metaphorical suicide enthusiast

she/her • ao3: zweimam

[graveyardmouth]

there should be a hug button where you can tell your mutuals its going to be okay instead of liking their vent post and hoping they realize ur not agreeing that they should die

[little-smartass]

if we’ve ever created an AU together I want you to know that I still love it and I still love you

[habitina]

changing my pfp to kit for pride month was easily the best decision ever

[sermna]

For all the happiness you wish for someone, someone else gets cursed with equal misery. That's how it works for Magical Girls, and that's how it is for me. I was so stupid, so stupid.

I was waiting to make a compilation until I made a Kyoko piece but. Lord knows when that will happen. So here 🫶

[dworkinism]

the world is my cuck chair

[unalivejournal]

But does anypony notice but does anypony care

[loveridden1999]

problematic sudoku solving skills gap

[featuringmarkhoppus]

[thehorniestaroace]

Kitty interviev no questions were answered @robs-your-robins

[strangerconnection]

you know, i don't remember

[drawnsnake]

I cried watching Project Hail Mary btw

[poppy5991]

[riverlarking]

i love clicking on somebody’s ao3 profile and seeing the most nonsensical collection of fandoms. like yess let's live a thousand lifetimes

[emerdoodls]

arbitrarily gave the new gen world 11 face tats and locked them in college sports torture prison bc of the mafia or smth

[emerdoodls]

reblogging my own post bc your tags made me want to talk about this so hi!

there's only like a few people who like both bllk and aftg but boy am i relieved nobody's trying to kill me w a hammer for bunny being a backliner 😭 he's so annoying he would have fun w it (maybe?)

i had to have ness there!! he and kaiser are frequently bought together do not separate!! charles is supposed to be there too but uhhh i ran out of space 💔

um anyways here's my rambles about the basics for anyone who cares:

exy was invented by noa and ego and then their situationship break up happens so ego goes back to japan but that's not actually that important i just need everyone to know that in any au i make noaego had a weird situationship

ego goes back to japan to start spreading exy around there and to try and start building it into a more popular sport

he has like dubious amounts of success but it's still popular enough that they have a national team and at least two professional club teams or something -> basically it's not super popular but it's accessible enough that a good chunk of high schools have teams.

noa on the other hand goes and pulls whatever strings tetsuji did to be coach at an american university and have the best collegiate exy team in the world

the yakuza/mob are still present but it's like multiple bc there would be no reason for noa to be part of the yakuza sooo?? ray dark is also involved in this bc. new gen 11. duh.

anyways time skip!

loki and hugo and charles are all in the nest first bc they're french like noa no i did not think this through bc if i had kaiser probably would have been number 1 for canon-related reasons oops

idk what the itoshi parents did to owe money to the mob but they sure owed a lot of it, so instead of spain, sae got sent off to america to play stickball and be forced to have a career and give away so much of his money to the mob 💔 he #gotjeanmoreau'd

kaiser bunny and lorenzo all got found by ray dark and sent off to college sports torture prison a little after sae in that order, so lorenzo was the last one to show up

the nest is still horrendously violent and awful so they're all a little codependent even though they kind of hate each other (predictably bc that's what happens when you lock a bunch of middle schoolers in stickball torture prison for YEARS)

in 2018 anri comes up with blue lock in the hopes it will make exy very popular and japan can actually win something at the summer olympics in 2020 and hires ego to make it happen

it's a smaller group at the beginning so blue lock goes quicker

kunigami gets sent to the nest for wild card btw. that's important

otherwise blue lock has a version of the NEL and then post-NEL the remaining players get sent off to train with a mix of professional or collegiate teams depending on what ego thinks they need to do better on

that's what i've got feel free to tell me if it makes zero sense bc uh it might only make sense to me

[emerdoodls]

it was supposed to still be a striker but lowkey with how exy is working out in japan in this universe maybe he went in with the intention of a striker and ended up with a whole team kind of like how blue lock ended up in canon, if that makes sense??

