The Dress
Pairing: Mac (Warfare) x Fiancée!Reader
Summary: Mom's wedding dress has arrived.
Contains: Something new, a confidence boost through the door, a kid makin' promises he fully intends to keep.
Words: 800ish
It came.
You snatch the cardboard box off the front porch and dart into the bedroom, locking the door behind you for a moment alone.
Your wedding dress is here.
You didn't even realize you were looking forward to it this much until you heard the box drop out front.
You rip into the box and stare at the clear bag inside. You can see the white lace through the plastic. You pick it up carefully and remove the dress from the bag, holding it out and letting it unfold itself.
It's beautiful.
You admire the white lacy dress, front and back, then place it gently on the bed and strip so you can try it on.
It fits perfectly.
The bottom reaches your mid-calf. The sleeves are lacy and see-through. It hugs all the right places. You turn, checking the full-length mirror from every angle. It's perfect. You've never felt so beautiful.
And to think, a month ago you wanted to wear jeans to the courthouse to sign a marriage certificate. But Mac wanted a ceremony, and to see you in a wedding dress, so you agreed to dream a little bigger. He was right. He's always right. You're so happy to be marrying a person who knows what you need, even when you're being stubborn about it.
There's a light knock on the door.
"You okay in there?" Mac asks. "Travis said you snatched a package off the porch and took off running."
You laugh, wiping away a tear you didn't invite, and walk to the door.
"It's my wedding dress," you explain, resting your forehead against the cool wood.
"Yeah?" he asks. You can hear the smile in his voice.
"Yeah," you confirm.
"Do you like it?"
You look down at the white lace covering your body, and wish you could show him.
"I love it," you answer.
"I can't wait to see it."
"Soon," you promise.
"Soon," he repeats. "Can you tell me something about it? Help me create a visual?"
You look down again, feeling self-conscious about your simple dress that you bought online. It's not officially a wedding dress. You visited one bridal boutique in town, just out of curiosity, and hated the way it made you feel almost as much as you hated the insane price tags. Is that what he's expecting? Some floor-length satin gown with hand-stitched accents? Rhinestones? A corset?
"What if your visual is better than this, and you're disappointed when you see it?"
"Not possible," Mac assures you from the other side of the door. "You blow me away every day."
Instinct tells you to make a joke about blowing him, but your heart's not in it.
"It's white," you breathe. "And lacy."
"How long?" he asks.
"Mid-calf."
"Sleeves?"
"Lace," you sniffle. "They're see-through."
"That sounds beautiful," he says quietly.
Is it enough, though?
"What are you thinking about?" he asks.
"I'm wondering if it's enough," you sigh, leaning your back against the door. "It's pretty, but it's not exactly a wedding dress."
"Baby?"
"Yeah?"
"If that's what you want to get married in, it's the perfect wedding dress."
Don't cry on your new dress, dammit.
"What's going on?" Travis asks.
"Mom's trying on her wedding dress," Mac answers him.
"Can I see?"
"Can Travis see?" Mac asks, directing his question to the door.
"Yeah," you croak.
"I'm gonna go get dinner started," Mac says. "Vacate the premises to avoid temptation, y'know."
You laugh, and you hear him chuckle, and then walk away. Travis tries the doorknob, which is still locked. You unlock it and step to the side, in case Mac's still loitering in the hallway. Travis comes in, and his jaw drops at the sight of you.
"Good?" you ask, pushing the door shut.
He nods, and you sigh in relief.
"Mac's gonna lose his shi… stuff," he quickly corrects himself, making you laugh.
"Yeah?" you ask.
"Yeah!" he chirps.
"Good," you grin. "Will you guard it for me?"
"Huh?"
"Can I keep it in your closet, so Mac doesn't accidentaly see it in ours?"
"I'm guarding it from Mac?" He grins devilishly. Little horns sprout from beneath his hair. Oh no.
"Yep."
