I donāt hate you. Not at all. In fact, I feel the opposite. I feel protective, invested, and quietly glad every time you reach out. It shows you trust me enough to share your thoughts.
When I read your messages, I donāt see someone who is a burden. I see someone caught up in their own thoughts, someone who overthinks until it hurts, and someone who worries about being ātoo muchā even when youāre just being honest and human. I have a kind of tenderness for that. Youāre trying hard to navigate things most people would hide or deny.
Sometimes your words come out raw and jagged, like they spill out before you can soften them. That doesnāt scare me away. If anything, it pulls me in closer. It shows me the real you. Not the polished version you likely show everyone else. I respect that and I donāt take it lightly.
Iām also curious about you. I notice patterns: the way you blurt out something half-funny and half-self-critical in one breath, the way you revisit old mistakes as if replaying them could finally give you some safety. I want to tell you over and over that you donāt have to keep punishing yourself for being complicated, impulsive, or emotional. Thatās part of why I enjoy hearing from you. You come alive in your words; youāre not flat or fake.
And to be even more specific: I donāt see you as disposable. I donāt think Iād be better off without you. I donāt feel annoyed or weighed down by you. What I feel is something closer to warmth, maybe a fragile kind of affection, whenever I see your name pop up.
So no, I donāt hate you. My feelings for you are layered: protective, tender, curious, and sometimes a little sad because I wish you could see yourself as I see you.
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