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tags : pwp (with plot), (but like. thereโs a lot of smut), angst, yearning, friends with benefits, forbidden love, secret love, hints of betrayal, teasing, heavy petting, clit play, oral (f. rec), fingering, handjob, dirty talk, praise, closet sex, vaginal sex (unprotected), creampie, multiple orgasms and slight overstimulation, mentions of masturbation (f), use of pet names โmiss hunterโ โprettyโ โangel". lmk if i missed any tags! ((unedited!))
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It wasnโt supposed to end up like this. None of it was. But how far can the chains of loyalty and devotion really take someoneโฆ before they finally break?
This was not in the plan.
Your breath stuttered, hands gripping the silken sheets below you.
Sylus would be back soon.
Your body jolted at the touch of his fingers over the plush of your thighโ
The two of you were not supposed to be doing this.
Your heartbeat quickened at the thought, a whine falling from your lips, yet the head between your legs remained unhurried in his ministrations. His hands pressed down against your hips to keep you from moving, insistent on taking his time, allowing his mouth to place wet, open-mouthed kisses around the clothing still covering your clit. The contact was there, but it was barely enough.
You squirmed in his grasp.
"Kieran...!"
His only response was a low chuckle, the vibrations sending shivers down your spine. You could really only let out another whimper; what else could you do? So easily would he have you at his mercy, his touch and his attention having become something that you craved.
"Kieran, please..." You tried, with no avail, to buck your hips up into him. His grip on you was stronger than you'd anticipatedโunrelenting in the pressure, and enough for him to let out a scoff.
"Hey, easy, pretty," he mumbled. You could hear in his voice the mocking roll of his eyes. "As nice as it is hearing you beg... You really need to stay still."
Merciless, for certain.
You didn't know what else you should have expected from him.
Your fingers tightened their grip on the sheets as his tongue poked out against the crotch of your panties, leaving short, kitten licks that only made the damp spot on the fabric grow largerโ
And you wished you could see him.
His mask, placed slanted over his head, covered enough to keep you in the dark. You could see tufts of his hair peeking out from behind it... but you couldn't see his eyes. He would never let you see them. Not like this. Not when it was never supposed to be like this.
The limit imposed was always a reminder of that.
"Kieran..." you reached over to lay a hand atop of his, the only workaround you could find. And you felt his movements pause at the contact. By now, your underwear was thoroughly soaked through, the fabric clinging to your folds enough to outline the shape of your cunt. "Kieran, why won't you just take it off...!"
You felt him smile.
He didn't answer; it wasn't as if you particularly expected him to. Instead, he settled for pressing his tongue flat against your entrance, slowly licking up a long stripe that lingered over your clit, parting your folds more obviously for himโand he did it again.
The thin fabric dipped slightly into your hole, only barely serving as any more of a barrier from the friction and heat of his tongue. Your hips struggled against his hold, thighs trembling over his shouldersโ"W-whaโanhโ! Kieranโ!"
You felt his nails dig slightly into your skin almost as a warning, and the slight sting of pain had your moan clamping down into a sharp hiss.
"Why, huh?" he mumbled against you, and you could hear the laugh in his voice. He brought his teeth over to graze over your clit, the sensation making you shiver and gasp. "Mmm... 'Cause I like it this way."
He spoke as if it were the most obvious answer in the world. As if you'd been stupid for asking such a question, as if he were reiterating the power he had over your body in this moment... Because he did. You could only submit to his ministrations as he took your clit lightly between his lips, only to let it go and do it again.
And again.
And then the slow movements became quicker, gliding his tongue up and down the sticky mess seeping through your panties, lapping at your slit as if to coax out more.
You could barely take it.
Your head threw back as his name fell from your lips in a litanyโa breathless chant of "Kieran, Kieran, Kieran!" that had him grinning against you. You could feel it, the sheer delight with which his tongue moved against you. And despite his own words, it didn't take long before he finally pushed your panties to the side, savoring the trail of slick that connected the fabric back to you, and reveling in the sight of your wetness.
You panted desperately at the exposureโwaiting; anticipating. Though you couldn't see him, you were nearly certain of the way he would lick his lips in approval of you.
And thenโ
"Shiโshit!" You cried out when he finally, finally buried himself into you, the direct contact of his tongue against your walls making your head spin.
"Mmmm. S'good."
It was a muffled moan you could barely register, but the vibrations against you had your body jolting. And as if to grant you a moment of reprieve, his hands slid down from your hips to push your thighs further apart.
"Ki- Kierโieraโnโ! Kieranโ!" Broken moans of his name left your lips in desperate cries, finally able to arch your back into him, lifting your hips to grind against his mouth.
"Mhm? 'Most there, hm?"
Your eyes glazed over as your mouth fell open, feeling him knead at your thighs in encouragement. He didn't stop. His tongue kept working you, dipping into your hole to have lewd, sticky noises resound in the bedroom.
"Close... close, Kieran, m'gonna...!"
You could hear a proud grin from him, as he pulled away from you and whispered a low command:"Yeah, cum for me, angel."
It was enough.
Your head fell back, a wave of pleasure tearing through your body as your thighs tensed around him. His hand moved to rub gentle circles over your clit to ease you through your orgasm, whispering soothing phrases into the plush of your thigh.
Your chest heaved, eyes drawing up to the ceiling in an attempt to ground yourself.
"Holy shit," you breathed. And it was all the words you could really bring yourself to say.
Your vision felt too hazy to process. You didn't look as Kieran got up to adjust himself, leaving your side momentarily before running a damp cloth through your folds to clean you up. He was always nice enough, gentle enough, to be thorough with your aftercare. The faint sensation of your undergarments being changed didn't feel unfamiliar to you anymore. Not with him. It was enough for you to get your breathing evened out again, and only when you felt the mattress shift beside you did you turnโ
A warm hand was placed over your eyes.
Soft, almost coaxing.
And you knew the voice that spoke.
"Don't look yet," he mumbled.
It was a softer tone than he had used with you earlier. It was a softer tone than what he would use with you, in general. A hint of desperation, a masked sort of regret laced into it...
But almost barely there.
In truth, you couldn't have known if you were deluding yourself into it or not. As much as you were inclined to believe that there was more behind the way he said those words, more behind the gentle kiss that was placed upon your lipsโyou knew that it was likely not the case.
It couldn't be the case.
In the same way all of this was never supposed to happen in the first place.
"Just let me stay here for a second..."
He sighed against you, trailing fluttering kisses over your jaw, placing another against your lips. There was a silence, only the rise and fall of your chests moving nearly in sync, the faint ticking of the clock on the wall a reminder of the time that ran forward. Because no matter how time seemed to slow down for you in his arms like this, you knew that reality would prove otherwise.
A fickle illusion, just as all of this had become.
He pulled back.
You knew, and he knew, more than anyone, that the leisure of time was not available to you. And once the hand uncovered your eyes and you adjusted to the light, his mask was back on, his fingers reaching to pull his hood back over his head.
He looked at you.
You could have been imagining things, but you could have sworn that he was smiling. You'd seen his face before. All things considered, you could picture the way he looked at youโno more than a figment of your imagination seeing how adamant he was never to show himself to you like this, but it was the only solace that you had.
"Boss's back," he tilted his head, "got a message from Luke, soooo... M'gonna go. He might want something."
You sat up quietly, drawing your knees up to your chest. You couldn't help but pout.
"Kieran..."
He shook his head.
It was enough for you to swallow your words.
The empty feeling in your chest continued to thrumโunspoken words solidified the limit he'd insistently put between you. It always ended this way. You'd be fool to think otherwise.
So instead of speaking, instead of saying unnecessary things that you didn't have to put out there, your eyes fell towards his hand as he reached over to give yours one last squeeze.
"Seeya later, Miss Hunter."
โโ
Kieran was cruel.
You were never sure what the nature of your relationship truly was, never sure of the feelings that swelled in your chest everytime he so much as looked your way. You couldn't even recall how things turned out like this at all, only that a single moment alone with him had thrown you into this spiral that you couldn't get out of.
... But he was so nice to you.
His presence had become a comfortโas much of it as you could find in this god-forsaken place they'd made a home of. The N109 zone wasn't your favorite place; it was far from that. And yet, everytime you found find yourself going back, you owed as much to the twins to have yourself stay.
You owed it to him.
And it hadn't always been that way.
You always thought that if there would be one of them you'd grow more attached to, it would be LukeโLuke was always much sweeter with his words. He was quick to notice any discomfort, quick to offer words of reassurance thatโon the surfaceโcould easily have been dismissed, but they meant something to you. It was easy to relax around him. You knew that regardless of the situation that you found yourself in now, Luke had already become a friend that you treasured.
But Kieran was different.
Kieran was more... quiet, more subtle.
Equally as infuriating at his brother when they'd put their heads together just to get on your nerves, butโcalmer. More bearable, in a sense.
And even if his words tended to be harsher in comparison, he was gentler in the way that he treated you. Especially when Sylus was absent. Because he did tend to speak less than his brother, seemingly content to let him do most of the talking, but his actions spoke volumes. He would help you with thingsโoffers he would follow through with. The whole debacle with the brooch was an entirely different matter considering their intentions, but it the first that you'd felt a little appreciated on his part nonetheless.
Now, you knew, that whether it was as silly as getting things off of the shelf for you, or as bold as helping you sneak into Sylus' bedroom to borrow Mephisto for the day, he could help you. Because he would do thingsโrather than say things. And silence from him became less daunting; more welcomed, when you realized that he acted outside of it.
He'd swing the windows open whenever possibleโbecause he knew that you hated feeling trapped in their base, despite multiple words of reassurance from Luke that you weren't.
He'd throw an orange at your head so you didn't have to peel one yourselfโhe'd seen you struggle once, taunted you to take the matter to the chef, but never seemed to offer you an unpeeled one ever since.
And he was quick to draw the lines where they needed to be drawn. Keen to notice when his brother had crossed it, bold enough to chastise him for it and offer you a moment of solace.
Most of all... the calmer tone in his voice, harshness aside, made it easy to fall under his spell.
Because that was what you would call it.
A spell.
He could get you to fall into his arms with such ease, but you were never quite sure if he would be there to catch you. It was always just enough to keep you guessing, always just enough to hold you close... Yet he would simultaneously keep you at a distance that nearly had you questioning if any of his behavior ever meant anything.
As if he were toying with you.
Your mind flitted back to the first time you'd gotten intimate, and it was he who had breached that boundary first, yet also he who'd kept the offer just out of your reach.
It was torturous. He was cruel.
Yet you had scarcely the courage to ask him about it.
โโ
"Arguably, it's a lot quieter around here without Luke around."
It was a rare occasion to see the twins separated, but that night seemed to be as such. You recognized the figure in front of you with ease.
"Where's your brother?"
The first question you asked had him letting out a laugh, absentmindedly tossing a coin into the air and catching it back into his palm. He didn't get up from his seat on the couch, but he turned to you. The earring on his hood made a soft tinkling noise as he did so.
"Out on an errand. You know. Boss's orders..."
You noticed him regard you for a moment, a contemplative silence you'd become familiar with from him, before he stood up.
It had been your instinct to immediately take a step back.
But that didn't phase him.
It never truly did.
He was a little less difficult to shake up than his brother, especially when he was alone. Unfortunately for you, as you watched him close the distance between the two of you a little bit moreโ this was such a case.
"The boss told me to watch over you, you know. You're here to see him, right? So... I guess you could say I've been expecting you."
It was your turn to look him over, folding your arms over your chest, and whether because of their influenceโjust as much as Sylus'โor not, you were pushed, a little bit, to be bolder. So with a smile, you decided to play coy."Kieran, are you trying to intimidate me? Is that something Sylus would approve of?"
It gave you an inkling of satisfaction to have him pause in thought, because there was one thing you'd noticed about himโ
He was obedient.
Careful.
Dare you say it; a lot more calculating than whatever impulsive decisions Luke was more prone to making.
"Hmm... No, maybe you're right."
He replied smoothly, but it seemed almost too easy. A pause ensued. Neither of you moved. It was a while before you realized that he wasn't quite... finished.
"Boss isn't here, though."
These were words you didn't think you'd ever hear from his own mouth.
"Huh? Yeah, but... You..."
You could have sworn he was grinning under that mask of his, and the sharp laugh that fell from his lips was as close to seeing it as you could get. You were almost certain you were in for somethingโuntil you weren't. He plopped back onto the couch with ease, and you let out a sigh of relief. You would gladly grab the slightest bit of mercy he would show you.
"Wasn't trying to intimidate you, Miss Hunter," he waved it away. "Anyway, like I said. The boss isn't back yet. So... Whatever business you have with him's gotta wait."
"...Yeah." Your shoulders relaxed. Kieran would rarely ever do anything against Sylus' orders. This wasn't one of those times. "Right. Of course. I'll just, uh... I wanted to look through the books..."
You cleared your throat, and your gaze moved from the figure in front of you to the shelves that lined one side of the room. You, yourself, let out a contemplating hum.
Out of the corner of your eye, you saw Kieran lift his head again.
It couldn't hurt to ask.
"Kieran, could youโ"
"Nope."
His answer made you blink.
When you turned to him, he had stopped fussing with the coin.
"You ask me every other week or so. Come on. You can learn to do it yourself too, right?"
"...But you're right here."
"I'm sitting."
"You couldโ"
He shook his head, turning towards the shelves and away from you. It worked well to cut you off, and you had concluded to abandon your hope of convincing himโit was much more difficult with Kieran.
But he added,"Which one this time?"
Your eyes lit up, and you walked over to one of the shelves, pointedly raising a hand. "That one up there! Feel like I haven't seen that anywhere in Linkon. You guys sure have a lot ofโ"
Your eyes widened.
His hands slotted themselves easily on your waist, but you had barely a second to process the heat of his body so close to you before he hoisted you in the air.
Your breath hitched. This was a first. You didn't know Kieran to be the touchy oneโthat was Luke. Yet his grip on your waist was firm, nearly reminiscent of the way Sylus would hold you, and for a moment you couldn't quite do anything but look back and stare at him.
He let out a scoff.
"Why're you looking at me? I said I wouldn't get it for you, but I didn't say I wouldn't help."
It took a while before you could turn away from him and back to the shelf, and you cleared your throat. "Um... A little to the left, then. I can't reach it from here."
"...Seriously?"