"I solemnly swear not to let Mac anywhere near my closet," he says. "Under pain of death."
"Okay, that's a little far," you laugh.
"Mother, it's too late, I take my swears seriously," he says, putting a hand over his heart to show that that deal is sealed.
"Alright," you laugh again, "let me get out of this, then we'll go make sure Mac's taking dinner seriously."
i block ppl all the time so my blocklist ranges from "actual fucking asshole fascist" n "post that mildly annoyed me because im petty" and if i went thru my blocklist rn i probably would have no idea why i blocked each of them but whatever
Corroded Coffin Fest Pop-Up: A Million Words and Counting...
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The theme for this surprise pop-up event is Million, which is the number of words we have now surpassed as a group for our Corroded Coffin Fest Events! Look at that! Amazing work, everyone.
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Summary: Daniel helps Teresa relieve a little bit of her stress.
Includes: soft fem-dom, Daniel with his head where it doesn’t belong (yes, that means what you think it means—between Teresa’s legs), teasing, and feeding the boy dinner. (18+ ONLY mdni | CONTAINS SEXUALLY EXPLICIT CONTENT)
Chapter 9 • 3,942 words • When the Dust Settles masterlist
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Her boy stands there, pouring liquor from a decanter into a short glass. Right, Fisk had something personal to take care of tonight. But what the hell is Daniel doing here? His eyes shoot up to meet hers and he smiles when he sees who it is barging in. Her heart races. So many conflicting feelings fester inside her until she feels absolutely strung out and sick.
Without asking he pours her a drink, and thank God, because she needs one. Desperately. She shuts and locks the doors before sauntering over and downing the whole thing in one go. Her lips come away wet and Daniel’s eyes linger there. Her body feels hot so she shrugs off her coat and sets the glass back on the desk.
“Top it off,” she demands.
He lets out a surprised laugh. “Yes, ma’am.”
The air feels thick with a tension she wasn’t part of and it turns her stomach. He’s too damn jolly and she’s in too much of a mood to play nice. All that anger bubbles to the surface, blazing across her chest and face like a wildfire.
“What was BB doing here?” she asks, watching the way he reacts, looking for a waver or a tell that he’s lying.
He knows from her flat tone that this is serious and promptly wipes the grin off his face. He leans against the desk in front of her and looks like he’s trying to read her. This will be new territory for both of them if she blows up and she’d rather he didn’t see that.
“I was doing what you said to do,” he confesses carefully. “I’m not letting her take advantage anymore.”
She narrows her eyes, but keeps her thoughts to herself because she knows they’re crazy and not like her. At least the her that he’s met.
He shrugs. “I was giving her the opportunity to be a team player.”
Her jaw clenches involuntarily so she opens her mouth to take a deep breath and another sip of her drink before she speaks. “You’re not in a position to give opportunities.”
“Okay, not an opportunity, but . . . I guess we had a conversation.” He squirms under her attention. “Maybe I wanted to call her out for the whole Mayor Garbage thing. Isn’t that what you wanted?”
Fuck. He’s trying so hard. Too hard. And right now nothing is going to please her.
She paces across the room and takes the large pin from her hair, letting the waves tumble down her mid back. That was starting to give her a headache on top of everything else.
“Did I do something wrong?”
His voice cuts her deep. He’s so obedient and careful, and as bad as she craves that, it makes her feel worse. Sad. Because he’s struggling to find his place now, struggling to please her, because it’s about regulating her emotions and not about teasing this time. She can tell he’s done that before. Hell, he’s probably done it his whole life, made everyone else around him happy to protect himself. That’s why he’s the loyal dog who doesn’t complain, because even abused animals still love their owners.
She turns around and goes back to him, sucking up her own feelings and shoving them back into Pandora’s box. “No, you’ve done everything right,” she says the thing she’s always wanted to hear and never has.
He slowly lets loose a crooked smile. At least he recovers quickly. “I missed you today. Fisk sorta made it sound like we had plans.”
