitting on me or just being nice or wait am I the grenade you're catching for your friend? 5. Great now I can't remember your name 6. Ohhh you love rock music so do I let's get married 7. Now I'm imagining dating you long term.. ehh 8. I wonder how big your d.. is. 9. Do I smell.. wait do you smell 10. Now I'd definitely sleep with you. M 11. Am I being friend zoned 12. Wait I think I'm friend zoning you 13. Nope you just got out of there 14. Wait you just scratched your inner ear and pretended to scratch your nose. I know you were smelling your finger 15. I wonder if you're a good kisser 16. Man look at those teeth 17. Our wedding would be horrible I'd probably cheat on you in Vegas 18. Maybe I wouldn't 19. Now you're readjusting your nut sack. Am I not supposed to stare? 20. Wait you've been staring at my boobs the past ten mins I can stare at your crotch 21. How long have I been staring at your crotch? 22. Is this our first date? 23. Now he's staring at that other chick.. bitcchhes both of them 24. He has something in his teeth.. well at least he has teeth 25. It's only been twenty mins 26. Can he hold a conversation 27. Great awkward silence 28. Hmm bum bum bum 29. Did I feed my dogs? 30. I guess I'd still sleep with you 31. Should I keep it classy and wait like ten dates? 32. Do I really even wanna see you for ten dates, should I just hit it and quit it? 33. Friend zone. Friend zone. Boner town and then friend zone? 34. I can't decide. 35. Where's the alcohol? 36. Is that line supposed to impress me? 37. Wait I just did my little girl flirty giggle with the hand on his knee. 38. I hope he knows I don't want anything serious 39. I just farted. Should I tell him? 40. I wonder if anyone switched my laundry 41. Ohh now you're talking about you're ex girlfriend.. who you called girlfriend and ex girlfriend 42. Baggage buddy baggage! 43. Well its not like I can see us being seriois 44. Should I bring up my exes? Is this the story of the exes battle I think I'd win 45. Now you're talking about your family aww.. now we're back in Boner town 46. I'm bored. I could of been doing... wait now your entertaining me again 47. Great battle of the check. If he doesn't reach for it I'm not going out again. 48. Is he asking to do something else? I guess my cat can wait to eat 49. Wait I don't have a cat 50. Wait how old is he, I should ask him how he spells his name cause I don't remember 51. Should we do this again? 52. Now time for goodbyes. I guess I enjoyed this. 53. He keeps looking at his phone just answer it dude! 54. Well he answered 55. Now I can look at my phone. 10 new text and instagram likes. Yay! 56. Now time for goodbyes.. A uh a uh hug handshake uhh 57. Well that was awkward 58. Yea bro bye 59. Friend zone boom town friend zone boom town.. friend zone hmm 60. Oh Netflix how I can't wait to curl up with you.
What's next, no really, like, what's next?
My life was simple up until a couple of months ago. Majorly due to my own faults, but I can’t say that I actually regret any of my actions. At that moment in time I wanted it, I wanted him so carelessly that I didn’t care about the fall out or the actions. J The fallout was greater then I thought they would be but still, I’m completely ok with them and I know everything happens for a reason. I don’t know the whole reason yet but there is beauty behind this, and my life isn’t ugly and it isn’t broken. I’ve never been more on track and headed in the right direction then I am right now. I’ve never been more ok with who I am… and I’ve also never known more then at this moment right here, right now where I am going and what’s coming next. While at the same time not knowing what else life is going to send my way, but I know it’ll be beautiful and amazing.
I lost one of my best friends recently, someone I considered to be like a sister. But I am completely ok with it. She didn’t accept the decissons I was making, choices that I should mention have nothing to do with her, choices that do not effect my child or hers. But to each their own, if someone doesn’t love you as you are then good bye to them.
As far as men? I don’t know what’s coming but I am having fun dating, seeing what’s out there and what the world has to offer me. Bring it on. Cause while I’m failing Spanish I am kicking ass in ever other aspect of my life. No regrets, no holding back. I’m doing what’s best for my mini me and I.