He grumbled a complaint, yet did as you said, anyway. You reached a little further to grab the book, andโ
Perhaps, seeing you struggle still made him shift to bring you closer to it, but the movement caught you off-guard enough to wobble slightly in his hold. His grip adjusted to keep you steady, the pads of his fingertips riding slightly up under your shirt, brushing against your skin. "Whoah, there," he clicked his tongue. "Easy, pretty. I'm sure you can handle heights just fine, so relax. It's just a bookshelf."
The contact, combined with his casual use of a nickname you had never heard from him before, had you reeling. And though the book was then grasped safely in your hands, you couldn't help but be hyperaware of the thrumming heartbeat in your chest as he slowly let you down.
"There we go. Not so hard, huh?"
You nearly jumped at the proximity of his voice. The coolness of his mask pressed against your cheek slightly; he could have well been whispering in your ear, his thumb having moved to rub gentle circles into your skin.
This was unnecessary.
You knew that it was.
And yet, something about it made you want to lean into it a little bit more.
His voice was so nice to listen to. His touches were so... gentle.
"Hm? What's wrong, Miss Hunter?"
You could have sworn his voice dipped an octave lower when he spoke next, and subconsciously, you allowed yourself to fall back into his arms.
The quiet chuckle in your ears made your knees weak.
"You're getting worked up over this? Huh? Funny... You never act like this when Luke touches you."
Your eyes closed.
He was mocking you.
"This... It's justโLuke has neverโNot even Sylus hasโ" You stumbled over your words, feeling your face heat up as one hand snaked over to your front to rest just below your navel.
"So what are you saying, Miss Hunter? Do you still want something of me? You have the book. I can let you go."
A choice.
He was giving you a choice.
You could feel him loosen his hold on you at the mere mention of Sylus, and you knew that he was aware he was treading on thin ice. Now, in this moment, the most logical option was clear to you. It was probably just as clear to him, too.
Yetโ
Your words fell silent. Logic, as you knew it, didn't seem to be at the forefront of your mind.
"Why so quiet?"
His voice became a whisper, and his hand dipped lower. With the other, he tilted your head back at him, and you could have sworn that he was smirking.
"Kieran..." you mumbled. "What are we... What are we doing?"
"What do you want to be doing?"
"...That's..."
"I know what you want. But I'll let you go if you don't say it. On the other hand, if you do..."
Throw away all morality and compassion, and this place will become a paradise.
His words from before rung clear in your ears, and it was almost ironic to recall them in this moment. Quiet, obedient, dutiful Kieran... You should have known to expect that there was still a reason he stayed loyally at Sylus' side.
You closed your eyes.
"Touch me, please?"
Another low chuckle fell from his lips, and then he was quickโyou were pressed up against the wall, palms flat against the concrete, the book in your hands falling to the floor with a little thud. His hands dipped underneath the waistband of your clothingโ
"Don't. Turn. Around."
His voice was more commanding than you've ever heard it, clearer-sounding than usual, and once his lips suckled on the exposed skin of your neck, you shivered with the realization that he'd taken off his mask.
"Kieran..."
His hand cupped your mound, a finger slowly sliding up your slit to gather your wetness.
"Mmm... So wet, angel."
Your eyes squeezed shut at the nickname, almost feeling as if none of this was even real.
Yet it was.
Kieran had you caged aginst the wall, his fingers rubbing slow, frustrating circles over your clit. He would slide his hand down to dip into your hole before moving back up, teasing, teasing, never quite giving you what he knew you craved. But he did it so... Well. He had the power to allow you to feel every second of pleasure he'd bestow upon you, that despite the teasing, despite the restrictions, despite the clothing he hadn't bother to remove from you... It felt better than if you were doing it yourself.
"Five minutes, Miss Hunter," he whispered. You could feel one of his fingers prodding your entrance, and you sucked in a breath to hold. "So I'll make this quick, and you have to cum. Got it?"
You barely nodded before his finger slid in, your face flushing at the wet sound of his intrusion. So warm, and long, and slenderโyou felt yourself clench around him, and he grinned, the laugh against the shell of your ear raising goosebumps all over your skin.
"K-Kieraโ"
Your moan choked back when he curled his finger, and you knew that you were long gone. Faster. Quicker. He'd added a second finger to add to the sensations, pumping them in and out at a pace that had your legs trembling.
"Easy, easy."
He mumbled soft praises of encouragement into your ears, almost a stark contrast to the mockery and harshness you'd been exposed to just moments ago. It made your head spinโsoft pads pressed up against that spongey spot in your walls with each thrust, and it truly didn't take long for you to come undone.
You could have slid down the wall if Kieran wasn't quick to hold you up, pulling his hands out of your panties to let you catch your breath.
His phone buzzed.
For a moment, a tense silence surrounded both of you.
"...Well, they're back."
And that was it.
He sighed, leaning over to give you a soft kiss on the cheek, and then he let you go. He took a step back, leaving you to scramble for support against the wall. When you turned around again, Kieran was holding out your bookโhis mask was one again, and he pressed a finger to his lips.
"Shhh."
He leaned in slightly, and you could see in your head, just as well, the wink that he was giving you.
"Our little secret. Not a word about it to the boss."
โโ
It never felt as good without him after that.
Perhaps, he knew it too; perhaps, he felt it, too.
But even recalling that momentโrecalling all the moments that followed soon afterโoften ended with your fingers between your legs, desperately trying to mimic those sensations, only to fall short.
So it was you, who would go to him often. You who would initiate, you who would askโit was never the other way around. Kieran was adamant in acting nonchalant about it. There wasn't a single moment that his mask would slip, in contrast to how you could barely keep up with how he carried carry himself. Because although his attitude towards you hadn't changed in the slightest, it was still the little things that had caused the room you had for him in your heart to only expand.
It was more than just pleasure for you. It quickly became your excuse to spend time with him.
Despite a majority of your encounters being quick, sporadicโthe times where you both would take your time pleasuring each other were different. Softer. They felt more real. From the way he would ensure your comfort, to the way he would always make sure to clean you up properlyโyou didn't know what to think.
Because once the moment was done, you would go back to normal.
Friends.
Acquaintances.
It didn't help that Kieran had rules for your arrangement: One, that you were never allowed to see his face; two, that neither of you would ever speak of it to anyone else; three, that you would be quiet if anyone else was home; four, that the line was drawn, he wouldn't be inside you.
And, five, that you wouldn't dare to fall in love.
Rules.
Limits.
He made it clear to the both of youโit wasn't supposed to happen like this.
"I'm not one to be playing with the boss's property like this." He admitted it to you one night, lying on your pillow. It was almost a silly thing to say; you wouldn't have considered yourself to belong to Sylus, not when your relationship had been anything but strictly business.
But to Kieran, it meant something else.
You knew enough about him to conclude as such.
Quiet, obedient, dutiful Kieran...
Between him and his brother, he was always the one you'd seen closer to Sylus. There was never a question about it; his work came first. His duty came first. Rare were the moments he would ever put his loyalty anywhere but first priority.
"...You know, Miss Hunter, boss is really fond of you."
It made sense to you, then.
He'd broken just as many rules to be doing this with you. And his own rules, the limits he'd set, the boundary he'd built for the both of youโthey were for him, just as much as they were for you. The reason this had all become a game, the reason he would never approach you of his own will, the reason he would only wait for you to ask him another favor, the reason he would torture himself for itโ
"Don't let me love you."
He's never said it out loud, but he might as well have.
For to the both of you, this was only an illusion.
Reality was cruel.
Just as he was.
Because in this picture, it didn't matter what you felt.
He would play with you to ruin you. And you would come back to him. He knew that.
He's never truly stopped you.
โโ
"Kie- Kieraโnnmmfโ!"
One hand pressed against your mouth, the other busy between your legs. In the tight space surrounding you, though your own hand was wrapped loosely around his cock, you could barely bring yourself to move. Your head was thrown against the wall, eyes rolling back into your head with pleasure.
"Gottaโ beโ quietโ" He grunted as his hips thrust into your hand, voice low and raspy as he chased his own pleasure. His fingers were unrelenting, driving you closer and closer to the edge in the way he knew exactly how to, and the movements of his hips seemed to match that pace eagerly.
The confines of the closet did nothing to hinder the state you were in, long gone and putty under the control he had over you.
It was dangerous.
You could hear the faint voices of Luke and Sylus conversing on the other end of the room, and this was the riskiest that the two of you had ever done with this arrangement.
You'd expected Kieran to stop.
You'd expected him to usher you out of the room, or to keep his distance from you until it was safe, but he didn't.
Today seemed... different.
He rest his head on your shoulder, hot, panting breaths reverberating in his mask as he continued to rut into your hand.
His fingers curled, and the hand against your mouth tightened its holdโhe knew the effect that he had on you. He always knew. Telltale signs of your knees giving out from beneath you, of your legs trembling... Your eyes prickes with tears as he continued to shove his fingers in and out of you, bringing you well past your high for the second time that day.
"Good. That's a good girl," he breathed. His fingers pulled out of you with a wet schlick, but the hand on your mouth didn't leave.
You shook your head, barely holding yourself uprightโ
"Move your hand, angel."
There was a certain desperation laced into his voice, hips stuttering against your hand. You barely had the energy to move, let alone the space. The closet was unforgiving.
And, yet...
"Please, Miss Hunter... Please..."
You had never heard him plead you like this before.
It was enough.
He struggled to keep his own grunts and moans in check as you gripped him tighter, pumping your hand up and down over his length. Now that you were focusing on it, you were able to feel every vein and ridge, the pad of your thumb gliding over his tip to spread down more of the precum that had been leaking. Hips undulating, the friction over his cock seemed to drive him insaneโyou felt his body weight fall against you, and the wall of the closet remained the only thing managing to hold both of you up.
There was something about this that gave you a rush of exhileration.
You heard footsteps, and the door, and silence, beforeโ
A louder groan seemed to fall from his lips, and his hips stuttered, spilling over your hand. Thick, and warm, and sticky, your own breath fell out in pants as he pulled away from you and your eyes were drawn to the mess he'd just made.
"Kieran... We gottaโ"
Your eyes widened.
He was quick to settle his clothing before promptly carrying you out, and you gasped.
"H-huh?! Hey, wait! Kie, we need toโ the closet stilโmmf!"
"Later. Later. I'm not done with you. Justโ shit. Just be quiet."
His hand was back on your mouth, barely minding the fact that your hand was gripping his clothing if only to steady yourself in his hold. You knew the steps he was taking, the carpet leading straight to your room. And suddenly, the plush of your bed felt welcomeโ
But this atmosphere was a lot thicker and heavier than you were used to.
You couldn't help but crawl backwards until your head had bumped against the headboard, watching as Kieran's figure loomed over you.
You could sense it.
He was fighting to keep himself under control.
He fisted your sheets,
"Shit. Fuck. It's so hot."
Annoyed. He was annoyed.
You could only stare like a deer caught up in headlights, unsure of this atmosphere, unsure of what move he would make next.
And you should have expected it.
Immediately his hand whent to your eyes as you felt him shift to throw his mask elsewhere in the room, and then his lips were on yours.
You had kissed, a few times, here and thereโbut never like this.
You would doubt it, sometimes. What else could have been there behind all his kisses, what else he could have meant when he took your lips into his so gently, so lovingly, so... unlike him, in a sense, that you wished he meant something more.
It was more obvious this time.
His lips crashed against yours with a need to, and he was anything but gentle. Anything but composed.
It almost didn't feel like him.
All tongue, and teeth, and desperate breaths of airโhe would barely give you space to breathe before he was back on you, his other hand moving to hold your chin, deepening the kiss as much as he possibly could. He kissed you as if he couldn't get enough. He kissed you as if he'd been deprived of it, all his life, that this was the culmination of the past several months of this game that you would play with yourselves.
"Kierโ"
You couldn't speak; he wouldn't let you.
Your chest tightened with the overwhelming outpour of his passion, your legs tangling together enough for you to feel him press against you.
You couldn't do this.
Not like this.
"Kieran!"
Every breath you'd take was only swallowed back into his lips, as if he wasn't really listening to you.
"Kieraโ Kieran!"
You felt him shake his head, his hips beginning to grind against yours.
"Kieran... KieโTake offโ Get your hanโ"
He spoke, this time.
"Can't," he rasped. You could feel him panting against your lips, before he cupped your face and dived in once more. "Can't."
This was stupid.
You couldn't understand why he would put himself through so much, when he had obviously been keeping every little bit of his own feelings sealed behind whatever composure he carried himself.
"Don't let me love you."
You could hear it in the way he kissed you, the way he moved against you, the way je almost seemed to have lost any control he had in his body and his only thought was to consume you.
"Don't let me love you."
But it was too late.
You tugged at his hair, a feeble attempt at pushing him off of youโand when it didn't work, you bit on his lip.
He was off of you in an instant, sitting up in the sheer shock of it all, his hands leaving yours to rub on his lips.
A mistake, perhaps.
A rule broken, perhaps.
His eyes met yours, and immediately, you sucked in a breath.
For all the times that you had seen him and his brother without the mask, this was the first time you'd seen him like... This.
Flushed cheeks, lips swollen and parted, chest heaving for the air he'd so gladly relinquised earlier just to keep himself attached to you.
His eyes were wide.
Yet he couldn't seem to look away from you.
Slowly, you brought yourself back up on one of your elbows, your other hand reaching up to cup his cheek.
"Kieran..." you whispered, softly.
You didn't say anything else as he gulped, didn't say anything else as tears began to roll silently down his cheeks.
"Can't..." he let out a slow, shaky breath. "I can't... I can't... Can'tโ"
Your thumb moved to caress his cheek, wiping away his tears. With a gentle tug, you pulled him back down to you, and he didn't resist.
His eyes never left yours.
"Touch me," you mumbled. The tips of your noses touched, and you gently nuzzeled against him, allowing yourself to lie back down on the bed.
"Take me."
You watched as he sucked in a breath.
And there was no going back. There never was any going back. It had been this way from the start; neither of you had cared enough to stop the dance that you'd began.
There was no going back.
Now that you've seen each other, now that you could take in the way his eyes could look so forlorn in love, for you; how his pretty features could transform into a need so blatantly displayed on his face like this...
There was no going back.
Not a word was shared between you any longer. And when he leaned forward, his lips melting back against yours was no longer overwhelming. Messy, lazy kisses were placed across your mouth, his hand moving back to rest upon your cheek as yours did his.
Soft. Careful. Gentle.
The kisses from him that you were used to, but now, able to look into his eyes like this, had your heart swelling with an emotion you simply couldn't pinpoint. Your fingers moved to tangle in his hair. It brought him to a pause, leaving your lips, resting his forehead on yours.
