What do you think about Snape tearing Lily's photo in DH ??
he went back to voldemort and was tortured
but severus still managed to convince voldemort that he was loyal
he started attending both order meetings and death eater meetings which meant dealing with hostilities from both sides because neither could fully trust him despite the fact that he had the approval of both dumbledore and voldemort
esp with the black cousins (sirius, bellatrix) being his biggest detractors
he had to make sure he played his part precisely which meant copious use of occlumency, which meant watching people get tortured and killed, which meant making sure he provided each side accurate information without causing much harm to the order
he had to teach harry occlumency which brought to the surface his old traumas- his abusive home and the extreme bullying he endured at school
then harry and his friends almost died in the ministry
then dumbledore put on the ring and as a result, he started slowly dying
severus promised to kill him when the time came
severus then made an unbreakable vow to narcissa to kill dumbledore ensuring that severus could not back out
severus found out that harry had to die in order for voldemort to be defeated. so he can't avenge lily without condemning her son to death
draco grew distant and even hostile while severus tried desperately to prevent draco from following in lucius' footsteps
death eaters attacked the school. severus might not be nice to his students but he didn't like it when they were in physical harm
severus killed dumbledore which permanently cut his ties to order, ensuring that he'll never be a free man
by the time severus got to grimmauld place, he was quite literally out of his mind with grief. a rational snape would have never risked going back to that house but all he wanted was comfort and a reminder that he needed to continue carrying out dumbledore's order and that reminder was lily's picture.
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