Beautiful Chaos

This blog is for my weight loss journey I am 24 and had roux en y also known as gastric bypass on January 28th 2015 HW:400 CW:156 I'm 5 foot 10 Here to help fellow wls friends with anything I can through their journeys 😘

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Every day of loving you teaches me how to truly love myself. Thankyou for showing me true love in a way I have never thought possible ❤

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You are my sunshine, my happiness, the one thing in this world that I am sure of. You love me for who I am and I am so proud to be by your side. Thankyou for loving my body like it is as beautiful as any other. Thankyou for embracing my journey and reminding me how amazing life can be. I love you more than anything in the world and I'm so excited to be your wife 💗 💓 💕

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Engagement pictures 🥰🥰🥰

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Here is the truth about weight loss and change in life in general... even the biggest mountain can be climbed, is possible to do anything you want to do, these things will bring joy to your world if keep fighting for the day you see your dreams become real life. I remember laying in bed at 15 dreaming of the girl I would become some day, and now that I am here I am proud to say she is far more than I expected! Look at me and my journey, become inspired, see yourself and see your journey. You can be successful too. FIGHT FOR SOMETHING BETTER

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Some days i cant help but to wonder if 18 is too young for weight loss surgery. After growing up heavy and then becoming who I am now, I have never learned how to see myself as I am even 5 years down the road. My body is a foreign object to me.... things are not as simple as "just lose the weight" and move on with life. I am on the road to recovery.

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I felt comfortable in my skin today for the first time in ages. I felt beautiful, confident, and happy. Truly happy. That feeling may fade but it's a sign that healing is happening! Cheers to the little moments that make life worth living!!

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This is what recovery looks like. This is what love, faith, joy, and all things good feel like. From 400 pounds to 100. From addict to sober. I've seen all parts of this world and come out the other side stronger, and healthier, than my wildest dreams.

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This is what recovery looks like. This is what love, faith, joy, and all things good feel like. From 400 pounds to 100. From addict to sober. I've seen all parts of this world and come out the other side stronger, and healthier, than my wildest dreams.

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3 years later and I can say i survived you, and your demons. I came out a better person too. The girl I was is gone. I am sober. I am healthy. I am alive. But most importantly I have a future you will never be a part of. I finally feel whole again.

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You are my best friend, my councilor, and the woman who gave me life. Without you I would be so lost in this world. I love you mom ❤

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This weekend was absolutely perfect with you by my side. My best friend and love of my life. ❤

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They said I'd always be fat. They said I'd never succeed. They said I'd never find my sobriety. They said I'd never be loved. Here I am world, take it or leave it. I've beat the things you said would consume me forever. I am healthy and 230 pounds lighter. I've found my calling in life, and I am successful. Im one year sober from drugs. I survived domestic abuse, and now I have my best friend and love of my life by my side. I am no longer a statistic. I am survivor.... Never give up.

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I love myself for every flaw, every imperfection, and everything that makes me unique ❤️

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Yes, my arms are flabby and my tummy hangs, I have scars and marks covering my body from one hell of rough past because I am wonderfully imperfect. This body that I have has stayed true and strong through everything life has thrown at it and everything I have done to it, I have been 400 pounds and I have been 110 pounds, I have eaten everything in sight and nothing at all, I have put drugs pills alcohol and other terrible things into this body and yet it still runs strong. I am proud of my body that hangs and droops, I am proud of every single scar that encapsulates a different event... My body tells a beautiful story...... that is if you look at it in just the right light.