Connections. Sex. Love. Commitment. They have so much in common yet have nothing in common all at the same time. No nessicito amor. Yet we tend to relate them together so much. Maybe it was the history or possibility of abuse that turned me on. But even though I miss it? I'm much better for it. I'm happy.. or I'm getting there.
I'm not sure how I feel. But I know that it hurts. It doesn't feel good to be in this situation. I didn't think I was capable of feeling this way again. I knew there was a reason why I didn't date. and when I finally put myself out there, It got rubbed in my face. I now get to deal with a fucked up situation on my own. I get ignored, but I know I deserve better. Yet I can't seem to walk away. I just wish enough time had passed so I didn't feel this way anymore. But choices have been made Tuesday is set. and there's no turning back i'd never be the type of chick desperate enough to keep something just to try to keep a guy around at the end of it my choice comes down to my daughter doing what I need to do to protect her and that means him not being part of the equation of anything. I don't know why it hurts this bad. Maybe its the whole fact of wanting someone who never really wanted you that badly. I bit my own tounge. I spoke to soon and now I'm here. and its me, myself, and I. again. the way it should be. I just need to regain focus and find myself. but I'm not sure where my soul is.
Even though I'm beyond tired, I'm actually pretty exhausted it's been a good week. Just a week of working, kaylin, working, kaylin, kaylin, working, and some downtown to myself here and there.
Which brings me to next week starting.. school.. work.. kaylin.. kaylin.. school school.. work.. I need to quit one of my jobs and just have more time to focus on school and kaylin. While I'm doing less school its still such a crazy full-time load. I just hope I don't burn out! I'm enjoying it, and I actually think I could be able to handle both jobs since they are both part time and having kaylin and school.. it pretty much just depends on my school load and how hard my classes are.. I have a feeling two will be easy and the other two.. will be a struggle. No habla espanol and I'm taking spanish two and I've already forgotten everything from spanish one. A an Amos nosotros Tu ..
something like that, hopefully it comes back to me or I can watch a youtube video. My personal life, outside of my amazing daughter and work and school.. is good. Really good. Things are picking up, changing... and I'm ready for it. J and I.. are.. well what we always are. A simple nothing, with a touch of.. something? I don't know how else to describe it, it's easy.. it relaxes me. It's nice to miss someone without missing them too much and knowing that they miss you too. As well as having someone there who is able to meet .. or mostly meet your physical needs. I'm pretty certian it'll run its course after this semester with him starting school and me going full time in everything.. but it was a fun summer.. hopefully there's a couple times out of it.. hah.. its good though.. no one's attached, no one's jealous.. and no one's getting hurt.. it's good vibes all around.
I'm dating.. or starting to date. It's complicated haha. We'll see how these potential dates pan out.. I still don't want something serious but.. I'm deff curious to see what happens next with these dates.. potential dates.. even if they go horribly.. I'm excited.
life's great.. now if only i could get an extra week off of school.
I want it all!
I want it all, and now I know that I'm more then capable of getting it. There's so many things that I haven't done, or that I've stopped myself from doing because I didn't feel capable or worthy.. but it's no longer like that. I want everything and anything that's left after that. Because I know I can get it and I deserve it. My health, my body, my beauty, my school, my work, my daughter, my dating life, my single life, and everything in-between. I am more then capable of having a handle on it and still being the best fucking mother and father I know I can be. On that note, I'm busting my ass working, school, and having a very lack of a social life for my child.. (with the exception of an occasional fling or so..) In the end I know it will pay off. I'm missing out on somethings, but I still get all the time in the world with her. I get to work, go to school and I get to have fun. She is happy, healthy, balanced and her psychological and physical needs are beyond met.
An Addict's Mentality.