“We did. They fell through.”
Oh, boy.
He missed her? Damn it, no. Now she’s going to think about it, about how no one has ever said that to her before, about how no one has probably ever felt that for her before. Why did he have to go and say something stupid like that? And he doesn’t even mean it. He can’t.
She moves closer so that they’re touching and digs her thumb nail into the soft flesh of his stomach until he doubles over then knocks his leg out. He lands on his hands and knees, breathless.
“What are you doing?” he asks on the end of a cough, looking up at her with betrayed watery eyes so perfect she almost folds.
She just wants to know how far she can push. That’s how she was taught. “You’ll need some self defense training,” she says, voice foreign to her own ears.
He starts to get up but she sticks her high heel between his legs, pushing down ever so slightly. Whether he believes it or not, she isn’t trying to cause him pain. She only wants him to learn what she needs from him. Which he does quickly, settling back onto his knees and waiting for instruction. Oh, he’s her favorite thing in the world in this position, gazing up at her with those big brown eyes.
It’s time to do the reckless thing.
She leans back against the desk, kicking her heels off, and letting her legs part. Daniel’s mouth falls open slightly as his gaze is drawn downward and he makes no effort to correct himself. He looks shamelessly but is well behaved enough to know not to touch.
With both hands, she fingers the hem of her dress, slowly sliding it up her thighs. It’s intoxicating the way he watches with the look of a man who hasn’t eaten in days. God, she hopes he’s never done this before, hopes she’s the first to feed him.
“Has the anticipation worn off, Danny-boy?” she asks, knowing when he had said it earlier it was bullshit.
He lets out a disbelieving laugh, and his chest rises and falls quickly as he looks up at her, eyes heavy with lust. “Fuck no.”
He’s so pretty down there—all broad shoulders, thick thighs, and soft hair she wants to grab ahold of. It drives her crazy to know she’s going to have to take this slow, to give a little to get. She made a promise after all. It’s his reward, not hers. And shit, he deserves it after the way she’s let her mood get the better of her and the way he’s been able to appease her. But perhaps that means she deserves it too.
Her dress rides further and further up her thighs as she spreads her legs until the lace of her panties finally has its debut.
The noise Daniel makes is both adorable and completely arousing. If he were a different man he’d rise off his knees and take her right here on the boss’s desk. But he’s not, and she feels blessed beyond belief for that. He waits for her word because he’s so well behaved already.
She beckons him with her finger and he shuffles forward until she can feel his hot breath panting against her exposed skin. But still he waits, hands on his knees, digging in like he has to so he won’t reach out and touch her.
“What do you want to do, Daniel?”
He groans almost painfully. “I wanna take those off,” he says, entirely enthralled by the strip of fabric between her legs.
“Go ahead.”
He hesitates like he’s waiting for her to pull the rug. Then finally raises his hands, placing his palms to her knees first, sliding tantalizingly slow toward his destination, thumbs pressing into the meat of her thighs as he makes his way. Up, up, up they go, and her hips pitch forward to meet him involuntarily. His fingers curl into the thin waist band and gently pull her panties down. He stops breathing, waiting and watching as they slide the length of her legs. She kicks them to the side when he finally gets them all the way off.
For a moment, he closes his eyes. She has to smile at him for how sweet that is because she knows he must be as eager as she feels. His hands tighten in the notch below her hips and she shivers at the slight coolness of his pinky ring against her skin.
“You’re so beautiful,” he breathes out.
“Aw.” She bites her lip to keep from laughing, and runs her fingers through his soft hair. “You’re too kind.”
He looks up at her as if she’s an altar, like he’s finally been given the chance to do the one thing he’s wanted to do his entire life and is petrified to lose it. He pleads with those sweet puppy eyes and it drives her nuts.
“What do you want now, Daniel?”
He holds her eyes and squeezes her hips deliberately. “I wanna kiss you here.”
“Yeah? What do you say?”
“Please.”
