To the people who hurt me
Pretty self explanatory.
Daniel: Where do I start with you? You were supposed to be my rock. My someone. My person. But you let me down continuously. You're the first I mentioned on here because you were what broke me the hardest.
Dad: I was honestly a daddy's girl from day one. I loved being able to hang out with you and learn about cars. But something changed when I got older and things got complicated. All of a sudden you became someone who couldn't back me when I needed it the most.
Mom: While we have our good times, you were absent when a girl really needed her mom. One of the reasons I chose to stop HRT for Layla. Sometimes a girl just needs her mom...
Joe W.: You took advantage of my kindness and tried to make it seem like I was the bad person for trusting you and people in general.
Dimi: oh lookie! Another man who took advantage of me. Sending me dick pics even though you knew I am married and flirting with me?? Then saying I'm coming off too strong when I tell you I want to leave my husband (not for you, just in general). And the ghosting me after saying you still want to be friends. Cool.
Chad: wow where do I start? You got into it pretty hot and heavy quick. I don't know if you have some issues with your sexuality or possibly you are just trying SO HARD to be someone you are not. Either way, you confirmed my theory to never trust a man who is 30 and single. There's a reason why they're single.
Rob: here we go again!! Another man over 30 lol I never learn. You seemed like a very intelligent person who genuinely wanted to converse with me. Then came the inappropriate conversation. Which I will admit I welcomed at first. But then guess what??? You ghosted me. Cool story. It's over now too.
So here I am, struggling to be happy in my marriage that seems like it's at the end of it's rope. I have no one. I have no friends that really take the time to understand my situation.
I am alone and all I have left is Layla.
So my life is for Layla. Not me. Not Daniel. Not anyone else.
I'm dedicating my body and mind to her and anything that will help her, I will be.
So once again, I'm putting HRT on hold. I am done trying to find my happiness because I am not meant to be happy. Right now, I'm just going to raise my child.




















