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In this post I wanted to talk about what asexuality might look like in IFs, and the various ways this might be encoded into one’s IFs!
This is NOT a comprehensive post, I am NOT an expert. This is more or less me using my platform to educate where I can.
At the end of this post, and this is very important to me, is a list of resources covering some available information about BIPOC and Asian experiences. I will be talking about a BIPOC character in this post, but my discussion of him will be about implementation and structuring within an IF context! This is not an analysis of BIPOC and Asian asexual experiences nor about how this character acts as representation of these experiences.
If you intend on writing about these experiences, please educate yourself with my references being a jumping off point. I want to highlight these sources because they explicitly are written by BIPOC and Asian authors, and therefore, deserve more of a platform and focus. If you just want to skip to that section, please do!
This following section will be talking about two specific characters in IFs that I have encountered so far in my own playthroughs. I will be tagging the creators as permitted! Just be aware that this is not a critique, this is not an in-depth analysis, this is just pointing to various ideas and concepts associated with the characters that I feel are important to point out!
Unfortunately, I will not be providing a comprehensive list of IF characters that are asexual. One of the following examples is actually not asexual at all, but is written in such a way where I'd like to discuss its relevancy to this post. If anyone has made a list, please reach out! I'd love to tack it on and give you credit.
Oswin - God Cursed
Oswin, created by @wings-of-ink (aka Lunan), is a confirmed Demisexual character who is also BIPOC. It is very rare that we have an explicitly BIPOC asexual in media, let alone a BIPOC asexual man, therefore Oswin is a very wonderful rare character that I am very grateful to see in the IF.
In the story of God Cursed, should you choose his romance, there are a few moments where you get to discuss your MC's experiences with relationships. Whether it be romantic experiences or sexual ones, Lunan provides us a few choices as to how to respond to Oswin's expression of his demisexuality as well as how the MC may express their own sexuality.
There are a good few choices to choose from, including expressing a similar lack of sexual desire as Oswin, to being completely allosexual. Either way, the MC is accepted by Oswin and for their identity. Additionally, Oswin does express in the IF how Oswin’s connection to the MC influences his desire, which I recommend reading the IF to see how that is expressed.
Furthermore there are elements of aromantic identity in their IF! This is quite rare, and honestly is lovely to see. Especially as most IFs assume you may want to have a romance, when hey you just might want to have some casual fun!
Robin - Viatica
Robin, created by @fir-fireweed (aka Fir), is NOT an asexual character. That is completely fine, and is not expressly why I bring up this character in this discussion. Why I bring this character up is due to their complex relationship with sexuality.
In Viatica, there are a lot of complicated feelings around sex expressed by the characters. Within the story sex has become a compulsory act dictated by an abusive higher authority, thus losing its capacity for expressing intimacy and affection. Many of the characters have complex experiences that culminate in a heavy discussion at one point in the IF that makes it worth a read alone (aside from the amazing story that is...); but let's turn the discussion back to Robin.
Robin is the most vocally uncomfortable around the conversation of sex due to their own traumatic experiences. In the IF there is even a scene where the MC may try to initiate intimacy, whether sexual or otherwise, and Robin expresses discomfort. The MC is automatically stopped due to recognition of this discomfort, and they have a good discussion as partners about Robin's stress about sex.
I could go at length about Robin's expression of their sexuality, their discomfort and subsequent trauma about it, but I feel it is more satisfactory to see it for yourself. The arc that Robin goes through, as written by Fir, is very fascinating and while it does culminate in Robin having sex, is a larger critique on how sexuality is perceived in the world of the IF as a whole.
IF Implementation
Now! Would I say the above IFs are perfect reps of asexuality? No, because no one is perfect and these IFs are offering different commentaries on sex and sexuality.
What might that mean for IF authors though?
When implementing asexual characters, you as an author must think about the layers of identity. In Lunan's work, the MC is able to express differing levels of romantic and sexual inclinations. Fir's work, which is admittedly old in comparison, does not have these layers but that isn’t a bad thing.
How most IFs express sexual variations (in a straight forward fashion):
You had no sexual experience and you don't want any.
You had no sexual experience and would like to see how it works.