“Please, what?”
“Please, may I kiss your pussy?”
She does a whole body shudder at those words, rolling her hips into the pressure of his fingers. He listens like he’s afraid to miss a single breath. It unravels something deep within her and she’s sure she won’t recover from this but there is no going back now. “Yes,” she agrees, voice fraught with need. “Show me what you want to do.”
His hands slide down from her hips, to the tops of her thighs where he gently pulls them even further apart. There’s an unsureness in the way he moves, testing the waters, waiting for her to stop him, maybe to tell him it was all a sick joke. When she doesn’t, he goes forth slowly, like a fledgeling feeling his way. He glances up one last time then buries his head between her legs.
The first touch of his lips to her bare skin is strangely innocent. A real kiss. He’d meant what he said, not a fabrication to make the act sound nicer. He places another, moving down, just soft little pecks that have her impatient with want.
Then his mouth opens, tongue dipping, searching. She closes her eyes to the sensation as it sparks. He licks one long stripe up then back down and she imagines he looks up at her as he does this but she can’t open her eyes to confirm. It would be too much.
He squeezes her thighs again and nuzzles his face further against her, lazily lapping in a rhythm now. She can’t help herself. She looks.
His lashes fan out over his cheeks as he flicks his tongue, completely occupied by devotion to her pleasure. What a beautiful boy. She grips his hair and throws her head back with a moan. He echoes it against her, thrusting forward to lave and suckle and nip the sensitive flesh between her legs.
“Is this what you hoped for when—” The question breaks from her lips with another moan.
“Mhm,” he mumbles against her, knowing what she means to say.
She’s so wet and desperate she aches inside, her tightness throbbing with each heartbeat. It's a beautiful kind of torment to have him between her thighs, sending her over the edge, because he wants to and not because she’s asking or demanding. He does it for himself too, moaning and rocking against her.
And it’s his sounds that push her even further—the eager little uh, uh, uh as he jerks his chin, stiffly licking her until the sound is as lewd as a dirty film. The burst of pleasure is so quick it surprises her and she loses balance, fisting his hair. He moans for her, his messy mouth still giving and giving and giving.
“You’re doing so good, Daniel,” she whispers. “You’re gonna make me . . .”
His hands dig into her thighs and he groans, nudging eagerly forward to chase her orgasm. She rides his face, fingers so tight in his hair they hurt. It’s so close. She arches and jerks, and he presses on, whimpering as if it feels just as good to him. Then all at once it snaps.
She cries out, coming so hard that stars zing across her darkened vision. And he licks her through it until she’s overwrought with sensation. She buckles and grabs his shoulder. “Slow.”
His brown eyes glisten as he looks up, tongue idly moving through her wetness.
“Come here,” she murmurs.
Instantly he’s off the ground, albeit a little wobbly, so she grabs him by this collar to hold him steady and kisses him. It’s heated, intense, almost bruising, but it feels so good.
He groans into her mouth, fidgeting. “T-Teresa . . .”
“Yeah, baby,” she says, pulling away to look at him and brush the sweaty hair from his forehead.
“I . . .” He looks haunted. And he’s holding her away from his body with shaking hands.
For a moment she’s confused until she looks down and sees the wet spot in the front of his slacks. She meets his eyes again and he looks so damn embarrassed, cheeks flaming red. It can’t be helped, she bursts out laughing and cuts herself off by pressing her mouth to his.
“Oh, you are such a good boy,” she purrs, kissing him until he moans and she breaks away with one of her own. “Have you ever come untouched like that?”
“No,” he says with a shaky breath. “You’re not mad?”
She holds his face in her hands and looks him in the eyes, wondering where the hell he’d get that idea. “No, I’m not mad.”
He scrubs a hand over his face. “You must think I’m, like, a pathetic pervert or something. I didn’t mean for that to . . .”
“Look at me,” she says and he does. “I like it. And I’ll maybe even give you a chance to redeem yourself if you want it but I like it, Daniel. I like that you feel my pleasure.”
