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ACTUAL MESSAGE OF (500) DAYS OF SUMMER THAT NO ONE ACTUALLY REALIZES

Evan Rachel Wood is wearing a tux better than every single goddamn man here. The tophat and tails look is making me swoooooon!

buttrockerbitches

i’m watching this documentary about halloween and there’s a part where they’re explaining that ghost stories got really popular around the civil war no one could really deal with how many people went off and died and

the narrator just said

“the first ghost stories were really about coming home”

fuck

buckleupbones

#but wow let me tell you about how the american civil war changed the whole culture of grief and death #because before that people died at home mostly #where their family saw them die and held their body and had proof they were really dead and it was a process #but during the war people left and never came home their bodies never came back there was no proof #people died in new horrific ways on the battlefield literally vaporized by cannonballs or lost in swamps and eaten by wild animals #and there were NO BODIES to send home #and people simply couldn’t grasp that their son or father or husband was really gone #there are stories about people spending months searching for their loved ones #convinced they couldn’t be dead if there were no body they were simply lost or hurt and they needed to be saved and brought home #embalming also really started during the civil war as a way for bodies to be brought home as intact as possible #wow i just wowowow the culture of death and grief and stuff during this time period is fascinating and sad #history (via souryellows)

glumshoe

#quietly reblogs own tags #also the civil war was when dog tags and national cemetaries became a thing #and during the war there was n real system in place to notify families of the deaths #like they’d find out maybe from letters from soldiers who were there when their loved one died nd stuff #but there was no real system #and battlefield ambulances were basically invented because so many people died on the battlefield when they could have been saved if they co #…could have been moved frm the battlefield to a hospital #like there was this one really inlfuential dude whose son died that way and he became dedicated to getting an ambulance system in place

thehighestpie-blog

I’m not doing this in the correct tag-style, but.

IIRC, the Civil War also played a huge part in forming the modern American conception of heaven as this nice, domestic place where you’re reunited with your loved ones. People (particularly mothers) responded to the trauma of brother-killing-brother by imagining an afterlife in which families would once again be happy together.

pilferingapples

(also not doing this in the correct tag-style, because I wanna KNOW— )What documentary is this? Or is there more than one? Any books on the subject? THIS IS FASCINATING.

elizastrange

cool (ghost) story, bro.

mswyrr-deactivated20181203

reblogging because, as a us history phd student, i want to say YAY for how much of this is totally on point. i also want to rec the book where a lot of this is covered very, very well, which is Drew Gilpin Faust’s “This Republic of Suffering: Death and the American Civil War.”

a lot of books on the Civil War are deadly dull because they’re about battles and shit, but as a transformative moment in mindset and ideology, it becomes *fascinating*

the other book I’d even more highly rec is David W. Blight’s “Race and Reunion,” which is about how the “(white) brother against (white) brother” image of the war was invented and how throwing African Americans to the merciless viciousness of post-Reconstruction racist whites was part of constructing this “oh everybody was white men and everybody was noble let’s celebrate them all” approach to Civil War remembrance

very good stuff

pilferingapples

Thank you! This looks like exactly the sort of reading I’m after! *adds to wish list*

mazarin221b

Also, look for David Blights recordings of his Yale lecture series on The Civil War. 21 hours of class lectures, and its FASCINATING. He barely touches on the battles other than to use them as timestamps as to what was going on. Most of it focuses on what the mindset of everyone was going into the war, and what happened on the way out. It’s an amazing series that will change your entire perception of the war - how it happened, and how it wasn’t going to be possible to avoid it, because of the inherent evil of slavery and how it was destroying damn near *everyone* except rich white people.

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Link

thepersephonecabin

Yes! The Republic of Suffering also talks a lot about the Civil War as the start of prevalence of the “noble death” in battle thing. I had to read it for my internship at a battle site last year

goldenrodrunning

me: jewish. been to three open casket funerals, all catholic. a grandmother who lived a long life, a young woman in her early 20s, and a mother who fought for life with more strength and grace than I knew possible

my mother: winces at the thought of an open casket, a re-animated form of a person, though her own mother and father both died at home, she was there for both and never sensationalized or added fear to that of a failing or fallen person’s body.

me: I like thinking about these things, the way we look at death and the way we look at life and how we craft the two together. I tell my mother that post civil war, soldiers were so violently killed (not that all killing isn’t violent) that faces and bodies were unrecognizable and haunting to look at. in an effort to bridge the gap between battle field and burial ground, embalming was used to transport bodies home, made popular after lincoln’s death. my mother’s parents are buried in pine coffins, and my father’s parents will at some point have open casket catholic funerals, most likely buried in arlington cemetery, d.c.

#civil war #history of funerals #death #ghosts #traditions

ilikecolors

Fire Recovery Support for LGBTQ Couple

Tumblr, I need your help.

Two days ago the beloved home of Jazz & Monica (my dear soul sister) was destroyed by an electrical fire that consumed their building. Everyone is safe, people and pets, but their house, food, furniture, clothes and personal belongings are damaged beyond repair.

No one anticipates fires, floods or destruction when they leave for work in the morning. Jazz and Monica are working hard to figure out next steps, both immediate and longer term. As queer 20 somethings, they don’t qualify for usual LGBTQ youth resources. With your support they can begin recovery and build a new home from scratch.