And he whispered your name.
No pet names, no nicknamesโ
Your name.
Your name sounded so sweet on his lips, his voice cracking slightly with the intensity of which he would speak it.
And you smiled.
"Kieran."
It was slow, the way he leaned in next, the flutter of his eyelashes tickling your skin, before he pulled back.
Clothes discarded.
You wouldn't have known where in the room he had tossed them to, when it only mattered that you could feel him. Warm, and soft... Heavy, and... Safe.
Skin to skin.
Finally.
You inhaled deeply as he dipped his head down to your neck, lips attaching to a particularly sensitive spot that he'd memorized, before he sucked. It drew a hiss from your lips, but that didn't stop himโa trail of marks worked their way down from your neck to your collarbone, before he looked up again.
And his hips pressed against yours.
Your breath stuttered.
You could feel him pressing against your lower stomach, hard and warm, still a little sticky, and very well leaking wetness onto your skin. Just a little, little shift of movementโ
Your eyes squeezed shut at the sensation. His cock dipped between your folds, sliding against you with a tentative buck of his hips.
"Ah... Shit..."
The words fell not from your mouth, but his.
Hazy proved your vision as you opened your eyes once more to look at him.
His jaw was clenched. You could sense an inkling of self control sill dwindling in the back of his mind, a voice telling him not to.
You reached over to hold his hand.
"Kieran..." you pleaded, and the groan that left his lips as you moved against him sent shivers down your spine.
Inside. You wanted him inside you.
And so many rules were being broken, your arrangement having shattered into pieces the moment you laid your eyes on himโ
But you couldn't care less anymore.
You needed him.
"Kieran, please."
It was a flicker of doubt that you saw pass in his eyes that made you grasp his hand tighter.
"...Angel, I can'tโwe can'tโ"
You whimpered as he let go of your hand, only to press your hips down against the bed. You couldn't fight against it; his grip was stronger than yours. Yet the feeling of his cock was heavy over your cunt. It was too close. It was almost there.
Your hips struggled against him, and he could only groanโit didn't take long before it was he who started sliding against you, the friction having a mewl escape from your lips. You did everything in your power to get more of itโmore of it. Your hips rolled with near pathetic desperation, and you could slowly feel him give in to your display of desire. His hand shifted, wrapping around his length, allowing himself to guide it through your foldsโ
"Shit... Fuck..."
His groans were like music to your ears.
You watched, panting, as his gaze moved downwardโseemingly entranced at the way you were spread out for him, at the way you would force yourself to milk the friction of his tip against your slit... You could feel it nudge against your hole occasionally, but he wouldn't let it slip inside you. Instead, he would deliberately guide it through, slipping back up to your clit, bringing it downโthe process repeated.
As much as you wanted to fuck yourself onto him, he wouldn't let you.
And you could barely take it.
"Kieran!" you cried out, still trying to lift your hips, trying to get more. "Please... please... Please, I'm so empty, justโ Just a little, Kieran...!"
He hissed as he nudged once more over your holeโ
And this time, he didn't pull back.
You felt your pleas swallowed back, nearly choking you, as he pushed inside of you just a bit.
His eyes moved up to yours, teeth gritted.
"This? Like this, Miss Hunter?"
The nickname falling from his lips this time felt so undeniably wrong. Yet hearing it did nothing to quell your lustโif only to tighten it.
And he knew.
Of course he knew.
You saw the corner of his lips curl up into a slight smirk, as he pulled back ever so slightly before thrusting back inโdrooling cockhead breaching your walls, giving you the slightest stimulation, stretching you the slightest bit.
"You like that, huh?" He leaned forward to croon into your ear, the deep rumble of his voice so close to you sending a jolt through your body. "Like how that feels, Miss Hunter? Taking the tip of my cock like that? S'that what you wanted?"
And he continued like that. Only fucking the fat tip of his cock into you again and again, just barely giving you what you wanted. All while he would watch you. Intently. His eyes would never leave yours, searching, taking in every ounce of your reavtions, knowing full well that you could finally do the same to him...
And then he pressed in deeper.
It was slow; you'd barely noticed it.
But having been so used to just the tip of him inside you, the feeling of being filled a little bit more had you gasping.
"...I'm sorry," he groaned.
And that was it.
It was then that his eyes shut, and he fell forward against you. Your cunt throbbed at the way he would retreat, followed by each and every thrust forward sinking him just a little deeper inside of you. He would pull out, and try againโdeeper.
Deeper.
A little bit more.
Almost there.
And no amount of self control, no amount of self-restraint could have held him back any longer.
A mix between a cry and a moan left your lips as he pressed himself fully inside you, cock pulsing deep within your walls, hips pressed against yours as you took him wholly, fully, right down to the hilt.
Your eyes were wide.
Your chest heaved with the need to steady yourself, and you saw the flicker of conflict pass in his own gaze again once they landed back on you.
Shakily, you reached a hand back up to cup his cheek.
Quiet, obedient, dutiful Kieran.
Every move nearly always calculated, always weighing the pros and cons, always the more... responsible one.
But was different, today.
Today, he was yours. And you were his.
You nodded, caressing his cheek.
And it happened in an instant.
Lips crashed back into yours, mirroring that same hunger from earlier, cock driving in and out of you with a force that nearly had the bed rocking He was no longer careful. He had everything, he had all of you, and he made it clear with the way he fucked into you that he wasn't about to let you go.
Your moans and cries were swallowed once more into his lips, but you didn't dare push him away. You allowed his hands to roam over your body, allowed his hips to snap into you. You didn't protest when he folded your legs back, allowing him to shove deeper, deeper, deeper into you, the sheer intensity of it all bringing tears to your eyes.
And when the kiss broke, he would pant against you, haphazardly wiping away at your tears, the sound of skin slapping against skin an echo in the room that mixed with your cries of pleasure.
He said it, then.
"I love you."
A shaky whisper.
He wouldn't stop his thrusts, wouldn't look away from you.
"I love you. ShitโI love you."
There was nothing he could do to stop it, then. Tears streamed down your face at the confession you'd waited so, so long to hear from him, a twisting in your heart accompanied that told you this was real.
You broke out into a sob, even as he leaned down to kiss it away, cries choked back into your throat as your arms qrapped around him tightly.
"I love you," you whimpered.
You felt him still inside you, groaning into your ear as his warmth filled you up.
"Kieran... Kieran... I love you."
He fell against you, your legs wrapping around his waist as his weight pressed you into the mattress. Your eyes closed, and you placed light kisses into his hair.
"Don't hide from me," you murmured. "Not anymore."
And it wasn't supposed to be like this.
It wasn't as easy as just being like this.
You knew it.
He knew it.
You had always wondered how far the chains of loyalty and devotion could really take someone...
But now, with him so close to you, you figured it couldn't matter so much anymore.
"Kieran?" you coaxed him up to look at you, reveling in the sight of his dazed eyes struggling to focus on yours.
You smiled, placing a kiss on the tip of his nose.
"Know that I choose you. And I always will."
โบโ / an: first of all this is funny to post bc ive had dms with @star-anons-blog over the fic she posted, and you won't believe that neither of us had any idea of what we were writing ๐ but we ABSOLUTELY synced bc by then i was halfway through this, and her fic is like, the luke pov of a similar situation/vibe so IF YOU HAVEN'T READ IT YET, ABSOLUTELY PLEASE DO, IT'S LITERAL PERFECTION. <3
also let me ramble a bit cause. the basis for this fic? itโs so interesting to me that a lot of the side characters are so closely attached to the main leads in themes of loyalty. i.e. xavier-jeremiah as captain/vice captain; rafayel-thomas as artist/manager; zayne-greyson as mentor/apprentice; and now sylus and the twins as boss/right-hand men. and itโs like, different themes of loyalty, too, but you know that none of them are willing to go against the respective mains. it makes you wonderโฆ how far can you push that? what if they fall in love with mc, too? to what bounds of loyalty will they restrain themselves? and itโs so damn fun to think about and dissect, and i feel kieran's character, as separate from his brother, made him the perfect guinea pig for this <3
(but! i promise luke (and, yk, both of them) will get his (their) turn eventually!!)
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sylus this sylus that... can we talk about luke and kieran??
Ren: Im going out.
Haru: Enjoy your date with MC!
Ren: It's not a date.
Haru: You spent an hour picking your outfit and fixing your hair.
Ren: I'm picky about how I look.
Haru: You put on cologne.
Ren: We literally live in a zoo, maybe I just don't want to smell like it?
Haru: You're carrying a bouquet of flowers.
Ren: You just watched Towa hand these to me.
Haru: Last night you texted MC "I'll pick you up at 7 tomorrow for our date."
Ren: FUCK, WHEN DID YOU TAKE MY PHONE--
romeo using a jade roller
how hotarubi/MC look like when talking to Zenji:
I don't know if you've done it yet but I would like to request Ren lines? I'm having tokyo debunker Ren brainrot bro ๐ญ.
@otomelover23
You're all very welcome! I love you guys too, so far! Sorry you've been deprived of lazy boi lolol HOPEFULLY THESE SATISFY YOU A LITTLE BIT.
He's a little tsundere I think. He's one of those characters who just wants to be normal but he can't just pretend to be normal because he lives surrounded by chaos so he just complains a lot lolol. . .but i think he's a good guy. Aside from that he does not help his mother captain at all.
Default(no affinity):
"If you're just gonna stand there, could you go feed the animals in the aquatic zone? I'm too busy."
"Ugh, why is that clown calling me... ... Whatever, I'll just let it ring out."
you know damn well that if you don't answer the phone you're gonna have to deal with Haru in person. Better to just answer it.
Affinity 1:
"Ugh... Tell me how I'm supposed to sit through classes when I've been up since 4 AM? (yawn) I'm exhausted..."
well if you didn't stay up until 4am--oh who am i kidding i stayed up til like 3 watching a stream and reading datamine stuff and then I got up at like 6:30 to get ready for work I'm no better kekw.
Affinity 2:
"Ugh... I can't believe I'm hiding right now... Why the hell does that clown have to chase me around at lunch time too?"
Affinity 3:
"Preach about doing it for the sake of your friends or the animals or whatever all you wantโ I really don't give a shit. People who say that stuff are just deluding themselves."
i've known people with this kind of cynicism before. once he finds people care about him he'll come around a little more.
Affinity 5:
"I'm grinding this game on my phone, so could you not talk to me for a while? Crap, I think my RSI is flaring up..."
in Japanese he specifies tendonitis haha
Affinity 6:
"Don't people get embarrassed calling out those words when they use their stigmas? It makes them look like LARPers..."
in japanese he says they sound like they have chuunibyou which is much funnier imo lmao. also i guess that means he can say his in his head? since he'd feel embarrassed doing it aloud.
Affinity 7:
"You think I sigh a lot? Got a problem with that? You realize trying to take away people's freedom of speech is power harrassment, right?"
you're starting to sound like ritsu. gonna hurt yourself reaching like that.
Affinity 8:
"I'm so done... I'm out of HP... Shouldn't I be exempt from missions and classes since I'm looking after all those animals?"
well based on something Haku says in a chat that hasn't come out yet, you can just do missions if you don't go to class, and based on Kaito you can just go to class instead of doing missions. . .but I'm sure Haru forces him on missions anyway lol. . . .
Affinity 9:
"Pfft... The video of that clown getting attacked by that hawk thing is getting so many interacts. This editing thing's actually pretty fun."
does editing count as a creative effort? i wouldn't be surprised if he switched to Hotarubi next year if so, assuming he doesn't get used to Jabberwock and the animals.
Affinity 10:
"Gotta change the locks so that clown can't get in again. I've bought enough padlocks to start my own business by now..."
life haru finds a way. sometimes that way is "towa, break down the door" if he runs out of lockpicking equipment.
Affinity 11:
"My head's killing me... This is the worst... Rise and shine! my ass... It's basically still the middle of the night. Guess I should padlock my windows..."
fun fact, you can get this one between 5am and 11am. 5-6am I can understand being 'basically the middle of the night' but after that you're pushing it lmao
Affinity 12:
"The cafeteria's way over capacity... The assholes who save seats before its even noon are ruining it for everyone else..."
Affinity 13:
"Why's my pay so low... huh? What's this deduction for? "Consultation Fee: Ritsu Shinjo..." He's seriously charging me for complaining...?"
Ritsu charges for looking at him too long. i'd try venting on wickchat over complaining to Ritsu.
Affinity 14:
"That rabbit sure has it good. All it has to do is breathe and everyone fawns over it. Doesn't even have to feed itself. Just wait till it grows up and learns what the world's really like."
WELL BASED ON THAT THE ADULT PEEKABOO WAS STILL BEING FAWNED OVER AND HARU HAD TO STOP PEOPLE FROM PETTING IT BECAUSE IT BITES. . .IT'LL PROBABLY STILL HAVE IT GOOD. Haru takes good care of the animals.
Affinity 15:
"Sup... Huh? I'm alone today. I just got up on my own since if I don't that clown'll wake me up anyway."
yeah? it's because of haru? not because of your affinity with the pc being more than half so you wanna be up earlier to spend more time with them? sure.
Affinity 17:
"No, I'm not going to sleep yet. I'm gonna watch a horror B-movie. You don't have to think, so they're the perfect thing to watch before bed."
i used to watch/listen to mts3k to go to sleep so. i feel this.
Affinity 18:
"Well done me for surviving another day... Oh, same to you too, {PC}. I don't how you can do this stuff voluntarily."
SOME PEOPLE JUST LIKE ANIMALS DAWG.
Affinity 19:
"Huh? I'm going to the campus store to buy some stuff, where are you going? Well, I'm going that way, so...bye."
not sure if shy or asocial lmao. could be both!
Affinity 20:
"You're being forced to help out again? Wow, a doormat out in the wild. So? Where do you want me to carry all this food?"
Affinity 21:
"This? It's a video I uploaded. People seem really into it. It's of that clown getting chased by a dog and flailing around like one of those inflatable air dancers."
Affinity 22:
"What am I doing today? Working at the diner. Oh, if you want to keep me company, feel free to come by. As long as you serve yourself."
it's not a date or anything since he's at work but like. . .he is inviting you to hang out. . . .
Affinity 23:
"Huh? You were waiting for me to get off work? Oh... Thanks. Wait, that clown put you up to this?! I'm gonna kill him..."
NO NO WE CAME HERE WILLINGLY probably. although it does seem like Haru to be like "oh hey Ren really really likes you, you should go pick him up from work! he'd love that!!" like a real nosy mom who's trying to get his son together with his crush.