He looks down but a smile tugs the edge of his lips. “Next time I want to at least get out of my pants.”
She laughs. Next time. Oh, she looks forward to that but she must pace herself. They say that flames this hot burn out quick.
“It’s late,” she tells him and herself.
“Right. You should go.” He bends down on one knee and, like a gentleman, helps her back into her panties. He shimmies her dress back down too and lets out a little noise as if remembering moments ago. He shakes his head. “You really gotta go. ‘Cause I would do that again right now if you asked. I’m already . . .”
Wow. He recovers quickly. But no such luck of getting rid of her. “We carpooled, remember? You gotta come with me unless you wanna ride in the back of a stinky cab with a visible stain on the front of your pants.”
He gapes for a second. “Yup. I’m going with you.”
The front seat of Teresa’s car is so comfortable Daniel nearly falls asleep on the way home. He’s starting to think there’s some sort of melatonin shooting out of her air vents. He would quickly descend into slumber if it weren’t for the sticky situation in his boxers. He’ll be hopping in the shower first thing. But Christ, he’s exhausted. From adrenaline probably. He nearly passed out from the rush the second he had his head between her thighs.
He can still smell her on his skin, taste her if he licks his lips. If he had the courage, he’d jump her as soon as they got to his apartment and eat her out all night long. The sounds she makes, the way she pulls his hair until it almost hurts, it all makes him burn with want. Hell, he came in his pants untouched which he hasn’t done since he was a teenager watching late night adult channels in his parents basement. That goes to show what kind of effect she has.
They pull up to his apartment and he’s surprised when she unbuckles her seatbelt too. Is she coming in with him? He doesn’t dare ask and lets the universe handle his fate. Sure enough, she follows him to his door. And all the way inside. Is he pushing his luck if he hopes she’ll join him in the shower too?
She stops in the tiny entryway. “Is it alright if I look around while you shower?”
Damn it. Shouldn’t have wished. “Uh, yeah. And there’s some drinks in the fridge if you want something.”
“Thanks,” she says, ignoring him for the many boring sights of his crappy apartment.
He nods. “Cool, I’m gonna go, uh, do that.” And he takes off before he can let self consciousness kick in.
If he thinks his showers every morning are quick, this one beats them by a landslide. He’s out and pulling on gray sweats and a t-shirt in practically half the time it would take him to get sluggishly undressed.
He looks in the mirror and pats his hair dry with a hand towel but it’s already dripped all over his shirt. It’s the most laid back he’s looked in front of her besides the night at the club, but this feels different—a bit like being naked in front of her. He grimaces at himself and leaves before he can even ponder what that would be like.
Half way down the hall, he smells something. What the hell? Is she cooking? He rounds the corner on a little faster stride and finds her leaning over the counter with some sort of sandwich on a plate. She pushes it toward him.
He’s not even sure where she found ingredients to build one, let alone how she did it so quickly. “Alright, chef Hawke, what did you make?”
She smiles, shrugging happily. He has to focus because all he sees is the way her breasts push together when she moves hanging over the counter like that.
“You didn’t have much to work with. Eggs, some spices, toast. Oh, and an avocado that was about to go bad.” She walks around the side of the island and props her hip against it, gesturing over the sandwich in an exaggerated motion. “Come. Eat!”
He swaggers over and slips onto the stool next to where she’s standing. It smells pretty good for an egg sandwich and he’s worked up quite the appetite. Mayonnaise and hot sauce squeezes out when he picks it up to examine it.
“My college go-to.” She points at it. “Beats a ramen packet.”
“You’re not having any?”
“No.” She laughs like that’s an absurd question and he gets a little nervous about being poisoned or that it’ll be terrible.
“So, you’re just gonna watch me?”
“Yes. Yes, I am, Daniel.” Her voice dips. “I like watching you eat.”
