My Poetry

I had some of my friends read my poetry book and they said I should share it so all of these poems are original. I am open to criticism and I will be posting in a weird timeline (sophomore- senior year). Then after that I'll post more recent poem and...

[perfectlyinsane234]

I want to cry but tears won’t come.

I try to stay positive my stomach hurts.

I wish I wasn’t me. Maybe then you’d accept me.

[perfectlyinsane234]

I don’t belong, I found happiness but I don’t belong.

The only place that accepts me is death.

[perfectlyinsane234]

Disgust

I hope one day you will see me without my past etched in my face.

I hope one day I don’t disgust you.

One day I hope you hear me because

My actions aren’t speaking loud enough to you.

It’s either I’m not enough or you’re looking for a way out.

I feel unloved I feel like I’m fighting a battle I’ll never win.

I should stay caged away. Maybe it’s better if I’m gone that way my past can be erased with the shock of my death.

[perfectlyinsane234]

Sometimes

Sometimes I wish I could talk how I write.

My thoughts and feelings flow through my fingertips.

My lips stay silent or spew bullshit to cover a facade.

Sometimes my tears fall when I write.

Sometimes I feel like a failure of a woman.

Can’t do much right.

On a scale 1 to 10,I might be a high 4.

Sometimes I feel beautiful.

Sometimes I hid behind my wall

I don’t know is the answer to most of my questions

I wish I wasn’t so stupid

Sometimes I get to eager. 

Sometimes I deal with my emotional trauma alone

I lash out at my loved ones and they don’t understand

I’d like to hear my baby’s laughter

Sometimes my internal world crumbles around me even though I know I should be happy.

[glimpseofinsanity]

Posted on the wrong page again.

[glimpseofinsanity]

Feel

My feelings don’t matter

they have as much use as dust collected on a fan

I’m hurt that my point of view isn’t seen

It’s completely covered by dollar signed eyes, Greed.

I’m fading back to my darkened abyss of worthlessness.

My feelings there’s no respect

I should grow thicker skin? 

That just means hold all your emotions in because I don’t have time.

I don’t have the time to pause and think.

You want me to talk but don’t want to listen.

My feelings don’t matter I’ll fill my role as a submissive.

[glimpseofinsanity]

If I...

If I die will I meet you?

Probably not.

You see the faith you've always had I just found it.

There's not enough time for me.

With you gone so much has changed. I'm not ready.

I understand traditions grow and change

Though wasn't expecting it to be so abrupt.

If I die is it meaningless? Why does living hurt?

Will death erase this?

[perfectlyinsane234]

No Doors

My mind,

The place I kept my regrets, secrets, and unknowns.

The door broken down

You with paper and pen in hand.

Notating every feeling and thought I own.

With one look you know.

My fears, ambitions unlocked to you without me making a single sound.

To keep things hidden I must keep them shut.

It never lasts, you see I’m afraid of the dark.

You, broke and entered my domain of self destruction.

Then proceeded to make yourself my light and foundation.

[glimpseofinsanity]

Posted to the wrong page

[glimpseofinsanity]

Fuck You

You walk around like the man of the house 

with the only thing to show is your penis

You complain about all the little shit 

but express to her parents you want a woman to take care of you

Where’s the authority?

On a budget, weed in your pocket constantly 

So Fuck You

Your problem solving is get rid of it 

SO leave,

I tried even pretended to like you

but every time you open your mouth

It’s fucking shit that always fly's out

Your biggest mistake, making the fire bigger 

My biggest motivation, being told I cant

Nigga the next time you want want to challenge me it will be nothing but air

Because  all you’ll be able to escape your lips is breath

You think I can’t beat your fat non having ass, your right 

cause I’ll kill you, so Fuck you.

[sryforthewait-blog]

Reblog if you would be devastated if you found out one of your followers committed suicide.

[moject-prayhem]

don’t you dare not reblog!!!!!!

[vo-la-tile]

If you don’t reblog this I’m judging you.

[rainbowandoctavia-deactivated20]

Just one.

[mydeadcarcass]

[nimh13]

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[honnouji-acedemist-deactivated2]

NEVER EVER EVER STOP REBLOGGING THIS EVER

[pieisgay]

I solemnly swear I am up to good.

[ask-shadowknight-of-the-stars-d]

*reblogs so fast my finger creates a sonic boom*

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[ajlenoire]

I’m reblogging this for two reasons.

One: I would be horrified if one of you lovelies did such a thing, all I’m getting in my head is a cute little duckling that needs to be kept safe.

Two: this is the first and only post I’ve seen with an MLP reaction gif and that in itself, even if this wasn’t a serious issue (which it is) is worthy of a reblog.

I love you all

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:’(

[dj-c0l7]

to all my followers, i’ve got your back if you ever need to talk

[ask-meta-chrisis-twilight-deact]

This must be reblogged because if you don’t reblog this then you are a heartless monster because you should love all your followers no matter what… 💔

[askthehorsedork]

((Mod: Just so people know that they can talk to me no matter what the problem. I will always try to help you ♡♡))

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((I don’t own the gif, it belongs to it’s original owner.))

