Hate Everything (A/F)
Genre- Angst/Fluff
Summary- After seeing you so happy with another guy, Vernon finally regrets his decision of leaving.
Side Note- Hey y’all sorry for being so inactive!!! :(
That night you had fun, Seonghwa was a nice company. You didn't want to accept it but you had a blast. But you were still not over the man you truly loved, Vernon and you didn't have any clue that he saw you with someone else. Vernon on the other hand was broken, he was not ready to see you move on, not this fast, not when he was madly in love with you still.
Two months have passed by to yours and Vernon's breakup. As days passed by, you have gotten closer to Seonghwa. He was this amazing guy who couldn't fail to make you laugh and provided with everything once Vernon provided you with, yet still you couldn't get yourself to see Seonghwa like you saw Vernon. Your heart was with him, all the time and even though it seemed like you have moved on and with Seonghwa, it really wasn't true and he knew but he cherished your friendship with him and you were now an important friend of his.
One day you and Seonghwa were hanging out at his place where you were admiring all his trophies from all the music shows, he had received. "I have met him, recently." he said grabbing your attention to him. "Him who?" you asked knowing the answer. "Vernon." he replied more to himself. "Oh. He is doing well I heard from Seungkwan. I am happy that he is happy." you said with a smile, hurt visible in your eyes still. "I choose to think otherwise." Seonghwa denied. "What do you mean?" you asked confused. "He looks so...Quiet." he said. "He was always the quiet one." you let out a little laugh. "No, it is visible he isn't doing well, and to me, he appeared a bit hostile as if he knew I knew you." he frowned. "Well he does I guess, I told Seungkwan about you so maybe he passed on the information?" you shrug.
Few weeks later, you decided to meet Seonghwa at the cafe you guys regularly hung out at. To your surprise you saw a familiar face and your heart swell at the sight of him. His eyes met yours as you froze in your place, "Hi!" he came forward and smiled. "Hey!" you smiled back, swallowing the lump that was beginning to form in your throat. "How have you been?" he asked. "I've been better, how about you?" you asked back knowing clearly he was nowhere near fine. "I am great." he lied and you could tell. "Really? You look like you have given up eating or something!" you joked, trying to lighten up the atmosphere. "Well..." he ran his hands through his hair. "I saw your comeback, you were great as always!" you smiled which made him smile. Hearing compliments from you was that one thing he missed, he missed how supportive you were all the time. "Hey you!!!" Seonghwa came in swinging an arm around your shoulder as a frown formed on Vernon's forehead. "Hey!! You are late!" you grinned at Seonghwa and it broke Vernon's heart to see you smile at him like that. He really thought Seungkwan's words were coming true. "Hi!" Seonghwa greeted Vernon with a warm smile while there was a hint of jealousy and hostility towards Seonghwa from Vernon, even though he tried to be as polite as he could. "I'll see you around I guess." you smiled at Vernon walking away with Seonghwa to continue your plans.
Vernon explained everything to his members after he came back to his dorms and with that came tears, rolling down from his cheeks, one after another. "So why exactly did you break up Vernon?" S.coups shook his head. "You might not know but the fans are also questioning these days. They see how sullen you have gotten, it's quite visible." Mingyu pointed. "Vernon-ah, you said you broke up with her because you were distracted...Are you sure you aren't distracted now?" Wonwoo raised an eyebrow. "I feel you are distracted now more than ever, I saw you practice the other day and it was just not you...You made so many mistakes not only that, you even got injured." Minghao frowned. "Now you better move on or you go talk to her hyung!" Dino said, rather firmly. "He is right Vernon because this isn't how anything would work in your life." Seungkwan explained. "Fine, I'll meet her and talk to her. If not taking me back, I can atleast apologise for being such a jerk to her." Vernon nodded, tears still rolling down his cheeks.
It was a weekend and you were lazing around in your house, thoughts filled with only one guy, someone you never seemed to get it out of your head. As you lay on your couch, head half hanging and eyes drooping partially with sleep, your bell rang. "Ah food is here!" your eyes lit up, as a smile was plastered on your face. The smile faded as soon as you opened the door. "Vernon! Oh my god!" you gasped as an embarrassing blush crept up your cheeks. "You could have given me a heads up, so that I could've at least dressed up nice!" you frown letting him in the house. "It is alright, I have seen you like this a lot of time, and without these too!" he laughed as you threw a pillow on his face. "What brings you here though?" you asked. "I...I wanted to see you and talk to you about stuff..." he said as the bell rang again. "You hungry? I ordered some pizza, wanna share?" you asked as he nodded lightly. You set the pizza on the table, pouring the cola in two glasses. It was quiet for a while, all you could hear was the fizz of the drink you had just poured in. You cleared your throat, "You were saying something?" you took a pizza slice and faced Vernon. "I...I haven't been doing good-" he started. "Oh tell me about it, I can see that clear on your face, even Carats noticed it." you shook your head frowning.
"No Y/N! Today I talk, would just listen? And maybe then decide on what you'd wanna do?" he asked with puppy eyes which you could never resist so you nodded in agreement and sat silent. "Y/N, you are the most amazing human on this planet that I have ever came across, when I met you, I knew I couldn't find a better soul than you to spend the rest of my life with. And when I left, I knew I could never find someone like you ever in my life. You were there, always, always supporting me, cheering me on, being the one who took all my stress away, being a positive light on my dark rainy days, you were there always. I always knew you deserved someone better than me. Someone who could give all his time and attention to you, I could never provide you with that and I do know you never complained which made it more clear that you deserved better. So I left, for your good, for my own too. I was guilty for not providing you with everything you deserve, I was guilty so I left. But then I saw you that day, in that restaurant with Seonghwa, laughing. My heart broke at that sight Y/N, I could not describe the piercing pain I felt. I thought I had lose you forever, but here I am to shoot my shot at you again. Here I am to ask for your forgiveness and if possible to take me, a stupid jerk back!" he sighed, his voice breaking at the end.
Tears rolled down from your cheeks, now both of you sat silent again, sobbing. You wiped his tears and looked in his eyes. "Chwe Hansol, I never for once thought you loved me less or made me less happy or-or you ever gave me less time. With you I was always on cloud nine and I bragged to my friends that I have scored such a loving and caring boyfriend not to forget a handsome one too. Every relationship has its ups and downs, Vernon but you talk it out and move forward. Yes you are jerk for making me cry so much but I never stopped thinking about you for once because somewhere I knew it was as hard for you as it was for me, and I am glad Seonghwa's presence brought you back like this-" you laughed, "-But I am here, for you, with you, always. I forgive you and also take you back, because all this time when Seonghwa tried to make me laugh and give me everything you once did, I still couldn't get you out of my head. I knew I loved you way before all this and I know you are the only I have in my heart." you smiled at him as you placed your hand on his cheek, gently wiping his tear away as he rested his face in your hand. "I am so sorry Y/N, I love you!" he said caressing your hand. "I love you too!" you smiled...
