project GalaxyUnique

honestly? this is just me dumping my thoughts onto a platform nobody knows me on.

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Every time I read Kip I have to laugh, because his name literally translates to chicken in Dutch.

Can you imagine a dutchie hearing his name and going "you are chicken??" I just can't.

My brain went error syntax first time I heard it

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desparately searching for an AO3 fic

could anybody please help me find a fanfiction?

It is set in the Pride and Prejudice fandom, in the original timeline when Lydia Bennet is running away with George Wickham. During their travels Lydia realizes she has made a mistake and runs away from the inn they are resting in with the help of a woman/girl servant who works there. She travels on her own to her aunt and uncle. At the same time mr. Bennet and either Mary or Kitty(although I really think it was Mary) go together to find Lydia and along the way learn that Lydia has left Wickham and is traveling alone. They follow her to their aunt and uncles and find her there.

It had changing POV's. And I don't remember if it was completed or not

I have tried looking for it with tags including: George Wickham, Lydia Bennet, Mary Bennet, Mr. Bennet. and tags excluding: alternate universe - modern setting. together with no crossover and english as language.

If anybody knows it, or has suggestions for finding it I would really appreciate it!

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Sometimes I am just admiring the versatility of pixels and how it is probably the most useful in all types of art. Pixels are used in beading, cross-stitch, knitting patterns and probably other types of handcrafts that I am not familiar with. So pixels are a transdisciplinary art form.

Also pixel art is, in my opnion, relatively easy to make. You only need some understanding of how forms and shapes work and you can go at it! Of course pixels can be limiting but the size of your work/pixels can be changed to your desire and determines how pixelated your art becomes, so really it is how much you are limiting yourself.

I really admire the work of Brandon James Greer, he makes awesome pixel art and has great explanation on pixel art and how he works on his youtube channel. He really opened my eyes to the use pixels and started to make me think about how pixels can be used in different ways/things.

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Time stress me out.

Just knowing that I only have 24 hours a day of which I spent more than half in bed or lazing around. Every day have homework to do and projects I need to keep in mind so I don't spend all my energy in homework and then there is also hygiene and eating 3 meals a day and traveling from one place to another. How the hell am I supposed to not stress when time keeps telling me another hour has past and I haven't spent it usefully....

Sometimes I get so stressed out that I eventually think 'oh enough time has passed and now it wont matter so I will just do nothing today I guess...'

Once in a while I just wish that the concept of time doesn't exist and essay deadlines wouldn't matter anymore and people couldn't say you were late anymore because how would they know? Time doesn't exist.

If only

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Everytime I think about my sexuality I draw a blank. I don't think I'm straight but I am also not gay. Bisexual could work but makes me uncomfortable, as do other labels. I played with the term Asexual a little (just in my head) and it got closer but I didn't feel like it accurately describes my feelings.

So I think I am just going with no label. Maybe I'll return to it later, but I honestly couldn't really care about my sexuality. My goal is just to find a significant other that I can share my life with and be intimate with if I want. And this may be a man or a woman or may be neither bit I will find out when I meet them.

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romy and michele's high school reunion

Okay, I just have to get this out there. I just watched Romy and Michele's high school reunion and I don't know if this was already a thing back then, but by god Romy and Michele should be gay for each other. They've lived together for ten years, their beds are next to each other and they do everything together. I get that they are supposed to be straight and BFF's but let's be honest. It would've been so much better if they ended up together at the end.

Like after they made up and pegged those mean girls to the ground, they could've danced together and then realized that they love dancing together (I mean they already danced together with Sandy which was so weird, was it supposed to be an interpretive dance?) and then also that maybe Romy could've said something like 'maybe I wouldn't be so disgusted by sex with a woman if it was you.' and then Michele would've been all smiley like usual and went 'okay!' and then they just left together.

Especially in the end scene where they are behind the counter of their own shop and Romy went 'You know what Michele, I think you are, like, the funnest person I know.' and that could've been like the confession to Michele and then they actually started dating....