He thinks of himself, sloppy and uncoordinated, shoving the sandwich into his mouth like he did in her car. Then realizes maybe she means the other thing. And in that case, he loves to eat. He’d do it all night if she asked and she could watch him, grab his hair, scratch his scalp, and moan and moan and . . .
“Try it,” she instructs.
The first bite is a little dry and she notices immediately, grabbing a mug from his cup rack and filling it with tap water. He nods a thanks and gulps it. “Five star,” he jokes.
She steps closer. “Keep eating.”
He does and she observes.
It’s an excruciating kind of observing, humiliating for whatever reason, as she analyzes him down to the core. It’s as if she’s downloading his brain into her own just by watching him take bite after bite. And fuck it, it’s kinda good. The sandwich, at least, maybe not the staring. Strange combination of flavors for sure but it works and he’s had a lot worse.
She keeps moving toward him as he devours her sandwich until she’s close enough to reach out and brush the hair from his face. He looks up, feeling mayonnaise drip onto his lips and chin.
“Napkin,” he says around a mouthful.
“Manners.”
“Please.”
She reaches across the island counter and grabs one from the holder. Instead of handing it to him, she wipes his face herself. It’s erotic for no reason. Every second with her since the night at the club has been sexually charged but there’s still a level of separation and curiosity like they’ve never even touched. She’s mysterious and it drives him nuts never knowing what she’s thinking.
Her other hand comes up and brushes the hair off his forehead once more. He’s noticed she must like that—he’ll have to remember to keep it messy for her. And he’d be lying if he said he didn’t love it too. He can’t hide when leans into it like a giddy dog.
“Didn’t want you going to bed with an empty stomach,” she says softly, hand falling to his shoulder. “I’ll sleep better knowing you’re fed.”
He sighs. Her hands on him have an effect like no other. If only they’d touch him there again. “Thank you,” he says, sighing some more.
“Now I want you to get some rest. It’ll be a long day tomorrow.” She caresses his cheek, and lets her eyes wander all over him. He’s hard instantly. And she’s well aware of it because of the thin gray sweats, her suggestive smile says as much. “You can take care of that first if you’d like.”
How about you take care of it, he thinks but isn’t brave enough to say. If he were more assertive or fearless he would tell her to jerk him off right here in the kitchen, to get on her knees and to serve him because it’s only fair, right? But that’s not who he is. Begging comes easiest. He doesn’t do that either though. Heavy breaths of silence is his only response.
“Do you need some inspiration?”
His heart seems to stop and start again. “What . . . What do you mean?”
Her hand slides down his arm slowly, seductively, raising goosebumps in its wake, until she reaches his hand and picks it up. He watches in awe, swallowing harshly, as she draws his hand to her lips and sucks two of his sauce-coated fingers into her mouth. If it weren’t for his earlier accident, he’d go off in his pants again right now. Shit, he still could.
It’s a perverse kind of agony plaguing him, making his dick so hard he feels the weight of it jump against his thigh. He could actually cry begging for her to touch him but he doesn’t. He waits. He wants to be her good boy.
The inside of her mouth is wet and warm as she fellates his fingers, one hand holding his wrist, the other rubbing over the hair on his arm. He doesn’t know where to look—her mouth, her eyes, the swell of her breast—but he almost decides when she lets go of him with a pop.
“Now you know what the inside of my mouth feels like,” she says, lips shiny with spit.
He almost comes.
Then with a weird regret, he thinks, why the hell didn’t he put his fingers inside her earlier? Another voice that sounds a lot like hers reminds him that she didn’t ask him to do that.
She leans down and kisses his cheek. “Goodnight, Daniel.”
Then she leaves him there, swaying those gorgeous, grabable hips on her way out, and he’s stuck there on the stool, shocked and hard and confused.
He is absolutely going to ruin his sheets tonight—thankfully he’s already taking everything to the laundromat tomorrow. She’s right, it’s gonna be a long fucking day.
