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ive found that partially treated mental illness can sometimes look to uninvolved onlookers like faked mental illness.

"someone who really has pOCD would be disgusted and horrified at their intrusive thoughts" or maybe i'm in therapy & am going by the books, being radically ambivalent to my intrusive thoughts instead of wasting energy mentally washing my paws of sin. i'm not going to perform my rock bottom for you for the sake of being believed.

elamimax

"I won't perform my rock bottom for you for the sake of being believed" is going straight into my permanent storage holy shit

amnesiaguy

collecting posts of this type

syakesan

America be like "you cant have free healthcare or easy access to disability but you can have a gun"

syakesan

no healing, no living, go KILL

syakesan

This post was really fucking funny in hindsight

jana-aych-ess

so, a while ago, I wrote a song (I write songs now). that song became a single+b-side, which became an EP, which is now a full album called Blood On The Lens (there is also a b-sides EP, which will follow the album. but more on that later)

Blood On The Lens is a spoken-word noise opera slasher film concept album about blood kink, drive-in movies, and the dangers of developing a crush on a coworker

the video above is a demo of the title track. I hope you like it. I hope you can maintain enthusiasm about the concept for as long as I take to finish it

anyway, Coming Soon 💚💜🩸

teaboot

Please don't ask me for relationship advice unless you are prepared to receive some truly upsetting information because some people are ready for the "He's exhibiting the literal textbook signs of a psychological abuser and you need to get away from him before he successfully cuts you off from your support network" talk and some people aren't

teaboot

FOR WHOEVER NEEDS A REMINDER:

There is never any justification for someone putting their hands on you in any way without your consent short of immediate risk of harm or death.

If someone tells you that "the way I'm acting is your fault because you know that doing X thing would make me do it and you chose to do it anyway" is just fancy bullshit talk for, "I know my behaviour is wrong, but I don't want to be held responsible for it so I'm pushing it on you"

Nothing good ever, ever comes from someone who tells you, "I don't want you talking about our relationship with anyone". This person cannot handle accepting responsibility and processing criticism so they need you to never, ever question them. That's easier if they control the narrative and your friends aren't there to cut in.

Nothing constructive comes from screaming.

"It's not like that all the time" is optimistic and sweet, but the truth is, it shouldn't be like that at all. Sweet words and gifts and gestures don't erase being frightened for yourself or for your loved ones. That is not normal. Don't minimize it.

It is not healthy or normal to be genuinely afraid of saying "no" to someone, for any reason at all. Violence, outbursts, retaliation, anything. You should not have to be afraid of someone's reaction to your boundaries.

You are not responsible for saving anyone. Even if you love them. Even if they have nobody else. At the end of the day, if they want to hurt themselves in any way, they will, and you can't stop them forever. People need to want to improve before they can actually improve, and if they're threatening to harm themselves to keep you around, they're using your love to hold themselves hostage. You do not decide their choices for them, and they don't get to shunt that off on you.

There will always be other people who can love you better. You will not be alone forever. This will not be the last time you care for someone like this and it will not be the last time someone cares for you

teaboot

This applies to ALL relationships btw