Just FYI tonight was the first time I've seen it and I don't know anybody that has seen this movie (or I've at least not known that they watched this movie) and I don't know how people generally interpret this movie and the relationship between these girls.

(Also loved the Lisa character, good for her that she went her own way and supported Romy and Michele when Christie tried to give a comeback. I screamed 'YES GO GIRL!'. Love people finally standing up for themselves.)

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Lately I've been wondering why I have a hard time studying. Because I like learning about new things but I don't like studying for tests.

And I think it has to do with the fact that when you are learning something new it is okay if you don't remember because 'Hey, you discovered this just a second ago!'

But with studying I start feeling incompetent when I don't remember things because 'Hey, you should know this now, I can't believe you don't remember this!' And then I dread trying over and over to remember that thing I need to know for the test...

Now I just need to know how to turn that voice off and turn it into something that will positively impact my studying. Any suggestions? Could really use some help

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NEVER AGAIN AM I

going to go to that f*cking hairdresser!

So, I decided that I needed a haircut to get my hair back into the shape that I like it. And I don't really have a preference for who cuts my hair. And usually that goes just fine.

BUT THIS LADY! She was so opinionated and just kept asking questions about me.

A little bit background: I don't really like talking at the hairdresser, I don't mind it but I'd rather just sit in silence and get my hair done. Also I stopped using shampoo and conditioner a couple years ago, because I was so frustrated with my hair and I don't like showering (Don't worry I do shower and take care of my hygiene I'm just not fond of doing it) and I honestly stopped trying to find the right shampoo for me because I kept getting disappointed.

And this lady when she started washing my hair and she first asked: 'When is the last time you washed your hair?' and yeah it had been a couple days but she said it like I came in with mud in my hair or something. Then she kept asking more questions about what I do with my hair and I honestly got a little mad she kept saying 'you should use shampoo... If you want to ofc' or something similar. for her last resort she said 'you could also use a shampoobar'.

In my head I just went 'If you could just shut up and keep the suggestions to yourself.'

And then we got to the cutting. And she was so rough. She just went in their like she didn't have the time and wanted me gone. She also kept pulling the hair in my face like my eyes don't matter and scrunched the hell out of hair (I do have curly hair but that's is so not the way to scrunch it). At the end I just kept a straight face, no polite smiling and got the hell out of their I honestly didn't even care how my hair looked at the end.

So now I do have a preference: ANYONE BUT THAT WOMAN!

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fucking nosebleeds, man

I am no stranger to nosebleeds, I've had them since I was a little kid. Luckily it is not the whole year round, just mostly when seasons are changing to summer or winter.

the past two weeks I've had five. two on the first monday and then one on the second friday and two the second satuday (which is today).

Why must I suffer like this? They always drain me of energy and my back/legs don't like me because I have to stand over the sink to not let the blood get everywhere.

And they are probably part of seasons changing but also part of the stress of uni. Uni's been biting me in the ass lately and honestly I am terrified of failing the semester (even though I have to only pass one class to pass the BSA and a couple other for credits)

I just hope I won't get one tomorrow, because I have work and I work at a webshop, so it would be very inconvient if i accidentally shipped my blood with someones order.... Did someone order one cup of blood?

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tasks

Sometimes when I have to do things that really matter or get graded, I get so anxious about the possibility of failing that I’ll unintentionally procrastonate and start way too late. Which results in me having massive anxiety or panic about. 

I try to always focus on getting things done, just finishing the task, instead of thinking about the result. It sometimes helps, so that I can think clearly and do it with a relaxed state of mind. 

It doesn’t always work though and then I go to sleep anxious when I still haven’t gotten to the point in task where I wanted to be that day. 

I work on this struggle every day and sometimes it ends in victory but most of the time it still feels like I am failing and that upsets me. 

The goal: Trying to finish tasks with the planning I had in mind and if I don’t get the result I wanted I’ll still know I actually finished it, which is reward enough.