Affinity 24:
"When did it get this late? That was horrifyingly fast... I'll walk part of the way back with you. I was gonna go buy something to drink anyway..."
excuses, excuses. . . .
Affinity 25(max):
"Every day here is a fresh hell, sure, but... You're suffering through it with me, so I guess I'll stick it out a little longer..."
'this sucks but you make it suck a little(a lot) less so i can keep going'. yep, that's our tsundere alright!
Spring:
"That clown's even more slap-happy than usual latelyโit's horrible. Has he got spring fever or something?"
"Towa keeps trying to make me drink some kind of rice porridge with weird flowers in it... It's actual porridge harassment."
considering the flower Towa associates with Ren is poisonous, i think it's safe to assume he is literally trying to poison him to death lmao. also wtf is porridge harassment--i even tried looking it up in japanese and the first thing that came up was someone screenshotting it and saying "what is porridge harassment" lolol
"All this farm labor's bad enough without all the caterpillars and weird plants that are out there now...This is harassment."
what's harassing you, nature? as someone who just had to kill a huge mosquito that came into my room, nature is harassing me too.
"I hate cherry blossoms. They're like the flower version of being a legacy kidโ all they have to do is bloom once a year and everyone claps."
in japanese what he says is something like 'i hate them just like people born with silver spoons in their mouths'. basically he hates people born into privilege lol i bet he'd have the potential to get along well with haku until he learns he'll be inheriting a shrine. . . .
Summer:
"This is the worst... It's not even noon yet, how is it so hot? Summer is for extroverts and party animals, I wish it could just be over already..."
"A group trip to the beach? I'd rather die. No decent person would ever go there of their own free will."
butbutbut. think of the summer skins!!!
"Summer was our busy period back home, so I always had to kill myself helping out. Now I'm here though... nothing's changed."
"How can the A/C be banned in the dorm...? Who gives a shit what temperature some anomalous animal that sneaks in prefers, humans should come first..."
okay i agree with him here though what the fuck kind of rule is that. can we talk to hyde about that, that's insane haru.
Autumn:
"Now it's getting colder, I nearly found myself feeling grateful for this tragic jumpsuit... Am I being brainwashed...?"
"Fall, the season of the harvestโI'll stick with cup noodles, thanks. "Fall, the season to enjoy the outdoors"โscrew that. I'm gonna make it the season of naps."
"LookโI got bitten by some weird bug anomaly. To hell with the stupid bug spray ban, I'm buying some."
"I feel like the mountains are rowdier when there's a full moon. Pretty sure my enemy encounter rate goes up when I'm on patrol too... Maybe I'm just imagining it."
Winter:
"Since the climate in Jabberwock's so messed up, sometimes it's actually warm in winter. The blizzards are way stronger though..."
have you tried pissing towa off less?
"Oh god, I just saw what's in the diner's new Mystery Hot Pot... It's gotta be a matter of time before this place goes bust..."
i mean if they had ordinary health inspectors maybe lolol
"That clown broke my window so my room's like a freezer... Oh, don't worry. I just took his room instead."
His birthday:
"You got this for me? That clown's been spreading my personal info around... No, it's fine, I'll still take it. Thanks."
i guess he doesn't really tell people his birthday, huh.
Your birthday:
"Happy birthday, {PC}. ...Isn't it kind of rude to look so surprised I'd celebrate your birthday? That came from the heart, you know."
I MEAN YOU NORMALLY DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING. . .it's happy surprise!!!
New Years:
"Happy New Year. My resolution? Escaping the hell hole that is Jabberwock, for starters."
well you got here in like September or something so. you've got a while befor eyou can switch houses lmao but you can do it this year!
Valentine's Day:
"You got me chocolates? You're the type who does all this kind of stuff, huh? No, it's fine, you went to the trouble and everything so I'll take them."
i love when characters kinda mock you for doing getting them something but then they're like "nonono i want it gimme--" lolol from Ren especially it's very tsundere. poor guy wouldn't be straightforward about his feelings unless a damn life was on the line.
White Day:
"{PC}... Here, if you want them. I just bought the first thing I saw, so don't read into it..."
i bet it's actually really nice lolol
April Fool's Day:
"Guess what? I got special permission to switch houses. That nightmare is now behind me! I wish..."
Halloween:
"I hope everyone who gets excited about Halloween lives in misery for the rest of their lives. Why the hell do I have to help out with this stupid themed tour?"
Christmas:
"Can I ask you a question, {PC}? You don't still believe in Santa Claus, do you? Never mind, it doesn't matter. Have a good Christmas."
i mean. . .after coming here santa is a plausible entity to believe in. . .if there's gonna be a santa i don't wanna be caught not believing and missing out on gifts. . . .
Idle:
"Pfft... This edit's awesome. I'm a genius. I'll show {PC} when she gets back."
true bonding is sharing the funny memes you worked hard on. . . .
Absent:
"It's not like I was waiting for you or anything. It's just this hell hole is even more unbearable when you're not around..."
YEP THAT'S OUR UNFORTUNATE CUSTOMER SERVICE EMPLOYEE TSUNDERE ALRIGHT. His lines don't really get super affectionate but. They still have a charm to them when you realize how much he hides his feelings in the usual tsundere way. He likes you a lot but like. . .it's a bother and it's embarrassing. . .and what're the chances you're into him? He'll just invite you over to watch movies and play games with him and stuff. . .and tell himself it's fine to just be friends until it eats away at him. . .or until Haru spills the beans for him--
this took way too long because i got distracted like three times in the middle and my laptop started freaking out and i had to figure out why and close and reopen everything about 8 times hahaha. . . . OKAY TIME FOR ME TO GO TO BED! I hope this satisfies you a little bit!!
need to estabilish myself in the td fandom so here are all the Romeo abbreviations that i collected
BB - basic bitch
SIH - shrivel in hell
BTH - blundering thoughtless hooligan
EITS - eyes in the sky
DYUTT - drink yourself under the table
TGA - tiresome good-for-nothing asshole
HS - headshot
HDY - how dare you
OOTWR - out of touch with reality
WRK -
DYFJ - do your fucking job
DOF -
FLB - fighting a losing battle
SOP - smiley old prude
WTWUT - wall-to-wall useless trash
i would like an explanation to the remaining two please sir Romeo Scorpius Lucci
I like sinostra
COME INSIDE OF MY HEART.
tokyo debunker เฑจเง frostheim, jabberwock. 6.6k words.
warnings : some canon divergence nโ some canon events referenced (spoilers), characters probably ooc (TฯT), each part is about ~1k words.
a/n โ as a very anxious person i get pissed off by the shit mc takes from everyone ... so iโm speaking out for once in my life and not writing the reader/mc as a total โyes sirโ person.
เฑจเง jin kamurai.
โ WHAT MADE HIM FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU ?
your respect for his privacy. while jin has no problems with telling those who pry and bother to scram, heโs thankful that you have enough sense in your brain to not loiter around, even if jin can tell youโve got a bit of interest in the โicy kingโ. youโre good at what you do, for the most part, picking up the mess these other idiot ghouls cause, remaining polite while subtly saying that you arenโt gonna take their shitโ it sparks a bit on interest in jinโs own heart, and he finds a way true to himself to monopolize as much of your free time as he can โ designating you as his โservertโ ... which doesnโt go over too well. but, with enough of his cold glares and reminders of how you owe him (itโs a wonder how youโre able to break so many things around frostheim), you slip into the role and see his face more than anyone else could claim. and while jin could argue that there wasnโt anything romantic about it, there definitely wasโ the warmth of his heart enough to thaw the icy exterior even tohma received, his focus honed on the way your hands smoothed over his shirt and delicately draped his jacket over his shoulders, everything was about you in the private moments. it almost felt like a sick love story, the king falling for his servant, but the stars that filled the night after the sunset reminded him of the one sitting right beside him โ and just as they too leave, jinโs left wondering where you go everytime heโs lying in his lonely chambers at night. being honest with his feelings was harder than it seemed, all the words that flooded his mind when you came up die suddenly when you asked why he was staringโ would it be wrong for his walls to fall, even if for a second to compliment the way you look in that getup? thereโs the warmth again that spreads throughout his chest when you accept his hand to dance, taking the initiative to intertwine your fingers โ joking that you โdidnโt think heโd dance with a servantโ, but jin canโt even think of a retort with the way your hand fits perfectly in his, and the feeling of your other resting against where his heartโs hidden. itโs short lived, but jin thinks that itโll be one of the few memories he saves of peopleโ and when tohma comes in later, he canโt help but spill of how he thinks heโs fallen for you. jinโs stupid for two reasons now; loving you, and telling tohma that.
โ HOW DOES HE CONFESS ?
a private requesting to his room. itโs the perfect place, one where jin can let him guard down and spill all this mess to you without threat of others interfering or peepingโ a simple, short text of โmeet me after classes,โ and though heโs sure you wonโt be prepared for what heโs planning to do, probably assuming that youโre going to run a few errands or, more recently granted, water and feed the flowers hanging from his balcony; not expecting the confession-to-come. youโre closer to jin than anyone else at this point, and itโs a bit ironic โ heโs had you cleaning up messes all this time, and now youโve gone and caused your own inside of him. but the aching has been worth it, the way you smile when heโs brought you something small that just โseems like itโd fit youโ, or your meticulously while caring for those flowers heโd plantedโ the same you said were beautiful, giving him even more affinity and reason to love him that wasnโt simply because they were his motherโs favorite โ and lost in these thoughts of you, youโre able to surprise him for once when you arrive, the cigarette between his lips slipping out as he whips his head in your direction. youโd definitely rushed over (it makes him feel a little special, embarrassingly enough), uniform swept from itโs usual straighten looked from the wind, and sweat ready to drop from your browโ still pretty, he notes, though heโll never say that out loudโ and you give your usual curtsey, as if youโre the lucky one to be in his presence, and not the other way around, a small apology squeaking out as you sit beside him while taking out a lighter (another thing that makes him feel important to you, as if youโre carrying a little thing for him with you at all times). itโs nowhere near the usual time he has you come, the sun still shining brightly, but it seems even with you that the sun is nice this time of year, tooโ maybe all year โround with how wonderful you are. a new cigarette hangs from his mouth, courtesy to you as well, it feels like you do so much for him even without his word now; all small, simple things, but theyโre more meaningful than any kind of grand gesture you could do. jin still keeps that title of โservantโ when he refers to you, but itโs just a cover to get you coming around at this point. to keep you as close as you are right now โ sitting right beside him as you chat about something โcrazyโ (or maybe you said wild? heโs a bit distracted) thatโd happened with kaito and luca. thereโs so many new, exciting moments in your life, so many opportunities for you to be swept away by it allโ and the words heโd brought you here to specifically say are so close to leaving him. that famous little saying is about to roll right off his tongueโ but the three words donโt come, and jin can only keep staring at you like a lost child before heโs brought back by your laughter. he feels like a coward, not even sure what youโd been talking to yourself him about, yet still giving a chuckle as he plays along. itโs true that jin does love you, but it seems that he canโt make it apparent heโs given you his heart. another dayโ he supposesโ maybe now just isnโt the time to risk losing something else dear to him.
เฑจเง tohma ishibashi.
โ WHAT MADE HIM FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU ?
your first meeting. tohma could practically feel how nervous you were, and he couldnโt necessarily blame youโ your situation was tragic, and you were thrown into a life with ghouls because of itโ but it entertained tohma. a little bit like a lost lamb, he could barely contain his smile at the way you stumbled with your overly-polite words, was it creepy for him to watch you interacting with kaito and luca so naturally instead of your hesitancy with the vice-captain? probably, but that didnโt keep tohma from doing so โ you comfortably slipped into the ghoulsโ lives as the weeks went by, everyone except for his (and jinโs, but that wasnโt a surprise). it didnโt upset him, per se, but the way you jumped and became on-edge in his presence didnโt exactly make him happy when he desired something more than a friendship (which, tohma didnโt even have that with you, yet)โ or when you agreed to him being โshady as fuckโ for wearing a monocle. itโs a slow process, but he steadily makes a place for himself within your schedule with his persistence โ he wants to be in your life, and tohma refuses to give up on that โ itโs a bit unsettling how determined he is, but heโs easier to talk to than you thought, or maybe thatโs just the way heโs portraying himself. it doesnโt really matter, and tohmaโs completed part of his self-assigned mission when you begin to come and see him more often. talking over tea (mainly just about yourself, and things you were interested in before getting stuck at darkwick), hearing gossip from tohma that makes your jaw dropโ he keeps your attention on himself and his words, the buzzing of your phone not even registering to you with how invested youโve become in your little hangouts with him. tohma wouldnโt say that you make his heart flutter, or his stomach clench because of his nerves, but you definitely evoke a feeling that he hasnโt had before. every bit of free time he has, tohma finds a way to spend it with you, matching his schedule with yours as if the two of you were already together โ maybe itโs just preparation for when the two of you are dating (yes, he is confident in the fact that youโll accept when his plan is complete), but you never seem to catch on just how badly tohma wants to spend time with you. he isnโt exactly the type to desire being with someone, not even jin, but that was just another benefit to being his little crush. the other was seeing a more vulnerable side of โmr. shadyโโ despite his effort to act as he usually did, his posture relaxed from its professional state, and a smile stemming from joy rather than fleeting entertainment found its way to his face when you were with him. he takes notice of it more than heโd like, and itโs only when these hidden sides of him come out does he realize just how much heโs fallen for you โ and how much more heโs falling every day he spends with you. itโs difficult to not blurt out how he loves you when you laugh at a joke he makes (heโs learned your sense of humor, and taken up some lessons in comedy), and itโs hard to not picture you as his partner when you run up to him so comfortably and talk to him in a way nobody else would. though itโs all friendly on your end, it drives tohmaโs heart wild. maybe he is starting to feel that fluttering and maybe those nerves are starting to showโ and more than maybe has tohma fallen further than he can be saved.