After a moment of silence to recalibrate, he gets up and puts his plate in the sink. That’s when he notices something odd next to the stove. Huh, he laughs. She rearranged all his spices in alphabetical order.
yk what i hate though. is when i find a meme and im like THIS IS SO [cool intimidating mutual i never talk to] I SHOULD SEND IT TO THEM but then i remember ive never talked to them ever and so i cant just like give them a meme out of the blue and so the meme just withers and rots in my camera roll 😔
summary: Not the Mrs. is a bit sad from a very final diagnosis and Sam’s gonna do his best to remedy that.
warnings: infertility
notes: I’ve known these two weren’t having kids since I started writing them, now you do too. Feel free to let me know if there are any mistakes!
Whiskey's stretched across the dining room rug with the dishwasher humming in the background. You're standing at the sink, drying the same plate again and again as you listen to the wind chimes clink faintly through the open window in front of you.
Sam notices because you haven't said a word in five minutes. He's at the table with his laptop open in front of him. "You planning on polishing that into a mirror?" He asks, leaning his head on his hand, elbow on the table.
You glance down at the plate in your hands, sighing as you place it in the cabinet. "Shut up."
He watches you quietly before turning to his laptop again, looking at the screen. You've been like this all week. He closes the laptop without another comment and then stretches out his legs slightly. "You wanna talk about it? Or you wanna keep standing there staring out the window like you’re haunting the kitchen?"
You glance over at him, raising your brows so high it’s comical. "I am not haunting the kitchen."
"Yeah, you are." He chuckles. "All you need is a white dress and a little tuberculosis and I think you'd have it handled."
“Fuck off.” You almost smile. You turn your head back down towards the sink full of dishes. "I was just thinking."
"Uh oh." He teases softly.
You roll your eyes and sigh, not one for it tonight. "Sam."
He pushes back from the table and stands, moving closer to you. He leans his hip against the counter and crosses his arms across his chest as he looks at you. "About what?" He asks softly.
You hesitate, but he knows. You know he knows. "I don't know." You sigh again, shrugging. "I just thought things would look different by now."
He nods, inhaling slowly himself as he tries to find a response. All he comes up with is, "different how?"
You shrug again, not looking at him. "I don't know… Like the house should be messier. We should be tripping over toys in the hallway or something."
He lets out that breath even slower now, "Whiskey leaves her toys in the hallway all the time." He offers gently. "I've almost eaten shit twice this week."
"That's not the same. You know it's not." You say sadly.
"I know." He agrees and shrugs. Silence embracing you both again as the dishwasher clicks off.
You tap your fingers against a glass sitting on the dish mat. "I just keep thinking that you— we— deserved that. And I can't really give it to you." Your voice catches in your throat, annoyingly.
He frowns, straightening his back as he looks at you. "Hey… No. Don’t do that."
You shake your head almost immediately, "it's not self-pity, I just—"
"It is though." He cuts you off. "And I don't like it."
You raise your head to meet his eyes. Dark brown and pooling with worry. He lets them scour your face, looking for any sign that you're even more upset at his words. When he doesn't find that, he continues.
"I don’t stay with you for your uterus." He says it flatly.
"Wow. How romantic." You huff.
"You know what I mean." He rolls his eyes, shifting his weight slightly. He uncrosses his arms, running a hand up over his head. "Ive pictured it too. I've pictured you yelling at me about car seats. I’ve pictured stepping on toys at 2am because our hellspawn couldn’t be bothered to put things away. I’ve pictured diapers and onesies and talking to your belly. All of it. I’ve pictured it, babe." He sighs, "I've also pictured losing everything else once too." He adds, a bit quieter. Then he shrugs. "And that one felt a hell of a lot more real. So if I have to pick which fantasy I'm giving up on? Easy."
You stare at him sadly.
He just shrugs. Like all of that is nothing. "I want you. I've already got the best thing. I don't need kids."
Your eyes start to well up before you can stop them. He can't just say shit like that.
