Despite a lot of help from Lexapro in dealing with my anxiety and depression overall, I relapsed into self harming. But I know why I do it unlike when I first did it a year ago. Things were falling apart after I dropped out and my relationship went bad and I was not making enough money. I felt guilty for feeling so sad and sorry when other people struggle with much more than my really little problems. I cut myself and poke myself to make the pain something I can see. Its not on my arms or calves or somewhere I want other people to see. Its my beautiful and sexy thighs I decided to cut up with a paring knife and stab repeatedly with a sewing needle. I dont have a boyfriend, my casual sex partners dont say anything or notice, and no one knows its happening. But this time I need to find help so I dont have to see my pain. I need help believing it is real and it is okay and I can get through my pain inside.













