A-Spec awareness week is almost over but I finally finished my contribution to it!
TW: Implied Self Harm, Parents having a bad relationship with each other (???)
I just made my first friend in kindergarten
we both liked the big slide on the playground
and we found out that we both love knights and dragons
“You guys would be such a cute couple.”
I started school a year earlier than I should
I was the youngest in my class and everybody was so proud
the first day is the most exciting thing that ever happened to me
I wanted to show everyone what I’ve already learned
“Are there any cute boys in your class?”
we are finally old enough to go on our first big school trip
the goodbye from my parents isn’t easy but the excitement is bigger
I even got a room with all of my best friends
I had so many cool games we could try together
“Why don’t we sneak out to see the boys?”
I have seen my parents scream at each other more times than I’ve seen them kiss
they live together but sometimes they go days without talking
whatever connected them years ago is long gone
maybe they stay together for me and my brother
maybe it’s because of their screwed sense of loyalty
“One day you will find someone who will love you as much as your dad loves your mom.”
it’s my last year of primary school
everyone told me that they lost contact with their classmates after graduating
making new friends is hard for me
and I couldn’t imagine a world without my best friend
“I’m sure they will miss their boyfriends so much.”
my life collapsed like a card house in the wind
my arms hurt and my throat was to tight to speak
the sparkle in my eyes was long gone
and my parents wouldn’t even look at me
“You should get yourself a boyfriend to cheer you up.”
there was a small light in between all the darkness
they lived hours away but became my reason to come back home every day
I don’t think they understood that they were the only people, that could make me laugh
sometimes we didn’t even notice the hours that went by
“You should talk to people in real life more or are you in love with them?”
I finally knew why I felt different for all my life
after years of pain and confusion I finally knew who I am
some people resent me for it but I wasn’t alone anymore
it felt good to tell the whole world
“So do you get with girls now?”
I’ve known my best friends for almost 4 years
if I would believe in soulmates she would be mine
our life’s are planned out together
it’s the first time I felt truly understood by someone
“Why don’t you guys kiss?”
I ended every romantic relationship I’ve ever been in
I know it’s not my fault but my love was never what they needed
it was never enough but I thought it could be
all my friends mourn their loneliness but I like the silence
maybe I’m just not made to be loved
I’m 16- years old when I see someone use the label aromantic for the first time
I’m 16- years old when everything that I felt all my life suddenly makes sense
I’m 16- years old when I realize I’m not the only one in the world who feels like that
I’m 16- years old when I sob for hours because I’m not broken
I’m 16- years old when I feel more whole than I ever thought I could
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