You had sexual experience and you don't want any sex.
You had sexual experience and you do want to have sex.
Authors can add sub-variations to these expressions like:
You rarely feel sexual attraction to your sexual partners
You need to be close to your sexual partners to feel desire
You have pleasured yourself but have not experienced sexual attraction to another person
These sub-variations add a layer of complexity to the MCs identities, whilst also proposing some variables to keep in mind. Furthermore, this adds asexuality into the narrative and forms a format where intimacy can be expressed in a different manner!
Subtle ways to show asexuality in MC/Characters:
Lets say for example, a Character grabs MC on the waist and squeezes them (this prompt was suggested by a friend, love you friend!). The people talking in this hypothetical can be swapped in terms of who is MC and who is RO.
You feel discomfort rising within you and push their hand away. “What are you doing?”
“I’m testing how you feel. Is that not okay?”
“No, it’s not.”
“Because you need to ask first” (Just asking for general consent)
“Because I know where this might lead, and I’m not into it.” (You can clarify with a note as to what you mean by this, but this can be interpreted as ‘baseline’ asexuality)
“Because I need to know you, and I don’t.” (Potentially demisexual choice or greysexual)
OR
You feel warm at their touch, allowing them to keep their hand where it was.
“Where is this going?” You ask.
“Wherever you want it to go.” RO says.
You want to escalate it further, push their hand where it felt best (Potentially allosexual, but can be interpreted as a sex positive interaction for an asexual)
You didn’t want it to escalate further, the warmth of their hand felt so good in the moment (General consent)
“I don’t want this to be more than… a touch. I like feeling you, I like knowing you want me close, but nothing more.” (Asexual option)
The straight forward variables might look like:
Sex experiences: true/false
Sex want: true/false
Sub-variation variables might look like:
Sexual attraction: true/false
Close Sexual attraction: true/false
Sexual Desire/Personal intimacy: true/false
I hope readers right away might notice this added layer of complexity, and I would like to take it a step further and express that no reader should use this post as reason to judge IF authors for not implementing Ace identities into their works. There is so much complexity in identities, there is no true way to implement everything, and some people just aren't aware of Ace identities. That's okay! Everyone is learning as we go.
But IF authors, there are so few Ace characters out there! Please don't hesitate to add Asexual or Aromantic ROs! Add customization options for MCs! Go forth and increase the scope of your IF, but don't scope creep that's the devil talking.
Black queer organizations: https://www.marieclaire.com/politics/a32827051/black-lgbtq-organizations-groups/
Book on the topic: https://www.acornbookshop.com/products/refusing-compulsory-sexuality-a-black-asexual-lens-on-our-sex-obsessed-culture?variant=53980226453717
Asian Asexuality:
https://www.researchgate.net/publication/388886964_Asexuality_in_Asia_The_Intersection_of_Tradition_Identity_and_Sexual_Diversity (China, Japan, and India)
https://anoaqa.org/about-anoaqa-new/ (Organization focused on Asian asexuality!)
https://lup.lub.lu.se/luur/download?func=downloadFile&recordOId=9202348&fileOId=9202351 (Dissertation on Japanese asexuality!)
https://www.asexualityasia.org/ (This organization is run by southeast Asian individuals, but promises a broad spectrum of covering Asian experiences.)
Indigenous Asexuality:
Guides to general Indigenous sexuality: https://guides.library.ubc.ca/c.php?g=735133&p=5293056
Unfortunately there isn’t much beyond my preliminary research, but that’s okay. I just did a general search, there are loads of people online willing to educate, feel free to seek them out!!!
Book list: https://boatneck-group-cf6.notion.site/aro-ace-books-bcaaaf3d0556465fb9b9135a7fe2952b
Make good choices, and keep queering up spaces. Special thanks to Fir and Lunan for agreeing to be tagged in this post, I apologize for asking anonymously but anxiety is a bitch. Happy pride month!
I'm so serious when I say I did not expect to cry during this episode, especially not because of Leo of all people.