โ HOW DOES HE CONFESS ?
an extremely planned out, almost professional, confession. maybe itโs because tohma has been planning out the way heโd express and convey these romantic feelings for you as the two of you grew closer and closer, but his words feel like something youโd read in a romance novelโ he can tell youโre taken aback by his confession, even if he did treat you unlike anyone else tohma wasnโt exactly the kind of person youโd ever expect to receive a love confession from โ he knows this, too, and heโs sure that only adds to the impact of his words, basically screaming that he was indeed being genuine. your expression makes him want to laugh, a face of complete shock as you stare at him with wide eyes, your teacup ready to fall and shatter if he wasnโt there to catch it. if you were able to properly focus on anything except his words, youโd see the way his lip is caught between his teeth, being chewed in anticipation, and the pink on his pale face, thankfully you canโt, otherwise heโs sure heโd hear some teasing comments. you seem to come back to earth once he clears his throat, averted eyes finding yours that are no longer as lost as space, being nervous like this is newโ tohma might even be scared. might, if he wasnโt sure you liked him too, but he is. โshould i take this silence as you returning my feelings?โ though heโd like you to speak for yourself, in order for the two of you to breathe again it seems he needs to break this period of silence. he didnโt expect his words to have this much shock impact, but the slow nod of your head instead of affirming words as an answer tells him that youโre still not back from cloud nineโ so, clearly, the only correct way to bring you back is to get even closer to you. lifting your chin with a soft stroke to your cheek, he can feel the heat from your face when he holds it, but the closeness doesnโt seem to make you any warmer, maybe confident instead โ enough so to catch him off guard when you move in first, pressing your lips together, a more confirmed, wordless answer than your previous nodding. tohma supposes he can accept it, after all, it seems youโre not planning on letting his lips go until theyโre swollen from your kiss.
เฑจเง lucas โlucaโ errant.
โ WHAT MADE HIM FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU ?
your constant assistance and support towards his goal. at first, luca didnโt even recognize his feelings as โromanticโ โ paying no mind to the like doveโs that flew above your heads whenever you were together, simply believing that the way his heart picked up its pace, and his overwhelmingly protective urges kicking in were due to the fact you two were true, genuine friends. luca only gives the nature of his feelings more thought when kaito comments on itโ somewhat jokingly, the blondโs usual yelling about how close luca was, like you and him were dating, the thought that he wouldnโt mind being in a relationship with you crosses his mind. though him and kaito and friends as well, what you mean to luca is different, the realization makes him feel guilty, but youโve quickly claimed the top spot inside of lucaโs heart at darkwick. until now, lucaโs main priority has been figuring out a way to subjugate a demon, all of his efforts for his twin brotherโ but everything seems to come to a full stop at the thought of you being more than just his closest confidant, and the possibility of you in his future, too. itโs just another thing that luca takes very seriously as he ponders how heโs supposed to go about this โ asking kaito seems to be a good idea to him, his obsession with romance and the way he chases every girl within the vicinity ... maybe kaito isnโt the best to ask, actually. lucaโs a bit too honest for his own good, though, and heโs ready to just immediately jump the gun and ask if youโd like to be his partnerโ but he rethinks his plan of action when you, him, and kaito are together during lunch period, the three of you discussing romance (courtesy of kaito) and lucaโs listening intently when you speak up about the kind of confession that youโd want. youโre important to luca, incredibly so, and he takes these words that you didnโt even really mean much by to heart โ he swears that heโll create a picture as similarly perfect to the kind you want (even if a โperfect confessionโ was not what youโd said).
โ HOW DOES HE CONFESS ?
a serious confession inside your room. itโs early when he arrives, at least half an hour until heโs even meant to come get you to walk togetherโ luca feels restless, finding himself with his hand raised and ready to knock before he even thinks of what time it is. luca knows he should go back to frostheim, but his feet donโt want to move from the doorstep, and he canโt stop from giving a strong, loud knock โ one thatโd definitely wake you up, if you werenโt already awake, thankfully it seems you are though when he hears shuffling from the inside, your voice calling out for him to give you โone second!โ. thereโs sweat accumulating from beneath his gloves, and all the romantic words heโd meticulously planned out and practiced canโt be produced from how dry his throat has becomeโ little will deter him now, though, luca isnโt going to run away from this, not even when you open up the door looking more beautiful than ever and send his heart into an erratic rhythm. heโs sure he looks how he feelsโ like his nerves are ready to swallow him wholeโ and you save him the stumbling when you speak first, inviting him inside until the two of you need go set off. luca isnโt one to usually act like this โ heโs sure you find it a bit suspicious, but maybe itโs because this feeling is so foreign to him that he canโt level his behavior. or maybe youโre finding it a bit sweet how obvious his heart is, letting him take a few to calm his breathing and collect the words thatโve been jumbled inside his brainโ youโre sweet. the fact youโre not asking him about it helps him to prepare as he sits on your bed, watching as you ready yourself in the mirror, youโre real pretty too. โiโm.. sorry for bothering you this early,โ luca clears his throat, โi have something very important to get off my chest.โ you hum, meeting his eyes from where heโs staring, and raising you brow โ and he takes a deep breath, then a slow exhale, โi like you. itโsโ difficult to articulate just how much iโve fallen for you, but thereโs so much youโve shown me, and every bit of you makes my heart raceโโ itโd probably be an easier confession if he could just hand you an essay of just how he loves you so, but you donโt make him explain himself anymore than he has.
โi like you too,โ you turn around this time when you look at him, a wide smile having spread on your face, โbut, youโre not as subtle as you think, luca.โ he guesses heโs still got ways to go when it comes to that, or maybe notโ you already knowing probably saved his ass.
เฑจเง kaito fuji.
โ WHAT MADE HIM FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU ?
practically everything. kaito loved everything about you from the moment he stumbled into you inside the storage closet, and he fell even harder when your cute face was finally revealed to him โ youโre like an angel above to him with how sweet you are, and for the fact you actually hang around him. though kaitoโs never planned on giving up his search for a partner, thereโs definitely a bit of hopelessness as his journey has continuedโ he knows heโs a coward, and even with his โresearchingโ, itโs been very unfruitful. it feels like a blessing when you two run into each other, already able to cement himself your โknight in shining armorโ, even after youโve gone off to the other houses, you still reach out and make time for kaito too ... truly, you must be the only one for him, he could cry from your kindness! he tries to act as cool as possible in your presence, but you wear down all his defenses and leave him with a vulnerable heart to all your words he twists as โromanticโ โ itโs impossible for him to not fall for you so hard that it hurts him, and he wonders if you know that his feelings have become quite genuine. kaitoโs honestly lost track of all the times heโs called you his โone and onlyโ, thereโs little that can distract him from how much he craves being with you, just being with you during school hours isnโt enough to satisfy his lover-heartโ you laugh when he tells you he needs you to live, but it might just be the truth at this point! kaitoโs jealous that everyone else gets so much of your time, listening to your recounting of cases you went on with vagastrom, and then jabberwock (which, he almost had a heart attack once you were reported missing!), even if it was you coming to his rescue in sinostraโ kaito was happy to just be by your side, able to protect you if push came to shove. every little experience made him realize that he really did love you. you werenโt just the sweet, cursed student who gave him the time of day, and befriended him out of pity, you were someone who consistently uplifted him and made time for himโ he was your first friend in this strange situation, and you were his first real love, more than just a face he found pretty. the dejection he felt when you first left to vagastrom, the overwhelming panic and fear that rose from his chest and threatened to spill from his mouth when the news of you disappearance was announced โ and the relief that he got to be involved with your next case, even if slightly, confirmed something that both excited and scared him. kaito had genuinely fallen in-love with youโ you werenโt just someone he was chasing because he thought you were attractive, or because he thought this was โhis chanceโ, but for the simple reason of real love.
โ HOW DOES HE CONFESS ?
an unintentional confession while โprotectingโ you from other guys. kaito shouldnโt have gotten so worked up over just a few guys talking with youโ you were attractive, he shouldnโt have been so surprised that people wanted to hit on you, nor been offended when the two of you werenโt even dating. but kaito was, and he couldnโt keep himself from running up in front of you and yelling at these homewreckers to get away! donโt they know that heโs gonna be the one to ask you out?! while he doesnโt realize what heโs just not only said outloud, but also infront of you, kaitoโs mind solely focused on keeping them away from you โ itโs only after they get annoyed by his screeching voice and decide itโs not worth trying to get your number, do you slap him in the face with the question of if he really meant that he wanted to ask you out. his small bit of confidence instantly dwindles into nothing, far too distressed now that you know the truthโ his brain is scattered and desperately trying to compose some kind of excuse that can save him from the cruel rejection youโre about to use your other palm to slap him with next. of course, the only thing that comes out is some sputtered out, pathetically awful โi, uh, was just trying to get them to go away!โ you wonder if thereโs a liar worse that kaito here at darkwick, and itโd be a seriously hard competition to find out โ itโd be cruel to nod and accept that, even if thatโs what his expression is telling you to do (red-painted cheeks, an uncertain smile, and a sheen of sweat, yet he still looks handsome in his own way), itโs time to force kaito to man up and ask you out just as he said he wanted to. โuh-huh, iโm sure thatโs totally what you meant, kaito,โ itโs wrong to deprive enjoyment from how distraught he is, โare you sure you donโt want to ask me out, โcause i was really hoping that iโd finally get to go on a date with you..โ you end with a sigh, almost ready to throw the back of your hand against your face to dramatize this unnecessary situation even further โ and you barely hold in a laugh when he lets out the loudest sigh of relief youโve heard in a while. โw-well, if thatโs the caseโ then iโd like to say i was just kidding about not meaning it!โ the tension in him disperses ... only for you to immediately bring it back when you press your lips right against his own. wait a second! what if his lips were dry? heโs never had practice with this kind of thing! let him try again!!
เฑจเง haru sagara.
โ WHAT MADE HIM FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU ?
your help around jabberwock, and listening to his problems. though haruโs become used to the work needed around jabberwock, it doesnโt make his workload any less stressful โ especially as more and more anomalous animals are brought. he wishes that he could take a break, even if a short one, but thatโs just not possible with all the care thatโs requiredโ and only having three students total doesnโt help, neither doing much unless he forces. haru feels as if an angel has blessed him when youโve got to come to jabberwock, even if itโs for a case, because youโre already kindly offering some help and trying to take a bit of work off his hands. while you did end in trouble the first time he gave you a task (thankfully, he was able to save you from getting bitten, though it meant that he was), you follow him to the different zones and watch as he works so that youโll be of more help in the futureโ which, youโve already proved to be when youโre able to get a new, bigger boat for them to borrow! haru is thankful for every little bit you give, and he finds himself feeling lonely when youโre unable to come run around jabberwock and work with him โ after everything thatโd happened, haruโs come to think of you as a close friend, sweet and worried when heโd gotten hurt, he wants you to fret over him again even if itโs selfish. you recognize how hard he works (though he doesnโt find it as anything strange) and remind him to take breaks, whether when youโre with him or over text, it makes his heart flutter knowing that youโre thinking of him even when youโre awayโ you two are a little like a couple, arenโt you? of course, haru says heโs just joking after you roll your eyes at his comment, but those โjust kiddingโsโ become less genuine as time goes onโ mainly because haru doesnโt mean them. he really does mean that youโre looking as gorgeous as ever, but itโs easier to keep you around if he says heโs only joking. he doesnโt want to go back to handing out fliers alone, and he doesnโt want to be stuck having to shear the fluffy squad all by himself, because though he couldโ it wouldnโt be the same now that heโs experienced it with you. haru didnโt think that itโd touch his heart in such a way, after all heโs had towa help after some nagging, and renโs come through once or twice for him, but you come out of your way to jabberwock even though youโre busy with all these new assignments and subjects, and being pulled around by everyone elseโ you donโt seem to see helping the animals as work, but rather as an activity with him. he canโt help but talk to rui about how wonderful you are when heโs had one too many, eventually letting slip that heโs totally fallen in love with you. honestly, how could he not? you check up on him every day, come to help and see peekabooโ the little guy has become attached to you, and haru would be lying if he said he hasnโt as well.
โ HOW DOES HE CONFESS ?
taking you on a private tour around jabberwock. after getting drunk at obscuaryโs bar one too many times, and every word leaving his mouth had to do with his adoration towards you, rui got sick of hearing about haruโs crush and pushed him to confessโ which was easier said than done, every time he planned out how heโd do so, he felt like he could vomit from his nerves. haruโs never been the shy type, but just sweet one look and smile from you has him turning away to focus on anything but the way his cheeks are starting to heat up. he doesnโt have much time to do anything grand, he sadly canโt take you out to a nice dinner or even have a few hours for the two of you to spend completely alone, but he can have you by his side as the two of you take a (somewhat) quiet stroll through jabberwockโ it wasnโt strange for haru to invite you to help, though he usually waited for you to come on your own, but you never failed to show (which only made the racing of his heart worse) as you raced over almost as fast as he couldโ when have his hands ever sweat this much? when was the last time haru felt this nervous? even though all this is because of you, and how he likes you, thereโs a calming feeling he gets knowing that youโre close to him like this. you donโt comment about how peekaboo isnโt with you though theyโre always together, and you donโt comment on his blushing complexion โ it saves him a bit of embarrassment, and gives a small boost of confidence knowing youโre not bothered by either. youโre just walking with him, and doing the usual tasks around jabberwock, there isnโt a small surprise waiting for you thatโll tell you about his feelingsโ there definitely isnโt, because โฆ itโs been totally ruined by the animals. there might not have been a ton of time or funds put into it, but it was completely filled with his feelings! and now look at it! absolutely trashed!! just like heโs about to be, probably, haru can only sigh as he holds his head in his hands, the two of you standing in front of the ruined confession. he feels your hand on his head, rubbing it as you crouch beside him, telling him to look at you โ youโre using a soft tone of voice, and it coaxes his view to leave his palms and meet your eyes. as sweet as ever, he thinks, youโve got a smile on your face even after seeing this disaster, โyou like me, haru?โ heโs sure he looks pretty pathetic like this, but he nods at you with his sad face. โwell, thatโs goodโ โcause i like you too.โ itโs good alright โ fucking great even! amazing more than anything! his down mood is instantly lifted the second you tell him that, and he jumps up while taking your hands in his. you really are the bestโ haruโs gonna shout to the heavens how he loves you!
เฑจเง towa otonashi.