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Sleepy thoughts keeping me awake

Not being able to fall asleep at a time I want to is getting increasingly more frustrating. "Why?" Do you ask. I answer with a tired sigh "Because I don't feel like I've done enough."

"Then just do stuff," you say

"Well I don't want to."

"So don't do them."

"But I know I need to do them and if I don't do them I feel guilty for not doing it"

"Why do you need to do them?"

"Because I've told people about the stuff I wanna do and I don't want to disappoint them by telling them I didn't end up doing it."

"What if you just don't tell them?"

"I do, but sometimes I still feel responsible because I have the materials and the time to do them and then I just don't. Do them."

"And then you feel guilty for not doing them, hence you thinking about it and not being able to sleep at the end of the day. Right?"

I nod solemnly "Right."

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What the fuck is happening?!

I am lying here in the dark in bed and suddenly there's an army of children counting outside...

Are they going to storm my house or something???

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Quarantine is finally hitting me

It is almost going to be a year now, since my country has gone into quarantine. And until a couple weeks ago i was studying at uni (online mind you). But then i didn't have enough credits so i had to stop studying and try again next september. And then my friendgroup just fell into shambles.

My friendgroup consisted of 7 people (myself included). One left the group chat because she wanted to focus on studying and needed the space on her phone for that so that was her explanation for leaving. Then two others got into an argument about J.K Rowling because one really loves the HP series and wants to share that with the rest but the other is trans and hates J.K. Rowling because she is a transphobe (I'm honestly taking his word for it 'cause I don't know anything about what J.K does I've only ever seen the HP movies and read a lot of fanfiction) and I've tried to mediate but the fight ended with them not wanting to be friends anymore. And then also two other friends apparently fought (at this point the group chat was super quiet so I only found out after they weren't friends anymore) and I don't even know what it was about but one of them also left the chat....

So basically my friends are barely talking to each other and we all lead pretty different lifes and I think I need to make some new friends because of this and I'm only talking to my family at this point.

And then there's also the fact that i have around 6/7 months that I need to fill up. I am currently looking for a job to get some workexperience and maybe not go insane in my bedroom. And i need to keep up the studying (I study or am going to study a language again) to make it easier for myself when i start again.

So I am pretty sure rn my mental health is not at it's best and steadily declining while still pretending to parents that I'm okay although I'm pretty much crying inside.

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bo en

Honestly bo en is a particular mood. his music is just so fucking weird but still super vibin’, it’s crazy. I need to be in a particular mood to be fully able to enjoy his music. 

my favorite song of his is ‘my time’

‘sometimes’ is also a banger.

also the cover of ‘love in a song’ makes you take a second look because what the fuck is that shit. 

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The reasons I like Guy from the movies The Croods and The Croods: a new age.

1.  The way he looks (because heeellloooo did you look at that body and face!?!?)

2. The way he gets soooo excited

3. The way he likes Eep, because that is just love (although still new) I mean Eep is just a very strong woman and beautiful and Guy is just so inventive and likes to discover new things! It’s just an awesome combination!!!

4. HIS VOICE ACTOR IS F*CKING RYAN REYNOLDS!!!! HOW COULD I NOT LIKE HIM!!!!!

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how do you go about getting a boyfriend? 

Because I really want someone I can connect with and share my anxieties with and cuddle with and play games with...

how do you flirt?

How do you meet a guy?

How do you know that ‘hey maybe he is interested in me too’?

Where do I even meet a guy that shares my interests????

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When i was a little kid i would always lean my head on my dad's shoulder at the dinner table when i got tired. I am now in university and am preparing for exams and leaned on my dad's shoulder again after a reeeeeeaaaaaaallllyyyy long time.

Ans he was just so surprised i was doing that and asked if i was okay. And after i said i was tired he just laid his head on mine.

And i just thought to myself he enjoys this too, i am not just troubling him with my heavy head on his shoulder.

And honestly i really needed my dad's shoulder tonight.