Please, if you are able, pass this along and or donate any amount to offer relief for two of the most amazing, caring, first-to-offer-help people (and kitty) I know. Every little bit counts.

Thank you so, so much from the bottom of my heart.

https://www.gofundme.com/2ks9y3g

#payitforward #relief #lgbtq #philly #donate #homeless

hello tiny godswood. #thanksdeadrosebush #yaassss #got #blamo (at Somerville, Massachusetts)

#yaassss #blamo #thanksdeadrosebush #got

#personal #hamilton #GOP #convention #election #bullshit #illustration #scribbles by swinty

oh heyyy, sorry didn't see you, too busy basking in my own illustriousness - MB #wcw #flauntyourcurves #getit

#flauntyourcurves #getit #wcw

happy opening, sound of music #brokenrosarychic #bandname #fuckyescurtainclothes #alwaysatheaterkid (at Brimmer and May School)

#brokenrosarychic #alwaysatheaterkid #bandname #fuckyescurtainclothes

amusementforme

CLAIRE DANES WAS ACTUALLY CINDERELLA TONIGHT…RIGHT DOWN TO THE SPARKLING, LIGHT UP GOWN….

You can even see Zac Posen in the background like, “Yeah, I designed that work of art right there.”

goldenrodrunning

#canteven

we like fleurs.

sometimes you just need some goddamn fancy flowers #treatyoself #roses #peach

#treatyoself #peach #roses

ifuckinglovestvincent

THE 60 GREATEST SOLO ARTISTS OF ALL TIME, RANKED [GIGWISE] 9. St Vincent: Annie Clark’s stage moniker isn’t an alter-ego exactly - it’s more an extension of her own fluctuating, ambiguous self. Revelling in falling somewhere in-between the rigid binaries of personhood - gender, sexuality, even genre - St. Vincent’s music follows an exquisitely crafted road to nowhere. Her every move on stage is a masterclass in performative theatricality, never once buying into the belief that authentic rock music must be messy, shambolic and ill-thought-out. (Alexandra Pollard) The top 20: 20. Etta James 19. Bruce Springsteen 18. PJ Harvey 17. Jimi Hendrix 16. Paul McCartney 15. Ryan Adams 14. Joni Mitchell 13. John Lennon 12. Patti Smith 11. Iggy Pop 10. Nina Simone 9. St. Vincent 8. Beck 7. Kendrick Lamar 6. Michael Jackson 5. Nas 4. Björk 3. Prince 2. Kate Bush 1. David Bowie

goldenrodrunning

drool.

6 years later...

6 years later from when goldenrodrunning went up, and this is still the safest space to let all things upsetting out. Sure, friends and family exist in their own ways, but it’s you pals who don’t shame or doubt and actually support with dignity the pains of being a 20 something with a shitton of medical issues, chronic pain and mental health wobbling along a tightrope day after day.

health and such had relatively flatlined to a point of accepted limitations and aggrivations, however since september 2015 many medical mysteries flared and presented in a way I have never experienced. there is no plan yet, and more tests to be done, but what has been violent episodes of abdominal and back pain, cramping, fevers, chills, vomiting, multiple cases of strep, recurrrent UTIs and one exceptionally insane ear infection - has boiled down to this:

1. clearly a systemic infection (lyme, epstein barr, unknown all possibilities)

2. wtf UTIs. you do not make sense. connected to something in this mess. time to find a urologist.

3. GALLSTONES are a thing. and yes, radiologist and diagnostician, I am in fact 24 and average weight and an eternal statistical anomaly. get over it. abdominal pain = solved. TBD treatment, I go back and forth wondering what I would prefer. just make it better, I do not want to end up on the tile floor of my workplace bathroom during a production again.

4. surprise! there is a 3cm hemangioma (learn something new every day) on my liver. much googling and wondering what the actual fuck.

5. previously exposed to hep b! no needles, tattoos, or bloodletting in my past. all signs point to shitty one night stand with the italian dude who promptly started scrolling his instagram and playing a video game directly after. I shit you not.

6. hpv in the fall, hep b no more, no epstein barr but am not immune. had all vaccines at one point. fuck this.

7. honestly, the shittiest of shitty is really truly feeling dis-abled. i’ve wrestled (probably will continue to) with that term a lot, and the ways we see ourselves and see other people seeing us, the institutional labels to encourage a little more ease navigating the world.

application for disability car placard is on the coffee table, online SSI/SSDI application is partially filled in and takes at least the energy of 3 fully abled lawyers to even understand what the fuck is going on.

I finally, finally, finally am mentally and emotionally ready to finish my bachelors, to return to lesley, put a bow on it and throw myself into new academic adventures. there’s a reason I live in boston/cambridge. nothing is more inspiring to me than a city full of inquisitive thinkers.

and no, apart from a middle school production this spring (contracted in fall), I am not working. I wish I could be a stupid hipster with a barista or waitress job to supplement my engaging fringe theater community but neither of those have been or are possible right now. perhaps next season.

until then, electrolyte water, puppy snuggles, and transforming 40+ kids into WWII Austrian goatherds, barons, officers and herd of von Trapps for the end of may. oh dear god.

love and light and all of those things,

swinty

#personal