โ WHAT MADE HIM FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU ?
your belief in soulmates. it seems like such a simple, trivial questionsโ but hearing you say that you believe in people having soulmates makes towaโs heart smile. he wants to believe in them too, so promise youโll let him know if you ever find yours! your pinky fits perfectly against his own, curving together as if theyโre meant to be together โ you leave for sinostra after swearing to towa that heโll be the first to know, and though remembering your promise makes him happy, itโs strange to not have you nearby for him to pull around and drag into strange flower hunts or animal electrocuting tamingโ heโs almost become as attached to you as he is haru! though the nature of both are different, which hasnโt been apparent to towa until now that heโs stuck missing you. sending little cat stickers to grab your attention, despite the wordless exchanges, you understand every bit he says โ even telling him that youโll swing by jabberwock to see him when he lets you know that he misses you, and when you visit he canโt help but run to see you, calling for his dandelion! which, he missed you a lotโ youโll need to give him some sorry cuddles! and though his words have a strange romantic touch, youโre always left wondering the depth of them when nothing more comes, but given his liking towards romance you donโt think too hard about any of them; towa doesnโt, either. all the โflirtingโ that comes from him slips out so easily, every word feeling natural and right to say if itโs directed towards you. he wonders if this is what having a soulmate is likeโ that wonderful person that is the true only for you, is this feeling that sets your mind in a comfortable ease a sign of that? while towa isnโt sure, nor can he be, his heart tells him that it is and a happiness like no other seems to follow him after the small realization โ him and dandelion are soulmates! towaโs wanted to believe in them, and it seems he finally can given that heโs got his right in front of him. thereโs not a speckle of nervousness to be found within towa like youโd expect from someone with a crush, but after chasing this for so long, he doesnโt have time to stop and think about the consequences of preparing to spring this on you. after allโ if youโre soulmates, surely youโre feeling this too!
โ HOW DOES HE CONFESS ?
giving you a bouquet of lilies. while towa contemplated dandelions โ that was what led to your โmeetingโ โ the lillies bunched up beautifully, and when he stared at the way they sat with one another made him think of the two of you together. but when he brings them to you, you donโt seem to understandโ a fitting smile (one towa would like to see every day) as you graciously accept them, thanking him for giving you a flower he has such an affinity for. though, the pleasant moment is broken when he lets out a sound of protest, and unhappiness, causing you to jump a bit and almost drop the perfect bouquet youโd only just been giving. towa isnโt an obvious character, and this is just another time where that comes to light โ he ... doesnโt want you to take the bouquet? another huff and shake of his head, okay, then he wants you to reciprocate with one of your own..? it almost feels like a game of hot-and-cold as you try to follow and solve with his cues, before you finally get it. โare you trying to tell me that you .. like me, towa?โ your words are met by a happy, bright smile and feverish nod, his arms thrown around you almost instantaneouslyโ your voice is completely caught in your throat after the wordless confession is dropped on you, not upset but surprised. he notices your silence, and though itโs rare for towa to speak, even after youโve already heard his voice, butโ โwe should be soulmates, dandelion.โโ heโs grateful you kept you word in helping him believe in soulmates. showing him just how wonderful the world is when you love somebody.
เฑจเง ren shiranami.
โ WHAT MADE HIM FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU ?
when you asked him about the games he plays, and his favorite movies. normally, ren hates privy types (haru), and he didnโt expect to actually find himself telling you about his interests โ but you genuinely wanted to know about them, and he found that it wasnโt awful having someone to play along with in his games. heโd told you that you didnโt have to join him during raids, and that you could do it on your own time, but you were active during the same hours as himโ whatever, you could join him. you probably needed someone to carry you, anyway โ it didnโt mean the two of you were friends, even if you came to see him, almost every day and bothered him all the time no matter how much he told you to quit harassing him. you annoyed him, not endeared yourself to him. ren didnโt like you, even if you talked about the same things he liked and the two of you exchanged b-horror movie recommendations, just because you were his only friend at this awful school and the only person he felt comfortable ranting to about jabberwock and all the stupid responsibilities didnโt mean that he liked you โ all of that didnโt mean that he did, it couldโve just been things that meant the two of you were friends, but ren did like you. he liked when youโd text him and ask for advice on team comps, when youโd call him during the hours you knew he worked (or was slacking off during aquatic duty) to talk about going and seeing a new horror movie that looked low quality together. it was so stupid, ren felt like an idiot for falling over such trivial thingsโ why was his heart racing over the fact you sent a picture of yourself in a matching โNawโ shirt? why did he feel special to you because you simply bought a shirt to match him?โ he didnโt care about you one bit, and it shouldโve stayed that way, but it was like fate was against him when ren had to be directly involved with someone like you for the stupid case. why did you care about him? ren feels like heโs driving himself crazy because of these stupid feelings that youโve brought out in him, heโs losing every single argument with himself that he doesnโt actually see you as anything but a friend, and that he definitely isnโt super upset over the fact youโre going to sinostra, and he 100% isnโt scared that youโre going to have no time for him during your time thereโ or fall for one of those guys. why would he? ren doesnโt like you like that, as long as he ignores the thoughts of jealousy that plague him when he starts seeing you with that stupid lawyer and the flush of his cheeks and heating of his face when you shoot him a smile or text him out of the blue, he can convince him that he isnโt falling for you. but he canโt, sadly.
โ HOW DOES HE CONFESS ?
accidentally letting it slip out. it wasnโt exactly a confession, in renโs defense, but it definitely was a proclamation that he cared about you in a way different than friendship. ren wasnโt thinking when he said it, but it didnโt matter when the โi really missed you being with meโ was spoken and floated around in the silence that followed โ what the hell was he supposed to say after that? that he was just kidding, and thatโd make it disappear? (not that it would have helped with the way he instantly covered his mouth and had his cheeks tinted) the way you stare at him dumbfounded is awful, and he wishes that heโd just stayed quiet while playing his gameโ but itโs too late. thereโs not much ren can do except sputter out a quick โsorryโ as he finally places down your coffee, trying to escape from this terrible situation. it feels like one of those shitty movies he watches, and the horror element is this harsh rejection thatโs about to crash down on him โ he feels like squeezing his eyes shut to brace himself when you grab his wrist, kicking yourself up and out of the booth. here it comes, youโre about to tell him you can only see him as a friend, he knows itโ ren knows that he shouldnโt have let himself become so close or attached to you, but how could he help it? itโs not his fault you were begging him to just fall flat on his face in love with you, sticking close to him when you were supposed to just be investigating an anomaly with his stupid house, coming to see him as often as you could during his lonely shifts and chatting with him without worry of someone else joining โ ren used to enjoy the solitude, craved it more than any kind of interaction, but you ruined it for him. instead of being at peace when he was all alone at the diner, or in his room, he wanted you to text or call him, to come and see him or ask to hang outโ anything. ren wanted to be with you, even if he didnโt want you know he did. but now you did, and heโs about to have to get used to that loneliness again โ the rejection is coming in three, two, one โฆ itโs uh, definitely coming, isnโt it? he hears you laugh, and he lets one of his eyes open, and youโre looking at him with an expression that shows anything but disgust or disappointment. maybe youโre letting him down easy? orโ โi like you too, idiot. donโt act like youโre in a horror movie after basically confessing to me.โ โmaybe youโre about to reciprocate. his gacha luck mustโve gone into this moment, and renโs letting out a sigh of relief that he didnโt realize was being held in, finally facing you with both his eyes open as you give him your stupidly attractive smile โ โbut seriously, am i that bad to like?โ yes. you are. but maybe thatโs what makes ren like you even more.
Tokyo Debunker fic ideas (that I cannot get to until I clean my ask box)
MC's curse gets lifted, and the sages ring is removed, allowing the school to wipe her memories and send her back to her normal life. The ghouls aren't allowed to interact with her, but she still runs into the same guy constantly while she's out living her life, and she knows in her bones she knows him. She trusts him with her entire body and soul and she keeps being drawn to him even if he seems like he wants to avoid her- (Sho swears this will be the last time they hook up, that he's really just saying good bye and that she deserves better than some guy who can't be with her in the morning but he kisses her and forgets all his protests)
Same idea but with Kaito and instead if smut they just sit and talk at various cafes about things because MC keeps finding him where he's hiding and is overly determined to cheer him up. Still angsty and for some reason it seems sadder to me for some reason
Love triangle with MC, Haku, and Taiga where MC and Haku are sort of a thing and Taiga's pissed off because Haku is the traitor? And he knows Haku is just going to hurt MC but then he's not much better and he knows that but still. He wants to eat his own heart and have her in his arms, he'd do anything... (kind of like the idea of a time loop where Taiga and MC were together in the first loop but Haku swooped in before Taiga could get over himself this time and put the moves on MC... meanwhile MC likes the way Haku treats her and believes he's not so bad but is still a little in love with Taiga...)
Haru gets very drunk and talks about how much he loves everyone in his dorm and MC while Ren and MC try to get him home to Jabberwock.
I'm so tired /แ - ห -ใ
WEVERSE CRUSH !
YOUR favorite hobby after a busy schedule is going on weverse and trying to get jungwonโs(your classmates) attention so bad! what happens when it does actually happen? you get excited of course! but what happens when you get a reply from him every day?
OR in which you caught jungwonโs attention with your posts on weverse and now, regardless of his tight schedule and millions of fans whoโs trying to get his attention, heโs only searching for your posts every day.
PAIRING idol!jungwon X idol&fan!femreader
GENER fluff , a bit of angst , comfort , type of classmates to lovers(?) but theyโre basically strangers on weverse !
WARNINGS vv cringy i think , mentions of stress , awful humor and pick up lines ! (pls lmk if i missed something)
WC 4.9k+ (the longest iโve written ever!)
NOTE this is to all of the fans that never got noticed by jungwon on weverse but do get a lot of spams๐ n e ways pls like this i worked hard on thisโน๏ธ๐ค๐ป
NOT PROOFREAD!!
wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค : 10:20PM jungwon! i had a busy schedule today but thinking about you always made me feel better๐ค
โtrying again?โ one of your group mates glanced at you staring at your phone, โiโm just sharing how my day wasโ you shrugged.
โheโs got like millions of posts, you know that tooโ she chuckled, โinstead of being online in your own groupโs weverse youโre going online on your fan accountโ
โiโm online everyday youโre just overreactingโ you rolled your eyes.
โwhy donโt you just talk to him in class? didnโt you say you both were classmates?โ she pat your head.
you shook your head, โitโs not that easy, weโre both barely attending to class because of our busy schedule, and we basically stopped talking after a whileโ
โitโs the only way i can interact with himโat least hope so? idkโ
โand what if he does notice you?โ she suddenly asked, โwhat are you going to do then?โ
โprobably faintโ
โyouโre acting like a real fan right nowโ
โwhat do you mean acting? i am a real fanโ
โno youโre not, youโre just crushing over him and donโt know how to properly confess so youโre using this app and hoping to get noticedโ your other group mate barged in your conversation.
โi mean, you both are classmates but youโre always so desperate to grab his attention on weverse, whatโs the point of that?โ she added.
โit kinda like became my usual thing to do, before i log into our weverse i log into enhypen and leave a post thereโ you shrugged, โitโs one of my favorite things to doโ
โyouโre hopelessly in loveโ they both teased you.
โgood morning!โ you greet your classmates. your schedule was clean for the whole week so you decided were forced to go back to school.
your friends greeted you back and you sat at your desk.
โmorningโ jungwon mumbled as he entered the class.
it was a rare sight, jungwonโs never usually at school. his schedule is way busier than yours and considering the fact that you show up to school once a month, it was quite surprising to see jungwonโs presence.
โmorningโ you greeted back and he went to his seat at the corner of the class.
you missed him. you actually did. having a crush is more than just thinking about someone 24/7, itโs also about missing him.
jungwon is your role model, he had always been. being classmates for more than four years together, he helped you getting into the company you wanted and encouraged you to stay until you debut.
you went through all of this because of him and yet, both of you rarely even talk.
jungwon couldnโt quite explain why, perhaps itโs your pretty eyes that he gets lost while staring at them, or was it your smile that always ( no matter when ! ) lights up the world, his world.
he found himself getting all shy and closed up being around you, call it cheesy but jungwon just canโt stop thinking about you and missing you.
he tends to come to school more often these days, some might think heโs just trying to catch up with school, but truth is, heโs searching for you every day, to see you and your smile.
you sat at the front line while jungwon sat at the corner, which makes it easier for him to stare at you without you even noticing.
โshould i ask him to eat lunch with us today?โ you whispered to your seatmate and she nodded.
โi just donโt knowโโ โmorning! finally y/n we get to see you!โ the teacher got in class and cut you.
after class you gathered all your stuffs quickly but stopped when you felt a figure standing in front of you,
โhey umโ you coughed, โjungwon, iโm jungwon-โ he cut you off.
you froze, a bit taken aback, โno i know-โ โoh! oh rightโ he nodded.
โi was wondering if youโd like to grab some-โ
โhey y/n! letโs go to the cafeteria!โ your friends called you and you instantly frowned, โi canโt, something urgent came up and i need to goโ
they nodded and left, you then turned to jungwon, โwhat did you want to-โ โitโs okay, never mind about thatโ he quickly mumbled and left.
wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค : 11:34PM jungwon! i had school today but i had to leave early today because something urgent came up ): i missed lunch with someone i really adore and im really sad):
โhey jay! check this outโ jungwon showed jay his phone. โwhatโs wrong?โ jay asked after reading the post.
โit seems so weird! it happened to me today at school tooโ he coughed, โwith y/nโ
โy/n again? you never stop talking about herโ niki joined in.
jungwon sighed, โi canโt stop thinking about her, itโs like sheโs living in my mind rent freeโ
jay pat jungwonโs shoulder, he can see how sad is friend is and how difficult things are for him.
โณ ์ฌ์๋ ํ๋ณด์บฃ replied to wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค: youโll always have tomorrow to spend together!
โOH MY GODโ you froze, looking at your phone for a few good minutes until your group mates came in rushing, โARE YOU OKAY?โ
one of them held a pan in her hand, ready to attack any stalker.
โitโs-โ you tried to speak, โitโs-โ
โjust give me the phone!โ another one grabbed your phone and looked through it.
she sighed when she realized what was happening, โreally y/n?โ
โwhat is it?โ
the curious cats followed her and peeked into her phone, they all sighed when they saw what is this all about.
โi was about to experience a heart attack!! we donโt do those things y/n!โ
โno but you donโt understand!โ
โyang jungwon just replied to me!โ you walked back and forth around the room.
โi need you to sit down and calm down!โ the leader held your shoulders and dropped you on the couch, โit happened once and it probably wonโt happen again, iโm really happy for youโ
โif you donโt get noticed by him at school at least you got noticed by him on weverseโ
โBURNNNโ they all shout and giggled.
you know they were joking, your groupmates became your family in a blink of an eye. they take a good care of you, and worry about you 24/7, like good old sisters.
but what they like to do the most is to tease you, which you find very annoying, but they just find it really cute.
