Everything has been figured out except how to live

Kaylie: A ridiculous 21 year old space case trying to get a biology degree to stare at lions from afar. Feel free to chat

[habibtiharrie]

[leeshao-deactivated20200207]

[heavenhillgirl]

Johnny Gloom

[nightwomancometh]

[wordsnquotes]

Do it or don’t do it — you will regret both.

Søren Kierkegaard, Either/Or (via wordsnquotes)

[givemeashot]

Really tired of being sad

[serious]

[ourcamplife]

Photo by: @mddyelrck #ourcamplife

[lovetravelmusichedgehog]

[wolveswolves]

Twenty weeks old Sawtooth pack pups by Jim and Jamie Dutcher

[love-personal]

[missadventvre-blog]

[moxis]

job interview: we need HAPPY, MOTIVATED people!!

my depressed ass:

[givemeashot]

brain, for no reason: you feel sad

me: thanks

[slowheart]

fool me once, shame on u; fool me twice, shame on u again for taking advantage of my compassionate & forgiving nature!!!!!! how dare u

[givemeashot]

Today was really hard. I try and keep this platform as somewhere I can express myself freely, so I feel it's important I share this. Academia has torn me down emotionally and physically. I have never questioned/ doubted myself more then I have as a student. Failure is something I have always had a hard time accepting, it's not been easy either. But simply something I've grown more comfortable with. Some of these classes I had to take were set up in such a way I would fail, and allowing myself to accept a mark I hated was never easy, despite trying to be nonchalant about it. Separating that mark from my own value and intelligence has been hard. I've gotten better but I still have days like this, where the pressure I place on myself is too much and I break down. Today was spent staring at a paper that i hated. I felt stupid and that all of my ideas were flawed and not good enough. I guess academia, you've made me feel adequately "not good enough". I'm excited to be done with you for a while, fully knowing I plan to peruse a masters program. But i need some time away where I can value myself on things other than marks. So in the mean time, it's been not the best knowing you, I think it's best we're taking this time apart.

[givemeashot]

WOW I'm happy and in love. These are not important to each other. But it's nice to have accepted who I am and have a person who supports me in that, yanno?