[cuteskatiz-deactivated20161003]

Please don’t I love you I will miss you I care so please if you need someone to talk to I will talk to you I will help you so please…..guys….don’t…

[thewingspiral-deactivated201701]

[darkconrado-archived-deactivate]

I would just be…devastated…

[dragontransmanacg]

Don’t Go!

[girlmeetsworldwideweb]

[gmwblog1234]

This goes to everyone of my followers: If you are going through a hard time and you need someone to talk to, message me and I will talk to you and help you

[braintumourforbreakfast]

I am here for you all if you need it any of you please don’t forget that

[neofelisnebula]

If any of you are ever going through a difficult time don’t hesitate to message me!

[kawaiipizzastudentsstuff]

I’m here if you need to talk

[rainydayanxiety-deactivated2018]

Please stay with me

[glimpseofinsanity]

I post a lot of poetry about depression and I don't have many followers; but I would be devastated any of them took their life. If you need an ear I'm here.

[glimpseofinsanity]

I'm Fine

I'm fine My shell cracked My face numb Cheeks stained But I'm fine Everyday my life is shortened Every hour contemplating. Life is meaningless. I'm fine Forced smile Sad eyes Depression I'm fine Hypocrisy Emotionless Lack of  love Potentially disgusting I'm fine A disappointment Hellbound Should I disappear I'm fine

[glimpseofinsanity]

ADDICTION

Your presence makes my heart hurt Your smile my kryptonite Your laugh is my poison Your touch is my drug You are my addiction Every time I contact you, I hope I smile comes across your lips Every message, a laugh. When I see you I hope our hugs are a bit longer I imagine the softness of your lips. Then I hope these feelings aren't one sided. I know it's a bit late, but Happy Valentines Day.

[glimpseofinsanity]

What if?

Instead of breaking myself and become a pile of dust; Instead of sitting here and thinking of you with tears in my eyes knowing I could possibly have you knowing why I haven’t asked you; why?

Why must I put myself through turmoil, why must I make myself suffer when I can be happier. Why? How come when I think of your smile my face beams and then in mere moments it falls with water trickling down my cheeks.

That’s all I ever ask is why, I never do. I never put my fears behind me and just show you, just hold you. All I ever wanted really was just to embrace you. I always ask why! I always ask what if because I’m afraid, I’m afraid of what you’ll say, I’m afraid of what you’ll do, afraid of what you see me as. I’m afraid of losing you and I think.. I know that thought is the most horrendous because if I think of a life without you I….

Tears I love you so much that a life without you brings tears I’ve never had my heart hurt so much I thought pass breakups and crying over those ex’s meant I could never find love. I my heart was shattered and replaced with concrete. I thought my life was over and then you came.

I met you and I was the happiest person why? I always ask why! I said just take action but then I see you and think about being denied and then I cry over you?! I haven’t even had you and yet I cry because I adore you.

So instead of telling you to your face my feelings and how infatuated I am with you I, I hide it here. On Tumblr and maybe hope one day you’ll come across and find it. Maybe you going through my poems you’ll find that the person I’ve always cared for and loved with all my heart is you and I know if I don’t take action I’ll be too late but I can’t.

I say again, what if and that what if is the most scariest thing that I don’t want to come true.

[glimpseofinsanity]

Trusting

People can help and people can destroy They will smile whilst they draw your blood They snicker as you scream with a blade across you skin. Pure ecstasy with dull black eyes and evil grin.

[glimpseofinsanity]

Love is weird

How does one expose their heart without the fear of being crushed?

How dose one bring up the courage to smile with a shattered heart?

What if my selfishness destroys our friendship?

Then what if my selflessness ruins the only chance I have?

Why do I become so tongue tied?

[glimpseofinsanity]

12:03 AM.

I’m still awake Even though I have an early meeting I lay awake. Thoughts of you race through my mind With that hypnotic smile on your face. I always ponder on what to say Because I never want to see a frown or tear. It’s12:11am and now I’m anxious. Daring thoughts clouding my head. Should I take a leap and hope for a yes? 12:17am I decide to ponder a bit longer. 12:20 am I’ve decided to fall in a deep slumber to witness your smile once more.

[glimpseofinsanity]

My Weakness

So unpredictable So beautiful So caring So funny So alluring

You surprise me with all you do I don’t think I could ever be bored of you I know you’re strong yet fragile. You amaze me.

You seem so confident, your beauty so radiant. Your red stained lips are imprinted in my mind. You’re weird and kwerky and I can’t get you off my mind.

Your heart so full of love. You won’t stop until everyone is well. You give your all no matter who they are.

I can always find a smile with you. My sides always sore. No matter how many times I hear it I still split my sides.

Your voice is so sweet Your laugh is adorable You make me turn a feint shade of pink every time we speak. You make me speechless.

There are so many characteristics of you that I love. If I picked every one this poem would never be done.

[glimpseofinsanity]

Thoughts

Why do I feel so empty? Why are most my poems filled with negativity? There's a void in my soul that can't mended. So why do I try? Every attempt equates to failure. Every failure equates to depression. Depression turns to laughter My laughter: a charade. A yearly charade of a dunce. Who dies eternally inside. The definition of insanity.