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reporting me will not help me recover ^^ very ed based, block if needed!! "What makes you come back now?"

[goldenstarredlovers]

take two…

hello guys! i was starrygold but was unfortunately termed(moots please teturn to me i miss you) :( i dont remember everytbing from my original intro but…! (backup account : @goldenstarslover )

you can call me kota!! or bailey :D i dont mind!! i use he/she, im 17 all posts about me are #golden starred posts !!

im autistic, very awkward, and very very mentally ill(as you will see!!), i havent had a lot of friends so im not great at interacting with people!! ill do my very best, tone tags are very appreciated

reporting my account and getting me termed will not help me recover, you will only make it worse!

my strawpage!!

i have a ton of interests!! but my main ones are…

i really really like wrestling(njpw, roh, stardom, wwe, tna, ddt, aew,,,, all of it!! ask me about it!!/nf)

bully, silent hill, resident evil are my other biggest ones id say, i like a LOT!!

my ocs!!! i have a ton of them… ask about them!!! and my selfships!! if you want :D

dni/byf

i dont have much of a dni, all i ask is no bigots, no pro pedos, no one who demonises mental illness!!

also for my comfort, i dont want anyone who posts about drugs, just for my comfort :)

general warning for this blog!!!!

there will be talk of….

€d (buli and ana)

vomiting ^

vents(about my mom for the most part)

sh

€D TALK BELOW!!!!

cw: 209 lbs

weight i started at : 239 lbs

gw: 80 lbs

height: 5’3

[angelic-idol-prince]

Notes game, to help get my life on track and feel alive because I just got broken up with and I want to be a person who loves myself just to love myself not someone who only loves myself with the condition that I am loved by others.

Edit: spam allowed :3

Blue: In progress

Pink: completed

5. - Tell my therapist when we meet that I've been wanting to relapse.

10. - Clean my room, prepare it for my dog.

20. - Schedule a dentist appointment and brush my teeth twice a day everyday up until my appointment.

35. - buy clarifying shampoo to improve my hair health

50. - Update my kin list, show it to my therapist, explain to him this is the only way I am able to construct an identity of myself.

60. - Finish the edit I want to make for talentless nana

75. - Decorate and hang up affirmations. Surround myself with things to make me feel alive and brave and strong.

100. - Go through all of my clothes and get rid of what I don't like, don't wear, don't need, etc.

150. - Go out on a date with myself.

200. - Start writing again. For fun, for myself.

500. - Try to find joy in playing games again.

750. - Talk about my dad in therapy.

1000. - (Hah ain't no way this is gonna happen) write my dad a letter, not for him, but for myself, for my own healing. My last message to him. To tell him that I will have no contact or a personal relationship with him again.

[burnt-swissroll]

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[goldenstarredlovers]

UT ISSSSS MY BIRTHDAYAYYAYAAYY

[idolthatweptitstail]

“i hate how my white friends say the n word..”

okay, so, just one question.. why are they your friend then..???

[goldenstarredlovers]

anyone else feel like theyre sl4sh fl4sh1ng everyone when they have to roll up their sleeves... "just take your jacket off" hey so i literally cant

[goldenstarredlovers]

reading a book and it made me realise my ex-friend was calling me a slur as a nickname what. okay?? like i stopped being her friend because she was racist but okay double confirmation i guess

[goldenstarredlovers]

victims blog makes Lemon want to eat slime..

HONESTLY that’s kinda the vibe i am going for !!!!!!!!!

[goldenstarredlovers]

your intro is one of the best Lemon has seen hehe meow meowwww ♡♡♡♡♡

AWAWAWAW THANK YOU I TRIED REALLT HARD TO MAKE IT LOOK PRETTY :D

[onevvingedangel]

my name is kota, this is my sideblog specifically for my ana stuff so my main people wont be totally subjected to it :)

im 16(09), i use he/she

i wont post about my interests, but i really like wrestling !!

main blog is @goldenstarredlovers if you want it!!

please dont dm me, im like. severely awkward and i will ignore you, send an ask or comment on a post

my reasons ; ive been a binge eater for about 7 years, i didnt mind until i had a huge wakeup call when my mom told me i was getting huge and gained too much weight,,, i need to lose it

dni, and int!!

dni if you post fatspo( as in posting fat people literally minding their business), or if youre fatphobic, i might hate myself but some people dont, and they dont need to!! i use myself as fatspo, dont tear others down

if youre gonna try and preach recovery to me, i will not listen(im pro recovery, im just not going to recover, not anytime soon)

if you think youre better than another person for having a certain ed, we are all mentally ill, we are all suffering, dont pit us against eachother :(

int if you post toxic motivation, i need it (not fatspo, just shaming or whatnot)

int if you wanna be mutuals!!! i follow basically everyone back!!

stats

sw: 239(5th of march)

cw : 214

gw : 80

height : 5'3

longest fast: 3 days

very-cool-tumblr-site's strawpage ( i update it more consistently here)

[goldenstarredlovers]

me…,

[theonevvingedangel]

okay ill just update my weight in my strawpage!! or right here

[goldenstarredlovers]

hi guys i got termed already on thet sccount go follow me again

[goldenstarredlovers]

“guys i feel better dw” i say to absolutely nobody

[goldenstarredlovers]

”but people would msis you” no they wouldnt “your mom would miss you” no she wouldnt “your friends would miss you” no they woidlnt

[goldenstarredlovers]

swear i need a list of reasons not to do it and it cant involve other people because theyre the readon im i. this situstion anyways

[onevvingedangel]

my name is kota, this is my sideblog specifically for my ana stuff so my main people wont be totally subjected to it :)

im 16(09), i use he/she

i wont post about my interests, but i really like wrestling !!

main blog is @goldenstarredlovers if you want it!!

please dont dm me, im like. severely awkward and i will ignore you, send an ask or comment on a post

my reasons ; ive been a binge eater for about 7 years, i didnt mind until i had a huge wakeup call when my mom told me i was getting huge and gained too much weight,,, i need to lose it

dni, and int!!

dni if you post fatspo( as in posting fat people literally minding their business), or if youre fatphobic, i might hate myself but some people dont, and they dont need to!! i use myself as fatspo, dont tear others down

if youre gonna try and preach recovery to me, i will not listen(im pro recovery, im just not going to recover, not anytime soon)

if you think youre better than another person for having a certain ed, we are all mentally ill, we are all suffering, dont pit us against eachother :(

int if you post toxic motivation, i need it (not fatspo, just shaming or whatnot)

int if you wanna be mutuals!!! i follow basically everyone back!!

stats

sw: 239(5th of march)

cw : 214

gw : 80

height : 5'3

longest fast: 3 days

very-cool-tumblr-site's strawpage ( i update it more consistently here)

[goldenstarredlovers]

me…,

[crushmyprettyheart]

My parents really love talking shit about their parents but never realize they're just like them

[raincandyyu]

opened tumblr to find ONE note. haha. no cuz that’s cool. I get it tumblr. that’s so fucking funny

[goldenstarredlovers]

if things dont get better within the next day that birthday countdown is not gonna be the only countdown going