I definitely need to go back and reread the earlier episodes, because I won't lie I usually try to skip over his dialogue whenever I can (I am a Leo hater, I'm sorry. </3) Maybe I've been misinterpreting his character all this time, but I really appreciate how he also doesn't want to see the MC just give up on life.
Also the fact that he didn't even say anything fucked up afterwards either?? Like he said what he needed to say and did not try to backtrack at all; he was dead serious with what he said to MC, and he said what he said for her benefit only. Idk I think this episode endeared him to me a little bit..
Happy pride month! Was encouraged to post this old meme I did last year here!😋🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️💛💜 (brought to you by Pride himself from the amazing VN lost in limbo made by @ravenstargames 🤭)
The constellation of Serpens, the Snake // E. Slawik/NOIRLab/NSF/AURA/M. Zamani
The top is the head of the snake, Serpens Caput, and the bottom is the tail of the snake, Serpens Cauda.
Click below to read some more info about why this constellation is split in two as well as an annotated image!
Serpens, which is Latin for "snake," is one of the original constellations listed by the Greek astronomer Ptolemy in the 2nd century. It is unique, being the only constellation split into two parts: Serpens Caput (Latin for "head of the snake") and Serpens Cauda (Latin for "tail of the snake"). Between these two parts is Ophiuchus, the Snake-Bearer.
These two constellations come from the Greek myth of Asclepius, a healer, represented by Ophiuchus. Asclepius once killed a snake, but it was resurrected after a second snake gave it a revival herb (like in Pokemon!). Asclepius would go around reviving and healing people using the same technique he witnessed.
The named stars in Serpens are, in order of brightness:
Unukalhai (α Serpentis) is an orange giant star in Serpens Caput. It is a solitary star about 74 light years away. The name comes from the Arabic phrase unuq al-ḥayyah meaning "the serpent's neck."
Zhou (β Serpentis) is a binary star system in Serpens Caput. The system lies about 155 light years away, consisting of a blue-white giant and a red dwarf. Its name comes from Chinese astronomy. This part of the sky formed the constellation Tiān Shì Yòu Yuán (天市右垣) meaning "Right Wall of Heavenly Market Enclosure." The star itself had wu appended, indicating it was the fifth star of this constellation, with the common name Zhou, referring to the dynasty.
Gudja (κ Serpentis) is a solitary red giant star in Serpens Caput. It lies about 383 light years away. Its name comes from the Wardaman people in Australia, a name that means "water goanna," a type of lizard found there.
Alya (θ¹ Serpentis) is a binary star system in Serpens Cauda. The system consists of two blue-white giants about 133 light years away. The name comes from the Arabic word alyah meaning "fat tail (of a sheep)."
Alasia (HD 168746) is a Sun-like star about 136 light years away in Serpens Cauda. It has one confirmed exoplanet orbiting it, at least a quarter the mass of Jupiter, named Onasilos. Both names were given by the people of Cyprus: Alasia is an ancient name for Cyprus, while Onasilos is an ancient Cypriot physician.
Kaveh (HD 175541) is a Sun-like star about 427 light years away in Serpens Cauda. It has one confirmed exoplanet orbiting it, at least half the mass of Jupiter, named Kavian. Both names were given by the people of Iran: Kaveh is one of the heroes of the Iranian epic Shahnameh, while Kavian is the name of the banner Kaveh carries into battle.
it's my birthday today & that means i'm legally old enough to get maimed by scary cute monster lesbians. happy pride 🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️I!!!
first try at a riso illust zine, printed by Pizzeria Press and bound by me ❤️ learned a lot.....i already have a bunch of notes on edits to make to improve the second printing lol!!
this started as a series of humanoid monster x human lesbian couples in 2025, and i worked on it on and off until this april :) insp. by someone in a full sweet lolita coord i saw sitting at the bar alone who then disappeared into the night. i wanted some horror elements in these illustrations, but also silly stuff & tropes & playfulness drawn from that original inspo!
picked some favs to preview here. plenty more in the actual zine ^^ background photos taken by me at the wildrose, my sister's room, and a gaming bar in seattle that played tokyo ghoul episodes in full with ads the whole time we were there
thank u if u grabbed a copy at momocon!!!! i'll have more at anime nyc and any future events 🫡
