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[h1tmanmode]

hi, my name is bendy!! im a minor.

ive decided no dni because its long and annoying. ill just block you if i dont like you. easy

i try to tag everything so it can be blacklisted, but if you want me to tag something specific, feel free to ask or dm me! no matter how insignificant it is ill do it

if you softblock me and i follow you back pleeease lmk. sometimes i just cant tell if tumblrs being glitchy or not

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[h1tmanmode]

with your stain/benrey post in mind it would be interesting to see gordon and stain's relationship start to chafe at some point in the future... what would happen if the Innocent Guy, the Stray Doggy started to not be like that anymore, developed more of his own agency...

ougghhhhh like............ its so much its so much its Much to think about. stain in my head is like. the Hope metaphor. the susie deltarune of it all and like. thats gotta go down eventually. like theres gonna be a Point you know. and im so excited to see how gordon reacts to it because hes definitely grown in a lot of ways but. right after that conversation with coomer he almost immediately falls right back into the place that hes most comfortable with his roleplays and stuff. so when eventually the npcs gonna start getting weird and realizing like they did last time......... so excited. So freaking excited dude

[hazzahoun]

It's college finals week and all I can do is think about this man and his new dog so here's that

[chthonic2132]

watching hl2vrai and he makes me chuckle and smile

[h1tmanmode]

AWESOME COOL GORDON @ STAIN V. BENREY ANALYSIS

ive seen people talk a lot about how stain is the antithesis of benrey and i totally agree with that. ive seen people say how stain lets himself be open to love and friends and kindness and benrey shuts himself away and thats the main difference which is fire but also

i think a main reason theyre different and maybe one of The reasons why gordon likes stain so much is kind of the difference in how they respond to being controlled??

like okay. a lot of the reason gordon is so freaked out in hl1vr is due to the fact that the npcs are Not Following The Protocol. they brush off everything gordon says and do not act like the standard half life scientists. and i feel like gordon improves on this in some ways towards the end but he kind of keeps this very specific undertone of constantly wanting to be the titular protagonist and leader of the science team even if he tries to not make that be visible

which is why i feel like gordon hates benrey the most. despite benrey being a jerk to him in general, one of the consistent thinks benrey does is break the game and mess with the overall plot. he constantly goes against what gordon wants to do by talking to military men, being behind doors he shouldnt, entering cutscenes hes not supposed to and screwing with the game in general. gordon is very much so a control freak and i feel like benrey changing what Should happen to what he wants to do fucks with gordon on a metaphysical level. he doesnt do what he wants him to. hence why he has such a big resentment towards him

stain on the other hand.......... he is accepting and kind and So nice but a lot of the time he also listens. he leaves with gordon. gordon brings him along, actually INVITES him, instead of being asserted by benrey that he has to be watched over. he tries to listen to gordons lessons the best he can, he gets close to gordon, he doesnt contradict gordon. the closest he gets to going against him is when gordon ponders throwing a fucking BRICK at him 😭😭😭 he acts like a normal person, he screams when attacked, dies for longer periods of time than the others- he is not above the game like benrey is. he is a damsel in distress gordon needs to save and be the hero for, and therefore gordon loves stain because of it. he can show stain the things he wants to show stain. he can teach him. he gets to play the protagonist for a person, like a video game should be. he has the control here. yk????

i do not think gordon thinks this consciously, AND I DO NOT THINK GORDON IS EVIL. I DO NOT THINK HE SUCKS AND IS BAD HE JUST. he very obviously has some problems he is projecting onto stain and i think the comparisons of the stainrey foils vs gordon. is pretty freaking cool. like. gordon is pretty averse to telling his friends in hl1vr that theyre ais in a video game. and even now, he subconsciously favors people who act more like npcs yk. idk. control freak gordon core. video games go hard

[h1tmanmode]

ok genuinely. genuinely who is wayback machining my ass. why has my blog been saved 13 times in the past four years. you scare me. im being Preserved

[copier27]

My insane ramblings

[h1tmanmode]

official decree: stain is transmasc because he is a dog and there is something to be said about the overlap in trans men and dogboys . true stainheads know

[h1tmanmode]

putting this out here bc i havent seen anyone do it yet but i think this is pretty decent proof for the addi hivemind theory? i mean i first saw this on yt before i even saw the idea and gathered that from mike saying this. this is from mikes taking about hl2vr stream btw, after act 1

[gormlessgod]

Tell him he’s contributing to the team right now right now.

[gormlessgod]

Dude can you back up

[kendranotreally]

posted this on youtube the other day but im simply so enchanted by my beautiful additional voices i can't stop thinking about him. i hope addi shows up 100 times just to check in and say he'll meet up with everyone again later.

[kittehscribbles34]

i want u in the ground!

[trancegnder]

they can be anything you need them to be its ok dont even worry about it

[trancegnder]

this person gets it☝️

[h1tmanmode]

no because genuinely why does he gaf so much .

[h1tmanmode]

ok

this fuckass image from pinterest would not leave my head during the stream so i had to make it real .

[spaceistheplaceart]

various gordons, stains, and one xar...