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auto immune disorders happen when the immune system ignores regulatory factors and begins attacking healthy bodily tissues, due to what scientists refer to as "sheer love of the game"

consumeroflemoans

By the way, I’m going to need everyone that liked Project Hail Mary for Grace in particular to go listen to Wolf 359

#YESSSS I PROMISE YALL WILL LIKE IT ITS PERFECT FOR YOUUUUUUU #project hail mary #phm #wolf 359

chekhovs-raygun

color in the backrooms

so i saw the backrooms yesterday and i spent a couple hours today weeding my garden and chewing over all the bits and one thing i can't get over is when, SPOILERS: clark sticks a carving knife into one of the effigies and says to his therapist, 'can you imagine how good that feels? not to feel anything? not to hurt?'

like yeah man i can imagine. i can imagine how you're a black man in the early-mid 90s and you didn't make it as an architect (how many black men were in your graduating class? how many were in the board rooms of all those firms you didn't get to join?) and you didn't make it as a small business owner (maybe it's not your race, not everything is about race, you can't make it all about race all the time) and you dress so very business casual (you're a businessman but you're casual) and talk so carefully (you're a good man, civilized, polite) and any time you raise your voice everyone around you flinches away and you've been drinking all this time just to get by, just to wind down, just to stay numb, except you're not getting by.

except you got nothing. you wound down. you're hitting bottom.

you paid for a wife and a house and didn't get to keep them. you humiliate yourself doing minstrel shit for a tv commercial and it all just shatters. your whole life has been that broken fucking glass you dropped. getting dropped on your ass by your own fucking chairs, this cheap pasteboard furniture you can't even sell. santa clarita! you thought california would be different. you got a rust belt accent that bleeds through when you're not careful (new york? chicago? philly?) and you thought maybe in california it would be better but what the fuck do you have to show for any of your dreams. a guy like you doesn't get dreams, he gets crap. he gets glass shards and broken legs. a guy like you. a guy like you.

what's the matter with a guy like you? why did you get born this way? wired this way? some guys get california sunshine and you get broken glass. you wanted to be an architect! you wanted to build the world. but the world isn't for guys like you, pasteboard guys (black guys) wired wrong (angry. sad. angry.) the world isn't for guys like you to build.

not the world up there. out there. beyond you. but down here... with what's left. when you're left with what's left.

when you push that knife into some big fat white guy's neck (a fat man, you picked a fat man--but you're not fat, even with the drinking, even with the desk job, you took care of yourself, you took pride in yourself) you push your knife into a guy's neck, and there's nothing. he doesn't care.

god, wouldn't that feel good? all your life you've had that knife pushed into you. one inch, ten inch, a little cut here, a little cut there, one in your neck, one in your heart, one in your balls. one through your spine. life is an endless series of knives, pushed in slow.

god, wouldn't it feel good if that didn't hurt.

#the backrooms #op’s tags >>#she was right at the start: he needed to articulate his anger #she recognized that pain as important #but it wasn't his wife's fault and he was terrible to that woman and she was right to have left him #and he was right that it was just the way he was wired #how do you balance the fact that life isn't any fucking fair #with how you have to play the cards you're dealt?#he was wired wrong #and she was right at the end: you don't have to change you can just lie down and die from how badly mismanaged your shitshow has become #and a white woman can't make up for every wrong ever done a black man

habken

besties

infinityundone

My prediction for the next Benoit Blanc film is that after Marta (accused of a murder, works with Blanc to clear her name), Helen (pretends to be a murdered person to work with Blanc to avenge her sister), and Jud (accused of a murder, keeps trying to confess to it even though he didn't do it and has to be stopped by Blanc), the next in line is going to be someone who is not accused of a murder, but really wants to commit one and Blanc has to continuously talk them out of it while also trying to find a different murderer.

shitpostingkats

Olruggio was having a normal day three hours ago. He was coming home after a long day at work looking forward to seeing his husband best friend and eating a warm dinner. Pat the kids on the head and then go lie down. NO Qifrey says I have obtained another child she's a part of an active criminal investigation and a sign that I am dipping back into my worst destructive behaviors that you thought I'd set down years ago you have to be okay with this right now or else I'll lobotomize myself. Also there's a rat in the living room.