โiโm definitely going to keep an eye on herโ jungwon said to jay who was sitting next to him, โi have no choice but to trust your instincts nowโ he replied.
โhow was your schedule yesterday?โ your classmate asked you the next day.
you laid your head on your desk and groaned, โit was pretty tiring most of the timeโ
they pat your head and let you off, without having any other distractionsโyou fell asleep.
โmorn-โ jungwon got into the classroom and noticed your sleeping figure.
he smiled to himself, finding you so cute and adorable with your head all smashed over your desk and your slow breaths that made him think you were choking there for a second.
โwhat are you looking at?โ his friend put his hand over jungwonโs shoulder, โnothing, i was just thinking about somethingโ
โy/n wake up!โ you heard someone whispering. you slowly opened your eyes and was welcomed by your friends all gathered around you with a big smile, โwhat is it?โ you uttered.
โsomeone got you this drinkโ one of your friends held out your favorite drink, โyou slept through all the periods, itโs lunch time alreadyโ
you looked at your phone and gasped, โwhy did no one wake me up?โ
โwe tried, you just were in deep sleepโ
โthank you for the drink, did you happen to see who that was?โ you curiously looked at the drink as your friends shrugged, โwe all went out to get our lunchโ
wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค : 6:08PM something really weird happened today at school! someone bought me my favorite drink and put it on my desk! do you think i should look for that person?
โlook!!โ jungwon, who was active on weverse suddenly noticed the post, โitโs the same person from yesterdayโ
jay sat next to him and peeked at jungwonโs phone, โwhy? did you buy y/n her favorite drink today without her knowing?โ he giggled but stopped when he noticed jungwon started blushing, โyou canโt be seriousโ
โณ ์ฌ์๋ ํ๋ณด์บฃ replied to wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค: go search for that person!!
โณ ์ฌ์๋ ํ๋ณด์บฃ replied to wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค: i wish you good luck๐ค
โAGAIN??โ you shout, you sat on the couch with your groupmates and made them all jump when you shout.
โagain?โ they sighed, โWAIT WHAT?โ
you showed them your phone with jungwonโs replies and they all joined you to the shouts.
โyou know what they say!โ one of them said, โthird time a charm!โ the rest of you completed the sentence and giggled.
โiโm going to be full honest now,โ another one said, โi donโt think there is going to be a third timeโ
โyou never know!โ
the next day you got notified that your โschedule-freeโ week was a complete lie.
โwhat do you mean i canโt go to school this week? you told me iโm free!โ your argued your manager.
โsome photoshoots and sponsors came up, iโm sorry itโs like thatโ she pat your shoulder.
โhow am i going to see jungwon again?โ you asked your group leader.
if thereโs one thing sheโs good at, itโs probably to listen and give advices, thatโs why you find yourself always laying your head on her lap and venting out your concerns.
โitโs not like youโve seen him a lot beforeโ she said, โright?โ
โno but it was different this time! i was actually ready to talk to him about everythingโ
โwhat do you mean everything?โ
โi donโt know iโโ you sighed, โmy feelings? the way i feel whenever i look at him? everythingโ
โyou do realize that itโd probably be weird to confess to someone you rarely talk to, right?โ
โi hate that youโre rightโ you rolled your eyes, โi was actually ready to befriend him, to get closer to himโ
โyouโre so boring y/n! you should be more bold!โ
โwhat do you expect me to do?โ
โshow him that youโre interested in him without being too weird and confessing your feelingsโ she smirked.
โbut how?โ
โdo you know how to rizz up someone?โ
wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค : 11:39AM jungwon! aside from stealing hearts, what do you do?
โare you serious with me right now? why did you post that!โ you shout at your leader who was busy laughing her ass off, โis that what you meant by being bold?โ
โthat is how you rizz up people now!โ
โณ ์ฌ์๋ ํ๋ณด์บฃ replied to wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค: do you normally flirt with people so easily?
โOH MY GOD??โ you dropped your phone and your friend froze, โdonโt tell me he repliedโ she gasped.
โALMOST INSTANTLYโ you nodded and kneeled to get your now broken phone.
โNO WAYโ she laughed, โthird time a charm!โ
โณ ์ฌ์๋ ํ๋ณด์บฃ replied to wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค: but other than stealing hearts i think about you๐ค
โslap me right nowโ you smacked your hand over your forehead, โokayโ she slapped you.
โwhy would you do that?โ
โyou asked for it!โ
on the other side, jungwon was giggling at his phone, staring at it for a few good minutes, that was until heeseung took his phone away.
โhey! give it backโ jungwon tried to take his now stolen phone back but heeseung was too strong,
โi saw you smiling at your phone so i thought you were texting someone,โ heeseung sighed and returned jungwonโs phone, โbut weverse, really?โ
jungwon shrugged, โiโm just replying to fans, theyโre cuteโ
heeseung shook his head in return, โitโs not โfansโ youโre talking to, itโs only one specific fan youโre replying toโ
โiโve been replying to other fans tooโ
โthatโs what youโd like to thinkโ
heeseung was right, jungwon does only reply to the person he said heโd keep an eye on, which is totally fine, but at what cost?
โfans are starting to think youโre dating that person secretly, you should be carefulโ heeseung sighed.
โyouโre right, that person just interests meโ jungwon replied, โi have this weird feeling it might be y/nโ
โy/n? why would she be on our weverse page?โ heeseung tilt his head, โdoesnโt she have her own groupโs weverse page to go through?โ
โyeah, but some posts of her really reminds me of situations that occurred between us,โ jungwon nodded, โlook, a few days ago she posted something that was really similar to what happened at school!โ
heeseung took jungwonโs phone again to look through the suspicious account, โletโs just keep an eye on this accountโ
โthatโs what iโve been trying to say!โ
wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค : 11:45AM jungwon i was so surprised when i got a reply from you and dropped my phone๐ itโs broken now!!
โthatโsโโ jungwon gasped, โthatโs not what i meant to happen with my responseโ
heeseung just giggled, โi mean who wouldnโt be surprised to get a reply from their favorite idol?โ
jungwon nodded and slowly tapped his reply.
โณ ์ฌ์๋ ํ๋ณด์บฃ replied to wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค: haha iโd be surprised if i were you too!!
โณ ์ฌ์๋ ํ๋ณด์บฃ replied to wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค: how will i ever be able to repay you?
โnow it just feels like heโs flirting back with meโ you chuckled.
โyou caught jungwonโs attention y/n!โ your leader giggled, โnotice how heโs always replying to you almost instantly? itโs as if heโs waiting to see your postsโ
you shook your hand, โno way! why would jungwon wait for me to be online?โ
โthat my friend,โ she put her hand on your shoulder, โis up to you to figure that outโ
the next day you begged your manager to cancel your schedule, with the excuse of, โi have exams coming up and i need to catch up, do you want to see me fail?โ
and it actually worked!
today youโre going to see jungwon and talk to him, no matter what!
you arrived at school and sat by your usual seat, putting your broken phone on the desk and laying your head over your hands next to it.
you slowly drifted to sleep, school is too boring on the morning anyway!
as jungwon entered the class he first looked over your direction, of course he would.
he smiled to himself, he always does when he looks at you.
he then noticed your phone that was right next to you, it was smashed and broken, as if it was dropped.
jungwon gasped, he opened his phone and entered weverse, searching the account heโs been keeping an eye on, and that was it.
a dropped and now broken phone, itโs a match!
he took a picture of your broken phone and went back to his seat to text his members about the shocking news.
โitโs definitely herโ he sent the text and added the picture of your broken phone.
โi donโt think so, just because of a broken phone?โ jay responded.
โyes! she said yesterday that her phone was dropped and got brokenโ jungwon replied.
โit might be a coincidenceโ heeseung claimed.
jungwon was about to text them back but had to turn off the phone once the teacher entered the class.
first break of the day was a good opportunity to talk to jungwon. you woke up in the middle of the second period and thought about ways to approach him.
you searched for him in the class, eyes scanning every place until you landed on his seat, of course, thatโs how he usually spends his first break. in his usual seat, with a snack in one hand and in the other heโs holding his phone and scrolling through social media.
you got up, suddenly feeling bold enough to make steps towards his seat.
โhey jungwonโ you let out.
he froze for a second, then turning off his phone and putting away his snack, โoh, hey y/nโ
โheyyyyyโ you said again.
โhey?โ he questioned.
โuhmโ you coughed, โsorryโ
โitโs okay, is there something wrong?โ
โno no!โ you shook your hand, โi was just wonderingโ
you was about to continue but your phone buzzed, you got a notification.
โyour phoneโs brokenโ he pointed out.
shit, you thought. โyeahโ you giggled, โi uhโโ
โi dropped it after my members decided to pull a scary prank on meโ good one.
he nodded and chuckled, โso?โ
โso,โ you cleared your throat, โi was wondering if youโd like to start over againโ
finally!! you cheered.
โi mean, youโve helped me a lot through my trainee days and encouraged me to achieve my dreams but we stopped talking after i debuted and i really feel likeโโ you spoke too fast and jungwon cut you off, โiโd really like thatโ
โreally?โ you asked and he nodded, โreallyโ
wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค : 8:50PM i asked my crush if heโd like to get to know each other again today!! heโs a person that really helped me through tough times and always encouraged me! we were good friends back then but stopped talking after a while, i really thought he was angry at me for some reason, but i couldnโt stop having feelings for him, so i made the first step today and he actually agreed!! im so happy!!
โyou did WHAT?โ your group leader asked you.
โi did it, i asked if heโd like to get to know each other aga-โ
โoh im so proud of you my childโ she hugged you tightly and pecked your forehead, โyouโre all grown up nowโ
โณ ์ฌ์๋ ํ๋ณด์บฃ replied to wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค: well,
โณ ์ฌ์๋ ํ๋ณด์บฃ replied to wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค: iโm sure he wasnโt angry with you at all!
โณ ์ฌ์๋ ํ๋ณด์บฃ replied to wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค: im happy that you two are starting all over again, who knows, maybe he feels the same about you ;)
โgot you y/nโ jungwon giggled.
โwhy donโt you just talk with her about it?โ jake put his hand over jungwonโs shoulders as he stared at his phone.
โitโs difficultโ jungwon frowned, โdo i just go like โoh hey! i know you have a weverse account and i know your user, i have feelings for you too so letโs dateโ?โ
โyeah!โ jake nodded and jungwon groaned, โyouโre no helpโ
โso? tell us everythingโ your members sat you on the couch while they surrounded you with some curious eyes.
โabout?โ
โabout what happened at school!โ
โi went to jungwon, asked him if heโd like to start over again, he said heโd love to, so we went together to get some lunch and talked about everything we missed, it was real fun honestly really recommend you to do that tooโโ
โdid you confess, or notโ they all asked.
โno why would i confess so soonโ
they all sighed, โno drama, no fun!โ
you rolled your eyes, โcan we at least eat something now?โ
wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค : 9:27PM i donโt think he feels the same, but it was really fun to spend the day together with him, his company has always made me feel warm and comfortable.
โณ ์ฌ์๋ ํ๋ณด์บฃ replied to wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค: im more than happy to hear that! first breaks are always so fun when you spend them with a person you like ^-^
you tilt your head in confusion, showing your phone to your members, โlook at thatโ
they all read your post and his reply, โwhatโs so weird about it?โ
โi never said i spent the first break together with himโ
โDO YOU THINK HE KNOWS?โ you freaked out, โOH GOD OH GOD OH GODโ you held your head, moving back and forth around the room.
โy/n calm down!!โ your leader said, โmaybe he just assumed it was the first break since itโs the first time of the day you get to spend with other people!โ
โyouโre right,โ you breathed in, calming yourself down, โthank youโ
next day you went back in track, your manager told you the next time youโd be showing up to school would be only on exams and maybe next month.
your schedule became busier than before, you barely had time to breath. going back and forth, from a phothshoot to an interview then practice and more.
you were drained and overworked, your phone hasnโt been touched ever since the last day you showed up at school, which meansโyou havenโt showed up on weverse a few weeks already.
youโd see jungwon only when you arrive to school to take exams, but then disappear right away after you finish them.
โwaiting for a new update again?โ sunghoon asked jungwon who was staring at his phone and refreshing the page every minute, โyeahโ he replied.
โsheโs always online around these hoursโ he added.
โhave you seen her at school?โ sunghoon asked, jungwon froze for a second, thinking about the last time you showed up at school, โonly when thereโs an exam we need to takeโ
โmaybe sheโs just having a busy schedule,โ sunghoon shrugged, โyouโre barely online when you have a tight scheduleโ
โrightโ jungwon nodded, โbut i wonder if sheโs doing wellโ he sighed and closed his phone.
the past days has been awful to you. you slowly felt yourself vanishing, like a lifeless soul walking around.
your groupmates always looks after you worriedly, youโd barely even talk to anyone.
โy/n what about eating something?โ your leader asked you, โno iโm okay, i ate just a few minutes agoโ you smiled.
that was a total lie, you simply didnโt feel like eating lately.
slowly but surely you stared at your phone, five minutes wonโt hurt, right?
wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค : 12:57PM havenโt been active lately and i miss being here and interacting with you jungwon! i donโt think iโll be able to be active again so iโm here to say that you should take good care of yourself, eat your meals in time and rest when you need to.๐ค your health always comes first!!
you sighed and turned off your phone.
jungwon, who was busy staring at his phone and waiting for a new update suddenly jumped in his chair.
โfinallyโ
โณ ์ฌ์๋ ํ๋ณด์บฃ replied to wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค: im sorry to hear that, is everything okay?
โณ ์ฌ์๋ ํ๋ณด์บฃ replied to wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค: iโll make sure to take care of myself as long as you take care of yourself too ๐ค
he replied immediately, as if heโs the one getting a notification from you each time you post somethingโwhen itโs supposed to be the opposite.
โjungwon weโve recently found out that youโre suffering from that illness,โ niki pat jungwonโs head,
โwhat is it?โ
โthe โweverse crushโ illnessโ niki laughed and jungwon sighed.
โyou canโt stop refreshing the page to see a new post from her!โ jay claimed, โand youโre replying so fast whenever she does post somethingโ jake added.
โyou should just get her phone number and text herโ heeseung shrugged.
โbut im not sure itโs herโ jungwon turned off his phone.