[emerdoodls]

arbitrarily gave the new gen world 11 face tats and locked them in college sports torture prison bc of the mafia or smth

[emerdoodls]

reblogging my own post bc your tags made me want to talk about this so hi!

there's only like a few people who like both bllk and aftg but boy am i relieved nobody's trying to kill me w a hammer for bunny being a backliner 😭 he's so annoying he would have fun w it (maybe?)

i had to have ness there!! he and kaiser are frequently bought together do not separate!! charles is supposed to be there too but uhhh i ran out of space 💔

um anyways here's my rambles about the basics for anyone who cares:

exy was invented by noa and ego and then their situationship break up happens so ego goes back to japan but that's not actually that important i just need everyone to know that in any au i make noaego had a weird situationship

ego goes back to japan to start spreading exy around there and to try and start building it into a more popular sport

he has like dubious amounts of success but it's still popular enough that they have a national team and at least two professional club teams or something -> basically it's not super popular but it's accessible enough that a good chunk of high schools have teams.

noa on the other hand goes and pulls whatever strings tetsuji did to be coach at an american university and have the best collegiate exy team in the world

the yakuza/mob are still present but it's like multiple bc there would be no reason for noa to be part of the yakuza sooo?? ray dark is also involved in this bc. new gen 11. duh.

anyways time skip!

loki and hugo and charles are all in the nest first bc they're french like noa no i did not think this through bc if i had kaiser probably would have been number 1 for canon-related reasons oops

idk what the itoshi parents did to owe money to the mob but they sure owed a lot of it, so instead of spain, sae got sent off to america to play stickball and be forced to have a career and give away so much of his money to the mob 💔 he #gotjeanmoreau'd

kaiser bunny and lorenzo all got found by ray dark and sent off to college sports torture prison a little after sae in that order, so lorenzo was the last one to show up

the nest is still horrendously violent and awful so they're all a little codependent even though they kind of hate each other (predictably bc that's what happens when you lock a bunch of middle schoolers in stickball torture prison for YEARS)

in 2018 anri comes up with blue lock in the hopes it will make exy very popular and japan can actually win something at the summer olympics in 2020 and hires ego to make it happen

it's a smaller group at the beginning so blue lock goes quicker

kunigami gets sent to the nest for wild card btw. that's important

otherwise blue lock has a version of the NEL and then post-NEL the remaining players get sent off to train with a mix of professional or collegiate teams depending on what ego thinks they need to do better on

that's what i've got feel free to tell me if it makes zero sense bc uh it might only make sense to me

[emerdoodls]

arbitrarily gave the new gen world 11 face tats and locked them in college sports torture prison bc of the mafia or smth

[faemorrigan]

okay, look. in any situation where damian for whatever bullshit reason has a crush on jon, jay isnt getting jealous or acting like damian is a legitimate threat to his relationship. he is sitting that boy down and gently reminding him that jon doesn't and shouldn't reciprocate because damian is a child, and jon is an adult. he is steering damian gently away from the idea that that would be a desirable or healthy relationship, because jay nakamura is at the end of the day a responsible adult with a well-developed view of the world.

furthermore if jay had ANY indication jon reciprocated, he would shoot jon dead, and it would NOT because he was "jealous".

and since we're on the subject, ill finally come out and say it: i get that those of you who're lucky enough to not have experienced this probably don't realize it, but you guys forget that because of the specific nature of jays backstory, it is overwhelmingly likely (and i could make the argument that this is backed by in-text coding!) that jay is a csa survivor. cmon, now. what do you think happens to children thrown in prison, especially under colonial rule?

[faemorrigan]

okay, look. in any situation where damian for whatever bullshit reason has a crush on jon, jay isnt getting jealous or acting like damian is a legitimate threat to his relationship. he is sitting that boy down and gently reminding him that jon doesn't and shouldn't reciprocate because damian is a child, and jon is an adult. he is steering damian gently away from the idea that that would be a desirable or healthy relationship, because jay nakamura is at the end of the day a responsible adult with a well-developed view of the world.

furthermore if jay had ANY indication jon reciprocated, he would shoot jon dead, and it would NOT because he was "jealous".

and since we're on the subject, ill finally come out and say it: i get that those of you who're lucky enough to not have experienced this probably don't realize it, but you guys forget that because of the specific nature of jays backstory, it is overwhelmingly likely (and i could make the argument that this is backed by in-text coding!) that jay is a csa survivor. cmon, now. what do you think happens to children thrown in prison, especially under colonial rule?