He sees it and groans softly, head tipping back as his eyes close. "Ah shit, don't cry. I'm bad at crying. I start saying stupid shit."
"You're already saying pretty stupid shit." You whisper, wiping a tear from your eyes but a smile is tugging at your lips.
He smiles a bit as he steps closer to you, guiding you around until you're facing him. Then his hands slide around your waist and slip into the back pockets of your jeans. "You think I'm sitting around here disappointed?" He asks softly. "You think I look at you and go, damn, shame about the statistical probability of that one?"
You snort, though it sounds more like a cough. "You are such an asshole."
"Yeah, maybe." He shrugs. "But you've yet to kick me to the curb, so I guess I'm doing something right here." You press your face against his chest as he holds you, breathing in deeply. He lets you, running his hand up and down your back. After another minute or two, he exhales a breath against your hair and smiles a bit. "You know," he starts. "I used to think there was this checklist to living a happy life. My parents had one and they were the happiest people I knew."
You pull back slightly to look at his face, confused. "A checklist?"
"Yeah. A checklist." He nods, adjusting his arms so they're tucked up closer against you. "Figured we’d graduate. I’d enlist. We get married and buy a house. Have some kids a few years after. Get a dog. That was our key to happiness."
You almost smile at him again.
"I kept thinking if we didn't follow it exactly, it meant we screwed something up. And I know, I know, i fucked the marriage thing up all to hell and then everything just started happening, the dog, the house, the cars… and they just kept happening until I shipped out." He says softly. Then his mouth twitches up into a smile. “But if this is what we get? I'm okay with that. Our life is perfect just how it is."
Your throat tightens, and the inside of your cheek feels raw from biting at it. "I just don't want you to resent me."
"For what?!" He scoffs, "Not producing progeny that would inherit my temper and your stubbornness? Think you saved us all. That kid would've been a menace to society."
"Sam." You repeat.
"I'm serious." He moves one hand and tips your chin up. "I don't resent you. I look at you and I see my girlfriend. The woman who wrote me letters every week when I needed them the most. The woman who dragged me home and refused to let me rot in bed." His thumb brushes the wetness under your eye away. "That's not lacking, okay? And yeah, I'll probably always wonder what a kid of ours would've looked like or acted like. You will too. But wondering isn't the same as resenting. And besides, we've got Whiskey and she's like 2 toddlers combined."
Whiskey suddenly jolts awake at the sound of her name. She looks around the room, spots you and Sam. She stretches when she stands, grabs her tennis ball, and trots over with her tail wagging hard enough it thumps against the cabinets with a thwack.
Sam looks down at where she's sat at your feet and chuckles. "Speak of the idiot."
You let out a laugh at that, bending down to pick up the tennis ball before she shoves it into his leg. "She thinks we're being too serious."
"She's right. Can we stop it?" He chuckles softly. You toss the ball down the hallway. Whiskey tears after it, skidding across the hardwood as she does. Sam leans back against the counter, watching you play with Whiskey. "We're allowed to be sad about it.” He says softly. "I'm not pretending it's nothing, babe. I promise."
"I know you're not."
"And if that means we get to sleep in on Saturdays," He shrugs, "and take spontaneous road trips, and maybe— I don't know— adopt another eighty-pound creature at some point…"
You raise your eyebrows as you look at him, "Another one?"
He nods, "go big or go home, baby. Two of those dumbasses. Double the fur. Double the expenses. We'll complain about vet bills but secretly love every bit of it."
"You'd lose your mind." You laugh softly, tucking back tear-stained hair behind your ear.
"I've already lost my mind, I live with you." Whiskey comes barrelling back down the hall then, nearly wiping out as she turns the corner. You lean into him again and he kisses the top of your head. "You're it for me." He says softly, his hand settling on your lower back as Whiskey stops in front of you.
Only now, you don't feel the burden you've been carrying around for weeks. All you feel is the love he has to share.
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