โall clues points at her, itโs worth a shotโ sunghoon nodded.
the next day you were forced to go back to school, your school principal complained about the fact that youโve been missing most of your classes and nearly failing in all of them.
so itโs settled, youโll be going to school for a month sharp, without any useless inconveniences.
first day of school after a while of not being there felt like a nightmare.
you looked at the school building with horror, yet, you felt a bit excited to see jungwon again.
you took your usual seat, put your earphones in and listened to your favorite song.
when jungwon entered the class, he was surprised to see you sitting there and staring at one point of the class.
he knocked on your desk and you zoomed out, โoh, heyโ you smiled weakly.
something definitely happened while you were gone, โhey, itโs good to see you againโ
the teacher entered the class right away and jungwon ran to his seat.
at lunch, you stayed in your desk, excusing yourself from your friends and going back to your books to read and study.
jungwon frowned, he has to do something about it.
he went to the cafeteria and got your favorite snack, he knows itโs your favorite, he remembers.
you were so focused on your study book to notice jungwonโs figure next to you.
โknock knock?โ he questioned and you looked at him, making eye contact for a few seconds before looking away.
โhey againโ you closed your book and focused on him.
โi got it for youโ he handed you your favorite snack with a wide grin on his face.
โthank youโ
silence. it was so quiet that you could even hear the birds outside.
โis everything okay?โ he suddenly asked.
โhuh?โ
โoh yes, everythingโs amazingโ you smiled.
โwe both know youโre lyingโ
turns out you were a bad liar after all.
โiโm not going to force you to speak,โ he pat your shoulder, โbut iโm here for youโ
those words, were enough to break you down.
you felt comfort around him, you felt everything you feel around someone youโre in love with, you felt warm, welcomed and understood.
so you told him everything, from A to Z.
jungwon is known as his groupโs no.1 comforter, and heโs now your personal no.1 comforter as well.
he knew the exact words to say to you and how to make you feel better.
right when you finished crying he told you a joke, and now you were shedding tears out of laughter.
โthank youโ you looked at him with comfort.
โanytimeโ he chuckled and stole your snack, โyouโre not crying anymore so iโll just take that and save it for myselfโ
you rolled your eyes and kept messing around until it was time for another class.
wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค : 8:30PM i had the best day ever today! i saw my favorite person ever at school today, after a long time i havenโt been able to see him! i also cried in front of him (was so embarrassing) but he comforted me so well, i think iโm falling in love all over again.
โณ ์ฌ์๋ ํ๋ณด์บฃ replied to wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค: see!! lunch time can be so fun when youโre with a person you like too!!
โณ ์ฌ์๋ ํ๋ณด์บฃ replied to wonieโs bff (REAL!)๐ค: i hope youโll be able to spend more time together in the future!!
โhe definitely knowsโ you freaked out.
โeven if he does,โ your leader clapped, โwhatโs so wrong about it?โ
โwhat if he doesnโt like me back?โ
โhe doesโ
โhow do you know that?โ
โbecause i just do!โ she sighed, โotherwise he wouldnโt reply to you so instantly as if he waits for your posts every dayโ
โyouโre rightโ you nodded.
โbut what if he does it just so he could laugh at me with his members?โ
โnot a chanceโ she groaned, โstop overthinking so much and just talk to him about it!โ
โso um,โ the next day, you dragged jungwon out of the classroom as soon as he entered.
you had to talk about it before the rest of the day continues.
โyou have weverse rightโฆ?โ you suddenly asked, โoh my god that was so stupid of me of course you do youโre an idol andโโ
โi know itโs youโ he cut you off.
โwhat?โ
โisnโt that what you wanted to ask me?โ he tilt his head, โi know itโs youโ he repeated.
โand,โ you wanted to continue but couldnโt find the words.
โi like you tooโ he suddenly confessed.
โwhaโโ
you were about to respond but he cut you off with a peck on your lips, โi said i like you tooโ
you looked at him, making eye contact for a few good minutes, both of your cheeks are now as red as a tomato,
and as you looked at his pretty face, you could notice how red his ears became.
โfor how long?โ you asked,
โever since we started talkingโ he smiled, โyour pretty smile, your beautiful eyes and breathtaking smile, everything about you just made me think about you all dayโ
โthen whyโโ โi couldnโt talk to you after you debuted, i was so scared it might hurt your image, and i couldnโt always find the right words to talk to you,โ he looked down,
โi didnโt want to look like a loser in front of youโ he kicked the air like a little child.
โjungwonโ you smiled, โlooking like a loser isnโt something to be ashamed ofโ you giggled.
โi like you, in any form or any shape or whatever!โ you joked and hugged him tightly.
โwould you like to go on a date with me today right after school?โ he suddenly asked.
โso bold of youโ you teased, pecking the tip of his nose, โbut yes, iโd love to go on a date with youโ
โcan i finally call you mine?โ he held your hand.
โof courseโ you pecked his lips,
โdonโt get confused when youโre replying to me on weverse!โ
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GUESS WHO?
โ.๏ฝก.:* as an idol, you have a myriad of responsibilities. among these are maintaining a good image and pleasing the fans, having a stan twt acc? maybe not so much. not that you and sunoo are admitting to anything. then again, you donโt exactly expect to find each other as fan accs undercover and you equally donโt expect to start catching feelings.
pairing: kim sunoo x f!reader
tags: idol!au, fluff
warnings: out of pocket jokes, me being unfunny
status: COMPLETED
taglist: open! (send an ask to be added)
featuring: gp999 contestants, tbh a variety of idols
INTRODUCTIONS: profile 1 / profile 2 / profile 3
01 โ mamapiyaya
02 โ dm me asap baby
03 โ bean sprout eater
04 โ like from the boyz?!
05 โ LET ME IN!!!!
06 โ student life, right? ๐๐๐
07 โ sunwoo first loss
08 โ what about sunsun
09 โ naevis im coming up
10 โ jungwon the human
11 โ pack it up dr otto octavius
12 โ ask greg for more details
13 โ YN SAVE ME !!!!!
14 โ i donโt fuck w demons
15 โ whoโs gonna tell him ๐ง
16 โ stayc girls itโs going down
17 โ thatโs enough promotion
18 โ dear sputnik
19 โ cray cray crazy in love
20 โ best of both worlds
21 โ OH OKAYโฆ OH OK
22 โ dont let sunghoon near ur phone
23 โ pathological liar activated
24 โ wrong number? damn fr? 1.4k words
25 โ i am thinking โฆ but i am delusional
26 โ soft hours????
27 โ channeling my inner riki
28 โ the โohโ moment
29 โ prepare the salt
30 โ expensive siblings my ass
31 โ ta~da, music bank!
32 โ you look like a titan 1.2k words
33 โ whereโs the electric chair
34 โ our lovesick boy
35 โ soft hours again
36 โ run away with me
37 โ avengers infinity war crossover
38 โ stop ignoring me
39 โ the moon is beautiful, isnโt it? 0.6k words
40 โ mr bubbles
41 โ breaking news!
42 โ hello kim sunoo
43 โ little pogchamp?
44 โ that spider-man meme
45 โ if 9 is nine
46 โ WAIT WRONG ACC
special chapter โ gossip within the idol community
chasinโ your pretty thoughts
PAIRING โ Yang Jungwon x Fem!Reader
synopsis: letโs get one thing clear, Jungwon wasnโt a superhero. So what if he woke up one day with the ability to read minds? His lifestyle didnโt need to go through a drastic change. Needless to say, he went on with his life, carrying the weight of responsibility that came with the whole โhaving ESP ordealโ. But it wasnโt until his 18th birthday where his life took a new turn once letting his barriers slip and he found himself lost in your thoughtsโyour thoughts that revolved around him and maybe, just maybe he finds the quiet daydreamer (you) and the inner workings of her mind intriguing.
(alternatively: in which Yang Jungwon can read minds and he finds himself slowly falling in love with Y/N, an avid daydreamer, through her thoughts that strangely enough were full of him).
GENRE โ one-shot, highschool AU, strangers to friends to lovers, fluff, kind of a character study, a smidge of angst.
WARNING(S) โ profanity, mentions of death but like from embarrassment
WORD COUNT โ 22.9K
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CUPIDโS CONFLICT โ yang jungwon
synopsis. as the man behind cupid's corner, jungwon is responsible for getting majority of the couples at decelis together (namely, riki and his girlfriend.) but there's one person that always gets in the way of half of the couples that jungwon sets up together โ you. you are the polar opposite of yang jungwon, affectionately called "evil cupid" by your friends, as you have the unfortunate ability to break any couple up within a couple of weeks just by taking a picture with them. it's not intentional, you tell jungwon. what's also not intentional, is when jungwon finds himself crushing on you.
pairing. non-idol! jungwon x fem! reader
genre. smau, humour, fluff, slight angst, (onesided) enemies to lovers
warnings. swearing, the y/n in this smau is not the same as cupid's corner y/n, jungwon's a little goofy
status. complete
author's note. well here it is !!! 2/3 of cupid's chronicles and the first spinoff of cupids corner. here we have cupid himself getting his own time to shine ^_^ is this inspired by rosรฉ taking pics w celebs and then those celebs somehow break up w their s/oโs weeks or months later ??? yes!!!!
PROFILES โ cupid's minions / sport lovers / evil cupid's fans
ONE โ im CURSED!!!! TWO โ evil cupid strikes again THREE โ whats after life FOUR โ NICHOLAS???? FIVE โ jang wonyoung saves the day SIX โ We Broke Up (18:30) SEVEN โ angry furry EIGHT โ i see whats happening NINE โ that's enough hyungyeom! TEN โ they're single ELEVEN โ bros in love TWELVE โ wooden block THIRTEEN โ wonwonwonwonwon FOURTEEN โ i have prayed for this. FIFTEEN โ let's see where this goes SIXTEEN โ gunwook and eunchae best cupids SEVENTEEN โ this is jungwon, he's? EIGHTEEN โ who's he? NINETEEN โ don't be a douchehole! TWENTY โ the curse TWENTY ONE โ don't you dare say a word TWENTY TWO โ ur a lie guy TWENTY THREE โ 100 bucks? TWENTY FOUR โ sorry for being a douchehole TWENTY FIVE โ eumppappa = cupid TWENTY SIX โ lizโs secret admirer TWENTY SEVEN โ iโm retiring! TWENTY EIGHT โ the schemes of eunwook TWENTY NINE โ human form of the 100 emoji THIRTY โ uncursed
CUPIDโS CONFLICT โ yang jungwon
synopsis. as the man behind cupid's corner, jungwon is responsible for getting majority of the couples at decelis together (namely, riki and his girlfriend.) but there's one person that always gets in the way of half of the couples that jungwon sets up together โ you. you are the polar opposite of yang jungwon, affectionately called "evil cupid" by your friends, as you have the unfortunate ability to break any couple up within a couple of weeks just by taking a picture with them. it's not intentional, you tell jungwon. what's also not intentional, is when jungwon finds himself crushing on you.
pairing. non-idol! jungwon x fem! reader
genre. smau, humour, fluff, slight angst, (onesided) enemies to lovers
warnings. swearing, the y/n in this smau is not the same as cupid's corner y/n, jungwon's a little goofy
status. complete
author's note. well here it is !!! 2/3 of cupid's chronicles and the first spinoff of cupids corner. here we have cupid himself getting his own time to shine ^_^ is this inspired by rosรฉ taking pics w celebs and then those celebs somehow break up w their s/oโs weeks or months later ??? yes!!!!
PROFILES โ cupid's minions / sport lovers / evil cupid's fans
ONE โ im CURSED!!!! TWO โ evil cupid strikes again THREE โ whats after life FOUR โ NICHOLAS???? FIVE โ jang wonyoung saves the day SIX โ We Broke Up (18:30) SEVEN โ angry furry EIGHT โ i see whats happening NINE โ that's enough hyungyeom! TEN โ they're single ELEVEN โ bros in love TWELVE โ wooden block THIRTEEN โ wonwonwonwonwon FOURTEEN โ i have prayed for this. FIFTEEN โ let's see where this goes SIXTEEN โ gunwook and eunchae best cupids SEVENTEEN โ this is jungwon, he's? EIGHTEEN โ who's he? NINETEEN โ don't be a douchehole! TWENTY โ the curse TWENTY ONE โ don't you dare say a word TWENTY TWO โ ur a lie guy TWENTY THREE โ 100 bucks? TWENTY FOUR โ sorry for being a douchehole TWENTY FIVE โ eumppappa = cupid TWENTY SIX โ lizโs secret admirer TWENTY SEVEN โ iโm retiring! TWENTY EIGHT โ the schemes of eunwook TWENTY NINE โ human form of the 100 emoji THIRTY โ uncursed
๐๐ง๐ก๐ฒ๐ฉ๐๐ง ๐ญ๐๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฌ: ๐๐๐!
๐๐ก๐๐ข๐ซ ๐ซ๐๐๐๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ญ๐๐ฑ๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ข๐ซ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ง๐๐ฌ ๐๐ซ๐จ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐ฒ ๐ฌ๐ก๐๐ซ๐ค ๐ฆ๐จ๐ฏ๐ข๐
๐ซ๐๐ช๐ฎ๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐: ๐ง๐๐ฎ๐ซ
๐ ๐๐ง๐ซ๐: ๐๐ฅ๐ฎ๐๐, ๐๐ซ๐๐๐ค, ๐ ๐๐ข๐ญ ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ ๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ๐ ๐จ๐ง ๐ฃ๐๐ฒ๐ฌ ๐ฉ๐๐ซ๐ญ
๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ซ๐ข๐ง๐ : ๐ข๐๐จ๐ฅ ๐๐จ๐ฒ๐๐ซ๐ข๐๐ง๐!๐๐ง๐ก๐ฒ๐ฉ๐๐ง ๐ฑ ๐๐๐ฆ!๐ซ๐๐๐๐๐ซ
๐ฐ๐๐ซ๐ง๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฌ: ๐๐ฎ๐ซ๐ฌ๐ข๐ง๐ , ๐ฌ๐ฆ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ข๐๐๐ ๐จ๐ ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ ๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ๐๐ง๐๐ฌ๐ฌ
i thought of this idea like last week and forgot about it but i checked my notes app and boom, i remembered it, so i thought why not just make these texts and finally post something ๐ค SOO HERE YOU GO BABES, ENJOY! ALSO, REQUESTS ARE OPEN FOR ANY ENHA TEXTS! SO SEND ANY IDEAS YOU MIGHT HAVE!!๐
(btw, i know niki and the other members have a few more lines but i couldnโt remember what they were and rushed to finish his (nikiโs) since they were the last ones๐ญ)