Does the mentality of an addict ever change? I don't believe so. I believe its possible for an addict to become sober that's pretty obvious but for an addict to change the ways that they learned as an addict is something I've never seen. I'm not talking about all addicts, but just some of them. The ability to lie, manipulate to get their drugs changes and they place their manipulation into other things, other aspects of their lives. It's something so subtle I don't believe that they notice it, but as an addict you know what you want, you know how to get it it, you know the right things to say and do to get it and then you place your mind onto getting it. It's the same thing. Everything just becomes replaced. So if an addict is using their powers they learned as a drunk for good, then that's not really an issue. It's when becoming involved with an addict and their old techniques they use to use as an addict turn into hurting other people, not with drugs or their addiction because at this point its taken care of but when they apply that mentality into other aspects of their lives. It becomes dangerous. It could be said the same of everyone, we know how to get something we want, if we want it badly enough we know what words to use and how to play it. It's like when we're a child and we really wanted that piece of candy, (think of psychology learning and behavior) its the same methods that an addict uses, that we tend to use as well. However it comes off differently from an addict. They still get cold, harsh, and cruel if they don't obtain what it is that they are looking for. It's a dangerous cycle, but no matter how sober the person becomes that cycle tends to still be there. I'm not saying its always bad, but a tiger can shed its fur but it can never change its stripes. Which brings me to a future paper I hope to write. The mentality of individuals in A.A (the 12 step program, attending meetings and so forth) what happens, and how often is the line between recovering addicts using each other crossed. How often are women or men who are attending A.A meetings preyed upon by the opposite or same sex? A.A meetings are a place of safety, where members can talk about their addictions, and whatever else they have going on. But how often have I heard from A.A members that, "it's so easy to get laid at a meeting, I don't even have to try" or how often have I heard, "I need to be careful, people have warned me about men/women who prey on new members" a place of safety which leads to other types of violence? addiction? Where is the line drawn and how often does this line get crossed. In the society that is A.A i've heard that, "its a right of passage, you learn"
Well iiiiiiii am into deeep
I'm a little butthurt.. I'll admit it. But shit happens and you live and you learn. Just gotta breathe.. remain calm and strong.. and focus your energy on something else.. for me that's working out and getting back into shape. Things happen for a reason.. people come and go into your life for a reason and while I don't know what these reasons are yet I know it's better to have tried and see what the road had to offer then regret it and always wonder what could of and would happened. No more wondering for me.. I chose the path and now the world wants to set me up on a new one.. even if it means letting go of things I don't want to let go of. So here's to putting my energy into working out... let's see what's next.
Be good. Do good. Get good in return. That's how karma works right? I think karma is giving me a good ass kicking for my actions but I can't say that it's not well deserved. Figures... right?
It's gonna be a good day.
Hellooooooo helllooo hellllooooo
This feeling sucks. Time for 100% withdrawal from everything and the situation most importantly. Cause I can't keep going on feeling like this!! It's horrible. I know what I needs to do I just gotta do it! I will achieve this by the end of the week!!
Two steps forward.. One step back. I can't seem to get it right.. but who cares. It's not bothering my work school or most importantly my daughters life. I'm doing me.. I'm doing what feels good and while I may be crossing some lines.. I have no regret. I don't even have guilt or remorse anymore. It is what it is.
I need to be a better person. I was before and somehow that part of me got chipped away. I could sum it up to getting sick and not being able to drink. Maybe I was so thirsty that I wanted something I couldn't control in another aspect of my life.. but I thought I could handle it and I obviously can't. The guilt eats me a live and I feel like it's chipping away at pieces of my soul. I realize now that I need to be that person I was before. That I need to be better and do better then I have been doing. I need to be an example of the women my daughter deserves. I wouldn't want her to be in my situation or vise versa. So I'm ending things. It won't be easy but I know it'll be worth it. I can place my focus on what really matters. Now that that's out of the way and delt with I need to deal with time management. Delaying school for a little while longer so I can spend more time with my daughter is something else I need to do. Sorry baby girl I've been off my game for awhile but now I'm getting back on it.. I'm so focused on school and work I'm missing parts of my daughters life I don't wanna miss out on. Esp since two tears old to three is such a big change.. I don't wanna miss a second of it. C
Ahh
..... I don't know!