#witch hat atelier

cooltrainersunny

This is basically what happened right

#so I’ve been watching a new show recently…#witch hat atelier

parkayquarts

hbo max blocks screenshots even when I use the snipping tool AND firefox AND ublock which is a fucking first. i will never understand streaming services blocking the ability to take screenshots thats literally free advertising for your show right there. HOW THE HELL IS SOMEBODY GONNA PIRATE YOUR SHOW THROUGH SCREENSHOTS. JACKASS

parkayquarts

somewhere out there is a guy who meticulously takes screenshots of every individual frame of his favorite tv shows and then painstakingly etches each one onto a roll of film which he puts into his old timey projector and recreates the footage as a silent film with his own lavishly hand-lettered dialogue cards and original score that he plays on his upright piano and charges audiences one shiny penny a play. at last, big media has finally outsmarted ol' Zachary Zoetrope

theheroheart

PSA for everyone who doesn't know, explained simply

this is NOT because of blocking screenshots, it's because of HOW streaming sites use your computer's hardware to optimise performance, which means the thing rendering the video and the thing capturing your screen aren't the SAME thing. so they can't talk together.

you can fix this by going to your browser settings, searching for "hardware acceleration", and turning that off.

team-thickness12

This also fixes screen sharing to other screens. It has been GODSEND

lucarleigho

type this in the toolbar to find this setting in firefox: about:preferences#searchResults

mctreeleth

ol' Zachary Zoetrope is back in business!

fizzy-tizzy

Everyone knows the first day of Friend Grace’s class is nickname day. It’s the day when every pebble is on their best behavior to try and make sure they get a cool nickname, something unique that they can brag to their friends and classmates about.

Sometimes, Grace will do it without thinking. That’s how Kiddo and Buddy got their nicknames. Often, Grace will nickname students after their coloration. Gaia got his nickname because he’s blue and green, and apparently looks a lot like Earth. Violet got hers because she’s purple. (She was initially disappointed since color means nothing to Eridians, but then Friend Grace showed them violet flowers and said that humans often associated purple with wealth and royalty, and she changed her tune.) Most of the time, Grace will give his students what he calls “regular human names” like Abby, Carl, or Martin.

But the most coveted nicknames are ones named after Earthen creatures. When ♩♪♬ 🎵 ♩♪♬ 🎵 first introduced themselves, Friend Grace immediately perked up and shouted “Robin!” After a bit of explaining himself and a few videos of bird calls, Robin was trilling and chirping happily, excited at having a nickname that felt like a 1-to-1 translation of their own.

Even well after Friend Grace is gone, his legacy remains. A hundred years into the future, when humankind finally launches a new ship with the express purpose of properly meeting their Eridian neighbors, one of the first messages exchanged is “Hello! My name Robin.”

gooddayisdeath

#yessss yesssssssssssss #I love this sm #psychonauts #psychonauts 2

fidelcostco

WAIT HOLD ON I cannot fucking believe when I was like four years old my parents were cajoling me to walk with the family and trying to get me to keep up even though I kept insisting that I was "tired" until they took me to a doctor and found out my LUNGS DIDN'T WORK. how insane that we live in a world where reasonably loving parents think their FOUR YEAR OLD is trying to be LAZY. like they were mortified to be clear. adults are just so trained to ignore children's complaints as untrustworthy, kids just need discipline, they can't possibly speak for themselves. what the fuuuuck.

fidelcostco

YOU ARE NOT IMMUNE BTW you should always be trying to take children seriously, especially very little ones but definitely all of them. the most disempowered class basically legally defined as property and most people are like "yeah that's good actually I hate when they Loiter lol they're stupid and loud and i actually think children should stop existing. restrict their personhood more actually"

beka-tiddalik

I think also it pays as a parent to remember that whatever is bothering them might be expressed as a silly thing but still be a more serious thing.

My daughter as a 2.5 year old used to throw a tantrum every time we tried to get her to sit on the "wrong" side of the couch to watch TV. It made no sense, she couldn't explain what was the problem, it wasn't worth the argument so I usually let her be without thinking more deeply about it.

So anyway at her 3yo health screening it turned out she was basically cortically blind in one eye. For whatever reason she had trained her brain to not read the input from that one eye... which was why she had a preferred side of the couch, because she'd put her bad eye towards the wall and her good eye towards the TV and the rest of the room.

Nothing that couldn't be fixed by wearing glasses, thankfully, thank you free mandatory 3 year old health screenings in my country, qualified thank you expensive optometrists. Without the screening there's every possibility we would have missed that completely until she was in school because she didn't have the language to express what was up.

But yeah just goes to show: sometimes with kids a recurring lowstakes problem is actually the only obvious sign you'll get of a high stakes one that is more fixable the earlier you catch it.

#I only recently realized that my lungs and chest aching during a normal walk #to the point I would curl my fingers under my ribs and pop them and they are STILL disfigured to this day #was maybe not normal #and I should have told an adult that that shit HURT #but nah I was just a lazy kid who couldn’t suck it up ig